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They call me digger. Cuz I keep digging holes for myself.

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I just realized every time I walk out of my new workplace there's a voice over the intercom saying someone walked out of the store with a sensor.... i didn't know what it meant. No one has said anything to me. And then I'm sitting here in my car at lunch realizing it's because I have ink tags in my pocket. And ppl aren't saying anything because they're thinking I'm hella stealing every time I leave the store and can't say shit. Lmfaoooooo what .

I look so sus I'm. Whhhat. What if I get fired for this too. I would just laugh I hate this new place anyway.

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tumblr is great because no matter how many followers i get it doesn't stop me from being really fucking annoying. other places i will perhaps think before i post. Not here. not here

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For giving someone the middle finger I lost

-my job

-health insurance

-401k

-$2k+ and counting

-my best friend

And gained

-one month of pure misery while I find anything I possibly can to distract myself

-a part time job that pays me less

#i love my life its so great and being alive is fun and not a chore at all

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The only way Moonpaw will actually be interesting is if they make her batshit insane with the voices in her head actually not being real. Otherwise I'm bored bc starclan has been in characters heads for the last 12 books.

#warrior cats #i dont read these books anymore but #i do like to keep up.

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Hey, I'm sorry to hear you're having a shitty time right now. It's unfortunately common for horrible shit to happen and for you to be expected to just wake up the next day and keep going like you're not hurting. It may not feel like it now, but if you hang in there, things will get better eventually. I think you can make it. I believe in you ❤️

thank you. I really do appreciate this. I feel so alone. im not gonna kms or anything but idk how to feel good about anything anymore. thanks for the kind words though.

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my life rn is basically me waking up with horrible anxiety, smoke a bowl to kill that, watch hours of youtube, cry, apply to jobs, think about how I'll never see my favorite person in the world again, sob uncontrollably, apply to jobs, smoke to kill the pain (it doesn't really help) watch spongebob, go to bed at 3am, wake up again with that same feeling of dread in my chest. do it again.

#sorry its midnight again so i have to have a self pity party #over half my followers are dead now i think so im not even embarrassed #let me have this im so so sooooooo fucking sad #and have no where else to say it #i threw away the best part about my life goddamn it

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if you watch brooklyn 99 on netflix with 0 information about the show and dont bother to look up how many seasons it has, it ends with the 2 main characters just getting framed and going to prison. I wish it ended like that

#i was like ? did the show just get abruptly cancelled after a cliffhanger like that #which would be really funny #this show is not good btw i took a break watching it cuz i got bored and now that im Unemployed I had #all the time in the world to watch it #im glad netflix only has 4 seasons i dont need to see any more of it

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I woke up today with an anxiety/dread really deep in my chest that I haven't ever felt in years. I don't ever get anxiety. I just woke up like that. It lasted for a couple hours and is still slightly there. This ruining your life shit be crazy

#i know i didnt ruin my life but it sure feels like it #i might be on here complaining for a while so if you dont wanna see that #u might wanna... unfolllow #if anyone has advice or words of comfort please god

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Im back with a life update: I got fired from my job and lost someone I loved dearly and everything hurts.

Also I don't know who of my 800 followers are still even present but to anyone who happens to see this sorry to be a sad sack on dash. I deleted my other social media so I have no where else to shout into the void. One stupid decision and I feel like I threw my life away and spat in the face of someone who believed in me

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Glowing Goldfish at Dusk

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Do you see it

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#wildfire smoke #all u gasoline ppl are freaks #also MOLD??

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my final for this semester was a book jacket redesign !! i did the first warrior cats book of course since i am very fond of this series