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i watch alot of fictional crime/detective tv shows i am also autistic i bump into the autistic super detective trope alot i dont hate it bcs atleast theres a character that is semi relatable but some of it is so bad i want to throw up. on a completely different note i recently watched chasing shadows and omg i think the main character is my favourite autistic detective. theres only four episodes but they manage to show the ups and downs of autism very well especially considering the short runtime the most relatable example is when he gets very upset about ppl lying ( i have done this) even tho it was an implicit lie (i have done this) and then sits in a small cupboard because he’s so overwhelmed (i have also done this) and theres so much i could say but most of it would not be coherent BUT ALSO THEY ENDED IT ON THE MOST DEVASTATING CLIFF HANGER AND WHY DIDNT THEY MAKE MORE THEN 4 EPISODES!!!

also alex kingston was great in it to <3

#i love him #as someone who’s both autistic and has adhd #the fact he walks away or ignores people when he’s not interested was disturbingly accurate #i can’t focus on things i don’t care ab either and i love him for it #saw someone call him rude for it and maybe but yk… autism #i :(

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Why did i have to start hyperfixating on a tv show from 2014 that got cancelled after 4 episodes on a cliff hanger and no one else cares about??? there is no fanfic. no fan art. no edits. nothing on tumblr. niente. WHY!??!?!?

#i could talk about this forever

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i have no idea what mark gatiss was going for when he wrote probe but he very much did nail the middle aged lesbian and shitty white schoolboy characters

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Reece Shearsmith in P.R.O.B.E: Ghost of Winterborne

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Reece Shearsmith in P.R.O.B.E: Devil of Winterborne

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Things Nobody Knows About Ross (a Ross Gaines x Joseph Lisgoe fanfic)

This is part 2 of a 2-fic series, but it can be read as a standalone if you wish! (Part 1 is linked here for you viewing enjoyment)

Things Nobody Knows About Ross

He has a sense of humour. When people meet Ross, they're convinced that the man's face is permanently fixed into a disappointed scowl. However, Lisgoe's come to realise that there is humour in him - it's just incredibly dark. Other people's pain seems to make his day brighter, and anyone else would be truly unnerved by the joy he took from it

But Lisgoe was just happy to meet someone with humour that mirrored his own

He can't hold his alcohol. At all. While Lisgoe could hold a considerable amount, it only took about two glasses before Ross was hammered. And hammered Ross was quite an interesting sight, slightly more untidy and more imperfect than the image he built up whilst sober

Not only is it very funny, it's also nice to have a reminder than Ross Gaines is a human being

He's a very jealous person. People always assume Lisgoe is the jealous, protective one - which isn't wrong. But he's a lot more upfront about it. Ross, on the other hand, is far more subtle. If looks could kill, the glare of a jealous Ross could send the toughest man into an early grave

Lisgoe knows the feeling of Ross' hand wrapping tightly around his wrist, the feeling of him pressing against his side, eyes sending a direct and irritated message to whoever caused the silent, jealous rage - he knows it all reasonably well

And he isn't going to pretend he doesn't find it hot as fuck

He enjoys silence. This one, at first, doesn't seem surprising. But he doesn't like silence because of the absence of human interaction, but rather the fact it allows him to recalibrate.

When they're alone together, Ross can let himself sink silently into calm. Sat beside Lisgoe on the sofa, neither of them comment on the way Ross ends up leaning against his side. And they certainly don't talk about how Ross' pinky finger manages to nudge his everytime

After a while, Lisgoe begins to rest his hand on top of Ross' - they don't talk about this either

His relationship with his father is incredibly strained. At first, Lisgoe just assumed they'd drifted apart due to distance (which would explain the almost-empty phonebook), however he soon found out, from the tiny pieces of information Ross dropped over time, that his father was way more of a dick than he first thought

While there was never any physical abuse, Ross' father hardly ever saw a positive in anything he did. Lisgoe has concluded that this is the root cause of his partner's obsession with being the best of the best. It had been drilled into him that anything below first place was an abhorrent thing that needed to be shamed out of his head

He deals with failure very badly. While Lisgoe tends to push and push until things go his way, Ross will pretty much react in the opposite fashion. If he's faced with failure, he'll clam up. Even though he tries to act as though it didn't affect him at all, Lisgoe can tell that he ends up blaming himself quite a lot

As if he's continuing his father's work

He constantly feels the need to prove himself. Everything he does has to be perfect, all of the time, or it simply isn't good enough. Ross will push himself to the absolute limits until he's satisfied

It doesn't take long for Lisgoe to notice something else about Ross:

He's never, ever satisfied with himself

Lisgoe has always found it strange, watching Ross push himself towards being "good enough". That's because, to him, Ross has always been "good". Well, maybe not always morally, but he was a damn sight better than Lisgoe thought of himself. To him, Ross is the type of man that could have anything he wanted - because he was just that good. So seeing him struggle with maintaining perfection was jarring

Because there's something that nobody, not even Ross himself, knows about Ross Gaines:

And it has nothing to do with his hatred for gory films and novels, the fact that he taught himself how to drive, or that he can eat the sourest of sweets without flinching

No, what people don't know about Ross is that he's one of the few people in Royston Vasey that doesn't just have Lisgoe's heart - he has his utmost respect

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Ollie Plimsolls Moodboard

@narratorcore requested an Ollie Plimsolls moodboard and I had to oblige, not only is he entertaining he's also a fantastic representation of the saviour complex!

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  Reece Shearsmith as Edward in Inside No. 9 | Mother’s Ruin

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men (reece shearsmith) create intricate rituals (tv series inside number 9) that allow them to touch other men (his colleague steve pemberton)

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Inside No. 9: The Last Weekend

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watching a horror movie from the early 2000s and my GOD. three slurs in the first 5 minutes, a guy molests a girl?? that’s fine apparently, the girls first instinct after finding out she’s infected is to cheat on her boyfriend and fuck the guy that molested her best friend?? WHAT

#none of the characters are actually likeable and they’re all racist freaks what is going on

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merry christmas

jesus was a palestinian jew

the birthplace of jesus, bethlehem, was raided today

bethlehem cancelled christmas celebrations this year for the first time

lebanon was also bombed today, and has been continuously bombed for the past 79 days

there were jews, muslims, and christians living together in peace in palestine before zionism

there are still christians and churches in palestine, including in gaza, and many churches in gaza have been bombed

many zionists are violent and discriminatory towards christians

about 10,000 children have been killed in gaza since october 7th

free palestine. ceasefire now

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There are still hundreds of thousands of people in Northern Gaza

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today, on twt:

#and i thought being a lesbian that thinks men aren’t ugly was controversial #i hate lgbt discourse like that exactly are we arguing ab 😭😭 #yall are basically like booooo gay people (btw im gay)

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people complaining that the actors from thg ballad of songbirds and snakes looked too modern and had a “gen z ipad face” as if it doesn’t take place in the future… how can something look “too” modern when it takes place hundred of years later…

#also how can you have an issue with lucy gray looking too modern but not coryo… misogyny maybe? #the hunger games ballad of songbirds and snakes #the hunger games #thg #thg series