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I was hacked last night by someone who had a horrible sense of humor sorry if you got a link that stated I was suicidal I wasn't and am fine today

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Dear teen girls,

Stop abusing your boyfriends and yes what you are doing is abuse.

Stop:

Yelling at him in front of his friends

Hitting or slapping him when he does or says something you don’t like

Telling him he doesn’t have a choice when it comes to decisions that involve both of you

Telling him he can’t hang out with friends because you don’t like him

Telling him to not talk to other girls even if they are his friend

Forcing him to spend every moment with you

Belittling him and pointing out all his flaws

Calling him stupid or making fun of him for making a mistake

Threatening to break up with him if he doesn’t do what you want

Being emotionally manipulative and crying until he does what you want

Accusing him of cheating every time he’s not with you

Blow up is phone if he doesn’t text you every five minutes

Telling him you are the best thing that has ever happened to him and no one else will love

Physically attacking him when ever you are mad

Forcing him to have sex despite that fact that he said he didn’t want to

Invading his privacy by going through his phone

Getting mad at him for changing his password and demanding he tell you what it is

If a guy did any of these things to a girl it would be considered abuse but since its the other way around its considered normal. Throughout High school I saw many girl treating their boyfriends like shit. Sometime even physically abusing them in the hallways and no one trying to stop it because its a girl attacking a boy.

Boys: If your girlfriend does anything on this list leave her. It is abuse and you deserve better.

Girls: if you find your self doing anything on this list to your boyfriend you need to knock it off because you are being abusive.

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I have found myself being on here a lot lately because of boredom and loneliness. A lot of it is because I've been eager to meet new people so I started checking out Tumblr Live! Most of the people who stream are actually pretty chill I sometimes find someone to talk to or a conversation to engage in and it has taken a lot of the boredom and loneliness away in a positive way. So I began thinking maybe this is something I can do too I just need to create a format so I can find an audience that I can engage. Once I figure that out I'll post it here. Hope everyone is well talk to y'all later

#streaming #new people #going live #chillax

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this is the money dog, repost in the next 24 hours and money will come your way!!

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Well guys this one is very good she almost got by me she's really sly and will give you a pretty good story her biggest mistake was giving me a man's cash app cashtag and not explaining who he was. She is the 19th I've caught this year

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I totally understand everything you just said and it put a couple things into perspective. It used to be when you had a mental illness you were treated as though you were completely jacked up and crazy however, I think there is a lot more awareness now and so it is becoming more acceptable to embrace those who have certain mental health problems no matter how severe they are instead of just automatically shunning them away and a lot of people like yourself are leading the charge for that acceptance and for that I stand with you because it sometimes it takes a simple whisper to make a large and loud crowd to listen. Keep it up girl take the momentum and rub with it eventually change will happen and it will be a change for the better some just don't know it yet but they will when its least expected.

Boundaries, everyone needs them, even if your mental healthy or not. Most people who do set them don't even know their doing it. Those who struggle with it, like myself, learn over time. Learning about mental health and educating myself this past couple of years has been eye opening. I've learned alot, and where I need to work to better myself. Somethings have been easier then others and some are just flat out hard. Boundaries, I think needs it's own awareness in some way ffs. How is this not taught in developmental years when your brain is growing and learning is beyond me. I blame society, parents are just to worried about bills, politics or environmental, there's no brain space to make room for teaching core beliefs or practices, in which we need to navigate life later on. (Parents aren't to blame. Society has set us up to fail) Then again in my personal journey it's the parent who doesn't understand core beliefs, values or mutual respect. So best bet I set that boundary after careful consideration and a shit ton of overthinking. That was a weight lifted off my soul. Don't get me wrong the pain is still there but way more manageable when the narcissist is finally taken out of the equation. Toxic people, even family members need boundaries and they need to respect them or step the fuck back. There's no room for a healthy, meaningful life if surrounded by that shit. I wont be told "your the one...." "it's not my fault", "you don't understand its not like that", or "had you do this or that" .... there is clear signs that someone is Toxic and doesn't care for your well-being and I'm learning every day to recognize those signs. Sucks it took 40 fucking years, but shit it's a learning curve I wasn't even aware of. I'm a very forgiving person, if they want to change their ways, then I'll see actions, so I watch for actions as well. Advocating for your own self care and what you need is basic and those who love me will either have actions, or they will be phased out. I'm very lucky I at least have one parent that took my new path seriously! Omg I'm so lucky. Wasn't even a struggle. Boundary set, and my dad went above and beyond and I'm for ever grateful for him. He's become a solid foundation in my life now that I have always needed. He's proof that forgiveness is so easily reachable when someone you love acknowledges their part and apologizes, so that the bond is unbreakable.

Boundaries yall.

Sorry, I'm off my soap box. Just love having a space where I can express myself, and it doesn't matter if anyone's listening to me. Tumblr is my safe space, and I'm short, so I needed a soap box 😋

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Hey Everyone so I haven't really been on here much the past year. I am going to re-invent my blog here soon and hopefully it will be more entertaining than me writing about the goings on in my life. A lot has happened to me in the last 8 or 9 months so if anyone wants to chat or catch up I know a lot of people I used to follow are gone but I am always looking for new friends. Anyway talk to you soon I'll be giving details in the coming days as to what kind of blog it will be

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Thank you to everyone who got me to 100 likes!

#100 likes #tumblr milestone #thank you

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I need drugs... And they need me too.

I am so tired of people telling me how to live my life. I just want it to all go away. People who I thought were my friends have turned out not to be this now I am living in an empty world.

It is very depressing at least when I had drugs they took me to a place that made me feel safe and the more I had the happier I am.

Now I don't have anybody to get drugs from as most people have chosen to leave my life and forget me or if I trust the wrong people they just rip me off.

I miss drugs. The one thing on this lonely world that I know can bring me happiness

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50 likes!

#50 likes #tumblr milestone

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Drugs:

I need them as bad as I want them

I need them to cope

I want them to take me away from the horrible reality I must face

No one understands my pain

No one cares to help me face it

But the drugs do care and want to help me and that is why I want them more than anything.

It doesn't make sense to most unless they have lived in my shoes

Drugs are the only thing left on this world that make me want to keep living and even though they will eventually kill me my death will just simply be a footnote to those who knew me as I never really mattered and never really counted so that is why when I get brushed aside drugs will always be there

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“Whether I am sitting in the middle of an empty room, drowning in a million thoughts, or running away from this world, dancing every bit of my life away, I am thinking of you. No matter what I do, dead or alive, I am thinking of you.”

— Lukas W. // Dead or alive (via somepiecesofmyheartandsoul)

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“No one can tell what goes on in between the person you were and the person you become. No one can chart that blue and lonely section of hell. There are no maps of the change. You just come out the other side. Or you don’t.”

— Stephen King, The Stand (via wordsnquotes)

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“Loneliness is when it’s 3 am and you still couldn’t sleep while you stare blankly at the ceiling without any hope that things will get better.”

— Juansen Dizon, Restless (via juansendizon)

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“Loneliness is having a party in my mind again and that’s okay. I am surrounded by souls. Some treat me like sunlight and some treat me like moonlight. I cry myself to sleep and no one knows that the truth about loneliness is that it protects ones heart from everything but itself. There’s a funeral in my heart, and the casket is too small for my childish soul that screams ‘Let me out!’ I want to live without thinking about who will miss me when I’m gone because I’m tired of writing all these goodbye letters that mean nothing without a recipient. There’s a funeral in my heart and there are no flowers because nobody wants to give flowers to a suicide. I wish I can say sorry for being so selfish but that would mean apologizing for the nights I’ve tried to hold it all together like rebuilding Rome for a day—I have nothing to say. There’s a funeral in my heart and I am all alone here with the lights closed because the window might glow and I am not light. I am not light.”

— Juansen Dizon, A Funeral In My Heart (via juansendizon)