navybluemoke

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ALRIGHT in addition to this being a ventblr, because I can't keep my mouth shut. It will also be used for good things, for the same reason. I have a mentor in the field i want to pursue and my weekend is FULL of relevant activitiessssssssssssssss baBAY TOVELO!

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and lied

Update: I want no part in love. It’s pretty dumb and ugly

#AHA YOU SAY I LOVE YOU EVERYDAY NOW YOU IDIOT #(you arent an idiot) #(but you are dumb for saying this) #fuckin mayor of simp city doesnt want love OKAY

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ooooooooh internet void how things have changed: -ancient cursed crush? HANDLED

-a new boo? GOT ONE

-bein a freak? EVERYDAY

-maturing and understanding my worth and agency in a way ive never been able to, let alone knew existed? THAT TOO HEYO

#we are really doin our best #that last 6mo of 2023 almost took us OUT

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I just played a surprisingly optimistic cartomancy game. I hope this is right y’all.

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Had the best dream of my life about the season finale of the game I play every month. It was just the right amount of cursed, horny, and musical😤💙

#the ending of my days #gave me two different kinds of lap dances it was amazing #to music DESIGNED to make my character insane #it’s not of god at all #but I was happpppyyyyyyyyyyyy #do it lord

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Today is the day the last of us were homeless. Everyone now has a home.

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Okay but on a hood not, this new vibrator is so fuckin choice.

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NOTHING HAS CHANGED I SEE

Update: I want no part in love. It’s pretty dumb and ugly

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Hello it’s me - still crushing on the same person that shan’t not be crushed on.

This time, it was a full dream with a love confession in a farmers market. So that’s just monstrous.

#bro at this point #this is just my fuckin problem #I don’t even wanna do this anymore #the crush part #actually in the interim I found out I can’t actually sustain suicidal tendencies anymore #fully hadn’t felt in in MONTHS #until like a day ago #but it was over pretty quick ngl

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Why is kink the only thing that feels good to think about when my whole heart is broken. Like, the masochism is stored in PHYSICAL pain man.

#anyways I went full no contact this week #so I am a shell of a person #but

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RARE GOOD POST I might get a new job this week in the field i wanted to work in i might get my own apartment this week i got the gig of my DREAMS to keep me thru the winter idk the ball is rolling up it looks like

#ok its good rn #so scared #this place might fall thru tomorrow #but its still a banger week

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i am a hypocrite

i got at my friend for having a bleed crush and here we are...

#HAVING A BLEEED CRUSH #HOW MANY TIMES DO I HAVE TO TEACH U THIS LESSON OLD MAN

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you ever do some REALLY dommy mommy shit and can’t come down for several hours??? it was nice for a second but i dont really need to be imagining folks kneeling and whatnot 24/7

#someone flip the sub switch PLEASE

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i spent all of last night texting my [redacted] because id never seen him come with This Particular Brand of Lie before. I wanted to understand the machine that was spitting these out and how it changed from the last time. Maybe people do change a lil bit...but not that damn fast. 

#so now im all hypertoday because my body thinks we're fightin #ive given a dog that i do not own a bath #just for fun

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oop, looks like a weird one again dont wanna eat or do anything and yet, *things*

#*in the Fiddler on the Roof way* #depresSIOOOOOOON #DEPRESSION

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alright

things are good, i spent all night roleplaying and we’re absolutely at the front of a manic ep. because I over did it at work but we are Survivingggg

#booked a massage for later today #gonna try and wait this out

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Narrator: They were lying.

Update: I want no part in love. It’s pretty dumb and ugly