"And you say I abandoned the ship but I was going down with it. My white-knuckle dying grip holding tight to your quiet resentment and my friends said it isn't right to be scared. every day of a love affair Every breath feels like rarest air when you're not sure if he wants to be there so how much sad did you think I had in me? How much tragedy? Just how low did you think I'd go before I'd self-implode?"
“he was a hothouse flower to my outdoorsman” is a crazy metaphor when you think about it…. the outdoorsman loves nature and is attracted to natural beauty and thus likes the image of the hothouse flower, but by her nature needs to travel the world and explore and sometimes take risks. a hothouse flower by its nature cannot exist in the outdoorsman’s world without extensive maintenance and certainly cannot travel to anywhere except what perfectly matches its required conditions…... the wrong humidity, the wrong temperature, and the flower will die. so the outdoorsman stops traveling to tend to this delicate and particular flower that looks gorgeous, but she can no longer go outside and adventure and be wild and see the world. SHE IS TETHERED TO THIS GREENHOUSE TO KEEP HER FLOWER ALIVE……… absolutely crazy metaphor in a single line. like what
say it once again with feeling, how the death rattle breathing silenced as the soul was leaving, the deflation of our dreaming leaving me bereft and reeling. my beloved ghost and me. i stopped CPR, after all, it’s no use. the spirit was gone, we would never come to. and i’m pissed off you let me give you all that youth for free. for so long, london. stitches undone, two graves, one gun. i’ll find someone.
"And you say I abandoned the ship but I was going down with it. My white-knuckle dying grip holding tight to your quiet resentment and my friends said it isn't right to be scared. every day of a love affair Every breath feels like rarest air when you're not sure if he wants to be there so how much sad did you think I had in me? How much tragedy? Just how low did you think I'd go before I'd self-implode?"