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happy birthday, jonghyun. 블링블링_종현아_생일축하해 ○ oh yes onew

#jonghyun

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(210409) @shiny90409 (shiny foundation): yesterday, many people went (to shiny foundation) and sent me gifts while i was away. ㅜㅜ i can’t post all the pictures, but i’m grateful to everyone. jonghyun will always be a beloved artist. thank you for not forgetting him. ❤ (source)

#jonghyun

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happy birthday, jonghyun. 블링블링_종현아_생일축하해 ○ perfect reason

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💖 Jonghyun 🌙✨ Happy Birthday Beautiful One 💕 Love You Always 💖

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question: who do you wish to take a walk with on a late night?

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the girls are listening and formulating judgments

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(201218) @eanakim: listening to jonghyun’s songs today. 🎼

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❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

iu performed a short cover of jonghyun’s “before our spring” during iu’s homebody signal’s third live episode today. the full episode can be watched here.

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(201218) @choiminho_1209: forever shinee five.

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(201218) @rinokinawa: i love him so much. i forever cherish every moments i spent with him and grateful to witness his magic.🎙 there are many geniuses, but when i witnessed his talent, i experienced something deep in my heart that i couldn’t say in words. music magic? magic? jon jon is an angel. thank you forever.

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tw: brief illusion to dec 18th and death / in acting as a guest dj on kbs cool fm’s music plaza today, snsd’s sooyoung was given a call in by snsd’s tiffany, who requested shinee’s “view” to be played. in her request, she dedicated the song to jonghyun. sooyoung: i heard you requested a song, could you introduce it? tiffany: yes. since today is “in loving memory of jonghyun”, through requested song, i would like to recommend shinee’s “view’. i miss you so much, and key and minho had come out (from the military) not long ago too. i hope that you may be in a good mood today while listening to their refreshing, cooling and pretty voices in shinee’s ”view“. (source)

#jonghyun #I love you #I miss you

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My “bond”, if I can call it that way, with Jonghyun started long ago, years before I even became a shawol or got interested in kpop in general.

I first saw him when I was 11 and my friend showed me RDD, those awful lasagna hair had an impact on me cause I never forgot them!!! When i thought of Shinee, he was the first person that came to my mind. So when years later, I joined kpop and he had a comeback with She Is, I wasn’t really surprised to see that the same boy who kept wandering in my thoughts for years because of a bad haircut, stole my heart.

I’d love to say even more and tell everybody about everything you mean to me, beautiful Jonghyun, but I don’t want to be too cheesy or melancholic.

I’ll keep it simple: you are my moon, my poet, my artist.

I’ll love you forever.

#shinee #jonghyun #i love you so much #I miss you #I’m proud of you #you did well

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And three years, 1096 days later, nothing has changed. Maybe I’m a bit happier and I slowly found my old self again, but I fear things won’t ever be the same they once were- for several reasons.

just my thoughts

It’s been 11 days since That happened and I’m still not able to realize it completely.

I can’t even say those words out loud without wanting to burst into laughing because I still feel like everything is a bad dream.

When I first learnt the news I was at school and yes, even in that moment, I laughed after reading the title “SHINee’s Jonghyun passed away”. Can it be possible?

I came to the realization that I’m living in a state of denial, watching their videos and living like nothing ever happened. But even like this, this past week felt like an eternity, like a nightmare that didn’t seem to shake off of me. 

Everything felt unreal, my mind was numb, I had no will to go out and meet people, I stopped blabbing a lot like my usual self, I somehow isolated myself, I started to go to bed at 3 am.. I started to feel what I hadn’t felt in a lot. But I don’t want  to talk about this now.

So, even when I tried my best to ignore everything, to pretend nothing really happened, my heart felt there was something wrong.

I just want to say that, no, I’m not ready to bid him farewell, I don’t think I’ll ever be, but I truly, honestly, want everyone to take their time to heal.

Healing is the most important process, so it’s ok if you feel like not going out, it’s ok if you want to cry or scream, it’s ok if you create some kind of barrier, but it’s not ok to neglect yourself.

Remember, someone wants to see you happy, someone is cheering for you, treat yourself, drink water, sleep as much as you feel the need to, take care of yourself. Please, I’m not asking you to be happy and go on like nothing happened, don’t lie to yourself, just don’t forget to live. 

Jonghyun was such a beautiful, beautiful soul. His voice, what he said in his songs and during Blue Night Radio inspired me a lot, I wish he (or whoever, someone) could do the same for you. Please live decently, you can feel worthless one day and feel like the greatest person alive the other, it’s totally normal.

I love you all, we’re all worth it. 

“We’re all worth it, man. We’re all worth millions of planets and stars and galaxies and universes”

(sorry for any mistakes, english is not my first language)

#jonghyun

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My lovely Shawols,

stay safe during these sad and hard times, you’re strong, you’re amazing, you’re a rock.

My beautiful Jonghyun,

you already know everything. I’m proud of you every single day, I love you and I miss you.

#shinee #jonghyun #i love you so much

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all shawols,

please promise me and take care of yourselves today, okay? celebrate his life & then go on a walk, or maybe paint a pretty picture, or bake something yummy. i know that today is hard, but let’s give jonghyun a big kiss & do our best today just like he did.

jonghyun,

you are loved and we are so proud of you. you’ve worked hard, you’ve done well. continue to fly high, beautiful

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Just looking at you smiling, just watching over you makes me feel at peace

#jonghyun #my moon

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(201217) @shiny90408:

#jonghyun #I miss you everyday #but today hurts a bit more