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𝑭𝑰𝑮𝑯𝑻𝑺 𝑨𝑩𝑶𝑼𝑻 𝑵𝑶𝑻𝑯𝑰𝑵𝑮

pairing: Jordan Li x gn!reader warnings: not proofread, hurt/comfort words: 1498 summary: a video from a party leads to accusations being thrown, with betrayal and jealousy clouding the mind it is only expected something goes wrong.

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Fights with Jordan were never malicious; they were always about something stupid or the stress of class. When the two of you fought, it was always followed by a heated makeout session and hushed apologies. It was never serious, and there was nothing you couldn't forgive each other for. However, the subject of the fight was sometimes just in someone's head.

The aggressive knocks on your dorm room door were nothing new; with your headphones on, you could barely hear anything. Rising from your couch, you cross the small space to the door, opening it with a smile that only grew as you saw Jordan on the other side.

"Hey, I wasn't expecting you." Your voice trails off slightly as you notice the deep frown on their face. Taking a moment to take in their appearance you notice their vphone clutched harshly in their hand, for a moment you wonder if it is going to shatter in their hand. Pushing past you to get into your room you were a little shocked with their aggression.

Shutting the door quickly, you turn to face them, confusion written on your face as you try to figure out what's wrong. "You good?" Their nostrils flared slightly as you huffed in response to the question. "Am I doing well? Are you okay? "What the hell is this?" Their voice was accusatory, their dark eyes boring into yours as if they were looking for a flash of guilt to prove they were correct in their accusation.

A video was playing on their vphone, which was thrust into your face. From what you could tell, it was from the weekend party you attended. It was supposed to be a small gathering for your friend's party, but it was blown out of proportion, and many more people showed up. Regardless, it was a fun night that you will never forget. However, Jordan stands there with a video of someone performing a keg stand that you wish you could remember.

"Looks like someone having a good time?" The video loops again as you try to figure out what caused such a reaction from the person in front of you. Your words pull a scoff from Jordan as they watch you with anger swirling in their eyes. "The fucking background, I shouldn't have to explain it." Their words were laced with venom as you tried to see what they were talking about. What could possibly get them so upset to storm into your dorm and begin yelling at you over something.

After a few moments, you realised what had gotten them so worked up. You and a guy were in the crowd that gathered around the person of the moment, encouraging them to keep drinking. Matthew? Max? Martin? His name slipped your mind, the alcohol erasing it from your memory. They were attached to your side, their hands a little too low, and their face whispering something in your ear before hovering over the exposed skin of your neck in the video. You couldn't help but frown as you saw it, desperately trying to recall how you got into the situation.

You could remember the disgusting feeling of his hands on you, the drunken flirting, and the kiss they tried to give you in small fragments. You'd put a stop to it before it got too far, telling them to get lost and that you weren't interested in them at all.

"That was nothing-" "Nothing? I sure looked like something." Jordan's anger-filled voice cut you off before you could explain yourself, their emotions clouding their judgement. You knew you should not rise to their bites, to begin yelling back and fighting with an equal amount of venom. But you were feeding off the anger and betrayal in the room.

"I don't know why it's any of your business. It's not like we are together." What Jordan and you had was delicate, you weren't officially together yet treated one another as partners. There had never been a conversation on exactly what you two were, simply a couple of people who fool around and seek each other out at times. Not a couple.

"It became my business when you act like a fucking slut." You it was not the yelling that caused the pang in your heart, not the tone or the way they looked at you with such anger. But the accusation of you being a slut, as though you were asking for a man to accost you while trying to celebrate your friend. "Go fuck yourself Jordan. God, I don't act like such a brat when you flirt with people. If I knew you were so insecure I would've wasted my time with you."

Your words seemed to strike a nerve with them, and your choice of words hurt them. There was some distance between you two, a small safety bubble in your eyes. But when Jordan took a step towards you, it popped, and you quickly took a step back to regain the distance between you. In reality, you don't know why you did it; you weren't afraid they'd hurt you physically because you knew they weren't like that. But the possibility of it existed.

In their masculine form, they could be rather intimidating, they were tall and muscular, and their voice was deep and loud without even trying. They towered over you with little effort, intimidating you without even trying.

Jordan's expression changed from one of rage to one of guilt and concern. It was never their intention to scare you or make you fear they would attack you. When they saw the video, they were just frustrated and hurt, feeling betrayed. A part of them knew they were wrong; you weren't together, you weren't their partner; you were simply someone who held a special place in their hearts. The sting of betrayal for what had happened was still there. But it was overshadowed by the guilt he felt for instilling fear in others. They knew in their masculine form they could be intimidating, they often used this form to make sure people were listening to them when making a point.

"I-" The shift to their feminine form was instant, their voice becoming softer, their features more rounded and their frame much smaller as though they were trying to curl into themself to appear less threatening. Their voice was laced with guilt, words dying in their throat not knowing what to say to make this better. To make you feel more comfortable and safe with them, instead of fear that they might do something. "I didn't mean..."

"I know," Your voice is soft as you speak, you feel stupid for allowing a small fear to consume you. To think that they were that low may that they may hurt you over a video and harsh words. Embarrassment flooded your system along with a small sense of guilt for the whirlwind of emotions you have caused them. "I just... I don't know why I did that."

"I would never hurt you," Jordan's voice matches yours in tone and volume, eyes searching yours for a hint of fear that you may still possess. "I know," Your small confirmation pushes Jordan towards you, their steps are slow and small giving you enough chance to back away or shoo them off. But you don't, needing the sense of comfort only they can bring.

Jordan's hands grab your hands softly, starting small to ensure you are okay with physical touch. When you give on negative reaction, they wrap their arms around you, pulling you into a warm embrace. You sink into their touch, arms wrapping around them as a small sigh leaves you. "I didn't mean for him to be all over me," You begin, finding this calm moment the perfect time to explain your actions. "I didn't want to cause a scene, not at my friend's party. It didn't go further than that, I promise. I got him to leave me be, he was just a stain on a good night."

There was silence for a moment, Jordan allowing your words to sink in and for a moment they felt silly. To think you would eagerly be all over a guy you just met at a party. That you would throw away what you both had for some man you clearly barely remember. But the jealousy and betrayal was still there, gnawing at the back of their mind.

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have barged in here to yell at you. I didn't want to scare you." The small apology brought a smile to your face, it was easy to forgive Jordan and it was easy to love them.

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In honor of me going to the eras tour tonight: Roy Kent is so "Nothing New"

#taylor swift #the eras tour #ted lasso #roy kent

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Those who are hating on Simon for leaving Wilhelm and trying to move on so quick or willing to be a secret in the end...let me rehash your memories from s1 shall I?

1. Simon never gave a damn about Wilhelm being a Prince. He is anti-monarchist and subtly told off Wilhelm in their first class. Simon liked Wilhelm for the shy little disaster that he was. So when Simon made a move at him, he didn’t realize the complications that came with being a Prince.

2. But then Wilhelm told him to forget about the kiss and he realized that maybe Wilhelm wont want to come out and that's the first time he realizes this. But then Wille wants to spend the weekend with him so he forgives him thinking that maybe Wille is confused about his sexuality. Then Erik dies and Wilhelm again pushes him away. But again Simon forgives him because he understands how sad and depressed and what a messy situation Wilhelm is in.

3. But when Wilhelm denies the video, it just breaks something in Simon. Simon doesn’t mind keeping their relationship private, he basically did that the entirety of s1. But Simon realized that their relationship is something that needs to be hidden for Wilhelm and his family. It's like a dirty secret that can't come out. And whenever it will come between Wilhelm's family and Simon, Wilhelm will easily dispose Simon and choose his family over. And that's what Simon refuse to be,forever a secret, something to be pushed aside.

4. His animosity didn’t come from him not understanding Wilhelm's position. It came from Wilhelm trying to win him back when nothing changed. Simon doesn’t trust Wilhelm anymore to not push him aside when things get hard.

5. Simon dating Marcus was just him trying to move on. And trying to explore what it likes to be to be with someone openly. Maybe to hurt Wilhelm a little as well for treating him like a secret.

6. The reason why Simon eventually agrees to be a secret is because he understands through the course of s2 that him and Wilhelm are it for each other, there is no moving on from each other. And Wilhelm truly loves him and with time he will acknowledge their relationship publicly. Simon no longer associated keeping their relationship private as being a dirty secret. It was just a way to preserve Wilhelm's and his life and privacy.

So Simon's rebound, Wilhelm and his fights, his inner conflicts, all these plots were on point to show his character development. Sometimes as an audience we don't like a lot of things. But that doesn’t mean that we are right. We may want a lot of things but sometimes these sort of conflicts make stories and characters better.

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Just finished episode 6.

I love that they both had to lay something at the other’s feet for the relationship to work.

That Wilhelm had to lay down what was most important for him - his sense of responsibility, his family, his Crown - willingly at Simon’s feet for Simon to realize Wille’s struggles and realize he didn’t want him to do all that. That precisely because Wille is ready to do it all, Simon need him to.

That Simon had to lay down what was most important for him - his integrity, his dignity, his freedom - willingly at Wille’s feet for Wille to realize Simon’s struggles and realize he didn’t want him to do all that. That precisely because Simon is ready to do it all, Wille doesn’t need him to.

They both had to be willing to sacrifice something for there to be no sacrifice needed at all, for them to see their love and find their power, for each of them not to lose any part of themselves in this relationship. No compromise.

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Simon taking out his anger over Wille being celebrated for kissing a girl out on Wille because it probably looks to him like Wille is now trying to conform to what’s expected of him. Wille looks like he’s starting to conform and Simon sees through the bullshit.

Felice is not a threat. You don’t love Felice. You love me. Fight for me. There’s a desperation in Simon’s eyes as he rips into Wille in the locker room and eggs him on; he can feel Wille pulling away and no longer fighting for them, and it makes him angry.

Despite trying to move on, despite trying to forget his feelings for Wille, deep down all Simon wants is for Wille to fight for them, and that’s why he panics so much when Wille finally starts moving away.

You told me you didn’t want to be who they want you to be and here you are doing exactly that.

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I am seeing wayyy to much Simon Eriksson hate recently. Y'all act like someone didn't have any right to be upset with wille. WE saw Willes confrontation with his parents in season 1, we see Willes pain every time he messes something up with Simon, We see the extent of the pressure wille is under to a greater extent. SIMON DOES NOT SEE ANY OF THAT. Like yes we know wille was backed into a corner and that's why he denied the video but to Simon it looks like Wille told him he was gonna admit it, didn't, and then immediately after was like "but we can still date it just needs to be a secret". Literally anyone would be upset by that.

#simon eriksson

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You ever think about how much easier Simon and Wille's relationship would be if they communicated

It's true there are external factors keeping them apart but (and I say this with love) how much time did we spend going around and around with "you don't understand" "no you don't understand" "it's not easy for me" "it's not easy for me either" but now it her of them actually know anything about the other bc the straight up never explain. Simon says "it feels like you just brushed off the video like he's faced no problems" bc from the outside that's exactly what it looks like. it DOES seem like willes brushed it off and faced no consequences bc Simon doesn't get any of the scenes we get. He doesn't get a great explanation of really anything. And Wille doesn't get great explanations for everything either. But if they talked stuff out productively we wouldn't have drama.

Finally ththere's more understanding in the Reading/lit class scene(which I love, also no way ppl don't realize they're in love with each other)

#young royals #simon eriksson #simon x wille #wille young royals

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You're on your own, kid is so Simon-coded

From sprinkler splashes to fireplace ashes

I waited ages to see you live

I searched the party of better bodies (parties full of rich ppl he'll never be like)

Just to learn that you never cared(how it could've felt when Wilhelm denied them)

The jokes weren't funny( he has to deal with ppls treatment of him, he can't afford to get in trouble), I took the money(selling to august)

My friends from home don't know what to say(when he punches august and his friends are disappointed/after Wilhelm denies him)

I looked around in a blood-soaked gown

And I saw something they can't take away

'Cause there were pages turned with the bridges burned(what's gonna happen with Sara, could be argued what happened with wille)

Take the moment and taste it(whole relationship with Wilhelm)

Everything you lose is a step you take(then end he loses Wilhelm but he stands up for himself and something is on his terms)

So make the friendship bracelets

You're on your own, kid(alone in a school of ppl who don't like him, who've seen his sex tape, he has Sara but she knew about august and didn't tell him)

You've got no reason to be afraid

Yeah, you can face this

You're on your own, kid

You always have been

#taylor swift #midnights #youre on your own kid #young royals #simon eriksson #simon x wille #prince wilhelm

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I want someone at the fbi to have a whiteboard tally of all the times one of the Wayne kids said something on live tv that resulted in a federal investigation being launched.

I want a separate tally of the number of convictions linked to one of those investigations, and another tally representing the number of times the Waynes implicated Luthor on national television.

I want the Wayne kids to be able to be on some talk show sharing a hilarious story of such and such a time and oh yeah Lex was there and doing this thing that was probably fine I don’t know law lol and someone in the fbi is watching and goes, “we got another one,” to the collective cheers and groans of those who placed bets on the outcome of the interview.

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Ummm byee

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i talk a lot about mens tits but please know that this blog is also in support of mens ass, mens thighs, mens tummies, and mens waists/hips

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when someone is a christian they are not constantly asked their position on the holocaust the transatlantic slave trade the extermination of native americans or any of the thousands of atrocities committed by christians so why do muslims get asked about terrorism and jewish people about israel and are grouped in with specific bad people while christians are not required to explain themselves??

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So many anti friend groups are just straight up cults and it's genuinely terrifying to see and be part of.

If you're scared of your friends for whatever reason, it you're scared of liking being in a specific fandom or liking a specific ship because you think you'll lose all your friends over it, if your friend group is essentially built on the idea that you're all good and everyone else is bad, if your friends use social ostracization and online stalking and harassment campaigns as threats and weapons, if your friends use fear and moral panic to keep people in line. . . . .

Please get out of there. This isn't even about shipping or fandom or whatever, it's about staying safe and not getting sucked into a literal cult. Cut them off, block them on all your social media, remake accounts if you need to, and make new friends who don't leave you feeling like you're walking on eggshells around them. Just stay safe.

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Listen to The Very First Night by Taylor Swift and tell me it doesn't remind you of Wilhelm and Simon from Young Royals "I wish I could fly I'd pick you up and we'd go back in time" "Not tryin' to fall in love, but we did like children runnin' Back then we didn't know we were built to fall apart We broke the status quo, then we broke each other's hearts" "But don't forget about the night out in L.A. Danced in the kitchen, chased me down through the hallway No one knows about the words that we whispered No one knows how much I miss you"

I JUST-

#young royals #simon eriksson #prince wilhelm #simon x wille

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i’m currently rewatching young royals and we really need to discuss why/how simon looked absolutely terrified when wilhelm was yelling at him over the drug/alexander situation. similar to the football field scene, i’m 99.99% sure that it was a little too similar to something he went through because of his dad and it HURTS

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Wille is good at many things. He can sit down and ace any test put in front of him, he can preform any play given to him by his coach with the ease and Grace of something being second nature, according to his boyfriend he’s the most attentive and caring person he’s ever met. According to the entire school he’s a star and too easily walked on for a dude his size.

Other than that, Wille can’t read any room he’s ever been in. He gets overwhelmed easily with spaces he’s not too familiar with, choosing to spend his time with Simon in the theater hallway. Most days, unless Simon’s there to really get him to focus, he lives off in his own head, completely content with the world around inside him.

It’s one of the very, very, rare times that Wille isn’t actively at his home, Simon’s home, school or the football pitch. The entire team was invited to a house party, and as captain, Wille had to at least show up. Simon came without question, holding his boyfriend’s hand and wearing his letterman, eyeing each drink Wilhelm consumed. While Simon didn’t drink, he didn’t discourage Wille from doing so, knowing that on the rare occasion he wanted to, he wouldn’t go overboard.

Wille didn’t loosen up per say, he was already a very sweet and friendly person — just a little more up in the clouds than the rest, so the alcohol just made the masking ease up a bit, the thoughts flow a little faster. It made him all doe eyed and incredibly loving with no brain to mouth filter.

Simon watched as Wille floated around, mingling and laughing with people, the weight of the world off of his shoulders for the night. Sometimes people got a little too close and Simon would inch closer in order to step in if Wille went from loving to lost and angry. It happened a few times, overstimulated and confused and he would lash out.

This wasn’t one of the times though, Simon watching as a cheerleader for another school was so clearly flirting with his boyfriend, none the wiser that the boy in front of her was gayer than the day was long. Wille was smiling charmingly, eyes slightly dazed and out of focused, buzzed and happy, not picking up that he was being flirted with like it was an Olympic apoey. She wrapped her hand on his arm and forced out a giggle at a fact about solar systems, like he was the most interesting and funny person in the universe.

Wille was in fact that, but Simon knew she was just faking for a chance to get in his pants. It just made him roll his eyes in annoyance. Wille only smiled more, taking the touches as conformation that he could continue talking about the stars, to dump all his knowledge on a seemingly innocent bystander. There was a second when his brain caught up with the real world, a visible shift in thought when he looked down and saw her hand on his arm. “Oh your nails are so cute!” Simon held back a laugh.

The girl blinked in confusion, looking inh down at her nails and smiling brightly. “Thank yo-“

“My boyfriend looks really pretty with nail polish on. But theater won’t let him wear it all the time.” Wille cut her off, grabbing her hand to closer inspect the polish adorning her fingers. Simon snorted loudly, the noise catching Wille’s attention. He could always find Simon in a crowd no matter how far they were from one another. His eyes lit up, beaming. “That’s him there!” Wille looked like an excited puppy. Simon raised his glass and smiled gently at the boy he was so in love with. The girl, for the most part, didn’t look too embarrassed by the whole thing.

Simon; taking pitty, made his way over to help connect the dots. He reached for Wille’s hand, squeezing it before passing over water. “Drink baby, you’re drunk.” Wille beamed and did what he was told. The girl blushed more, clearing her throat and looked away. “Sorry, didn’t know he was taken.” Simon only shrugged.

The girl quickly vacated, Wille waving and giggling into his cup, Simon turning to him. “Menace, you knew what you were doing.” Wille shrugged, his arm wrapping around Simon. “Not at first, thought she just really liked space too.” Simon smiled sodgly, leaning up and kissing his cheek.

“No one likes space like you, moon man.” Simon’s voice was loving, not patronizing his boyfriend at all, the term of endearment leaving his lips easily. Wille beamed at him, holding the other closer. “My weird little alien.” Simon let Wille kiss him the next time.