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jay (epipen boy) has a writing credit on a jrock song and hes performing with the band too woaaah that's cool of him

#enhypen rock mini album next... #this reminds me. hyuka said he wants to do a rock inflhenced solo song i need that too.... #z.post

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a day with m essential: he xinqi and cao ziwei for idest magazine issue 10, ph. ye fei

#soft.jpeg

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being obsessed w a piece of media is so scary. what if my mutuals see how insane i go about it and think oh i gotta check out what this is about and then think it sucks and kill me with rocks. what if they hate my favorite characters

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whatever

#this is what i look like when im at uni #overdressed bc i have to serve cunt or ill die #sipping an iced drink in some building that's literally falling apart bc it was last renovated in 1980

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april has tasted bittersweet every year since I turned 14

#lol hiiiiii ^_^ #z.post

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BEOMGYU :: WORKOUT JJANG BEOMGYU EP. 01

#princess beomgyu .... icb his dramatic ass was getting carried back to the gym bridal style 💀 #beomgyu

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i talked to my mom about having a bad week and she kissed my hand and told me she was rooting for me. we both cried a little and it felt equal parts cathartic and dread inducing. afterwards, i took coco outside for a few minutes because it's 19°C with a warm breeze. for lunch im having pancakes, greek yogurt with sliced banana, and earl grey milk tea (I woke up at noon -_-). i even took a cute picture of it! I'll be okay maybe. I don't know but I feel a bit better right now at least.

#haha . sighs #z.post

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critically acclaimed but the critics are me and my mutuals

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tagged by zahra my oomfiedoomfie @jinsouled to shuffle my fav playlist and then list the first five songs that come up :]

here we go ^_^ :

think fast - dominic fike (feat. weezer)

radio - freak slug

miracle - txt

sunburn - dominic fike

heavy - the marías

tagging a handful of the beloveds and darlings in no particular order: @melancholic @poliploki @newporters @spiderbyhoshi @secondhandlovers @txtdejavu @cellaisaredpanda @powm (if ur feeling up for it ofc <3)

#z.post #tagged

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ohhhh i have faggot mannerisms

#well yes! which is why i am the mainfaggot

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ok im fine nothing happened im good it's fine

#fuck my stupid baka life #z.post

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no one is going to fix me or save me except for me. but can someone keep me company? someone other than a past self that feels distant and wronged by my present self? for the love of god HI HELLO please please please listen to my prayers this summer god if you're listening: im so tired of being alone and afraid all the time. all my friends have better friends and my parents have better children and my sisters like each other more than they like me and I'm too tired to be bitter or resentful because I'm not 16 anymore and I've made my peace with it and I know they still care about me more than I can believe. I'm just a bit sad and I'm just so tired all the time and it would be nice for a change, to be important to someone without feeling like I'm imposing myself on them simply by existing. it would be nice to feel at home

#sorry for being dramatic on a friday night in April im just. well. anyway #z.post

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MY LIBERATION NOTES (2022) — dir. kim seok yoon

#im getting upset again.. #my liberation notes #shows

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the get down (2016) // the raven king - maggie stiefvater

#my liberation notes (2022) has a scene where mijeong says that she knows she likes someone because the feeling slows her heartbeat down #something along the lines of “i feel more at ease” #i find this way of describing love to be so ... beautiful idk how to be eloquent rn #words

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i watched theater camp (2023) and it was so funny it lessened my existential dread and relentless pessimism for 92 minutes

#and then i said hi to my mom when she came home from work and she was a little rude to me so i started crying. i am very well adjusted #these past fews days i have been going insane im like a hamster in a wheel #i want to be with my friends but i don't want anyone to be near me #i want to hug my mom but i hate when shes home #i want to hang out with my little sister but every time she opens her mouth she makes sure to say something mean #i want to go outside but it never makes me feel any better when i notice that other people are watching #i think pretending to be normal on campus every week for 8 months has worn me out and now im going insane..this happened last year too #also im so empty all the time and also restless and so i force myself to do tasks and i feel hardly any difference before and after #z.post

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Please share this around

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I cannot express how much I adore dappled shadows formed by sunlight in paintings and photography and in real life

#soft.jpeg #art