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itsmy-alteregohere · 1 year

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I'm in love with this 😭

with child

neteyam x reader, angst & fluff, 2.6k words

you're with neteyams child, almost ripe enough to give birth any day now. you've been told countless times to relax, take it easy, don't strain yourself too much - not just from neteyam, but the whole family, in which you unwillingly oblige to.

one day it happens to be that everyone is quite occupied, all busy running errands at home tree, leaving you alone in your and neteyams tent. feeling completely useless (and bored...) you pluck up the strength to find something to do. you want to make yourself useful. seeing everyone so busy has made you long to be fully bodied and abled again, instead you feel stuck. you can't wait to meet the little na'vi created through your and neteyams love. but it's been a long pregnancy, a long and tiring pregnancy. you cannot wait to see what your new life with your small family might lead you towards.

hmm... you think to yourself. what can you do with yourself? ah. you've figured it out. you decide to go out deep into the forest to gather ingredients to make one of neteyams favourite meals.

feeling the moss on your feet, the plants of the forest slowly engulf you, feeling leaves sweep along your arms, the sounds of nature becoming more and more evident the further you dive further and further into the forest of pandora. your home.

it has been quite a while since you've done this, especially alone. neteyam would not allow it, especially with your current pregnant state. but you're tired of being locked up - sorry neteyam, but it's just for a few hours - you think to yourself.

you realise how carried away you have gotten, now swallowed up by the forest, you have lost track of time, you almost forget what you're doing here - ah thats right, now where is this fruit neteyam loves so much - you think to yourself, reminding yourself the reason why you're here in the first place.

the bioluminescence of the forest starts to become brighter and brighter. oh no. you must have left late? or maybe you've been in the forest for hours? you could not tell. eclipse has now fallen, and it is now dark - but not completely thanks to the forest glowing around you. you're not usually scared of a situation like this, for you are a brave warrior of the clan, known to be smart, quick and quiet. however, it has been months since you've been in need of your warrior like skills. you feel nervous, stressed, scared.... embarrassed...

i am lost, you think to yourself.

how could you have let this happen. you're furious with yourself. and completely embarrassed.

you try to track your previous steps, but feel as if you are going in circles. you start to feel physically and mentally exhausted, the overwhelming feeling of worry and stress of being lost. you worry you won't make it back to your neteyam anytime soon, and not wanting to worry him either, however you know at this point, it is too late for that. neteyam already felt protective over you despite your pregnant state. considering how far along you are in your pregnancy, you know he is going to be worried sick just thinking about what may have happened to you.

you can only hope that neteyam would come find you. but you know that may be wishful thinking, not even knowing where you've led yourself to at this point.

you know it is no hope. no use to exhaust yourself to the point of being physically unable to move in the hopes of finding your way back home. you find a thick tree with strong stump, with many plants surrounding, and soft moss below. there is a space at the base of the tree for you to snuggle into, kneeling yourself down slowly and pulling your heavy body into the small space. in the process you drop the few ingredients you collected, which have now sprayed around you. you gather some fallen larger leaves from around you and use them to cover your body as an attempt to feel more protected from any possible danger that may arise from being so exposed, so deep into the forest, so late at night.

you try your best to stay calm, and hope that if you make it through the night you will easily be able to find your way back home.

just make it through the night - you think to yourself.

you will be fine. don't worry. you will see neteyam soon. you can only hope and try to convince yourself that everything will be okay.

as much as you try to comfort yourself, it goes without working, as you feel your heartbeat overwhelm your body, becoming faster and faster, making it harder for you to breathe.

your breathing is staggered, and your chest is heaving up and down, the overwhelming feeling of panic blinds you, feeling tears swell in your eyes, you squeeze them shut and hope this will be over soon.

back at the village, neteyam cannot wait to see you again. being away from you for several hours at once is not ideal for him, but he knows he must fulfil his duties. he did not have an out of the ordinary day, just the usual. but he cannot wait to tell you all about it. he loves just sitting and listen to you, and you love listening to him, all the little things that happened in his day, and in yours too. you could sit around and talk for hours with each other, and he could not wait to see you again.

he lightly jogs over to your shared tent with a smile on his face. pushing the makeshift door aside, he pokes his head inside, only to be shown an empty home. you're no where to be seen. immediately his smile fades and turns to a frown. panic and worry sets in.

where could you be? he thinks to himself. this is not normal.

it's getting late and he knows eclipse will fall soon. there is a slight hope that you're just with his family, which allows him to not think of the worst just yet...

he runs towards his family home, bursting through the entrance he is met with jake, neytiri, kiri, tuk and lo'ak. you're no where to be seen. neteyam frantically asks if they've seen you but none of them know anything. they haven't seen you for the whole day.

this isn't like you... he thinks. he cannot help but think that something terrible has gone wrong.

everyone starts to worry, they know how far along your pregnancy you were, and that this is not safe for any na'vi who may give birth at any time now. jake, neytiri and lo'ak go out looking for you with neteyam, with kiri and tuk back at your home, in hope that you might be able to find your way back before the others find you, godknows where.

hours go by, with no luck. no one has found you. neteyam tells his family to go sleep. he will continue. he will find you, he has got to.

neteyam goes deep into the forest, attempting to track what he hope to be your footsteps, however they deem to be now unclear due to the any hours which have passed since they had been made.

he follows himself deeper into the forest, using his senses now strung by his worry and stress. going deeper and deeper into the forest, lit by bioluminescence, he finds himself looking at an open space at the base of a large tree. there are fruits scattered around the mossy ground, which looks strange considering they would not be found on any plant around here. he senses movement by the trunk of the tree, seeing the plants around the base of the tree move with slight movement that is not from the breeze of the forest.

with his ears alert, he slowly and quietly takes steps towards the base of the tree. as he gets closer, he notices something long, blue in colour, under the fallen leaves by the base of the tree.

it makes a sudden movement, twitching and shivering.

a tail... your tail... he thinks to himself, with longing and hope. it must be you. it has to be you. please.... be... you...

he keeps taking small steps towards the folage under the tree, and the tail in which he hopes is yours. the closer he gets, the tighter his chest feels. is this you? are you okay?

now within arms reach, he slowly kneels down and moves the plants and fallen leaves aside. now with your body uncovered, he sees you. a sense of relief rushes through neteyams body, glad hes finally been reunited with his mate. however, that does not last long, as he is now overwhelmed with worry. you look unwell. you've tucked yourself into a tight ball, completely passed out.

he looks at you, then behind him, at all the ingredients scattered around the base of the tree. he can only assume they were gathered by you, that you wanted to do this for him. he feels a sense of guilt in his chest - knowing you did this for him and for yourself. that you needed to do something and he should have been there for you. he knew you wanted to be in the forest again, and he should have been the one to take you, instead of making you go out by yourself, all alone, now hurt and in danger.

neteyam snaps out of his saddened state, and does everything he can to bring you back to safety. as he slowly lifts you into his arms, carrying you bridal style, he notices how cold you feel, how weak you look, the lack of movement other than small, sharp breaths coming from your slightly open mouth. looking down at you he feels tears well in his eyes but knows he must be strong right now. for you.

you now in his arms, swaying slightly as he takes smooth yet long quick strides through the forest, towards home. you do not regain consciousness the whole way back, causing him to panic.

by the time he makes it back to the village, it is now light. neteyam yells for his family, for kiri, neytiri and mo'at to help, almost sobbing but holding back tears.

mo'at, neytiri and kiri all rushes out of their tents, following neteyam as he places you down in your shared tent. you're still unconscious, seeming like the stress, exhaustion, panic, in combination with being so pregnant has taking a toll on your body.

with the help of neteyams family, you waken after several hours. neteyam being by your side for each second, hand in his, slightly sobbing. he never slept, he is exhausted but he never wanted to take his eyes off you again. he needed to know that you were going to be okay.

as you open your eyes, you immediately find yourself looking at neteyam. you tear up, feeling an immense feeling of pain shoot through your body as you regain consciousness and feeling in your body. you squeeze his hand that has been holding yours all this time, in which gains his attention causing him to quickly whip his head towards your face, ears alert and his tired eyes wide. you immediately tear up just looking at his face, his tired, worried, exhausted face. you feel so sorry for making him go through this. you feel stupid.

looking into his eyes, your eyes now well up with thick hot tears, streaming down your face. the combination of emotional pain and physical pain overwhelms you entirely. neteyam holds your body, trying to comfort you with his embrace and words but you feel delusional. you're worried about the your and neteyams baby.

neteyam calls for mo'at now that you have regained consciousness, hoping she can help you feel more comfortable, less distressed.

as moat tends to you, all you can yelp out is 't-the baby'.

neteyam holds your hand tightly, looking over at you, not breaking eye-contact with you the entire time. he knows your killing yourself over this, but he just needs you to be okay, you and the baby will be okay. he knows it. mo'at nods and holds a hand around your swollen stomach. her face shows no change in emotion, concentrating hard. she drops her head.

'it is hard to say. i am sorry... i cannot tell as of right now, we should wait a little longer, wait for you to get stronger. your strength will help your child' mo'at says calmly.

hearing her words, you try not to panic. you do not know whether or not you have lost your child, but there is still a chance that everything will be okay. you look over at neteyam and he gives you a look of comfort, that things will be okay. you nod.

neteyam collects water and food, wanting to do anything he can to help you feel better. he gently feeds you, as you look up at him lovingly with a smile on your face. you notice the fruits that he cut up and gave to you are the same ones you collected for him yesterday. the ones you so eagerly went out into the forest to find, and failed to bring back...

'the fruit' you say.

'oh yes... i couldn't help but notice. thats why you went out to the forest right? to collect these fruits?' neteyam asks, with a soft voice, looking up at you from the bowl of fruit in his hands, a slight grin on his face.

'oh... hah... yeah - that's right...' you reply, quietly, looking down with a slight chuckle - feeling embarrassed.

'let's go gather fruit together hmm? get you out of this tent... we can do it together.' he responds. he doesn't want you to feel embarrassed from the prior event - not directly bringing it up, but hoping you might feel excited to go again - do things you used to do before becoming pregnant.

'i would like that... a lot.' you look up at him, and smile widely. you can't wait.

he looks back up at you and returns the smile, bringing his hands up to your face, thumb rubbing your cheek. neteyam slowly bringing his face to yours, giving you a soft peck on the lips. he pulls away, resting his forehead against yours, both of your eyes closed, staying like this together, just for a moment.

you're so grateful for him, for him finding you, helping you, loving you, forgiving you for putting yourself and your child in this situation. you feel stupid and embarrassed but he is just happy you're safe now.

hours pass, and you feel more like yourself - stronger and in less pain. you're still sore, but that is simply from the back pain of being with child, you're used to that pain now. you feel back to normal, maybe you were in shock? maybe now that you have regained your strength... your baby will be okay. it's all you can hope for.

after a long and exhausting 24 hours, eclipse falls and you find yourself dazing in and out of sleep. neteyam notices and softly moves you to your hammock, setting himself beside you, spooning you with his face by your neck and hand on your stomach. he is so happy right now, you beside him. he does not want to let you out of his sight, he just wants you to be safe and protected.

[end]

hi - this is my first fic, it's just something angsty and cute i wanted to get out of my brain somehow. i am not sure if it's any good but i hope you enjoy reading as much as i enjoyed writing it. hehe.

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itsmy-alteregohere · 1 year

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˗ˏˋyou jealous ? :) ´ˎ˗ - neteyam x reader pt. 6

⁀➷ part six : SHOW ME.

notes : how could i not publish a chapter on st valentine’s day ! here’s pt. 6, and let me know if y’all like it ! i decided to confuse y’all a bit, so just go look at how things went ;)

words : 5,24 k

tags : neteyam x reader x ao’nung, teasing, mentions of rape but nothing actually happening, words of comfort, alluding to smut in next part.

you woke up, lazily opening your eyes. neteyam holding you with his head on your chest, his arms tangled with your waist, the same way his legs were tangled with yours. you looked at him, asleep, his mouth slightly parted.

if his friends could see the way he was tangled to you like you were his moma, they would probably make fun of him for eternity. but at the same time, he was that comfortable that he could do whatever he wants with you without being ashamed.

he’s always been the biggest brother, he had to comfort and to guide others, and take care of everything, but who was there for him ? who could comfort him and guide him ?

the responsibilities sometimes weighted too much, making him break down.

but since you two started going to the beach, to smoke and talk, get everything off your mind, his life has progressed a lot. he always looked for you everywhere.

you’re the star he looks for every night.

you were there to be that motherly person he never had in his life. neytiri was a very good mother, but she sometimes didn’t realise how many responsibilities she laid on him. sometimes even pressuring him. but you didn’t pressure him into anything. you were just there to comfort him, do what he wanted to do, without feeling guilt or shame.

you loved the way he let you see that side of him. so fragile, so pure.

neteyam is a child in an adult’s body. because all of the things he’s been through, he’s grown up to be a tall child. you didn’t even realise that in the meanwhile, you shed a tear. everyone was so hard on him, even you. you made his life hell, like it wasn’t enough. you didn’t even think for a moment about the fact that he had to leave his home, the forest, and come here, where the people are different, where everyone judged him for not being metkayina.

you were shaken by him waking up. he hugged your torso, and still laid his head on your chest. you gently caressed his hair, laying a kiss on his head. you felt his lips curl on your skin. please, please, please don’t ever take neteyam away from me.

“neteyam” you said in a low tone.

“mh ?” he hummed back.

“we have to get up” he sighed, raising his head. you could see he was still tired, but at least if you two got up now, you could have breakfast and spend a bit of time together before parting ways. he had to train, and you had to talk to jake. you two are supposed to help ao’nung’s father with something you genuinely had no idea of. he lazily got up, giving you a hand. you looked at him for a sec, and he immediately understood what you wanted. he sighed once again, lifting you up, you hugged him. one hand on your ass, of course, and the other on your back. you circled his neck with your arms, laying a soft kiss on his neck.

he walked to the kitchen, plopping you down on the table once again. “can you go get the food from your parents’ pod ?” you said trying to convince him.

“oh c’mon ! my mom will skin me. at least go with me.” he said dragging you to the living room to get dressed. you huffed.

“ok fine !” he left a kiss on your cheek, putting a his cloth on. you picked out a top from your wardrobe, it was a shiny one with shells attached to it. it was definitely the prettiest one you had.

you felt neteyam behind you, unlatching it. you were super confused.

“no, ‘teyam we don’t have time-” you hurriedly said, eyebrows pinched in an angry expression. what sick idea was it to fuck before going to his parents’ pod ?

“if you think i’m letting you go to my dad’s pod in that tiny shiny top after i heard what you said last night about him, you have gone absolutely nuts.” he said, killing every protest of yours. he was seriously jealous of his dad ? you laughed, but also you couldn’t stop thinking about how much you loved him. this man was hilarious.

you put another top on, it was green, leafs covering it. he gave you an approving look which made you smile. you slowly walked out of your pod, enjoying every second you guys could have before starting the day.

“dad ? mom ?” neteyam asked, getting in his pod. you walked right behind him, noticing lo’ak and kiri eating on the table. “they’re not here…” kiri said with a questioning tone, eyeing the both of you. well, especially you.

she gave you that ‘you’re telling me everything later’ look, which you only smiled to. it’s not like you had any other option. lo’ak was even more confused than her, eyeing you both.

you sat down, keeping your distance from neteyam, since you still didn’t feel a hundred percent comfortable showing affection public. he noticed, sliding right beside you, a betting expression on his face, something that didn’t go unnoticed by the two guys that were in front of you. you coughed, trying to signal him to not get so close.

they both noticed the tension between y'all, so kiri decided to just tell y'all.

“so um…” she said, catching your attention, neteyam looking at her. she definitely noticed.

“… tuk has kind of already told us everything” kiri finished almost like it was a question more than an affirmation, she told them everything this morning when her and lo’ak couldn’t help but notice that the two of you were missing. you felt heat spread in your cheeks, not daring to make eye contact with lo’ak. just the thought of TUK knowing everything embarrassed you so much, you covered your face with your hands and deeply sighed. on the other hand, neteyam almost felt relived, his ears going up. he didn’t have to be the one to tell everything, and he also didn’t have to pressure you.

“oh, thank god.” he said, pulling you to sit on his lap, hand on your stomach, back pressed on his chest. “neteyam, have some fucking shame.” you said screaming, looking at him with an angry expression on your face, a confused expression on his.

“don’t you fucking scream at me, they know ! stop stressing, what the fuck.” he replied back, you could feel his legs tense under you. his eyebrows pinched together, mouth full of food.

“ugh, at least try and be ashamed ! and close your fucking mouth !” you screamed, forcing your hands on his jaw in an attempt at closing his mouth. he placed his bowl on the table, catching your hands holding them. “keep your goddamn hands off my face, you dirty slag !” he said, offended. kiri and lo’ak laughed at the scene, recognising that the two of you didn’t change one bit.

“and what the fuck are you laughing at ? lo’ak don’t think i’m not going to beat your ass later.” neteyam said dealing with them, lo’ak’s grin immediately dropping, your cheeks super red.

“NETEYAM !” you said, kiri widening her eyes even more, jaw falling. she looked at you, realising you told her nothing about it. “BRO I SWEAR IT WASN’T LIKE THAT !” lo’ak defended himself. you all laughed, easing the mood.

you slowly tried to get off neteyam’s lap, while he talked with lo’ak and kiri about something you weren’t listening to. you heard him stop talking, and realised he was side eyeing you.

he grabbed your thighs and replaced them on his lap. “stop moving, they already know we fucked and i took your virginity , don’t worry.” he chuckled and laughed. kiri gasped, but lo’ak laughed too.

in that moment, you felt a vein in your heart hurting. you felt naked, in front of all of them, getting thrown in the air like you were a piece of meat. such a special and important moment for you, getting talked about like you were one of his whores. neteyam didn’t notice at the beginning, but kiri did. she looked at you, almost asking sorry. but why would she apologise, it’s not her fault. you felt tears getting crowded in your eyes, and now you weren’t comfortable with neteyam’s hands all over your body. you felt stared at, even though kiri was the only person looking at you, caring about you. you regretted everything. the talks, the kisses, the sex, the love, the feelings.

in that exact moment, you wish you never met him. you thought he was different, you thought he could be better, but he is just the exact same. you felt dizzy, something heavily thumping in your head. kiri noticed your absent gaze, neteyam didn’t. how much did he really care about you ?

he found himself asking that question pretty often. since the dawn of time, you were only kind of a bet to him. something to win, a prize. without the sugarcoating, he saw you as an object. a very beautiful attractive shiny object, but still. he didn’t want to see you that way, but he just couldn’t. things obviously changed a bit, but your perception of his feelings towards you didn’t.

the way he was holding you inner thigh, the way his hand was grasping your shoulder, didn’t feel attractive anymore. it felt almost… molesting. kind of rapey too. you felt unsafe.

yes, between neteyam’s arms you felt unsafe. something that never occurred with ao’nung. you felt spikes chocking you, a heavy weight in your stomach, and you couldn’t manage to keep your tears to yourself.

did you make the right choice ?

a tear slipped from your eyes, and kiri noticed. you were literally trembling between neteyam's arms and he couldn't care or notice. you aggressively wiped it away, excusing yourself to get out of the pod. you needed some air. you couldn’t even breathe anymore, and you remembered neteyam’s hands. chocking you. no, let’s use the right words.

he was strangling you.

and you felt like a slut, because of how much you liked it, not realising you probably interpreted his actions wrongly. maybe he just wanted to abuse you, and you couldn’t even notice it because your brain and eyes were fogged with pleasure. your brain and eyes were fogged by him.

“excuse me.” you said, in the lowest tone possible. you got up, not being able to ignore the way neteyam’s eyes and fingers lingered on you, feeling like they were raping you. he didn’t even notice, and smirked at you. you felt almost like throwing up. kiri couldn’t hold back anymore, and as soon as you got out of the pod, she followed you.

you felt the fresh salty air get in your lungs, healing you, getting all the fog out of your brain. you couldn’t hold your tears back anymore, you weren’t even sobbing. just quiet tears scarring your face. those type of scars that never fade away.

you called your ilu, Dah’lia, and got on her back, your legs and feet now wet, feeling the ocean hug you more delicately than neteyam ever could. your ears sprung up, hearing kiri’s voice call you. you watched her as she got on her ilu’s back too. “( y/n ) ! wait !”

she was right beside you, wind blowing on your faces, bubbles tickling your feet, waves getting more and more big. “is everything okay ?” kiri spat out while trying to catch her breath.

you watched her as she brought a hand to your chest, while you decided what to say.

should you lie, say you’re fine, get back in your pod, and get meaninglessly fucked by your so called future mate, hoping every second he would not see the scared lonely shadow in your eyes, and hoping it would end as soon as possible, to able to just go to sleep, where neteyam couldn’t hover over you. the kid you were so in love with, would’ve never done such things, but still here we are. had you outgrown eachother ? was it a miscommunication type of thing ?

were you wrong for thinking about it that, or were you possibly overthinking again ?

should you say the truth ?

“i don’t know.” you calmly said to her, which wasn't entirely a lie, your voice hiding years of self doubt and hope. but hope saved no one, not even your secret hopeless romantic soul.

kiri sighed, her hand placed between your elbow and your shoulder, caressing it. it felt very different to neteyam’s touch, that once felt so protecting but now only felt dirty and disgusting.

“it’s just…” you sighed, gaze low, staring at the bottom of the ocean, so clear and so calm. you tried to collect your words, and explain everything to her. because she was the last person you wanted to disappoint by lying or even just lightly sugarcoating anything.

“… he said it, in that monotone, cold and materialistic way… that i almost felt like an object.” you finally said, a sob threatening to escape. spikes getting more and more heavy in your throat.

“oh, dear ( y/n ).” she said, hugging you. you grasped on her like your life depended on it, lowering your head on her shoulders, letting a few other tears escape. you could feel her heartbeat against your chest, calm and low. the heat of her hug, comforting you.

you let your thought and flaws flow inside of her, feeling all the negative energy get out of your system. you recollected yourself, and brushed every tear out of your face. you rapidly smiled at her, now having to go to jake and tonowari’s reunion.

“thank you.” you simply said. she smiled at you, kissing you on the cheek, still realising that neteyam could have never kissed you that delicately.

she brought her hand up, her ilu starting to go away as she said goodbye to you. you heard neteyam and lo’ak getting out of the pod, so you rapidly went away. neteyam noticed you, his smile slowly dropping finally realising that something could possibly be wrong.

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jake saw you walking towards him, his arms opening to embrace you in a hug. he noticed your low mood, which he hates to admit has been your default these days. he didn’t want to be self-absorbed but he feared it was neteyam. you walked towards him, letting yourself melt in the hug, your head against his chest, his arms caressing your head. you felt tears prickle your eyes, but it was enough for today.

enough crying. you hugged him tighter, and he felt his heart squeeze in his chest. you felt your heart throb, and you couldn’t do anything but frown, tears threatening to fall. in this moment, you were so embarrassed about the way you talked about him that night with neteyam. you felt shame, almost like you were naked and everyone was watching you, once again.

you felt exposed, but who’s fault was it ? you were the one that exposed yourself.

you sniffed, catching his attention, him closely leaning to look at you in the eyes. you sniffed a couple more times, feeling your cheeks wet, and took a deep breath. jake looked at you with a sad tingle in his eyes. he was so wrong. he was so so wrong. but now you were knuckle deep.

he knew that even if you tried to leave neteyam, you would’ve had to kill him to actually be able to continue living your life. he was never going to leave you alone. as much as he loved you, he loved you in the wrong way. jake and neytiri recognised that, and they were not only scared for him but also his future mate.

neteyam couldn’t realise it, he was too deep in his fantasies, in his little sick world.

and unfortunately, you were absorbed in that world too.

the only way you could modify an already dried vase, is by breaking it.

you sucked in a deep breath, and smiled at him, tears still glossing your puffy eyes. he sadly smiled at you, trying to at least be your support for today.

you always thought neteyam was that father figure you needed in your life, not knowing you had the most perfect dad right in front of your eyes. maybe that’s why.

neteyam was jealous, jealous because jake treated you the way he should’ve been treated.

“why not me ?”

maybe he was overly protective and overly jealous of others, because he was scared you could find someone better. he knew there was someone better. just waiting for you to leave him, and embrace you in his arms, giving you the world and more.

he would rather see you unhappy with him, rather than happy with someones else.

because that was the last prove. he was not enough.

for you, for his dad, for lo’ak, for neytiri, for no one.

“atta girl.” he said, positioning his hand on your shoulder, comforting you.

“i love you, dad.” you slowly whispered. eyes looking up at him, you not knowing that he felt the same exact spiked in his throat, that you were feeling a bit of time ago.

“i love you too, daughter.” he said, giving you a light smile. he brought you next to him, hip to hip and walking towards tonowari’s pod. you enjoyed everything.

every breeze of wind, every ray of sun, because you never knew when it was going to be the last time, and if you only knew that that was the last time. jake got in, holding the flap for you, you entered. tonowari was seated in the centre, ao’nung next to him.

he was as shocked as you, not expecting you to be here. his eyes flashed open, his heart squeezing in his chest. he couldn’t breathe for a second, goosebumps flowing to his back.

same thing happened to you, trying hold the eye contact. god, how you missed him.

he immediately lowered his gaze, frowning towards nothing.

did it make you sad ? yes.

was it all your fault ? yes

you got out of your thoughts thanks to jake, who sat down, patting the place right next to him. ao’nung couldn’t even pretend that jake’s gesture didn’t remind him of what he did that night. of how you humiliated him. the way you ran in neteyam’s arms after everything.

tonowari looked at his son, his features softening as he saw ao’nung’s expression. he drifted his hand slowly on his back, patting it. it was going to be hard but he had to.

“so, were where we ?” tonowari said.

“oh yes, ao’nung’s mating ceremony.”

you were a hundred percent sure they heard your heart falling, because there was no fucking way. your head tilted upwards immediately, lips slightly parted, throat heavy . ao’nung’s squeezing his eyes as much as he could, just like jake.

“fuck.” was all he could think of, like things weren’t already as difficult as they could be for you. he noticed, the way your head tilted upwards, tears pooling in your eyes.

if he knew what the reunion was going to be about, he would’ve never brought you there with him. his heart thudding fast, his muscles tensing. ao’nung didn’t even think you were going to be there, tonowari knew a little to nothing about what happened between you two.

but he rapidly understood, it was much serious than he thought.

you swallowed the heavy lump in your throat. closed your eyes for a second and breathed, just like jake taught you.

“with who ?” you asked. a gasp almost leaving jake’s mouth, looking at you with a confused expression. how far did you want to go ? ao’nung looked up at you, lips parting to answer you, but he couldn’t. he physically couldn’t.

he was feeling sick to his stomach, having to pretend for the rest of his life that that woman was you. but she could never. she could never be as witty.

she could never be as caring.

she could never be as lovely.

she could never be as mean.

she could never be as evil.

she could never be as selfish.

she could never be you, end of discussion.

“Alyara.” tonowari said, softly smiling at you, which to be honest only made things worse.

you slowly nodded your head, lips pressed together.

the reunion continued, but without you. you were too lost in your own thoughts. you had lost him. at least this alyara could make him happier than you ever could. you had nothing to worry about. you suddenly felt your chest almost floating, like you were relieved. you felt… calm ?

“hey, ( y/n ), ao’nung.” you both raised your heads, recognising tonowari’s voice, ears standing up. “why don’t you go take a walk ?” he said, in a soothing voice, a smile plastering his face. ugh.

you eyed ao’nung, you didn’t mind if he didn’t mind. maybe walking a bit could give you some time alone. his gaze lifted, locking in with yours. your heart skipped a bit.

“that’s fine.” you said, getting up waiting for him. if he didn’t want to, this would’ve officially been the most embarrassing moment of your life. he got up too, looking at his dad, well more like killing him with his eyes. you let out a breath you didn’t realise you were holding and got out, the sound of the waves immediately kissing your ears. you closed your eyes and breathed in.

you could never get tired of it.

you saw ao’nung getting out of the pod too, you looked back at him and smiled. you actually forgot how pretty this man could be. he was much taller than you, and also much more bulked than neteyam. he had more of a lean long look, while ao’nung was a bit more toned. the shoulders to waist ratio made you literally go crazy. there was nothing that could be more attractive. his v-line soft, but his cloth a bit more down than usual.

his thighs. they were pretty big, something that neteyam didn’t have. you couldn’t stop thinking about how much different it would’ve felt to ride his thigh instead of your mate’s, feeling arousal pool between your legs. ao’nung noticed. and tried to not care as much he wanted to.

your eyes wandering all over his body. if only he knew that in the exact moment that neteyam said he noticed you watching his thighs, you actually liked ao’nung’s thighs a lot more.

“would you like to go for a swim instead ?” ao’nung asked, smiling at you. he hesitated a lot before asking you, but he thought you’re already in deep deep shit, why not swim in it ? swimming together didn’t have to necessarily mean you two were going to fall back in love, well maybe you didn’t even love him in the first place. but who cares ? everything has been done already.

you met his gaze, his smile warming your stomach. you smiled back at him. “yeah, sure.”

he grabbed your hand, goosebumps rising all over your body. you felt the same dizziness as the first time you ever smoked, head thumping loudly. you two swished around all the pods, ao’nung laughing, the only thing connecting you was your locked hands.

even when you had already grown up and lived a million moments, that one with ao’nung for some reason, had a special place in your heart. the simpleness, the genuinity, the tension.

all of those factors, made the moment even more special than it probably was.

you two suddenly stopped, reaching your favorite spot to swim. you could feel the breeze caressing your skin, the sun kissing your cheeks.

you two looked at each other, and ao’nung started counting with his hands to three. a second after, the cold water was hugging your body. there’s nothing that you loved more than a breakfast swim, when the water’s extremely cold and you can feel it everywhere.

neteyam didn’t even try to know it, but ao’nung didn’t have to. he noticed.

he noticed your love for books, tobacco, poems, the moon, the stars, shells especially those shimmery silver ones, green, the ocean, and strawberries. he saw everything.

neteyam loved you, but one day you would unfortunately have to die. ao’nung loved your soul, something that could’ve never died, that would live different lifes and discover new things. if you died, he would be jealous of the earth that could hug your body, and of the new person your soul would be inside.

you especially loved this spot because of how well you could see the life of it. all the beatiful creatures lurking in their own special place, the way the soft sand could hug your feet when you could go that deep down, the way the water was so clear.

and this was his favorite spot, because he could always see your smile here.

he submerged, catching his breath, a few braids framing his face. a few drops ran across his face to his chin, where they dropped and went back to the sea. you still had a bit of difficulty swimming well, and holding your breath. when ao’nung noticed you struggling he dipped back in, swimming right in front of you. you felt him latch his arms circling his waist and ass, bringing you up.

you hurriedly breathed, catching your breath, you arms circling his shoulder and head, your stomach against his chest. he breathed out, looking at you. he was mesmerising, to say the least.

you couldn’t ignore the way his strong arms where holding you with no difficulty, he made you feel so tiny and delicate, almost like you could break at any given time. you couldn’t even ignore the way his arms were against your ass, holding it tightly. if neteyam saw the two of you right now, the world would have probably already ended.

you had your hands on his shoulders, supporting yourself. still breathing heavily, but not because of the water. because of him. the way his eyes tingled when looking at you, your stomach flipping at the thought of you clearing that sparkle in his eyes. you hand cupped his cheek, making his stomach flip this time. he could feel his heart beating so so fast.

he slowly slid you down, your legs hugging his abdomen, your core now against his stomach. the most subtle movement of his would immediately make you moan, without any shame. your puffy bud pressed against his muscly core, could make you see stars. a twinkle in your eyes.

your hands travelled from the top of his shoulders, to his side, a bit more upward his waist. you travelled your hands along the lines that his ribcage left on his skin. him being overly sensitive because of every move you make. your finger slowly traced the lines of his abs, he whined, his core flexing, it being his most sensitive spot. your mouth slightly parting at the realisation. his cheeks flushed, as pink as they could get.

he thanked god your pussy wasn’t against his waist, or you could’ve felt the tent his dick was making in his cloth. it twitching desperately at every touch of yours. he could feel his precum leaking, marking his cloth. he rolled his eyes, sighing.

your hand trailed from his core to his v-line. he held his breath. your finger slowly tracing the lines that formed it. your finger slowly entered his cloth, his eyes now quite wide, mouth parted. you slightly pulled the string, then leaving it making it snap against his waist. he closed his eyes for a second, you could feel him holding you even more aggressively now.

you raised your head smiling at him, he looked at you tears lightly bubbling his eyes from the teasing. “girl i’m so in love with you.” if he could only have the courage to actually say it to you.

“please, give in.” he whispered , looking through at you through his lashes. his dick was begging to get the minimum amount to stimulation, it being left completely untouched because his hands where too busy holding you. he felt it twitch uncontrollably, he was too deep in now to stop.

you blinked a few times, not realising what he just said. you used to have to beg neteyam to get that type of words to come out of his mouth. he always felt the need to make you feel like you need him, but it was sometimes nice to feel needed.

and if he wasn’t the one to need you, then why give any ounce of your time to him ?

nobody needed more attention from you than ao’nung at the moment.

“why are you with him ? why not me ? what does he have that i don’t ?” he slowly said, a tear crossing his eyes. your heart squeezed, your palm wiping the tear away. he cuddled his head in your hand. “please.” he said.

“please give me a chance to give you what you deserve.” he pleaded and begged.

every second that passed, was torture for him. but he didn’t want to act like him.

he didn’t want to make you notice his erection, make you uncomfortable or even try to allude to anything. he was better. he wanted to treat you the way you deserved to be treated.

“aren’t you tired ?” he pinched his eyebrows, an offended look on his face. your face was sided to the left, not having the courage to look at him. he noticed, and grabbed your jaw.

at the feeling of his fingers on your jaw, you closed your eyes. but it wasn’t rough. it was the opposite. so gentle, you couldn’t believe it. he dragged your face back to him, his calloused big fingers lightly pressing on your cheeks. he saw the way you got scared at his gesture, and mentally promised himself to not let neteyam lay a hand on you ever again.

“aren’t you tired of being treated like a whore ?” he asked, your cheeks flushing at his vulgarity. your panties were soaking wet, he strangely didn’t feel anything. heat pooling between your legs, but you couldn’t squeeze your thighs together since they were wrapped around him.

“don’t you think you deserve better ? why don’t you let anyone treat you like you should ? i don’t get it.” he said. you had no idea of where this was going , but you were definitely not going to get back now.

“don’t you want to see how you could feel about being treated the way you should ?

why don’t you let me give you a chance at being happy ?”

“show me.”

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final notes : so... yeah ! this is kind of it for today ! hope y'all enjoyed, and PAH-LEASE let me know what y'all think in the comments and what y'all want to see in the next chapter's smut ;)

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