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hi hello everyone I feel like a fucking dumbass. my discord account was hacked, if you get a message from me about help or whatever DON'T LISTEN TO IT FOR THE LOVE OF GOD THANKS

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Also mm just a heads up I’m gonna b entering a bit of a joint project w my sister real soon and it requires me to churn out a lot of art (which I love! This is going to be very fun for me even if I’m insanely busy) so this blog will maaaaybe be less active than it already was lmao

#will maybe update once every 2 weeks w a sketch page instead of every week hah #and mmm I literally do not check this acct much anyway so

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Doin art fight this year gotta make refs

#my little baby boy #hes literally the scum of the earth #g/t adjacent #this is just him regularly I also have 584793 aus w dean’s characters #i am literally so fucking unwell over this guy it’s not even funny #like most of my other ocs do not affect me in this way but I was like #hm what if I made a character that is varying degrees of fucked up in various aus #and now we’re here #oh I forgot to #oc: arden #enn’s arte

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Alr this week’s scribbles r done

#workin on other stuff so like mm. not my best work. #but I’m sticking to it so that’s good I guess! #I should’ve. not used just this brush honestly #I should’ve also used reference #like any reference at all #plus procreate has all of these tools that u can just use for things and instead of using them my brain is like #that’s cheating lmfao #I still have to get over that hill of like. not feeling guilty for doing normal artist things like referencing and using digital tools #anyway I’m done rambling time for the main tags #enn’s arte #g/t #giant/tiny #there we go #little bit embarrassed of the hands but it’s whatever i’ll draw better ones in the future

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Ehehehe

#wow

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Ok ok I’m done being angry I think I’m honestly just gonna take a break from here for a while (more than I’ve been doing) besties im not feelin the vibe that much. I’ll still post art once a week cos I said I was gonna but I’m rly. Too tired to like look at anything

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Also just saying I don't have a problem with the trope in particular, just it not being taken seriously. As in the giant is irrefutably bad and irl would go to jail. And suffer. Consequences. In the story. Like as in legit nothing temporary. I probs wouldn't read regardless but at least ik then you wouldn't trample on my rights yk.

#yea like if I’m reading a pet trope story and it looks like the only acceptable outcome is the tiny turbokilling the giant #or some other consequence happening #and it doesn’t look like that’s what will happen. that is really really not good

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I'm led to believe people legitimately know the implications, and underlying harmful messages tropes perpetuate, and simply do not care lmao. It really saddens me cuz it's not something I get the privilege to detach from.

Yes it's a fantasy. And it's harmless...for you. For me being dehumanized isn't something I never experience. I could go on and on about how I've walked out of a situation feeling terrible and not knowing why only to realize later I was being treated subtly as less, or you know it's in my face and I just have to. Deal with it. Just buisness as usual and I'm sure a lot of minorities get this.

I can elaborate, I probably will in something more thought out and complete about my thoughts. But god I just am feeling more and more like the gt community does not want racial minorities here. I've made a server to combat this sort of. At least the best I could. So if anyone is feeling unsafe and just wants a place they might be able to find some solace, always feel free to join.

As Juneteenth is coming up wanna encourage everyone to, take a step back. Be aware. What are you consuming. And if you are a minority that's sadly too aware of shit like me, try to focus on the good aspects of this community, try think about just how far it's come. Things will look up at least I'm hoping. I honestly don't know with how cishet in general this community is steering to.

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So regarding the whole dehumanization trope in the community, being dehumanized and seen as less valued is really not a fun thing to have to deal with on a day to day basis.

People with darker skin where I’m from just have to learn to deal with being seen as less than say some of the paler folk and no matter how many times it happens, it still hurts like nothing else. Especially when you start to internalize stuff like that and start to see yourself as less, something not to be taken seriously or meant to be scorned just because of the colour of your skin and it honestly hurts and feels alienating seeing a similar rhetoric being taken so lightly by so many people in this community.

It makes you think you might be in the wrong here for feeling this way even though that's not the case and honestly it just kinda sucks to see.

Plus, regarding something that’s popular right now, this thing speaks light about a topic that hurts people like me. You could argue that the reader just needs to think a bit to know that the situation is obviously very messed up but the community's reaction to it all says otherwise on how it's generally being perceived by most people and, even if they did see it as a bad thing, how they are consuming it regardless

Also to be honest here, if someone treated me as literally less than human, I would very much not want to have them anywhere near me regardless of whether they changed or not later on.

Hit the nail on the head with this one dude

#yeah #yeah literally this #part of why I post less is bc my art doesn’t get reblogged as much but most of it has to do with this shit right here

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Questioning

A/N: So here is just a scene of Xena getting her regular dose of antidotes so Davina doesn’t kill her lol. I really like how this went :)

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“Don’t.”

The hand pressing against Xena chest was small, and the pressure forced upon the giant was faint–nothing capable of pushing her down. Yet when it demanded she move she did, pressing her back flush against the bed. 

“Move, and I won’t ever forgive you. You’ll stay still, and listen–since it’s the only way to stop you from breaking every fucking thing in this room.” Clemin spoke in an icy tone, casting dark brown eyes down at the giant under her. 

Perhaps the maliced gaze should have alarmed Xena, but in all honesty? It only made the giant’s heart pound harder, happily taking in the sight before her. That gown…it fits her too well.

Her champagne satin dress gleamed as much as the rich lush of her skin, and Xena felt where Clemin’s legs attempted to straddle her body burn. It was cute, how she could sit over Xena’s waist speaking out commands, yet be so small her feet couldn’t even touch the bed. Times like this she wasn’t sure whether she wanted to let Clemin feel like she truly did control the situation…

Or simply flip her over. 

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Burdens

(in which glynn has a nice traumadumping sesh with his bestie. fudged the ending. who cares.) ______________________________

Rare was it that Glynn and Amelia could both find the time to enjoy one another’s company. Though they spent most of their days together, it was merely part of their jobs: the king and his dutiful knight. Such moments of brevity were special things, highly coveted and treasured for as long as they could keep them. The day had been long for him, nothing but planning and important meetings with supposedly important men and women that would, somehow, help his kingdom in the long-run. Names and faces blurred together; propositions and intents became lost on him after the first few hours. He had begun to rely on Amelia whispering into his ear from his shoulder whether or not to deny or approve certain projects and people. Sometimes he thought Highpeak would be better off if he could just throw away the pretense that he was actually in charge and let her take the helm.

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#JUST!!! LIKE!!! IN RATATOUILLE!!!!! #also do I have to add risea to that map. did I add risea to that map. I don’t remember and also my computer exploded so the old map is dead #probably gonna make a new one at some point lmao

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Here’s something I drew for mermay a while ago :-) this was so fun to draw, I’ve never made an underwater split view piece before :D I’m not sure if I’ll make these two ladies regular ocs or not yet tho hmmm

#weba :3

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lmao

#ok ok doodlepage 1 is Done #beginning of a new era where I draw a bunch of these #g/t #giant/tiny #enn’s arte

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Mhhhh gonna start posting more on here

#i think. 1 page of gt scribbles a week. good art goal to set for myself

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quit that

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if you’re an amateur artist you are so fucking awesome. please don’t stop creating just because it’s hard. even if you have time constraints. fuck yeah draw on that napkin. fuck yeah paint for five minutes a day until you feel ‘done’. create that shit!!!