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#sneaks back in #does anyone even remember me #is everyone still playing together? #it kind of looks like everyone's still here #i'm sorry i disappeared i had things going on #actually i still do but it's okay #just popping around to check on all you people-- #and i was thinking about kaoru today and then i thought about you guys #hi guys what's up

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ochibi--chan:

   ❝ Kneel before the Kurusu princes!

"There's really no need to kneel..."

Kaoru and I -- we're princes.

#/oocish #i felt like correcting it!!

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ochibi--chan:

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It’s times like these he wants to just— take his brother away and forbid him from ever being an idol because of the wear and tear and the strain on his heart it causes. It doesn’t want to lose his brother - God knows he doesn’t ever want to lose his other half - and it’s a shaking hand that joins Syo’s on his sleeve and grips his hand tighter than he means to. He still watches the ceiling of the car - memorizing mediocre, meaningless details in an attempt to quell panic and anger and frustration and everything - willing his voice not to tremble when he speaks.

(It does anyway.)

“And it’s been hurting ever since? And you didn’t think it’d be a good idea to get it checked out once it didn’t stop, not even with your medication? You didn’t think it’d be a good idea to tell your sibling, or maybe Saotome-sama, or your teacher?”

His voice is rising, level by level (do by re by mi and a half step to fa, so, la, ti and a final half leap to do soon after) and he can’t stop it.

“Is being an idol so important to you, you would risk your life for it!?”

Kaoru catches himself, there, tries to steady the tide of emotions, and he can’t; his free hand covers his mouth and he holds back an inevitable sob. It slips through his fingers like sand pouring from an open palm and it’s only from the thought of losing his brother to his chosen trade (before he has the chance to learn something useful and save him; before he has the chance to become a cardiologist and find a cure; before he has the chance to do anything important for his brother).

He hates this. Hate. Hate. Hate.

To worry his brother without much reason (or so he thinks!) is something he’ll never forgive himself for allowing it to happen. Yes, brothers worry over one another, incredibly when it comes to these two; but Kaoru isn’t ill like Syo! Which is something to be happy for, in all honesty, though it’s unfair; the youngest one has to suffer and worry endlessly, whereas Syo - despite his usual concern for his twin’s state - can never match up to it. He should really compensate his dearest brother.

Maybe once he feels better.

—    ❝ I did think about telling you, but I thought it would go away quickly instead of worsen.

He admits quietly, not wanting to stir up anything else between them. Things aren’t perfectly amazing at the moment, as they are. Plus, being locked inside a car does not help in the least. Now, this time, Syo can’t win this argument.

   ❝ … I thought it was, even if just a bit more important but-                      I can’t just leave you, can I? You’d have no one to worry over. 

Ah, the sob; he hears it well. It’s enough to have the blond gather up his energies and straighten up, enough to press a gentle kiss to Kaoru’s temple. And while he winces at the constricting chest and leans back against the seat, he feels the vehicle come to a complete spot. Have they arrived? It seems like it! Can he hurry up and inside to meet up with the doctor!?

They're out of the cab in a flash, only stopping long enough for Kaoru to dig up the fare and shove it through the front window to the driver (keep the change, I don't care) . His hand is tight on Syo's - he's not letting him go, ever, at this rate, and he can feel his heartbeat pound in his ears, and it's only after a few minutes of this fast pace he realizes that-- that it probably isn't good for his brother. But he doesn't want to slow down; there's no rush, but he doesn't want to slow down. Worsening, worsening--

even if his brother's dream was to be an idol, he couldn't let him keep on. Not unless they could find a doctor willing to try something risky to help his heart.

(Kaoru faintly recalls in a manga he leafed through, looking for one to buy as a birthday present for his brother, something like that happened; throat cancer, and a doctor in America helped, even though there was a low chance the girl would ever be able to sing or talk.)

He slows down, though; he doesn't want to run him ragged, and he nervously squeezes Syo's hand like you would as stress ball (tight, loose, tight, loose) as they make their way to the front.

"Are you okay?"

Since he just yanked him along.

#;w; auhgjn this is awful people have to scroll through our walls of texts... #♥♥♥

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ochibi--chan:

elektrokaorudiogramm:

i’m around now— the only day i haven’t been playing persoan 4. i apologize i’ve been wanting that game for years and my friend sent it to me and it arrived on monday and i’ve been playing it every day since.

uhhh i know a lot of you are putting off regular rp in favor of halloween (i’m excited to see people are doing this!) and if that’s the case with anything i’ve got a reply for (brother and mama nacchan) i’ll hold off until it’s over…

anyway tl;dr kaoru-mun is alive

[[ BROTHERRRRR. YESSSSSSS.  /flings self at.;   ;w; ohmygod i have missed you so much you have no idea  docinescdon; ]]

shhh it's okay /hugs. i'm back now at least for today and tomorrow-- maybe tomorrow definitely tonight as long as i can manage. i'm awful at multitasking and i'm liveblogging my persona 4 adventures, much to the amusement of my dash, so i'm not sure how much rp i can actually get done... anyway not the point.

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#ooc

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People should tag their halloween posts

[[now how long has this been sitting in my inbox--? i agree it's a good idea if you aren't doing it by now you should start doing it that's all i've gotta say]]

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i'm around now-- the only day i haven't been playing persoan 4. i apologize i've been wanting that game for years and my friend sent it to me and it arrived on monday and i've been playing it every day since.

uhhh i know a lot of you are putting off regular rp in favor of halloween (i'm excited to see people are doing this!) and if that's the case with anything i've got a reply for (brother and mama nacchan) i'll hold off until it's over...

anyway tl;dr kaoru-mun is alive

#ooc #and about to make a post maybe #kaoru's a ~detective~ this is an excuse to do long inner monologues that are actually said outloud #watch out he'll solve your case ;D

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#kaoru kurusu #hayato #satsuki shinomiya #uta no prince-sama #utapri #uta-pri #Shinomiya Natsuki #Kurusu Kaoru

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ooc :: halloween~

good evening guys i hope y'all are all well! today is the 24th meaning the freaky-deaky halloween shit can happen. details here once again as a reminder, but for basics and starting today, people who are cursed will find it easier to stay in non-cursed form, pumpkins will talk, and things will move around without you noticing them or go entirely missing. the forecast predicts paranormal activity getting heavier as the week wears on, peaking on the 30th and 31st (all hallow's eve and halloween).

anyway, go wild. there's plenty of ideas for open posts or plots or whatever; do what you want!

this has been a post from your friendly neighborhood kaoru

#ooc #fuck yeah halloween things

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So, Kaoru... Say there was an alternate universe where you and your brother, along with the rest of his friends, were girls. And their composer was a boy. What do you think of that?

Suspending his disbelief, just for a moment, at the absurdity of an alternative universe--

"I think it would be interesting to see how they grew up. It must be different, right?"

"And how they differ in personality and the like. Though, I'm sure Syo wouldn't have changed much." A small laugh. "Not in stature or in breast-size."

Yeah, he said it.

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i crave food

and i can't stay up tonight like i usually do (hurrhurr me getting to sleep before 3 that's a hoot-- actually, me waking up before 1 is a hoot) because i'm going hiking

so i'm getting off for now-- i have replies in drafts no worries no worries

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ochibi--chan:

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“You should’ve told someone!”

It is a loud, angry shout, and he winces at his own voice; he hushes down, but the whisper is still fierce.

“You should’ve told someone. What if you had— Syo!”

He sighs and leans back, opening his eyes to stare at the car’s ceiling. He memorizes every little fuzzy detail of it, quiet and calming himself down, because yelling wasn’t going to help. It’d feel so much better, but it wouldn’t help.

“…Two days ago, huh… Did you do anything out of the ordinary?”

The older twin flinches as automatic reaction to his brother’s sudden snap; they don’t normally argue and much less fight, but this subject is so sensible— and to think Syo has risked himself this far!

   ❝ Had what? Died? I didn’t—!

Probably an immature response, but he can’t help the fact his own reaction was to snap back at his brother as soon as his defensive mechanism in his mind began to work. Though, as Kaoru calms down, so does he.

Mainly due to his chest aching. It hurts. It hurts. So hard to speak —

       ❝ I just practiced… some stunts;                          andthenIsuddenlyblackedoutforwhoknowshowlong —

The last bit muttered; and a hand reaches to grip Kaoru’s sleeve tightly. 

It's times like these he wants to just-- take his brother away and forbid him from ever being an idol because of the wear and tear and the strain on his heart it causes. It doesn't want to lose his brother - God knows he doesn't ever want to lose his other half - and it's a shaking hand that joins Syo's on his sleeve and grips his hand tighter than he means to. He still watches the ceiling of the car - memorizing mediocre, meaningless details in an attempt to quell panic and anger and frustration and everything - willing his voice not to tremble when he speaks.

(It does anyway.)

"And it's been hurting ever since? And you didn't think it'd be a good idea to get it checked out once it didn't stop, not even with your medication? You didn't think it'd be a good idea to tell your sibling, or maybe Saotome-sama, or your teacher?"

His voice is rising, level by level (do by re by mi and a half step to fa, so, la, ti and a final half leap to do soon after) and he can't stop it.

"Is being an idol so important to you, you would risk your life for it!?"

Kaoru catches himself, there, tries to steady the tide of emotions, and he can't; his free hand covers his mouth and he holds back an inevitable sob. It slips through his fingers like sand pouring from an open palm and it's only from the thought of losing his brother to his chosen trade (before he has the chance to learn something useful and save him; before he has the chance to become a cardiologist and find a cure; before he has the chance to do anything important for his brother).

#;w; je t'aime... #whoops i don't know when to stop writing i'm sorry hogosh

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[[CV love time~]]

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ochibi--chan:

elektrokaorudiogramm:

ochibi—chan:

sdoisdc lies. but thank you. having you say that is really comforting and it makes me feel better. ;w; mucho amor para kaoru-munn.~ gracias.  

i’m glad! uhh— très amour pour syo-mun ♥ je t’en pris! also, je n’oublie jamais. s’il-tu-plait, ne penser pas que tu n’es pas belle ou merveilleux. ;w; because you are.

— wocins  ;///; b-but i’m not! you’re just way too nice to me! ohgoshhh. ~  

you're silly i am not too nice to you ): i am a terrible, awful person you just don't know it-- natsumi-mun can totally vouch for me though.

#elektrokaorudiogramm #;w;!! french is my favorite language aside from english #i like how spanish sounds but speaking it-- not so much #german is pretty to look at but awful to hear #heheh

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ochibi--chan:

elektrokaorudiogramm:

ochibi—chan:

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good i couldn’t think of any words either….. ;u;

;_; /clings. <3 

;w; shhh you’ve heard it a million times but it doesn’t make it any less true: you are an awesome person and you shouldn’t feel so down or anything like that. now chin up, chin up! /pats

sdoisdc lies. but thank you. having you say that is really comforting and it makes me feel better. ;w; mucho amor para kaoru-munn.~ gracias.  

i'm glad! uhh-- très amour pour syo-mun ♥ je t'en pris! also, je n'oublie jamais. s'il-tu-plait, ne penser pas que tu n'es pas belle ou merveilleux. ;w; because you are.

#elektrokaorudiogramm #'please don't think you're not beautiful or wonderful' is what it says #i never get to use french don't mind me.....

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ochibi--chan:

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good i couldn’t think of any words either….. ;u;

;_; /clings. <3 

;w; shhh you've heard it a million times but it doesn't make it any less true: you are an awesome person and you shouldn't feel so down or anything like that. now chin up, chin up! /pats

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kuroishinzou:

uta♡pri

[[ouhsjdnn ugh these two are the cutest brothers i don't even...]]

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replies for kaoru later, i owe natsumi stuff on yui so i'm switching over to there just to post those and then i'm heading off

(since i woke up earlier than usual today so now i'm tired early tonight)

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