Not my spanish dad calling me out for looking like a sheet of paper while he was in the sun for an hour and his tan got 3 shades darker....
I work in a kindergarten... we go outside every day... and while the weather wasn't a highlight recently there were moments of sun where i could have gotten a slight tan...
I really want all of this to be over... i want to be able to function like a normal person,not breakdown crying in the middle of the night!
I don't want this stress i'm feeling and the pressure even tho my life isn't exactly stressful. I want to be able to socialice without needing to immediatly lie down after i get home.
I want my grandfather back....
I feel like everythings gotten so much worse since he died and the funeral last week was like a punch to the gut.