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I bought him a build a bear a while ago and named it after an inside joke

Wanna do it again

Build a bear date when??

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He’s so loving and considerate and amazing. I feel too messed up and traumatized for him. I’m homeless due to domestic violence and he took me in. When I have nightmares he’ll abandon his video games and help me fall back asleep without a word or hesitation, he’ll move the comforter to cover my eyes while I sleep so his games or homework don’t wake me, he’ll make sure I don’t forget anything at his house, he’ll listen to all my family bs and look at me as lovingly as before, he’ll rub my back in his sleep and kiss me back.

I know I’m a lot, I know I come with a lot of baggage that I try to carry alone but I can’t help but see how he looks at me and it feels like it rolls off my back.

Today is our one year, I can’t wait to see him when he gets home from work ❤️❤️

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where else do i go with this

I feel like he's not putting in any effort anymore and it's crushing. I plan our dates and time, I make time for him but I just fit into his schedule. I paid for his tuition but he chose to get high with his friends instead of spending time with me on my one day off a week. I footed the bill when he didn't have a job but it means nothing to him, I know I'll be severely busy and tired when school starts and want to do fun things while we have the time but he thinks about what he wants to do and where he wants to go instead. I bring him lunch on his nursing shifts but when I asked him to bring me something once on my busiest week in the pharmacy he hinted he would then slept through my lunch and that only.  I should've seen this lack of commitment coming because it's a long-standing pattern. I've memorized our first date, anniversary, first kiss, and his birthday. He can't remember which month I was born.  I've grown up to be self-sufficient, I'm my mother's full-time caretaker (physically and emotionally), pay for routine expenses (house bills, groceries, car payment/insurance/maintenance), my little sister's academic supplies, my full-time uni tuition, and work in a pharmacy (38-44 hours a week until uni starts then 25). Maybe my hyper-independence means he doesn't have to show up as much as normal boyfriends. Maybe my stress and personal history are causing me to be insecure. I don't want to bring this up to him since I don't want to seem needy but I need support. I feel so alone in his presence lately that I question why I give him my time.  I've bought him flowers several times, making them presentable with a vase or something else, making sure they match the feel of his room. He's bought be 2 small potted plants, one is still sitting at his house because he keeps forgetting to bring them. It kinda feels like he bought them out of obligation.  I know there's no one I can become to make him be better, I know there are multiple things I can do to fix this but it's all so exhausting. He has a healthy family, many friends, a good career with good coworkers, etc. I have him. Maybe I'm expecting too much, maybe I'm gaslighting myself, maybe it's just a mood swing, maybe I'm just too traumatized. I don't know how much longer I can function like this and delude myself into believing everything is ok.  I have 3.5 years until my prefrontal cortex fully develops and it terrifies me what all I'll realize. I don't want to look back and regret all the time I wasted hoping instead of doing. I'm tired, I want a hug, I need a break. I need something to break that isn't me. 

#I feel so dramatic and desperate #where else do I go with these feelings? #Why can't my life be normal #I can't wait til I'm boring #I wish I could cry and get it over with #I texted him that I loved him about an hour ago #still no response #god I fucking hate myself rn

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me: i don’t want to see jellyfish so i will blacklist the tag #jellyfish

people with no common sense: je11yf1sh, je11¥fi5h, j*llyf*sh, je//ÿf!sh, j3ï||yf¡sh, gel lee fisk

result: cannot account for the sheer amount of possible ways to alter the word jellyfish

conclusion: i have to see jellyfish now.

Once again, tumblr is not tiktok, tag properly.

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Having a really shitty day, really needing him rn

Person A: "I can't believe you rejected me, only to turn around and get married to someone like that! You know damn well the kind of shit they've done!"

Person B: "I do... But I also know they'd never sacrifice my wellbeing or even just my happiness for some hypocritical bullshit idea of 'The Greater Good'."

#cuddles #kisses

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What the fuck is this??????????

Folks: you CANNOT censor trigger tags. When you block a tag, it doesn't block other "spellings" of it. Writing it as "r@pe" or "r4p3" means that someone who has "tw rape" as a blocked tag will still see that post because you didn't wanna say the word rape. You are hurting people. Do not censor words, because people do not have those filtered out.

And honestly if you can't even write the word rape to protect other people then you probably aren't old/mature enough to be on this website.

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I was made to serve you.

I was made to worship you.

I was made to love you.

Your word is my law.

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*daydreams about starting a life with you*

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Thank you for radiating so much love and warmth into me.

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can i crawl into your arms at the end of the day can i play with your fingers while we tell each other what happened since we last saw each other can you kiss the top of my head and tell me how much i mean to you can we just lay there for hours listening to each other's hearts beating can i drown in your scent and your voice and your touch and you can i become consumed by you

#cuddles #affectionate #maladaptive daydreaming fuel #you deserve healthy and fulfilling relationships

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I can be whatever you want me to be. Anything for you. Everything for you.

Just never leave me.

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#cuddles #kisses #affectionate #manipulative #possesive #protective #you deserve healthy and fulfilling relationships #yandere romance #maladaptive daydream fuel

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Watching horror movies with him and then really spooky shit happening was great

this is a love story 

#kisses #cuddles #affectionate #protective

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My bf and I are going to Korean BBQ as our valentines date. I've been learning Korean for years and I'm so excited!!! eeeeeeeee

#kisses #affectionate #maladaptive daydreaming fuel