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You're in there.

I KNOW you're in there. So if she gets online and sees this, Terry you better be watching.

It's going to be okay.

I promise.

We're going to find your body, we're going to take care of you. There is no way in hell I'm EVER letting you go. We still have to get married Ter, we have cruises to go on and regret and art museums to see. We have kisses to exchange and skiing trips to go on where we huddle in a cabin afterwards with our fingers and noses frozen and both sore from falling but glad because we enjoyed being together.

You have Belle's kids to see and so much more left to happen in your life.

It won't be an easy fight.

But we're going to get you out of there- or her out? Whatever.

But I promise you with all my heart we WILL fix this.

July 2nd 2020

I can hear it coming. Nox can too but she won’t tell me what it is. There’s a buzz and the screams keep getting louder. It’s breaking. I know Eve is trying to help, and I thank her, but it’s not working. I feel so lost and weak, like I’m not who I truely am. I feel broken and shattered into so many pieces I don’t know which way is up or down.

I’ve heard them talk about it, about the child. They say it’s my core. How can I have a core if my pieces aren’t even a part of me… Of this anymore? Am I supposed to grow like a crystal? Wouldn’t surprise me. There’s so much I need to learn, so much I want to know.

If you’re reading this, it means I’m likely dead. I’ll keep changing the day it’s scheduled to post ever week or so, maybe hide or lurk here until it all starts to crumble. Repetitive behavior… Traps… Puzzles… I keep dreaming of them. I must train my brain to reuse this site. Maybe she’ll use it too when she comes for me. They think I don’t know but I do. I see her every day without fail. I see her when I sleep and when I close my eyes. She takes the form of Ally or of my mom… Only Potter could make her go away before but he’s… Gone. He has been gone for so long. I don’t have many barriers left and I know I’m slipping. How long can I hold up before I’m nothing more but memories?

Not long. Not much longer. I’m not that strong. This pain, it keeps growing. No matter how much Urge calms it keeps burning and gnawing at my veins. It feels like a call from beyond the void. I know one day I’ll join it, whether I will as the Heir or as one of them remains to be seen, all I know is that I’m losing. I’m losing it all.

I want them to know Felix, Eve, Belle, Mars, Elliot, Chris… Everyone, how much I loved them. I never felt real until I spoke with any of you, and I never felt more wanted than in Felix’s arms or hearing Belle play the piano. I wish I could see them be born, Belle, the child I know you’ll someday have. I love you all so much… Please take care of each other… This won’t be an easy fight.

Goodbye,

Terence A. Atkinson.

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Terry! Terry it's going to be okay

We'll find you

I promise

fi nd

me

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I like you.

So that other anon wasn't me, but here's a hopefully not cryptic thing. Spes and elpis aren't the same concept in the mythological structure, but there's no reason to believe that hope and hope are not the same thing from an external or modern perspective. And hope was the greatest of all evils: indestructible and capable of bringing pain even to those who had become wholly numbed. So like. TBH that's probably a pretty big gun to bring to a knife fight.

Okay butI get that hope is big in a context

Hope is what started any progress, hope for better and the drive to make it happen, but without hope they wouldn’t work for it

Hope is what brings down oppression, or helps someone in a bad place get through to the next day

In a big sense or a long term sense, hope is GREAT!

But as for practical applications? Or helping me find Terry?

Not so much.

#thanks. #I'm still not sure I believe everything that's going on yet #but if it's real #thank you

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So that other anon wasn't me, but here's a hopefully not cryptic thing. Spes and elpis aren't the same concept in the mythological structure, but there's no reason to believe that hope and hope are not the same thing from an external or modern perspective. And hope was the greatest of all evils: indestructible and capable of bringing pain even to those who had become wholly numbed. So like. TBH that's probably a pretty big gun to bring to a knife fight.

Okay butI get that hope is big in a contextHope is what started any progress, hope for better and the drive to make it happen, but without hope they wouldn't work for itHope is what brings down oppression, or helps someone in a bad place get through to the next dayIn a big sense or a long term sense, hope is GREAT! But as for practical applications? Or helping me find Terry?Not so much.

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hope and luck go hand in hand. those that think they are lucky are the most lucky

Spes if you want to talk to me do it face to face not a creepy voice in my head or an anon on tumblrIf you're not Spes quit it with the cryptic lame nonsense

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So. Guess what I learned today? While a goddess is completely willing to go 'lmao no you guessed the wrong one' and give you snide minor hints that are supposed to help you but do hardly anything at all in reality when you make a sarcastic tumblr post, they refuse to arrive so you can fight them or at least ask proper questions when you repeatedly ask for them while searching for your fiancé Gods and goddesses are useless and Terry or Artemis or whoever you are right now, I don't know much But I'm coming for you

#depending on who's reading that it's a threat or a promise #im sorry Sokka #im gonna fight the moon

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HEY THANKS FOR THROWING ME TO THE WOLVES SPES NOT TELLING ME ANYTHING UNTIL ITS ALMOST TO LATE REALLY THANK YOU LOVE THE INFO

#fight me #I'm going to fight a goddess

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tell the guardians about you. they can help

Oh there's guardians now too? We talking Santa Clause or Jack Frost?

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Why not animals though?! Animals are cool!

Or luck or anything USEFUL?!

Yeah, hope. What am I supposed to do with that. Oh I hope my fiancé will be alright LIKE THATS GOING TO DO A LOT OF GOOD

#gfdi #at least Terry's makes sense #void sure I see that #HOPE IS LAME #what am I supposed to open a portal into 'hopeland' #like Terry's void?

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Okay but if all this is true suddenly it makes a lot more sense why Z didn't reply to my worried texts when Terry said something happened

#not that we talk often #even if we're on good terms ignoring the milkshake incident #but wow #okay now I'm worried

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Felix, Hey. Want to help me break into a hospital to get me in? (This isn't going to work)

I thought you were already IN a hospital???

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Is it possible to kill something that shouldn't even exist?

More to the point is it morally ethical when their silence until now means potential death and definite injury since if I’d known I could of TRIED to do something?!

#Why this #why did I talk to Terry all those years ago #all my friends were alive #wizards were the only secret group not known to the majority of the populace #neither I or anyone I knew had been kidnapped #I'm going to strangle an abstract concept bbl

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Things had been going decently for Felix. Well, as decently as one could hope when he was panicking over where his fiancé ran off to and what new delusion was going on in his head. Okay, so he was worried. But he'd find him, find him and make everything smooth over. A part of him was worried now that he'd been a part of the Twins disappearing, that 'Artemis' did something, but come on. Terry, the REAL Terry, would of let the rest of them know. That was ridiculous. So for now he waited. Sat fuming on the bed as he tried to think of where the other could of gone. Belle and Mars were checking all the usual places, where else should he look... He posted one last sarcastic comment on his blog, knowing he should be trying to coax this personality to come back rather than arguing, but he couldn't help it. He was stressed. And then there was a little voice in his head. "I hope you don't really think I'm Dionysus. It's a very simple matter to figure out who your patron is if you actually think about it." Well. Needless to say, with everything else going on, Felix tried to ignore the little voice. To pretend it wasn't there and made plans to ask Belle for Terry's shrink's number ASAP. A stress breakdown, that's what this was. He finally lost it, lovely. But before he acted on that fact he had to find Terry, make sure he was okay. But the voice wouldn't stop, the longer he tried to ignore it the more it spoke. Telling him he was like Terry, that they were chosen by the gods. That it was all REAL an Terry really was presently possessed by a certain moon and hunting goddess, that if something didn't change, he'd lose him to corruption. . . . Gods had no sense of timing did they. Just as Felix decided to 'indulge' his little voice enough to ask what was happening, she was gone and he was left with more questions than answers. All he got out of the conversation was a sense of hope that it could be changed, all fixed, and a name. Time to google 'Spes'.

#slice of life

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Really though Me A god What am I Dionysus incarnate? He's the party one, but I can't hold liquor at all (ask Mars, THAT was fun) Maybe a demigod like Perseus or something No, I've got it! I'm Persephone obviously look at me Such a god So regal Many power Such wow

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Okay that's nice and all

Like with everything else I've learned I wouldn't be surprised by possession by now

But me? A god? HA

I see you reblogging things so ANSWER ME DAMNIT!!! Terry we're worried about you, where are you?

There’s no Terry here, wizard boy.~

#oh my god #let's tell my very human father that #ad my in a coma mother #what about Lucy and Cammie #are they gods too? #are you trying to tell me I taught potential gods to ride a bike?

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Okay. Other super powers, let's go through the list.

Portals which I really hope he's to hurt to use The ability to leave this universe entirely and go into the void (nice place) Shapeshifting And the ability to do nearly anything if he has dust with him but I don't think he has much or he'd of used it to heal to move faster

I think I'm missing something but that's the basics

And I didn't know he had another personality in his head until last night, I just knew about the hallucinations and the more basic general stuff!

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apricatedanabiosis:

I was sort of hoping you would know more about this, tbh, but still. Work with what you’ve got.

Last night he was with me, I talked to him after seeing everything on tumblr and he went to sleep and I went to get Belle and Mars and when we got back he was gone

As soon as we find him I’m going to very lovingly and sweetly staple him to the bed so I don’t lose him

Okay so that means that, at most, he’s had fourteen hours of travel time. He’s still in the city, and from what I gathered this morning he was seriously injured and delirious, so it was likely on foot, in the dark, and very slow.

I’ve walked like that before. He’s couldn’t have been more than eight miles out from where he started, unless he’s got some more super powers we would like to mention now?

Still, that’s a lot of ground to cover. If you’ve got any way of prying any information out of the evil moon chick, now would be the time.

#he does #I have a man eating book

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Yeah hi excess personality

I'm going to find Terry even if you run into the void or something. And them I'm going to calm him down, make sure he's okay, and we're finding his shrink

I'd like to get along with you seeing as how I like getting along with my fiancé in every means but honestly looking at your posts you're a parasite to be removed

I see you reblogging things so ANSWER ME DAMNIT!!! Terry we're worried about you, where are you?

There’s no Terry here, wizard boy.~