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something about how the disability rights movement got watered down, in people's eyes, from "we demand that buildings are built to physically accommodate us, eg with ramps" to "there's nothing we can do about the world around us, but it would be nice if people were more accepting of seeing people stim"

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So i finally watched the osmosis jones movie

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Basically how this went

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sometimes i feel like people forget autism is a disability. and that’s not a bad thing! i’m all for disability acceptance, im proud of my disabilities. but i feel like we forget autism can hurt.

it hurts that i have to put more time and energy into socializing than others.

it hurts when i need to move so bad, usually cause im overwhelmed by either my surroundings or emotions, that i thrash and hurt myself.

it hurts that i cant be in places that are too loud or too bright, which on bad days can be as simple as a small, quiet noise or dim lights.

it hurts that i struggle to tell when im hungry, thirsty, tired, etc. so i can’t properly take care of myself. it doesn’t help my insomnia and i get very nauseas and get UTIs.

i 100% believe in autism acceptance. i don’t want a cure. but i also want us the acknowledge that it can hurt. it doesn’t mean my entire life will hurt, but some parts will. and i want a community where we can see both sides, see the hurt, and celebrate it anyway.

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Fnv companions react to you coming out as trans

Boone:

“Okay.”

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I AM HERE TO BREAK THE SILENCE / I AM HERE TO STRIP YOUR LIFE FROM YOU

#oc: xeva #my art #kh oc #kh #teehee. been listening to allegaeon a lot recently. love that band

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off to have hot gay sex with your mom once again

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I understand that there have been talks about an Israeli invasion of Rafah and I understand how absolutely catastrophic that would be for what is potentially the most packed area in the world, but I just want to point out that it feels like everyone is anticipating with fear a potential assault on Rafah whereas attacks and airstrikes are already happening and in fact they never even stopped for over 6 months now.

Keep talking about Rafah and keep talking about Gaza. There are absolutely no "safe zones" in Gaza and there never have been.

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alright guys im curious. who were the worst mutuals youve ever had

#was in a friend group on twt a few years ago that had a category 5 meltdown event it was so bad #only like three of us survived that but ONE OF THEM would argue with me over literally everything. #i could literally be like i like this song and they would instantly be in my comments like well. I hate that song. OK??? #we fell out a long time ago but i will never forget how one of my closer friends blocked them and they posted i bet on losing dogs

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screenshots part 3

I wanted this to be its own post so I can breakdown how the scene goes since you can’t play the cutscenes as a video unless the cameras at the in game angles, so these can only be taken frame by frame.

as emma’s dying, snake looks away towards the ceiling before turning back to them. when she takes her finale breathes and otacon goes “emma!? emma!?” snake then turns completely away with his back to them, with a shot of his profile. 

what isn’t shown in game is snake’s expression after a fade to black (well, two fade to blacks in quick succession) while his back is still to them 

after this is another fade to black to the shot of big shell as otacon’s talking about his childhood, and when the scene goes back to them snake is then turning around to face otacon and emma. his face is back to a more “maybe upset, but keeping it in” expression. seeing the comparison between the fade to blacks is night and day… and notable he only looks visibly upset while no one can see him

if I was just a bit more crazy and determined it’s technically possible to take a of capture every frame and then put them together to make a video… but that person isn’t me. but it Would be interesting to see his expression changes in real time because it is animated, and towards the end while he’s still anguished looking it seems like he’s shaking his head slightly

(also, my guess is that they had a vague idea of where they might want the camera be so they animated snake’s face in case they wanted to include a shot when it came time to “filming” the cinematic. why they ended up choosing not to I have no clue. I think there would have been huge added emotion to the scene since I don’t think we often, if ever, see snake that upset)

edit: I’ve gone through almost all cutscenes with snake in them and looking at his face when the camera wouldn’t be on it in game, and he’s never animated if off screen unless getting from point A to B for the next shot. or any other characters either (hense the screenshots of raiden during the hug where he just stands there). 

this combined with someone’s tags I saw here makes me think maybe it could be purposeful it’s off screen. maybe snakes not only hiding his pain from raiden and otacon (coming from maybe sympathy and care for him and not wanting to burden him more, maybe even from guilt) but from the player as well. you don’t get to play as snake because you’ll never be snake [like raiden] and you don’t get to see him emotionally vulnerable because he wasn’t made to let it show, both literally in universe and in meta. snake has a persona he plays that’s the image of what he was intended to be, but he isn’t that person. he isn’t an invulnerable solider who can never faulter like zero intended, like everyone sees him as, that the player sees him as. or that could be entirely unintended that it works well in that way. 

not to write a entire novel here, [too late? (;ŏ﹏ŏ)] but also: I think the reason snake is so distraught isn’t because of emma dying per say, because he has no emotional attachment to her, to him her death is like any other innocent life lost on the battlefield… except it’s not, because he knows how much otacon’s hurting. this isn’t the first time he sees him cry… but he knows him now. he cares about him. he probably knew how important seeing emma again was to otacon and could have been been a second chance to ‘fix’ his family. and I think That’s whats hurting him so much.

#SCREAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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im noticing that for a lot of americans “free palestine” has been an ideological motto and symbol rather than them actually believing in their heart that freedom is attainable and necessary

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what is our legacy if we cannot pass the torch? happy big shell day everyone

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sometimes im like "wow holy shit im being really fucking annoying. i should stop talking" and then i pull out my magic 8 ball and it says "youve always been annoying and your friends chose to talk you anyways. youll be fine" and im like wow thanks magic 8 ball. and then the ogre attacks me

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tenured professors at a tiny shitty state school are probably some of the most power hungry and frustrating personalities I've ever had the misfortune of interacting with

#txt

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rb this and tell me what ur accent is. this has no purpose except the fact i just realized i could have like… mutuals with cockney accents or newfoundland accents or something and thats just wild

#generic broad american accent + light southern american + EXTREMELY light californian valley girl. only on some words tho

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Here’s the new 24 hour comic I drew this year!  This one is called THE KING’S FOREST.  cw: blood, violence

PS: if you liked this, there’s a whole book of these comics available now!

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