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these bitches own me

I’m eating cheese its and I must know what the people think.

#*chefs kiss* #doritos and white cheddar popcorn are also A+

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small dialogue i thought would be cute

#cuuuuute

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#it's me #I need it

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#soup :)

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I dunno fam I just love thinking about people eating food that’s so delicious they don’t want to stop and then feeling heavy and sleepy and then getting loved on while groaning softly because they feel so good

#and that's what it's all about

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oh btw just in case nobody ever told you. just because your life looks different than you thought it would doesn't mean that your life is bad or wrong or disappointing or less than. sometimes things aren't good or bad. sometimes they're just different

#thanks for the reminder :)

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it occurs to me, after thirty minutes standing at the stove caramelizing onions, that I love cooking.

I recently mentioned to a friend that I wished my parents taught me more about cooking when I was growing up. he was surprised; he assumed my parents had taught me. well, sort of, I told him. my parents made sure I knew how to feed myself, how to prepare dinner for the family, how to chop and peel and boil and roast. what I meant, though, was that I wished they'd taught me how to love food and prepare food I loved.

my mother did not teach me to caramelize onions. my father did not teach me to make a meatless meal. my parents did not teach me how to make vegetables interesting, or how to create balanced meals that satisfy emotionally as well as physically, and they certainly did not show me the simple pleasure of homemade bread and real butter. (we were a margarine household. NEVER AGAIN.)

the last time I had friends over, this was the menu:

penne with scrambled tofu in a roasted red pepper & garlic sauce

creamy carrot soup with peasant bread for dipping

apple galette and vanilla ice cream

I am very much a home cook. my meals are elevated basics, nothing too fancy. but they do take time. and it is one of the best ways I spend my time.

so I can't help but think, what would have happened if I'd found this love earlier? it was only in my mid-twenties, after I bought a home and had my own kitchen, that I really embraced cooking. but what if it had been during my teen years? what if I could have processed my big feelings in the kitchen? what if mealtimes were sacred? what if I hadn't tracked all those goddamn calories for all those years???

I know not everyone will love cooking. I sometimes hesitate to talk about the life-changing impact it's had on my life, lest I sound like I'm proselytizing. but I was standing in my kitchen after a long day at work, caramelizing onions...and I felt so at peace. when my friends were at my kitchen table, eating my apple galette, I felt contented.

all I want, truly, is to find a lover I can invite into my kitchen who will recognize it as a site of peace and pleasure.

#I don't know what the point of this post is #except to say that loving food had transformed my life #especially in the last three years #and winter is a season of longing #when I want more than ever to have someone to share this feeling with #someone to love and someone to feed #because I think maybe those are the same thing

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a grilled cheese is never terrible but sometimes you eat one that is so gorgeous you start believing in life a little all over again

#so true

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could any asexuals or a-spec folks who are into feedism (and post about it) please reblog or like this post?? i’m trying to compile a list of blog recs to send someone. thank you!!

rbing to boost would also be appreciated :)

#that's me! certified ace 😎

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tummies are sexy. You agree. Reblog

#I agree I agree I agree

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sleeping on his tummy would fix me i just know it

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pumpkin risotto with seared scallops

#🤤 #literally salivating over this #food

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#I feel called out 😳

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sigh. it's lonely girl hours in aliceland

#🥲

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If you didn't know, your fat body deserves reverence, adoration, nourishment, and the touch of a loving hand, be it your own or somebody else's.

If you do know, carry on and have a great morning.

#truth!

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you know what trope drives me absolutely feral? Repetition. Just :

"Hey, hey, it's okay"

"Shh, you're safe, you're safe, it's alright "

"Look at me. Hey, look at me"

"Stay with me. Come on, just stay with me"

"It's over. It's over now."

"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry"

"I'm here. I'm right here"

#yes. oh yes. #every time