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Vampire Shigs sketch.

#ooc tba. #the decaying soul : shigaraki. #mun art #personals dni

[mayhemmybeloved]

sometimes "make me" comes out of his mouth. and i don't think he understands the actions that can follow.

#the decaying soul : shigaraki. #will he get his ass pinned? #will it be a “aight bet” out come? #he doesn't know and probs doesn't care #until it happens #also what if i slowly came back to rping on here? #comp is shitty af but i think i can do it

[mayhemmybeloved]

Honestly. I wanna write Shigs meeting Nana because I truly think he would not know how to take it. And this could result in many different things.

#ooc tba. #the decaying soul : shigaraki. #let that boy meet his grandmother

[mayhemmybeloved]

red dead redemption 1 starters

❝ it’s wanting that gets so many folks in trouble. ❞ ❝ it ain’t no secret i didn’t get these scars falling over in church. ❞ ❝ if you win power, remember why you wanted it. ❞ ❝ you do a man wrong, he’ll shoot you for it. you do a man right…well, he still may shoot you for it. ❞ ❝ trust me. there’s things you’re better off not knowing. ❞ ❝ you remind me a lot of myself. how i used to be. stubborn and angry. ❞ ❝ i hope you will give me some warning if you get the sudden urge to kill me. ❞ ❝ my side wasn’t chosen. my side was given. ❞ ❝ a little sore, but apart from a couple extra scars, it will be as nothing happened. ❞ ❝ i don’t think you’re a bad person. a little stupid perhaps, but not rotten. ❞ ❝ i certainly don’t mind you asking, if you don’t mind me not telling. ❞ ❝ you are being deliberately obscure as a substitute for having a personality. ❞ ❝ so do tell me, have you needlessly risked your life since we last spoke? ❞ ❝ i came into this world fighting. and i’ll go out of it fighting. ❞ ❝ i hear you speak and suddenly i'm reminded of how the people i respected most in my life had a problem with authority. ❞ ❝ you're looking much better. considering you were almost buzzard food a couple days ago. ❞ ❝ power is like a drink. the more you have, the more you want. ❞ ❝ people don’t forget. nothing gets forgiven. ❞ ❝ sometimes in the service of what is right, you got to do terrible things. ❞ ❝ you have quite a story. i really am a little jealous. ❞ ❝ old friends make the worst enemies. ❞ ❝ i had everything, and gave it up in the pursuit of nothing. ❞ ❝ hah. you were always bad at lying. ❞ ❝ i’m not going to stand by and watch good people suffer. ❞ ❝ some trees flourish, others die. some cattle grow strong, others are taken by wolves. some men are born rich enough and dumb enough to enjoy their lives. ain't nothing fair. you know that. ❞ ❝ if you find yourself in a hole, the first thing to do is stop digging. ❞ ❝ now, if you don't mind, i'd hate to spoil such a beautiful afternoon on such beautiful land with any further unpleasantries. ❞ ❝ i, too, have a family, friend. and so that we may see our families again i suggest we part ways amicably. ❞ ❝ sometimes i tell myself that everything happens for a reason. ❞ ❝ i see the good in everybody. it’s a flaw of mine. ❞ ❝ well, try not to get yourself killed. ❞ ❝ see if you can keep your gun holstered for once. ❞ ❝ i don’t pay much attention to rumors. ❞ ❝ i swear, if it was down to me, i’d never have gone anywhere. ❞ ❝ lock all the doors. whatever happens, don’t come outside. you hear me? whatever happens. ❞ ❝ what would you care? i’m just a nuisance to you anyway. ❞ ❝ i’ve been hearing some things about you. ❞ ❝ i would rather be dead than a cynic like you. ❞ ❝ damn, a little gratitude wouldn’t kill you. ❞ ❝ trust me, i ain’t no hero. ❞ ❝ as it turns out, it's you or me. the way i see it, might as well be you. ❞ ❝ you live in a dream world. it ain’t like they tell it in books. ❞ ❝ i’m asking you to do what i say, before you get yourself killed. ❞ ❝ those who sit on the fence make a choice…in their own way. ❞ ❝ i’d do anything for you, you know that. ❞ ❝ better watch your mouth, my friend. i've cut out a man's tongue for less. ❞ ❝ there's nothing worse than a nobody thinking he's a somebody. ❞ ❝ you got it all wrong. i’ve always loved you, even now. ❞ ❝ what the hell were you thinking, going off on your own? ❞ ❝ first impressions are hard to erase. ❞ ❝ it’s a long story. too long to tell without a drink in my hand. ❞ ❝ i’m not angry. i’m disappointed. ❞ ❝ you know me. i’ll be late to my own funeral. ❞ ❝ that tone of voice ain’t so becoming on you. makes you seem all pent up and angry. ❞ ❝ you think i don’t know who you are. ❞ ❝ why don’t i get a warm and tender embrace? ❞ ❝ what do you want me to say? yippee? ❞ ❝ there’s always a choice. you’re just too blind to see. ❞ ❝ you’re not ready for that yet. one step at a time. ❞ ❝ every time you go off, i worry you’re not coming back. ❞ ❝ it didn’t have to be this way. ❞ ❝ come on now. try to look on the bright side. ❞

❝ after all i taught you…i’m ashamed. ❞ ❝ it’s easy to make promises you can never keep. ❞ ❝ we all make mistakes. i never claimed to be a saint. ❞ ❝ how does it feel to kill hundreds of men in cold blood? ❞ ❝ it ain’t the first time i had a gun to my head. ❞ ❝ you’re not perfect, and i’m sure not. but you’re better than they are. ❞ ❝ you alright? you’re not hurt, are you? ❞ ❝ this really couldn’t have gone more horribly wrong. ❞ ❝ you’re just like me. you can’t change who you are. ❞ ❝ my whole life, all i ever did was fight. ❞ ❝ you’re in no position to make demands. ❞ ❝ the bright side? there ain’t no bright side. ❞ ❝ my heart’s beating like a drum. ❞ ❝ are you sure you’re alright? i mean, i know all that business must have been hard on you. ❞ ❝ you’ll make me blush with all these kind words. ❞ ❝ i never took you for the jealous type. ❞ ❝ come now, you’re stupid, but you’re not that stupid. ❞ ❝ you’re weak. you always were. you never had the stomach for this. ❞ ❝ seems real quiet, don’t you think? ❞ ❝ you were always a hard and nasty man. ❞ ❝ see, i have nothing but your best intentions at heart. ❞ ❝ don’t talk about things you don’t understand. ❞ ❝ i guess there’s only one room for one hero in this family. ❞ ❝ for a wise man, you are a really stupid man. ❞ ❝ what would have happened if i hadn’t come along? ❞ ❝ you must have mistaken me for someone else, friend. ❞ ❝ you ain’t very talkative, are you? ❞ ❝ we cannot be too careful. the world is very dangerous. ❞ ❝ no, i’m not okay. do i look like i’m okay? ❞ ❝ you are so tense all the time. come, let’s have some fun! ❞ ❝ i will stay and fight. i am ready to die if necessary. ❞ ❝ i know i can’t change the past but i’m sure gonna do something about the future. ❞ ❝ i’ve given you no reason not to trust me. ❞ ❝ choose your tone rightly. remember who you’re talking to. ❞ ❝ there are guards everywhere. if they see you, they will kill you. ❞ ❝ it was nothing. i’m not a kid any more.❞ ❝ a lonely, forsaken place. some people say it’s haunted. ❞ ❝ i’m not sure your idea of paradise and mine are the same. ❞ ❝ maybe if you were more cordial to folks, they’d be better inclined to help you. ❞ ❝ i’ve been in far worse situations. ❞ ❝ you have the exterior of a violent man, but the soul of an angel. ❞ ❝ you’re not gonna pass out on me, are you? ❞ ❝ you’re no better. how many men have you killed? ❞ ❝ stay alert. something doesn’t feel right. ❞

❝ i'm going to hand you over to them and watch them tear you limb from limb…i'm just kidding. ❞ ❝ you love to talk badly of other people because it makes you feel better about yourself. ❞ ❝ it’s been a pleasure spending time with you. ❞ ❝ that’s a lot of sacrifice. i just hope it’s worth it. ❞ ❝ i’m not cut out for this. no, not cut out for this at all. ❞ ❝ i don’t need you to show me. ❞ ❝ men are born, and then they're formed. at least, that’s how i see it. ❞ ❝ a little flattery…now we’re finally getting somewhere. ❞ ❝ i thought you were supposed to be fearless. ❞ ❝ you are a man who has lost his spirit. ❞ ❝ if you were less secretive, people might be more inclined to trust you. ❞ ❝ me mean me no harm? this is funny. what harm could you do to me, exactly? ❞ ❝ come on, after everything we’ve been through, i think we can trust each other, don’t you? ❞ ❝ i can’t rightly believe it. just like in the books. ❞ ❝ i didn’t ask for your help back there. i owe you nothing. ❞ ❝ be careful. what’s stopping me from killing you? ❞ ❝ one day, i promise you, you’re gonna regret this. ❞ ❝ you know i’ll do whatever i can, but i have problems of my own. ❞ ❝ what would you know about leadership? ❞ ❝ you make a choice by not making a choice, you know. ❞ ❝ hold your excuses until you figure out which one to use. ❞ ❝ i'll give you a bad case of "someone just shot me in the head" if you don't hurry up. ❞ ❝ being honest though, this tastes bad enough to kill a man. ❞ ❝ do i look like i need saving? ❞ ❝ sarcasm should be beneath a man such as you. ❞ ❝ are you always this stupid or are you making an extra effort today? ❞ ❝ i don’t like to kill a man on his knees, even if he deserves it. ❞ ❝ don't forget you need me more than i need you. ❞ ❝ i’ll hunt you to hell and back. ❞ ❝ you’d best not be lying to me. ❞ ❝ let's get going. before the weather gets any worse. that sky don't look good.. ❞ ❝ thank you for telling me all that back there. it must have been hard for you. ❞ ❝ i know we ain't exactly old pals, but…have i ever done you wrong? ❞ ❝ your nobility's almost as affecting as your naivety. ❞ ❝ you are a romantic who wants to be a cynic. ❞ ❝ i apologize if i seem to be prying. ❞ ❝ strange place for a decent person to visit, if you don't mind me saying. ❞ ❝ well, you must admit…it's an unusual start to a friendship. ❞ ❝ i can’t really say i understand you. ❞ ❝ every man has a right to change, a chance of forgiveness. ❞ ❝ hello, old friend. it’s been a long time. ❞ ❝ i hope you understand now why i've been playing my cards somewhat close to my chest. ❞ ❝ nobody made my path but me. ❞ ❝ it’ll be a piece of cake. trust me. ❞ ❝ oh, don’t be so deliberately enigmatic. ❞ ❝ my word, what a difficult life you’ve lived. ❞ ❝ you have a strange sense of humor. ❞ ❝ stay and fight me, you coward. ❞ ❝ i ain't planning on staying very long. ❞

#ooc tba. #rp prompts tba.

[mayhemmybeloved]

Send a ❦ if you'd consider shipping our muses.

bonus if you add a type of ship you’d like them to be or a thread idea for our muses.

#ooc tba. #memes tba.

[mayhemmybeloved]

what if i made an rp server for a my hero au ? a supernatural au where the characters are beasts and creatures like werewolves , vampires , sirens , etc.

#ooc tba. #hmmm #Shigs as a vampire tho #im thinking of making one... #what if i did?

[mayhemmybeloved]

Shigs is VERY vocal.

#ooc tba. #the decaying soul : shigaraki. #suggestive tw #:) #headcanons tba.

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Going to the movies. But like this for me to throw Shigs into your inbox at one of your muses!!

#ooc tba. #the decaying soul : shigaraki. #inbox call tba. #i will throw these out when i get back! #along with the owed Kurokumo ones

[mayhemmybeloved]

Going to see Abigail tonight, but when I get back? Writing time.

#ooc tba. #thinking bout my boy #and the bonds he has

[mayhemmybeloved]

Tomura and Dabi both telling Toga she doesn't have to get a villain name if she doesn't want one hits even harder when you finally remember the circumstances of their own villain names.

Tomura got assigned a villain name because he was turned into a villain against his will. He didn't get to choose his identity, he didn't get to choose his destiny. Someone else came to him and then changed him until he couldn't recognize himself in the mirror anymore.

Dabi was rejected by his father over and over and over again. It's not like he wanted to deny who he was, in fact, he wanted to use it as a weapon and that's why he got a villain name. Dabi is more like the manifestation of all his trauma and grief. Dabi is a reminder, a scar and a story to tell.

See their arguments against the villain naming yourselves and get some free analysis about it:

From right to left*

Dabi:

(Villain names are) stupid. That's just some crowd-pleasing crap. A holdover from before the quirk registration system.

Dabi is the first to mention the origins of the hero and villain naming convections. Before there was order in their society, people needed names to identify their powers.

He's also aware that taking a villain name is done to both appeal to the public and oneself. See how Mr. Compress mentions that a villain name gives you class, or how Twice and Spinner seem to get it as a matter of being cool.

Touya himself knew he picked the name Dabi for the show. He's not particularly attached to it and he doesn't even defend his name when Compress decides to criticize it. Being Dabi is just a tactic.

Tomura:

There basically used to be no differences between heroes and villains. One story says... The alias stuff started when you'd have an anonymous enemy and you needed to call them something. From there, some decided to adopt those very nicknames to hide their identities.

Assuming another identity —like a new skin— was a matter of survival.

At some point, they went all-in with code names, ripped straight from comic books. According to this theory, it all started with people announcing themselves by those aliases, that's why the world's turned into a comic book.

Anyway, I'm good. (The names can be cool and all, but eh).

The rest assumes that Tomura has always been Tomura Shigaraki (even after hearing during MVA his confession about his past). In truth, you see he doesn't want a villain name. Like Toga, he rejected the idea when it was suggested.

Mr. Comic Book Fan #1 (AFO) was the one who gave Tomura his name and we all know what he did with those words. Similar to Touya's intention with the name Dabi, AFO hid Tenko Shimura so he could later use his identity as a weapon against All Might.

It was a matter of survival for Touya and Tenko alike. No one could know they were a Todoroki and a Shimura. That new identity prevented little Tenko from being found and allowed Touya the freedom to plot his revenge.

It's very important to me that they are the ones who tell Toga she doesn't need a villain name. She is good as she is, she must be able to live as she is too. Somehow, they protect her in her choice of not picking a skin to hide behind.

#ooc tba. #THE DECAYING SOUL : SHIGARAKI #gonna sob besties

[mayhemmybeloved]

Anonymously confess something to my muse.

#ooc tba. #memes tba.

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heck it, a compiled collection of angsty starters for your angsty needs … sentence starters

“You left me.”

“Please lie to me.”

“I need you to stay.”

“You’re scaring me.”

“I thought you cared.”

“I only wanted to help.”

“I’m not the one you want.”

“You never cared, did you?”

“I wasn’t made to be the hero.”

“Don’t lie to me. Don’t do that.”

“You’re haunted by something.”

“Did this mean nothing to you?”

“I don’t mean to push you away.”

“I thought we were meant to be.”

“I used to care what you thought.”

“You took my heart when you left.”

“There’s nothing left here to save.”

“Please, don’t. Please, don’t leave.”

“I won’t do it. I won’t become them.”

“You never even tried to save them.”

“I don’t want you here, not anymore.”

“I can’t believe you kept this from me.”

“You need to stop clinging to the past.”

“Nothing is ever good enough for you.”

“I thought I could trust you. I thought…”

“I don’t need anyone else. Not even you.”

“You can’t keep pushing yourself like this.”

“There’s no one up there watching over us.”

“Don’t do it unless you understand the price.”

“You got hurt… because of me. I’m so sorry.”

“Your eyes are so cold when you look at me.”

“They’re gone… and you need to accept that.”

“You keep hurting me. I just want to know why.”

“You can go, but you know they won’t love you.”

“You’re scared of them. I can see it in your eyes.”

“I don’t know how to let myself be loved like this.”

”You’ve done nothing but lie to me from the start.”

“What would you be willing to give to change it all?”

“You don’t even realize what you’ve done, do you?”

“I don’t know how to tell you what’s wrong with me.”

“You can fool everyone else, but you can’t fool me.”

“I don’t recognize the person in the mirror anymore.”

“If you keep doing this, you’re going to end up dead.”

“You break my heart. And I don’t know why I let you.”

“You need to lie back down, you’re barely conscious.”

“Something is keeping you awake. Is it fear or regret?”

“I’m here, because I don’t have anyone else to turn to.”

“Look me in the eye and tell me, again, you don’t care.”

“There’s not a single thing that real about you, is there?”

“They’ll keep kicking you down until you kick them back.”

“I just want to help you, but you clearly don’t want me to.”

“You don’t have to do everything on your own, you know.”

“We’re not good people. We’ve never been good people.”

“You won’t survive if you stay here… you know that, right?”

“I can’t even trust myself. How am I supposed to trust you?”

“You’re not a good person. You pretend to be, but you’re not.”

“You might not be a villain, but you sure as hell aren’t a hero.”

“You can’t move on if you let the past keep holding you back.”

“How can you look me in the eye and say something like that?”

“They’re gone. They’re gone, and there was nothing I could do.”

“Can you just tell me the truth?? For once, just tell me the truth!”

“Why won’t you let me in? Why do you keep pushing me away?”

“There’s something wrong here. And I don’t think it can be fixed.”

“I only wanted to make you proud. Now I see that was pointless.”

“I love you, but I can’t stay here and watch you do this to yourself.”

“You say you love me in one breath, then hurt me in the next. Why?”

“Oh my god, you’re burning up. Why didn’t you tell me you were sick?”

“There’s nothing there! It’s just a hallucination, you’re okay, you’re safe!”

“Leave if you want. But, if you do, don’t come back. Don’t ever come back.”

“Because I still think you could be a good person, I just think you choose not to.”

“You don’t have to love me, you don’t even have to like me, but I need you here.”

“You’ve never been honest with me… I don’t know why I expected you to start now.”

“Why do you keep risking yourself like this? Do you not care whether you live or die?”

“You keep breaking yourself down for them, but you know they wouldn’t do the same.”

“I would do anything for you. But, I’m starting to realize you wouldn’t do the same for me.”

#ooc tba. #prompts tba.

[mayhemmybeloved]

— ARE YOU OKAY?

Concerned  roleplay  starters.  Send  me... (Send  🔄  +  any  emoji  to  reverse  the  outcome.)

😭  to  find  my  muse  crying. 🤕  to  find  my  muse  with  an  obvious  injury. ❤️‍🩹  to  find  my  muse  trying  to  hide  an  injury. 🤢  to  find  my  muse  visibly  sick. 🩸  to  find  my  muse  after  they've  been  in  a  fight. 💤  to  find  my  muse  passed  out. 🥴  to  catch  my  muse  as  they  faint. 🌧️  to  find  my  muse  in  the  rain  without  an  umbrella. 😵  to  find  my  muse  half  dead  in  an  alley. 🫳  to  put  a  comforting  hand  on  my  muse's  shoulder. 🫂  to  give  my  muse  a  comforting  hug.

#ooc tba. #prompts tba.

[mayhemmybeloved]

---------discord drop. mutuals only. ( i would apologize for the screen name. but i aint sorry. )

#ooc tba. #discord drop tba. #my status is even worse #also let me know who ya are

[mayhemmybeloved]

for him , it's :

---- I want this , because it's familiar and i feel secure. but i know it's not. i think and feel so differently , that they combat each other. And it makes me ill. i feel so much. too much. all at once. while trying to keep my head above water. my memories and thoughts are drowning me. i am falling , falling past the clouds and so fast to Earth. My heart is taking the air outta my lungs. I see hands reaching.

And i slap them away. to protect them.

#ooc tba. #headcanons tba. #THE DECAYING SOUL : SHIGARAKI. #this STUNG TO TYPE #but it had to be done

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Horikoshi giving hero tropes to the villains is probably my favorite part of bnha.

He presented us with a nervous wreck of a boy at the beginning of the manga. Look, he seemed to say, isn't he creepy? isn't he evil? He met Tomura in his most lanky form. Malnourished, neglected, real dead hands all over his body and blunt nails digging mercilessly in his skin.

Sure, the story paints him as a real villain. He is there to kill kids, after all. He wants to kill the light of the hero society, to spread violence and hatred all around. He's also very very suspicious. You get that feeling that there's more to the story. It's in the way he acts, his desperation. He looks sick. What is he making him so? What is his story?

Tomura is a loser. A failure since the beginning, if you follow the narrative. Characters like Stain, Overhaul and Redestro point it out: Tomura isn't the best strategist per se, they can't understand his reasons to do what he does, there's something wrong with him in villain terms.

That's when the brain starts to pick up the signals and plants the doubt. Many people don't notice it, but something in the story gives away that he is a very special type of villain.

We see him alone in his dark messy room, staring at a screen. We see him drinking alone in a bar as he sits on his misery. Over and over, we see that evil boy and his burdened stance. Only Kurogiri is there. His master only talks to him through some radio. He doesn't mention anyone else. No one else seems to live in that bar but Kurogiri and him.

Back then, when Tomura was all about AFO and All Might and no one else, he felt hollow. Rotten.

We first saw him approach someone for help and some company after the first LOV members were introduced. We meet Toga and Dabi, then Tomura goes to find Deku. Is he still creepy? Yes. Is he still evil? Also. We have Giran talking about Tomura with the fondness you reserve for a spoiled child. The way Kurogiri and Giran talk about it, it's more like Tomura needs to make some friends. He's not used to it, so he's being rude to them.

He's a chosen one reluctant to make friends, since he's used to doing things on his own— or at least with people he didn't care about. Next time we see him, his telling Kurogiri that he doesn't want them to die, he wouldn't sacrifice them for a goal and he actually wants them to succeed. He talks like a leader, he considers them important.

When they show us the LOV around Tomura as he talks to a kidnapped Bakugo, there's something in there already. How they worry when Bakugo hits Tomura and knocks the hand out of his face. They humanize Tomura, which is a lot to say when AFO did everything he could to dehumanize him. They make Tomura be more mature, more responsible and more capable. While AFO paints Tomura as a foolish child that cannot get things right until he's guided there, the LOV trusts Tomura to take care of himself and guide them.

That's when the hero tropes with villains started.

A quick list from the top of my head:

Twice overcame his trauma mid-battle in order to save Toga and then the LOV.

Tomura was tempted by Overhaul to betray the LOV in exchange for power. He pretended to agree, only to backstab Overhaul because Tomura would never forgive those who hurt his friends and would never betray the LOV.

Magne went to attack Overhaul for offending her and her friends, defending their ideals and their right to exist 'til death.

Mr. Compress took the leading role in many dangerous situations to assure that the LOV would get their win, but also to assure they'd make it out alive.

Tomura would forgive people not on his behalf, but for the benefit of the LOV.

Giran refused to sell any info about the LOV and laughed in his captors face because he was not so important to them. Turns out he was bluffing about it being all business, since we know from Twice's flashback that he did it also for the fondness he felt towards the LOV and the LOV went there to rescue him.

The LOV rushing through a battlefield the size of a city while desperately trying to find a way to save Tomura.

Twice and Mr. Compress refusing to leave Tomura fighting Gigantomachia alone and taking the burden of his training with him.

Dabi doing all he could to save Twice and snapping when he realized Twice was dead.

Mr. Compress worried about Toga and her solo mission.

Spinner telling Toga that she needs to come back safe and sound to them.

Tomura refusing to die or give up while the LOV still needs him (to be a hero).

Twice already dead and still moving because he needed to save Toga.

The entire LOV refusing to even consider defeat because they blindly believe that there is no way Tomura can lose.

And there's so much more...

The LOV made Tomura act heroic. They gave him a reason to want to save and protect, instead of just wanting to destroy.

The power of friendship but for evil.

Isn't it the best thing ever?

#ooc tba. #I LOVE THE LEAGUE OF VILLAINS #GUYS YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND #Me when peeps say they are heartless: SHUT. YOUR MOUTH.

[mayhemmybeloved]

Shigs is so WEAK for wrist kisses and shoulder kisses. Thank you.

#ooc tba. #headcanons tba. #THE DECAYING SOUL : SHIGARAKI. #i wanna get back to doing threads here soon #but LIFE has hands