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‘ sometimes, you’ll find it hard to keep going, but you always will.

ASK MEME 

“ grave suggestion ” edition

         This had been true so far; would it always continue to be, though? 

         A child left——— no, SOLD and ABANDONED in a place like Jakku had known plenty of struggles ( and growing up, had wondered what was even the point of all the efforts during dark nights where the LONELINESS hit her harder ). Hardship had been her faithful companion throughout her entire life; and it made her STRONGER, truth be told, more determinate even. The weight placed upon her shoulders seemed to only grow, nonetheless, and Rey had to wonder if it would ever grow so heavy that it would prompt her to FALL.

         “ Everything feels so HEAVY at times. Too heavy. But I have no intention to give up. ” She simply hoped to be strong enough not to. Too many had been sacrificed, lost, killed ( Rey couldn’t avoid thinking of Han Solo anymore she could avoid thinking of her Jedi master, then ). We have everything we need, the General had told her, still ————— and what they had was worth fighting for, Rey believed. “ For those who lost their lives trying to fight, and those who are still here to protect, I MUST go on. ”

         “ And I’ll do what I must. The idea of giving up never sat well with me. ”Silence fell for a moment. Rey had lacked guidance for so long ( it was difficult not to seek it in her seniors now ). She’d fight if she had to, kill if necessary. Would it be necessary, though? Her vision had been so CLEAR… could it really be all wrong? “ ———— I’m having trouble giving up on him as well… Ben — Kylo. ” 

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this ask meme is based on the blog gravesuggestion.  i’ve divided it up into two categories  ( light  &  dark )  based on the themes.  some of these can be somewhat triggering seeing that the darker ones deal with a lot of death mentions.  please be cautious before continuing on!!

L I G H T

‘  at night i dream of you.  ’ ‘  don’t give up yet.  you still have time to fix things.  ’ ‘  falling in love with someone else is not a personal attack.  ’ ‘  i am still so weak when it comes to you.  ’ ‘  i can’t believe i let myself let you down.  ’ ‘  i don’t care where we go when we die,  as long as i’m with you.  ’ ‘  i dream of saying to you all the words i held inside until it was too late.  ’ ‘  i feel so warm  &  safe when you talk to me.  maybe i could love you if you’d let me.  ’ ‘  i finally let the right people in  &  i have never felt so loved.  ’ ‘  i like the way your nails paint red stripes along my spine days after you’re gone.  ’ ‘  i lived in your permafrost for twenty years  &  then you looked at me  &  i felt the warmth of spring.  ’ ‘  i once wished you’d leave me alone,  but i take it back.  ’ ‘  i want to be able to love someone else,  but you stretch your arms  &  spread your legs inside my heart so that there is no room for anyone or anything else.  ’ ‘  i want to believe that we got it right this time.  ’ ‘  i wonder how much longer i can cling to your light before it expires completely.  ’ ‘  i would travel across the world to be by your side,  because as long as you are with me,  anywhere is a perfect place to me.  ’ ‘  it took me awhile to realize it myself,  but you are not what other people say you are.  ’ ‘  it’s not that i really need you,  but life would be pretty boring without you around.  there’s no one i would rather be with.  ’ ‘  i’d like to stay like this for awhile.  ’ ‘  life  &  death don’t have to be so boring,  let’s make both an adventure.  ’ ‘  life imitates art,  they say.  i didn’t believe it until i started to notice the way your eyelashes look so much like tiny ink stroke.  ’ ‘  live your life so that when you die,  souls will come for miles just to hear your historic tales.  ’ ‘  make your exes jealous  &  your past self proud.  ’ ‘  maybe you’re what i needed to find in order to move on.  ’ ‘  never get caught falling harder.  they’ll never let you back up.  ’ ‘  please don’t go.  ’ ‘  some days it’s easier to just stop fighting it  &  succumb.  ’ ‘  sometimes,  you’ll find it hard to keep going,  but you always will.  ’ ‘  the desire i feel for you is that same itching,  insidious hunger that an addict has for their addiction.  ’ ‘  the worst thing about you is that you weren’t all bad.  ’ ‘  there is absolutely nothing  &  no one who can stop me.  ’ ‘  there is no route of losing you that is without pain.  ’ ‘  there’s still room for adventure  &  there is no one i’d rather have by my side.  ’ ‘  things didn’t turn out the way i planned,  but i’m alright with that.  ’ ‘  we could be really incredible together,  you know?  ’ ‘  you are beautiful  &  vibrant  &  confident.  you are light  &  laughter incarnate  &  every fiber of your being screams freedom  &  joy.  when i am with you,  i am truly happy.  ’ ‘  you are starlight incarnate,  from the grand way you sway your hips to the wide mysterious way you think.  blessed are any to be loved by you.  ’ ‘  you are too afraid of the future to let go of a past that was never kind to you.  ’ ‘  you call me yours  &  i have no idea what that even means to you.  ’ ‘  you remind me of bubblegum  &  sweets;  soft  &  pink  &  warm.  you are strong in the gentlest way.  you are so stubbornly kind.  i wish i could be like that.  ’ ‘  you still visit me while i sleep sometimes.  your fingers trace my spine  &  i listen to you breathe.  please stop haunting me.  ’ ‘  ‘morbid curiosity’ is a wonderful way to describe how i feel about you.  ’

D A R K

‘  a thousand empty bottles  &  fist fights will never return to us what we lost that day.  ’ ‘  everyone else has moved on,  but i am still here.  ’ ‘  everything about you screams danger.  ’ ‘  everything is worthless to you  &  you,  in turn,  became worthless.  ’ ‘  for once in my life i want to be surrounded by people that i don’t feel like i need to impress.  ’ ‘  freedom is really hard to get used to.  ’ ‘  how could you do this to me?  how fucking could you?  ’ ‘  i am becoming everything we always dreamed of  &  i am leaving you behind.  ’ ‘  i buried you so well that you might as well have died.  ’ ‘  i can rest easy knowing that the person i love is dead  &  not the monster you became.  ’ ‘  i can’t look at you.  not now,  not ever.  ’ ‘  i don’t ask how you’ve been.  what’s the point?  you’d lie anyways.  ’ ‘  i dream of hearing the words i so desperately needed to lay your memory to rest.  ’ ‘  i haunted this house first.  there is no room for you here.  ’ ‘  i have a right to be upset.  i loved them too, you know.  ’ ‘  i just want it to end.  i want it to all go away.  i want to go away.  ’ ‘  i may be a wolf in sheep’s clothing,  but a snake hiding in the skin of a mouse is far more dangerous.  ’ ‘  i saw your face today  &  didn’t feel anything.  i am free.  ’ ‘  i tried to save you,  but you didn’t want to be saved.  you just wanted someone to suffer with you.  ’ ‘  it’s almost as if you were never here.  ’ ‘  it’s unhealthy to do these things,  you tell me.  you say it’s time to stop smoking,  time to stop gambling,  &  dammit,  i f you don’t stop drinking it’ll kill you.  i sure hope you’re right,  darling.  ’ ‘  i’m always pleasantly surprised by how easy it is to kill you in my mind  ’ ‘  i’m not really scared to die.  i’m more afraid that no one will miss me when i’m gone.  ’ ‘  i’m not the person you left behind anymore.  there’s no one here to miss.  ’ ‘  i’ve been dead far longer than i’ve been alive.  ’ ‘  i’ve eaten nothing but flower petals  &  ivy for weeks because i want to be beautiful inside like you.  ’ ‘  i’ve never been completely satisfied.  i most likely will still be unsatisfied long after my death.  ’ ‘  no motive other than pleasure,  my dear.  ’ ‘  one day i’ll go or you will.  either way,  it will be as if i’m losing a piece of myself.  ’ ‘  our dreams  &  promises decay along with you.  ’ ‘  the leaves change,  but nothing else does.  ’ ‘  the only difference between avoiding  &  leaving is that now i’m not waiting up for you.  ’ ‘  there is no such thing as a person who is required to love you.  ’ ‘  there’s only so much that can be done to repair old damage.  ’ ‘  things aren’t going as i hoped.  maybe if i die,  i can start over again?  better luck next time.  ’ ‘  this is not something to be proud of.  this is a tragedy.  ’ ‘  trying to get rid of me?  oh honey,  you’ll have to try much harder than that.  ’ ‘  trying to get under my skin?  you’re nothing more than a pesky itch.  ’ ‘  unlike you,  i can’t hide my identity when it becomes an inconvenience or a danger.  ’ ‘  weeping is for gods  &  martyrs,  we cannot afford such luxuries.  ’ ‘  would you even miss me?  ’ ‘  you are not important enough to earn an eternal place in my heart.  ’ ‘  you complain nonstop about being unloved  &  alone,  i can’t imagine what you’d be like if that were actually true.  ’ ‘  you don’t know what it’s like.  ’ ‘  you made this so fucking easy for me.  ’ ‘  you should see me as a threat.  i will tear down everything you know until there is nothing left of you.  i am a walking threat.  ’ ‘  you think i’m already gone,  but i’m still fighting.  ’ ‘  you think i’m dead,  but i’m just dying.  ’ ‘  you were never an addiction,  you were a fucking disease.  ’ ‘  you wouldn’t dare cross me.  i am god  &  you are the soil beneath my feet.  ’ ‘  your existence takes up so much more space in mine that we might as well be one entity.  ’ ‘  your fingers are so cold  &  bruised,  but you’re still slamming your fists again the barricade as if it makes a difference.  ’ ‘  your hair is tied in a noose  &  your fingernails are razor blades,  your lips are poison  &  i will gratefully kiss them.  ’ ‘  your hatred has a body count  &  we will not forget.  ’ ‘  your loss,  not mine.  ’ ‘  you’re a sick fuck.  you know that?  ’ ‘  you’re not gentle with me  &  i would never ask you to be.  ’ ‘  you’ve trapped yourself so thoroughly in your own mind that it’s not even a rut anymore,  it’s a pit.   ’

#&&. reach out; what do you see? [ MEMES ]

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👊 for an argument/fight starter

WANT A RANDOM STARTER?

Done at last!You can find it right here and talk to me if you wanna change anything c:

#I hope it's okay c: #but if not really #just hmu and we can talk about what needs to be changed? #secrxtapprentixe #&&. comlink [ ANSWERED ] #&&. this ain't a fairytale [ OOC ]

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@secrxtapprentixe sent  👊 for an argument/fight starter

         “ --------- Then show me how to do this right! ” Frustrated words had more than a hint of AGGRESSIVE. Durable as it was, her patience wasn’t unlimited ( and her teacher’s demeanor helped with naught; surely, Rey didn’t expect or want affable words, but HIS patience seemed even shorter than her own ). She was TRYING; for a really long time, to very little effect. Her new master did not seem HAPPY to see so little control, yet Rey had little idea what to do to set emotion aside and do PROPER use of the Force. “ I was under the impression you meant to teach me, that it was why you found me. Have you missed the part that I know NOTHING of how this Jedi thing works? ”

#secrxtapprentixe #[ SECRXTAPPRENTIXE 001 ] #&&. a lot to learn [ CANON 001 / TFA ] #&&. the spirit of a true jedi [ IC ] #here it is #finally #if you want something else #please feel free to let me know c: #if I got somethin g wrong #too #just hmu #c:

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Want a random starter?

Send me a symbol…

🎬 for me to use a line from the last movie I watched as a starter 📹 for me to use a line from my favorite movie as a starter 📚 for me to grab the book nearest to me, flip to a random page, and use the first line of dialogue I see as a starter 🎧 for me to shuffle my playlist and use the first line of the next song as a starter 🎶 for me to use my favorite line of the last song I listened to as a starter 📺 for me to use a line from the last TV show I watched as a starter 💻 for me to use a line from my favorite TV show as a starter 🎵for me to shuffle my playlist and use my favorite line of the next song as a starter 😊 for me to make a starter based off the first thing in your wanted plots tag 😉 for me to make a starter based off the first thing in my wanted plots tag 💋 for a shippy starter 😡 for an angsty starter 👊 for an argument/fight starter 🌈 for a random encounter starter 🏩 for a nsfw starter 📫 for a text message starter 💀 for a dark starter 🍬 for a fluffy starter

#&&. reach out; what do you see? [ MEMES ] #basically a starter call #where you can pick which sort of starter you'd prefer #and make it easier to me too asdinfjajnsdf

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what I say: my inbox is always open! :)

what I mean: ᵖˡᵉᵃˢᵉ

#&&. this ain't a fairytale [ OOC ] #it me

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send me a ♬ and a number between 1-10 and i’ll put my itunes on shuffle and skip to that number and write a starter with my favorite lyric from that song.

example: if you send me ♬ 7, i’ll put my itunes on shuffle, skip forward seven songs and use my favorite lyric from that song.

#&&. reach out; what do you see? [ MEMES ]

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jolyene:

“you’re up early!”

jokes on you i didn’t sleep at all and am in between energized and dying

#&&. inside me that same force [ ABOUT ] #hmmm #a thing that would happen very often #bc you know #insomnia

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#rey really likes trees #and water #lakes rivers but more than anything the sea #&&. light; dark; a balance [ AESTHETIC ] #I think she'd never stop being awed by those things she barely ever saw in jakku #not to say she hates the desert because I don't think she does #rey doesn't #hate sand™ #she just likes water and trees better

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send me a ♬ and a number between 1-10 and i’ll put my itunes on shuffle and skip to that number and write a starter with my favorite lyric from that song.

example: if you send me ♬ 7, i’ll put my itunes on shuffle, skip forward seven songs and use my favorite lyric from that song.

#&&. reach out; what do you see? [ MEMES ]

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→ Star Wars Atlas (2009) - Galactic Regions → Interesting notes:  Location of many notable planets, the layers of galatic regions → This is a selection of maps showing the sectors of Star Wars’ galaxy, radiating outward from the center.  While no longer strictly canon (as of April 25, 2014) it still gives a good idea of what planets are where.  It can be especially helpful if you want to find a planet that’s nowhere near Coruscant to strand your characters on or if you want to find a more densely populated world near the center of everything!  Or if you just want to know how close a specific planet is to the center of the galaxy. ✦ Deep Core:  

Byss

(Note:  The Deep Core did not hold as many notable worlds as the Core Worlds/Galactic Core/the Core, it had a massive black hole at the center which made hyperspace travel difficult and it was extremely densely packed with stars that had tremendous gravitational pull.) ✦ The Core:  

Alderaan / Anaxes / Brentaal / Corellia / Coruscant / Duro / Kuat / Nubia / N’zoth

✦ The Colonies:  

Fondor / Neimoidia

✦ Inner Rim:  

Bestine / Hapes / Onderon / Taanab / Thyferra

✦ Expansion Region:   

Mimban

✦ Mid Rim:  

Ansion / Bothawui / Boz Pity / Ithor / Kashyyyk / Malastare / Naboo / Nar Shadda / Ord Mantell / Ruusan

✦ Hutt Space:  

Nal Hutta / Nar Shadda / Toydaria

✦ Outer Rim:  

Anoat / Bespin / Bonadan / Christophsis / Dagobah / Dantooine / Dathomir / Endor (Forest Moon) / Eriadu / Felucia / Gamorr / Geonosis / Honoghr / Hoth / Kamino / Kessel / Korriban / Mandalore / Mon Cala / Mustafar / Mygeeto / Nal Hutta / Ossus / Raxus Prime / Rhen Var / Rishi / Rodia / Ryloth / Saleucami / Sernpidal / Shadda-Bi-Boran / Sullust / Tatooine / Toydaria / Triton / Tund / Utapau / Yavin

✦ Wild Space:  

Bakura / Kalee / Teth

✦ Unknown Regions:  

Csilla / Iego / Ilum / Nagi / Lehon (Rakata Prime) / Rattatak / Zonama Sekot

#[ REFERENCE ] #&&. this ain't a fairytale [ OOC ]

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IMAGINE DRAGONS EVOLVE SENTENCE STARTERS.

feel free to change things as you please!

we couldn’t be closer if we tried.

your love is always dangerous.

tell me that you love me.

i was born for this.

‘cause i love the adrenaline in my veins.

i’m ready for whatever it takes.

i’m fired up and tired of the way that things have been. 

i was broken from a young age.

you made me a believer. 

you’re the face of the future, the blood in my veins.

do you feel the same when i’m away from you?

do you know the line that i’d walk for you?

we could turn around or we could give it up.

we’ll take what comes.

oh, the storm is raging against us now.

if you’re afraid of falling, then don’t look down.

there’s tears we’ll cry but those tears will fade.

it’s the price we pay when it comes to love. 

i’ll take your hand when thunder roars.

i’ll hold you close, i’ll stay the course.

i was always up for making changes.

i wanna see it all, give me more. 

i’m broken in the prime of my life.

i took your heart, took your hand. promised you all that i had.

it seemed like we’re going nowhere.

baby, i know it’s not fair.

lay with me for one more night. 

and in your eyes i could see the places you’d rather be.

here’s to my future, here’s to my yesterday.

but in all this trouble i’ve met i haven’t got one single regret.

i’m a hopeless crash collision.

i wanna live a life like that.

i was living life, living just to please.

i’m overboard, i’m self destructive. 

i was dreaming of bigger things.

wanna leave my old life behind.

who do you think you are?

they say you’re basic, they say you’re easy.

i never did you right, i know that.

can we start over?

#&&. reach out; what do you see? [ MEMES ]

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@occisoren || cont.

    “ You make it sound like it should be so easy, SCAVENGER.” the title escapes her lips like distasteful venom, back foot shifting as though ready to POUNCE upon her, despite restraints that keep the girl immobile but her head. So courious, so POWERFUL - this girl, this rey from jakku. snoke had grown so curious about her that even the knights begun to wonder just WHO she was.

      Lips pressed together, she ALMOST flinches at the words ( tone is meant to cut, and the jab is indeed felt ). Eyes never leave the other, however, watching every movement carefully ( warily, waiting for the moment stalking would end and the other would STRIKE ). There’s little else Rey can do, tied up and unable to move, and she cannot avoid the FEAR. Free to move and with her quarterstaff in hand, she’d have a chance to FIGHT --- like this she poses little threat to anyone, regardless of how much she wishes to harm them; nonetheless, she does need to end this. “ No, not EASY ------ ” Not IMPOSSIBLE, either. There must be a way to escape, somehow ( difficult as it may be, Rey isn’t hopeless ). 

“ --------------- Are you here to QUESTION me? ”

#hi hello #thanks for the reply #and if you don't want to continue this it's perfectly fine too aisdfjaksn #I just felt like writing sorry #&&. the spirit of a true jedi [ IC ] #occisoren

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Do u ever not realize how starved for affection u are till someone hugs u a bit tighter than normal and you find that you really don’t want to let go

#or just you know hugs her #rey wants so bad to be loved #and to matter #which is why it means the world to her that finn goes back for her #because no one ever did #and she didn't believe herself to be important to anyone #and also why acts of affection as a whole are something she treasures greatly #:') this is fine #&&. inside me that same force [ ABOUT ]

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list of common rp things you never need to worry about when you’re rping with me:

if i like our plot - i have never feigned interest in a plot. i’d tell you if i wasn’t feeling the plot you pitched. also, i honestly do not go and make posts for plots i’m not interested in. i like being super invested in my ships and i feel like the best way to do that is to be honest about it from the get go. 

not replying fast enough - life is tough, friends. i totally get it. sometimes we don’t have the muse for a thread, sometimes we’re in a bad place mentally and we really just can’t with life, or we’re busy with school or work. shh, you don’t owe me anything. post when able, fam. i don’t drop threads without a warning!

if you think you’re bothering me with headcanons, asks and etc - STOP RIGHT THERE. you are NOT bothering me with those at all. i live for those so KEEP THEM COMING.

if you want more plots/ships - TELL ME. chances are i want them too! 

your post length - your post length really doesn’t bother me - i can get pretty wordy sometimes and honestly i don’t expect people to match me. doesn’t matter if i get a one paragraph reply to a three paragraph one, as long as there’s something to reply to, you know? substance over length any day.

if you want to drop a plot - my feelings don’t get hurt over things like this. tell me if you wanna drop a plot and let’s make a new one if you’re interested, if not then that’s fine too! 

if you have a headcanon/plot you think is too dark - tell me ANYWAY? honestly i don’t have a lot of hard limits and i’ve been on the internet so long that at this point it takes a LOT to scare me. creative freedom is also pretty great, so. 

that being said,

i’m really crap at replying to ims on tumblr! - i have the worst attention span on the planet, and sometimes tumblr hates me so sometimes i don’t get the tumblr chat im pop ups - it’s the weirdest thing ever but i could get messages and i wouldn’t know until i check tumblr on my phone? (but then sometimes three or four days have gone by and oops.) i’m always on telegram tho, so if you have it, and you’d like mine, feel free to drop me an ask and i’ll get to you on there instead!

sometimes i can be in a pretty bad place muse wise too - and it’s definitely not you. i’ll most likely still be sending headcanons and doing ask memes in a rather sad bid to get myself out of that funk but yeah. sometimes it’ll take a few days for me to reply to a thread. i’ll tell you if i want to drop it, though. 

i like making friends - so if you wanna talk about things that aren’t about our ships, that’d be pretty awesome too! 

i get super invested in my ships - and i will probably bother you with asks and headcanons A LOT and i understand this can get annoying especially on days where we’re not really feeling rp, so just tell me if you wanna talk about other things, yes? c: 

god i’m super chill and i hate fighting - rp is supposed to be fun, and though i’ve never actually really fought with anyone in rp land, i know many of my friends have, and i just can’t with that so. yeah. 

i think that’s it, really? i see so many posts by new rpers going around like, ‘ugh the rpc intimidates me’ and i’m just…come over here let me love you. so if you have a plot you want to do, don’t be shy and just hit me up, yes? i don’t bite!

#&&. this ain't a fairytale [ OOC ] #&&. galatic law [ PSA ]

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Sleep Deprivation Sentence Starters

Requested by Anonymous

“When was the last time you slept?” 

“What? Sorry, I’m having trouble focusing…” 

“…What was I doing?” 

“What are you doing?” 

“Did you see that? No?” 

“I haven’t slept in almost __ days.” 

“You look absolutely terrible.” 

“I’m so exhausted I don’t feel tired anymore.” 

“I don’t think I can stand up without things spinning.” 

“You need to go to bed.” 

“I can’t sleep.” 

“You aren’t making any sense.” 

“…What?” 

🏨+ Add your own!

#&&. reach out; what do you see? [ MEMES ]

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* soft angst starters

‘ stay with me tonight? ’

‘ don’t talk. save your strength. ’

‘ hey, i’ve got you. it’s okay. ’

‘ i’ll be right here. don’t worry. ’

‘ i think we’re done. ’

‘ hold my hand. ’

‘ it’s all been a lie, hasn’t it? ’

‘ we’re out of time. ’

‘ you’ll always be a friend. ’

‘ just hold me. ’

‘ i have to leave you behind. i’m sorry. ’

‘ don’t do that. it’ll only hurt. ’

‘ go on, cry. ’

‘ keep your eyes open. ’

‘ can i hug you? ’

‘ i trusted you. ’

‘ do you remember? ’

‘ i loved you. ’ 

#&&. reach out; what do you see? [ MEMES ]