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Hey, are you okay? You disappeared from tumblr

Thank you for caring!! In truth my mental health has been failing and I was trying to make myself stay away from fandom activities for a bit…ur concern warms my heart! Thank you! I might go back online during my Spring Break, which starts after next week :))

#asks #sorry for all other unreplied messages and replies and asks #I will get to them as soon as I get better!

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he's a manic pixie dream girl except he's a depressed alcoholic middle aged man

#grantaire except he's a bit younger

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his big doleful eyes and violently self-destructive tendencies have captivated me

#Kolya

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..... Ea-Nasir is that YOU

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You gave me peace in a lifetime of war.

#BEST SHIP #MY FIRST SHIP #MY SHIPPER AWAKENING #enemies to lovers at its peak

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Prev tags im sobbing why r u such a galaxy brained poet

Everyone else is telling Atsushi to give up. Inferiority complex is like that. Even if everyone comes with kind intention, even you have ppl who r like family, even if confronting an enemy you’ve defeated, the dark clouds looming above your head would still be there telling you no, you can’t do this, you are no good.

But then there’s Akutagawa. Akutagawa does not try to persuade him; he has only stood in such blinding light, saying, look outside.

“Look at me, look outside of yourself, look at the one who’s always guided us. ”

I saved you. You are not alone.

Atsushi is still seeking some kind of parental authority who could decide and arrange everything for him, for this chaotic world. He still doesn’t have confidence in himself.

But now he has another ghost, a ghost that no longer stalls him in his path. Akutagawa will only say, Jinko, stand up. You are a worthy opponent, and you are worthy of life, yours and mine.

Life is messy and dreadful, but there is always that figure, slender and firm, waiting for Atsushi, expecting him to shine. Akutagawa is placed above all of Atsushi’s insecurities. He is the ashes from which would arise Atsushi’s new, reclaimed sense of self.

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mustelids are the best animal because they are fucking brutally efficient predators but they're also just absurdly cute

#Kolya

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I JUST SAW LITTLE ASHES (2008) GO WATCH LITTLE ASHES ITS ALREADY IN MY TOP 3 FAVS LIKE

ITS BASED ON THE REAL LIFE LOVE STORY OF LORCA AND DALI

OH MY GOD ITS SO AMAZING I CANT EVEN BEGIN TO DESCRIBE IT I CRIED SO MUCH

THERE'S POETRY AND REVOLUTION AND LOVE - DIFFERENT KINDS OF LOVE - AND EVERY ONE OF THEM MOVES ME TO THE CORE

EVERY FRAME IS LIKE AN OIL PAINTING

I'M IN LOVE WITH THIS FILM JZKZGZJZVSH

OK ARE WE GONNA TALK ABT DALI AND LORCA

#ITS A GREAT PIECE OF ART #EVEN BETTER THAN DEATH IN VENICE #IN MY OPINION #LEAGUES AHEAD OF KILL YOUR DARLINGS #IT'S JUST THAT GOOD #MY FAVORITE QUEER FILM EVER

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Nikolai: Fedya I'm cold

Fyodor, calling up God in his head: hi can you make it warmer. This is a request from your loyal servant

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To the person who sent me anon block me now if u don't wanna see i rant abt what i like and don't. Scrolling past a post u disagree with is a thing yknow. Making a post of ur own somewhere i cannot see is also a good choice. No need to feel like u have a moral obligation to right my wrongs in my inbox. I engage with media however i want and i post on my blog whatever i want, jeez, be chill. And u don't even care abt the ship i rant abt, which, idk if ur just saying that so that i won't be able to guess who u r, but don't judge situations u know nothing abt. Yeah Yeah all that. First time receiving anon (i haven't looked at it long enough to decide whether its hate or not) but i was curious how they'd have seen my rant post. Maybe i wrote smth in the tags that made it visible to more ppl? Idk and idc. Set the post to private now to prevent it from reaching more ppl anyways. It's a matter of personal preference. I actually made that post bcs i saw a similar themed post abt skk early on, and i was like well might as well make a rant post and if I'm lucky enough someone might agree with me. Lol🤷🏻‍♂️

#like not attacking anybody i simply do not vibe with the stans of some character #the fetishizing language makes me SICK and that's partly why i care abt this. Uh. order thing so much #but i don't go dm them and say ew disgusting bcs that's their preferences and i respect that?? #anon hate is the stupidest part of tumblr culture -_-

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OK ARE WE GONNA TALK ABT DALI AND LORCA

#BEAUTIFUL AND TRAGIC LOVE STORY #BETWEEN TWO ARTISTS OF DIFFERENT FIELDS AND KINDRED SOUL

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everyone has those authors that you would be so unhinged about if they were introduced in bsd right?

mine are: emily dickinson (it might be too late for her but I’m in denial), franz kafka, and any german author but especially goethe (c’mon asagiri give us the rest of the transcendents) and schiller. I’m not able to describe how unhinged I would be if any of them get introduced

#the rest of transcedents. Im already rooting for them #goethe and schiller partners whennnnnnn #also orwell and huxley duo #borges since bsd's world building reminds me of his works #he can make friends with garcia marquez. As a treat #nabokov for...shenanigans #chekov bcs he is so fucking adorable in his letters but also we need a pun on checkov's gun #Dickens. bcs that's man is definitely not straight #speaking of not straight #WILDE #WILDE WILDE WILDE #byron keats and shelley chaotic romantic trio #(mary is so done with their shit) #POETS MORE POETS #ALLAN GINSBERG #YEATS #WHITMAN #LET BRAM BE GAY ABT WHITMAN #srry for rambling in the tags i just have NEEDS bsd needs to SATISFY

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God can you imagine if Donald Trump became president? There’d be like a new bubonic plague and he’d be like “idk drink bleach about it”

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I ADORE SSKK

#i have been laughing at sskk art nonstop #how r they so wholesome and hilarious

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Couple goals

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