lillylvjy

[lillylvjy]

I will be leaving. I will leave this account up , because I am happy with what I did here.

Bye everyone. Take care of yourselves <3

- Lilly.

#lilly stfu

[lillylvjy]

be kind to yourselves.

please.

#lilly stfu

[lillylvjy]

take care of yourselves, you are all important and I’m proud of all of you.

#lilly stfu #anon asks are off for the time being.

[lillylvjy]

hot take, theres more then one side of a story

[lillylvjy]

I appreciate you being the sacrifice to offer a differing POV. I wouldn't ever voice my opinion publicly because people are so unbelievably cruel, but I appreciate your willingness to. It feels isolating to not immediately want to condemn and distance myself, and read take after take that's nothing but "feel shame." To be able to read at least one take that's not pure denial, but offers other insight is a balm.

Maybe I too will feel different eventually, but being told "feel this or else you're bad" drives me nuts in these situations. My feelings are slow, can I please have room to feel them?

As you said, we are multi faceted entire people and I do not want to be told I'm a misogynist or abuse apologist for not immediately condemning someone. It's tiring.

Again, I genuinely appreciate it. I don't have the stomach to do it. You don't have to respond/maybe for the best if you don't.

I hope you don't mind me answering this. I feel that currently it's important for me to do so, so no one else feels alone.

You are not a bad person for questioning things, you are not a bad person for taking time with your emotions and you are especially not a bad person for waiting for confirmation.

It's speculation, that's all it is. We only know a bit of the story, we don't even know the full half of the story we've been given. Only pieces. How can we judge off of that? Why are we expected to change everything around us when such little information is offered?

I am voicing my differing opinion so others can be aware that it is not black and white. As you said, humans are multi faceted. Every situation involving people is not going to be black and white. There are going to be grey areas, there are things that are going to be blurry.

Making a quick judgement because a bunch of people on the Internet tell you to, is not fair to any party. I understand if that what you needed for yourself, but for me I needed to look at it differently or else I would've driven myself insane. It would be a different story if we had solid, clear evidence that it was who everyone thinks it is. But we don't.

I talked to my therapist about being told to feel shame (I was told this by someone in a reblog and in multiple asks, thanks anons! /sar). She told me

"You're in charge of what you feel, no one else is. Do you think you should feel shame [for not following the pack]?"

I told her no, and I wouldn't expect anyone else to feel shame either. We are human, but we need to have empathy for our fellow humans. The ones around us who are hurting or are simply taking a slower approach.

We don't know anything definite. Don't expect anyone to make a decision off speculation.

I don't know how I have the stomach, besides the fact I am tired of having to sit back and watch people tell others and myself how we're horrible people for taking a different look at it.

Thank you for sending this, anon<3 I woke up again and I am very happy to get to read this. I feel a lot better and I appreciate you. You are loved and appreciated and please, take care of yourself. You come first.

[lillylvjy]

Well. It’s been good.

I may be on. But. Yeah.

my discord is literally my username so you can find me there.

#lilly stfu

[lillylvjy]

Are u ok what’s going on ?

Someone I think, kinda confirmed everything but I don’t know. I don’t know what to do.

#lilly’s ask #anon <3

[lillylvjy]

i need tumblr to be a safe space from the shit going on in twitter

PLEASE BRO

i want a safe space to do shit and not have to see people spreading rumors and making people look bad

[lillylvjy]

I’m done talking about this.

#lilly stfu

[lillylvjy]

i'm scared what if it is about wilbur

shelby shares some really horrible things

i don't want to think it's wilbur but it scares me that it could be

it really doesn't seem to match up with his online persona, but that is a persona, and i want to believe that he speak truth through his music and stuff, but i hope that he wasn't like that

at the very least, i hope he's trying to get better

'm sorry, i don't want to assume or anything, but i'm ... worried

I understand the scared bit. I do.

But again. If it’s not said directly, don’t assume. That’s the worse you can do. Assuming gets people in deep shit and hurts more. And if it was him, he’s getting better. We know this.

Just don’t assume.

#lilly’s ask #anon <3

[lillylvjy]

i truly believe parasocial relationships will be the end of most of my favorite content creators careers.

anymore i feel as tho there are two sides to a fandom. the one who like to sit back and bask in content, maybe following a few update blogs or accounts so they’re updated on the most recent events involving their favorite creator.

and then there’s the people who dig too deep into someone’s personal life. they treat them as a friend and not a stranger constructed of pixels on a screen. they talk about them and refer to them as if they know them in real life.

these people concern me, constantly digging into the lives of those online, and making it an ultimate hell for everyone else.

parasocial relationships are an evasion of privacy, a way to start rumors and lies, a thing that can make or break a persons online presence.

parasocial relationships will most likely scare people off the internet, leaving other fans with nothing to watch, with no comfort creator or streams, maybe even video to look forward too.

please, if you’re going to be a fan of someone be normal.

there’s a perfect term for this; stan. stalker-fan.

don’t be a stan. be a normal fan.

consume the content, leave a like and positive comment, and move on.

don’t treat them like a friend. don’t talk about them like a friend. don’t act like they’re your friend. because they’re not.

if you only know them through a screen, their posts are just a bunch of 1’s and 0’s to you; they are not your friend.

parasocial relationships truly need to stop

[lillylvjy]

um, have you seen shelby's last stream?

abuse tw

No….

What happened?

#lilly’s ask #anon <3

[lillylvjy]

i'm awake again

risen from the dead like jesus christ

Yay! Jesus 2.0 is here!! (can I say that???)

#lilly’s ask #nico <3

[lillylvjy]

Like it’s either wanna go to a fair with her and have a cute little date or such sad angst where you break up after the biggest softball game of hers and they win-

I have softball Wilma thoughts but like- my adhd ass is like “which one?!”

[lillylvjy]

I have softball Wilma thoughts but like- my adhd ass is like “which one?!”

#there’s so many

[lillylvjy]

hi i woke up earlier and was gonna go with my parent to take my dog to the vet for a check-up, but hrrr i soooo eepy mmimimimi smsiminminini

GO TO SLEEEEEEEEEEEEEP

#lilly’s ask #nico <3 #with love

[lillylvjy]

1950s WILBUR ANYONE

#lilly stfu #Spotify