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life has sucked since killing eve ended (terribly). like .. it’s been a wholeeeeee mess, besties. like as messy as that ending. but .. went to my first pride. so that’s cool. miss you. love you. still think about you all the time.

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okay okay. i’ve been trying to move on and i just happen to check in and see there’s more drama? there’s another interview?? someone please send it so i can eat revels and feel rage at LN 🙏

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Us talking about Killing Eve

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isn’t it weird that villanelle decided to go to church? she mocks anna is season 1 (“what would god say?”) and there is no way villanlle thought anna was a “good person.” like, it only makes sense if eve was religious/had a religious upbringing - since villanelle was trying to be good for eve, and all that.

i loved jesus villanelle, but just another reason this season didn’t make sense and another stark realisation that WE DON’T KNOW WENT DOWN AFTER THE BRIDGE!

#laura neal sucks #killing eve #villanelle #eve polastri #killing eve spoilers #sandra oh #villaneve #killingeve #eve x villanelle #ke spoilers #ke

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camper van is BACK just as i’m starting to feel a little bit better. what the actual fuck.

the camper van is finally gone, one week after the finale. i’m grateful it won’t be tormenting me anymore, but for some reason i’m sad it’s gone??? this show really fucked me up, ya’ll

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completely matching, visually completing eachother. but, yeah, rebirth or whatever the fuck.

oh my god they’re matching :3

#fuck you laura neal #killing eve #villanelle #eve polastri #sandra oh #villaneve

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Jodie for the Evening Standard

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just finished watching “help” and good god, jodie comer is a legend.

the person i watched it with looked at me immediately after it ended and said “why does everything jodie’s in end with her getting fucked over?”

#killing eve #villanelle #jodie comer

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send me a postcard with the details. i’m happy to get my hands dirty for the cause ahaha

How are we holding on, besties, has anyone managed to move on?

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i had a weird dream about keeping villanelle alive. so i’m totally over it.

How are we holding on, besties, has anyone managed to move on?

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what kills me is that the ending could have given hope to so many, or inspired closeted queers to come out, or been so impactful to the community. instead, we’re left with this darkness at a time where lgbtq+ folks are getting it from all sides (referencing recent events in the usa, to be specific).

writers, showrunners, networks, and the entertainment industry must do better.

Tw: substance abuse, drugs, medication, self harm, suicide ideation

I don’t know how to talk about it but I feel like the fact that the killing Eve ending caused ppl to become suicidal and have relapses is something that needs to be spoken about

It’s not even young queers either , I’ve seen ppl from ages 18-45+ write posts about how they’re struggling with depression and suicidal ideation after the final.

I’ve seen how people are forgetting to take their medication, or taking more then prescribed, self medicating, relapsing when it comes to drugs, self harm, etc, the amount of people who called in sick to work the day after the final.

This is not isolated to tumblr either, look on Twitter, on Reddit, even Facebook.

The ending has profoundly hurt queer people.

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the camper van is finally gone, one week after the finale. i’m grateful it won’t be tormenting me anymore, but for some reason i’m sad it’s gone??? this show really fucked me up, ya’ll

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playing a show tonight, so this marks my first time getting properly dressed since the finale. progress??

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As someone who is in their late 20's and a closeted lesbian, television shows provide an outlet for me to live vicariously through the characters and find joy out of their stories. Villanelle and her character arc were such a source of happiness and introspection for me. I know others feel the same way - that's why I think there is absolutely no shame in feeling mentally. physically, emotionally unwell after the finale. At face value it's already horrifying enough to see your favorite characters ruined, but subconsciously, a finale like that is telling you that if you are queer you will never find happiness, and that you are inherently wrong no matter how you try not to be. They can say that it wasn't their intent, or that an angle like that would be reading too much into it, but they need to understand that shows like Killing Eve simply do not exist for the queer community. A show where the sexualities of the characters was never a big "reveal" moment or a plot point or anything out of the ordinary. They were just allowed to exist and thrive in their spaces without ever being put into a box. It was liberating, it was fun, and it made me feel so normal. Heterosexual media features SO many different character types, relationships, and every story line you can think of, backed up by big budget and great actors. It's encouraged to be obsessed with ships, to buy merchandise, to become invested.

Yet whenever we do that we are told we're being over the top, that it's fiction, that we need to focus on real life. Why is that?

Additionally, in heterosexual media, people have the pick of the litter of characters to choose to relate too because the creative freedom in heterosexual media is limitless. There's so many genres, so much more quantity, so much more of EVERYTHING that even if a character you love dies, and it effects you to some degree, I'm sure there are at least a couple of other shows and characters that you can fall back on that ended well.

The queer community? (And I would even go so far as to single out the lesbian community, because there are SO few lesbian relationships that are thoroughly developed or have a main storyline, even less if you focus on live-acted media instead of animation). Very little to nothing.

It's why this feels like such a blow. Why Lexa was such a blow. These excellently acted, developed and unique characters that we see so rarely, brutally killed on our screens.

I would never ask for special treatment from a writer just because I'm part of the queer community, but I think there needs to be more thoughtfulness towards the depiction of lesbian characters and their similar fates in past television shows, especially in a show like Killing Eve that has asked us to invest in these characters' journeys and encouraged critical thinking and theorizing over the past 4/5 years. This wasn't a weekly 1/2 hour comedy show with a laugh track that is easily consumed for fun and can be taken at face value. This was a show that asked us to immerse ourselves in Villaneve's world, to prompt introspection and read between the lines to understand these one-of-a-kind characters and their unique bond.

So for the writers to act like it was anything but that is very sad, and moreso concerning for the future of television if people like this continue to run shows, and continue to ignore the queer voices in the room.

ALL. OF. THIS. It was perfectly said, so I don't really feel the need to expand upon it, but I do want to highlight this part that is SO fucking important:

Heterosexual media features SO many different character types, relationships...it's encouraged to be obsessed with ships, to buy merchandise, to become invested.

Yet whenever we do that we are told we're being over the top, that it's fiction, that we need to focus on real life. Why is that?

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I swear to @god, whenever I play Bite Marks the villaneve kiss comes up in my mind and a huge wave of deep sadness and melancholy hits me

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honey and bubba <3

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i’ve always loved a good clowning, but this secret episode stuff is a reach. i want it, i know a lot of other people want it, but i have to wash the make-up off on this one.

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