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My face is having uncontrollable spasms. Great. It hurts really, really, really bad.

I think part of why I have trouble explaining pain to the doctor is when they ask about the pain scale I always think “Well, if someone threw me down a flight of stairs right now or punched me a few times, it would definitely hurt a lot more” so I end up saying a low number. I was reading an article that said that “10” is the most commonly reported number and that is baffling to me. When I woke up from surgery with an 8" incision in my body and I could hardly even speak, I was in the most horrific pain of my life but I said “6” because I thought “Well, if you hit me in the stomach, it would be worse.”

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baby boomers: climate change & bisexuals aren’t real also i’m better than u

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My ADHD (part 1)

In an effort to share my story, possibly give hope to others going through the same things, and procrastinate studying for grad school, I want to talk about my experience as a person with ADHD.

When I was 12 years old I was diagnosed with Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder.  It took twelve years to diagnose simply because I had figured out how to compensate, and for that I suffered in silence.  I was a smart, shy, quiet kid who never broke the rules or got into trouble.  I always excelled in school, wasn’t a distraction, and was an all-around good, easy, kid.  But my brain was different.  

I would zone out in school so badly that I had to reteach myself the schoolwork once I got home.  But I learned to zone out while staring at the teacher, and I always had all As so no one ever knew.

I would always interrupt my family and friends when they were speaking, and butt in on conversations to share my thoughts (even though no one asked).  It was annoying and frustrating to others, so resulted in me not having many friends.  But those closest to me assumed my impulsivity was due to poor social skills, or just being an odd child, and it was overlooked.

I could never sleep.  My mind moved too fast.  My thoughts flying through my head so fast that I couldn’t latch on to a single one, and it hurt.  My headaches and insomnia were chalked up to stress, and after awhile I could tell that my mentioning them was pointless.  I learned to suffer in silence.  

I misplaced everything I ever touched.  My books, my homework, my shoes, toys, you name it.  I learned that if I followed a routine, and was organized that it helped some.  But not much.  It drove my mother nuts.

I couldn’t remember basic things.  I would forget to brush my teeth, hand in papers, buckle my seatbelt, do my chores.  Things I did every single day.  It wasn’t because I didn’t want to do them, but because it would never even cross my mind.  I was distracted by something else, something cooler, something more interesting.  I learned to lie to cover my butt.

I had no filter, was impulsive in my actions as well as my words, couldn’t finish a task to save my life, couldn’t pay attention to a speaker for longer than 2 minutes.  I was always fidgeting, tapping, bouncing my foot.  Standing still was next to impossible.  I was forgetful, distracted, and never really there, but I was smart, and I could hide it.

#adhd #adhd story #attention deficit hyperactivity #my story

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I always love hearing about other people’s experiences with ADHD AND seeing people advocate/educate for those with ADHD!

“I wish people understood that I don’t have a choice in how my brain works.”

#adhd #add #neurodevelopmental disorder #advocate #educate

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And not just to concentrate, but to be functional in society, talk to people you don’t know well without freaking them out, drive safely, SLEEP, and on and on and on.

Don’t mess with ADHD science students during their assessment period.

You have been warned.

#adhd #adhd problems #ritalin #aderall #some people are just ignorant

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Adhd: Never half ass two things, half ass a thousand

#adhd #adhd problems #attention deficit hyperactivity #so real it physically hurts