Yo........ When I had my first playthrough of cp77 and was romancing River I had that hc that V flirts with Joss :33 what if.... WHAT IF......
Btw had been thinking of V/Aguilar and have a hc that they a ldr but they also fuck on the side with joytoys and don't think that's cheating sjdhshsjjs
The comparison between Zane (Jean's temporary partner) not protecting Jean from Grayson when it was needed the most versus Neil (Jean’s “misplaced forever partner”) immediately getting rid of Grayson the second he finds out he hurt Jean.
This is very dark so I am putting it under a readmore
At Arasaka Macha meets a man she is supposed to marry and he gets her pregnant but has his own selfish reasons. Before she can give birth, the embryio is taken from her with force.
She leaves Arasaka full of grief, bitterness and rage. She barely survives the operation and she doesn't even know how she can go on.
She does feel very self-destructive for a time. Which is part of what I am trying to show.
This hurt a lot shooting it for very personal reasons and I had it sitting in my drafts for a long time. But I think it's time, because I am processing so much lately and this is processing for me.
IF MY STOMACH WAS A PERSON I WOULD FUCKING STRANGLE IT!!!!!!!!! Like I eat healthy, I don't eat bread, I don't eat sweets (well not THAT MUCH), barely drink milk, eat veggies and fruits AND IT STILL HURTS!!!!! WHY!!! I'M TIRED OF WASTING LOTS OF MONEY ON DOCTORS THAT DON'T EVEN HELP ME
Thinking about how badly Andrew must’ve wanted to be known. For someone to actually notice things about him and be curious and piece all these observations together. Like. The truth game was just as much about wanting to know things about Neil as him wanting Neil to know him. And even without the truth game being evoked, when he knows what answers Neil must be digging for, he gives in more often than not. I think about how when Neil started noticing Andrew’s odd memory, especially when Neil believed him not to be paying attention and when Neil started finally asking questions, and how quickly Andrew answered them, how he must’ve been thinking, finally.
How much he wanted to be known and by someone he knew by now he could trust. Someone he knew could understand him and the implications of things he’s told. Someone he could tell his own secrets and things he’s been keeping to himself. Everything he let other people assume or misunderstand about him. This little nobody runaway is paying attention, piecing it together, understanding in a way that no one has ever been willing to do, not even his own twin. And when Aaron and Nicky asks him when this happened or other variations of the questions Neil’s already solved himself, and Andrew tells them they should’ve figured them out himself.
The way Neil was the first person to take him at his word, especially about something that wasn’t violence. To look further into him and the things he says and does and actually try to understand him. Not just write him off as a violent psychopath who does things for his own pleasure. The way Andrew wanted him to see more of him and understand him. And I just. My mind is tangles. But I want to go on about this forever.
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