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ml player doodles with mage's stray cat because (1) i saw Plain Boiled Bagels at the store the other day and of course the answer is to boil the plain. and (2) the rest of the world needs to know that spring is a blessing to weird drink makers (and a curse for remuses) scala-wide

#grey/charcoal #blue/- #blue/seafoam #seafoam-sepia #seafoam/ml player #seafoam/keykid/stray #seafoam/keykid/spring #seafoam/brain #seafoam/remus #seafoam/plain #plain soup is so funny i had a vision #me: is there baja blast in scala #mage: (sounding mildly horrified) i feel like thats like asking if theres baja blast in 16th century london

[natsubane]

Anonymous asked you:

Hey, is it okay if you like do a tutorial on trees and shrubs? PS: I looooooove your art and tutorial they are just soooooo wonderful, inspiratonal, amazing.

aww thank you so much!! ;v; haha well I don’t know a lot of trees so here’s two I actually know lmao, oak tree and pine tree I will go study more tree names when I have the time ohgosh _(:3 7 hope it helps!

#hhhgh i told myself i'd try painting earlier this is a sign #orange/charcoal

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it’s easy to forget, so I’ll remind y’all: you can make fantasy versions of anything. yes even things you might not think about. like soil types. I am thinking of fantasy soil types right now

#YOU CAN DO THAT... WOAH

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if i'm being absolutely completely totally honest i think that "it wasn't you" doesn't go far enough in absolving someone of the guilt of being the subject of a brainwashing or mind control plot. because at the end of the day, it was you. it was your body, your mind, potentially even your soul, being stripped of its autonomy, intimately violated and turned against you as much as anyone else. it's a kind of assault, and should be treated as such, especially in more mature narratives. i think that "it wasn't your fault" and "your shame at being made helpless and unable to control your own body and mind's involuntary responses is understandable, but you are not in any way irredeemable or unforgivable because of what was done to you" are also necessary reassurances. and i think that there should be lingering resentment in spite of words of forgiveness and miscommunication and long-term post-traumatic consequences also.

#purple/amethyst #black/onyx

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(SOUND IS CRUCIAL) this video is has murdered me dead the music the editing the way information is slowly revealed about the two of them the plot twist the breaking bad images. WILLIAM WILLIAM WILLIAM. all over minecraft parkour someone help im seizing

#purple/- #purple/violet #purple/amethyst #HOLY SHITTTTTTT #THE SOUND IS SO CRUCIAL I ABSOLUTELY LOVED IT #this is one of my favourite videos now

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"The Big Dipper as it is today (left) and as it will look in 50,000 years." Dream of stars. 1940.

Internet Archive

#purple/-

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The devastating difference between how much time it takes to write something vs how fast people read it lol

#purple/wisteria #ough #the amount of times i've felt the first post because it takes me months and months to write anything at all in the first place #and then my friends read it and it takes them like half an hour. and then they talk about it to me for like 15 minutes #and then it just never comes back up in conversation again and i wonder if they go back to read it sometimes when i reread them too #and if i'm feeling in one of those moods i'll just sit here and wonder if it was worth it for a long long time #i know people are probably talking about them in discord servers and dms and god knows where but i'll never know #i hope they come out to tell me about their thoughts one day

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it's been a month since i finished days. whoops!

i already had super high expectations for days because mage had been whispering in my ear about it, and i'm still working on the secret reports for this while i don't have a ton of time on my hands but god i fucking enjoyed days. i think it's now been too long since i played it so it's not fresh any more but i still should talk about it before i forget so.

the story makes it so easy to care about the characters and i think it brings out each individual personality very well! roxas is a really interesting narrator to watch the developments with because of how he doesn't know anything and doesn't even have memories, and also how easily influenced he can be by the other org members because of it... and also watching how he grows while knowing where he ends up in kh2 just. hurts? you see him being happy and hanging out with his friends and then you remember that he cannot win his fight with sora for his right to be himself... (maybe this is also influenced by the awful /pos posts i see often about roxas and resentment and just in general how little the narrative cares about what he actually wants. but. yeah)

i remember talking a bit about unreliable narrators while i was reading the story? i think it's an especially enjoyable experience because of what we've learned about nobodies in kh2 (like how they supposedly don't have hearts? i went through a lot of days knowing that the nobodies do feel emotions and hearing them repeat that they don't have hearts to feel with over and over they don't when you can see roxas clearly having feelings more and more as time passes... is a compelling argument for the unreliability of the knowledge you get, or at the very least this specific statement) and how biased sora is against them in comparison (to go as far as antagonising them on the spot, which is one thing i didn't exactly like when i was playing kh2... i really wished we got to see them integrate the org into the story better and understand them before we take them out). in that sense i'm really glad that days gives you the opportunity to actually get to know the nobodies, especially the ones that you don't get to see in depth in com! (this is how i ended up getting interested in demyx? the fact that apparently we don't know anything about him still also bumps my enjoyment of him up quite a bit? he's so funny. tell me more about him.) (i'm also glad we got to see their side of their goal and the justifications they have for pursuing them...! even if they sound like a fucking cult!)

anyway, roxas not knowing anything and the org deliberately keeping him in the dark about everything was really fun to read because. you can tell all he wants is to chill out with his friends and eat ice cream after missions and instead the people around him treat him like a tool and have plans for him and xion and keeping him in the dark so that they can use him better is just the best way of handling things to them... you really can feel how frustrated he is by the end and how he's doubting everything he's been taught because of all the times he's been brushed off and not been told the truth. and you can see the moments when the carefully constructed and curated web of (rather, lack of) information around him (and xion, too) starts to crumble and he starts fighting to get out... even at the end after he decides to choose his own path and be willing to fight for it (while being able to see the consequences of xion fighting)... without truly finding out who he is or being able to find his own purpose or anything, he ends up immediately getting violently thrown into a situation completely out of his control and this time it feels like the world itself is straight up poking fun at him? and still nobody is telling him anything? and when he does things he actually wants to do he ends up being punished and feeling alienated for it? like as i kept playing i kept thinking ough..... no wonder roxas is so easy to like... he's just a guy trying to find purpose and meaning for himself in a place where he isn't even allowed to want that and it fucks me up tbh

i'd heard that seasalt trio were the best-written trio friendship in the series and yeah i can fucking tell why. and you're telling me these guys don't even fully understand what friendship is? man. it was genuinely really enjoyable watching them just chill and banter over ice cream? i honestly really enjoyed the "friends are people you eat ice cream with" thing because of how sincerely it's taken and how much roxas and xion believe in it... i can still hear that "who else am i gonna eat ice cream with?" line clear as day from day 357... i also still feel ill about the line namine says about not expecting them to try so hard to become their own people... in the end neither of them end up being allowed to become their own person after all... ough......

also now knowing how roxas left axel by the end makes me feel even More ill about axel dying before he could see roxas again properly... i liked seeing the contrast of axel with roxas and xion, and seeing how they bring out a more caring side of him even if he ends up doing his tough love thing... but he's still the one who brings them together by saying that if they remember each other they'll always be together... and he's the one who says they're best friends... i'm glad we get to see him and understand why he was so desperate in kh2, i'm glad we get to know him... i can tell there's still a lot to uncover about this guy but he's a fun guy... i want to see him again.........

i've probably forgotten tons of points i wanted to say here but it was a fun game!!! i enjoyed the gameplay as well and i enjoyed the perspective it gave on the previous games! i'd really like to go back to kh2 prologue and also com to better understand what happened there as well, but since i'm kinda gauntletting these games and i'm pretty busy recently it's hard to find time for it... i will do my best to enjoy the games as much as i can......!

#blue/- #blue/seafoam #seafoam-sunset #seafoam-playthrough #seafoam-thoughts #honestly i have no fucking clue if anything i said was correct or even made sense #literal word soup direct from my head #i'm honestly really bad at these but i think i Should just so i get to think about the game and how it works #this was a bit late though i think i shouldve done it earlier. i've been ridiculously busy though so please do blame me for it

[natsubane]

Well, I guess you didn't have much of a choice either

#OUGHHHHHHHHH ROXAS #hated by the narrative... #blue/- #blue/seafoam #seafoam-charcoal #seafoam/roxas #seafoam/sora

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a̴n̵y̵o̸n̶e̵ ̴t̷h̶e̴r̵e̸?̶

#BRAINKUN DAAAAAA #kakkeeeeee~ #blue/- #blue/seafoam #seafoam/brain #seafoam-charcoal

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the nuisance of our language is stunning

#state of fucklessness is TAKING ME OUT #purple/violet

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more of brain plush in blender

#i keep getting sent these and it is GREAT #idk what about brain makes it funnier than usual but it is #thank you op #blue/- #blue/seafoam #seafoam/brain

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brain plush 3d model gotta put him in the skillet

#mage sent this to me like 'turn on the sound' and i was out but i am so delighted by this that it has put a large smile on my face #i want one of these. where do i get a brain plush. #can i grab one of the ones that fell into the Void #blue/- #blue/seafoam #seafoam/brain

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this may or may not be a fantasy writing exercise for me. please reblog

#sea glass for mint :)

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do it scared do it stupid do it badly whatever it is that's worth doing, that's worth anything at all, we do it. be it scared be it stupid be it badly. the sincerity remains the same.

#reblogging this if only to make me remember that i should be doing this #purple/wisteria

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Brain.exe

#woahhh!!!!! #i like him!!!!!!!!! #blue/- #blue/seafoam #seafoam-charcoal #seafoam/brain

[natsubane]

you'd dreamed about him last night.

he'd been sitting in your lap on the armchair you always sit on, talking about something, his voice a melody of woven gold. you'd held him close by his waist, and his skin had been warm, human, where you leaned forward and rested your chin on his shoulder, mouthing shapeless words onto his skin.

#me only realising after i posted it that wow actually the caption is super misleading #i love jax's dream though it's only a brief paragraph or two but it's the prettiest sequence in what i've written of vampire fern au #wahoo happy birthday jax #grey/charcoal #blue/- #blue/sky blue #sky blue/fern #sky blue/jax #sky blue/fax #sky blue/vampire fern au #sky blue-charcoal