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#homestuck

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POV: I am writing a fanventure-in-text.

#homestuck #watcher.rtf

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yes hello i'm still a karezi fan

#homestuck #karezi #watcher.rtf

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hi I wrote a thing

#omori #watcher.rtf

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i'm 130k words into my OMORI fic series starting a while after the hikki route and have just wrapped act 4 up

https://archiveofourown.org/series/2580466

if you're a fan of sunburn, spontaneous supernatural and choosing to crawl back because the world as it is is still somewhere to exist, check it out, mayhaps

#omori #watcher.rtf

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i am writing an omori fic go check it out

#watcher.rtf #omori

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Hopelessness, Despair and Hatred: The Witch Trifecta

Let’s talk about "It's okay now. You don't have to hate anyone anymore.".

Picture an average magical girl.

Why do our six take Kyubey's contract?

Madoka apparently wished for the cat to be saved in first timeline, and wanted all the despair to stop in the last timeline.

Sayaka wanted Kyosuke's arm to be mended.

Kyoko saw her father's despair, and wanted to remedy that.

Mami was dying.

Homura had to witness Madoka die.

Nagisa's mother was dying next to her.

The shared theme here is that of helplessness - the puella makes the deal because she can't do anything about her situation unless she takes the offered lifeline, so she does.

The magical girl spends a while fighting witches, and eventually dies or gets transformed into witch.

Madoka doesn't get witched save for these situations where she runs out of hope after killing Walpurgisnacht dead. This will be relevant later.

Sayaka has her moments because she couldn't deal with this all anymore, really, and the strain was getting to her and she contracted chronic hero syndrome and doesn't get that she deserves rewards and rest for her work.

Kyoko effectively commits suicide trying to pull Sayaka out of Witch Mode and deciding to give her company instead, instead of accepting the loss and absconding to live another day. In a spare timeline she also gets killed by Mami. AFAIK she also had her moment after her dad's death but Mami pulled her out.

Mami got nommed thanks to being not focused enough, and loses her shit in a spare timeline but gets offed before presumably getting witched.

Homura doesn't get witched on-screen, but she doesn't let herself lose hope, as we all know.

Nagisa understands that she was cheated and pretty much falls to witch state on the spot.

The shared theme here is that of despair - sure, the contract gave you powers, but it doesn't help! You can't deal with it either way! Your hope is as meaningless as it goes!

Finally we have the Witch going around, making people commit suicide or wreaking havoc, until she is destroyed.

I want to say that the final theme is hatred. More specifically, cycles of trauma.

A Witch is born of a puella that gets burned out of hope and plunges into despair.

I think that Witches do the shit they do as a form of retaliation against the hurt that was inflicted on them. They drive people to suicide not because they want to, but because they feel the need to share their anguish; they hate the world because once everything else is gone, hate is all that remains. What has the world done for them, but hurt them and pressure them into being child soldiers? What has it done for them, other than give them powers and then demonstrate their futility? What has it done for them, only to show how much it hates them?

So they hate in return.

And Walpurgisnacht is the ultimate witch.

She embodies helplessness, the helplessness that all puellae feel before they accept the contract; She embodies despair, despair of the fall that makes it impossible for anyone to win a fight against her with power intact, because you can't fight fate; She embodies hatred, so strong that she wreaks havoc even beyond her mark and destroy the world directly, the hatred of a Witch spurned by the world.

And here's the Madokami telling the Walpurgisnacht that she doesn't need to hate anyone anymore.

That here she is, to save those who are helpless, to show them the way out. That here she is, to save those who are despairing, to deliver them from the world safe and sound. That here she is, to save those whose hatred consumes them, to let them not feel hate anymore.

She offers a way out of the cycle of hurt (and as we know, Walpurgisnacht spins in circles), she lets them move on. And so she lets the fundamental amalgamation of the suffering that is being a meguka to stop.

I'd even say that such a way out was the only way to actually defeat Walpurgisnacht: let's look at Madoka's witch form.

Witch of salvation. Her nature is mercy. She absorbs any life on the planet into her newly created heaven--her barrier. The only way to defeat this witch is to make the world free of misfortune. If there's no grief in this world, she will believe this world is already a heaven.

The only way to defeat this witch is to make the world free of misfortune. If there's no grief in this world, she will believe this world is already a heaven.

If we assume that KG is the bottom half of the hourglass to WN's upper half, we may say that the only way for the helplessness and despair and hatred to be left behind is for them to be supplanted by salvation and mercy.

Maintaining the cycle only brings more pain.

You need to need a way to break it.

#pmmm #watcher.rtf

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Yeah I do Blaseball now.

Catch me in what used to be Moab Desert. (Don’t come to Hellmouth, please!)

Up to date as of Season 9, day X.

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Wrote a ficlet for a friend. You might enjoy it,

#homestuck #watcher.txt

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Fuck it. I'm at 10 chapters as of a few weeks ago.

Enjoy what I've written so far, or don't. I am not your father.

#homestuck

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my torture finally begins here

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A few words on “Vriska Did Nothing Wrong” discourse:

I think the issue here is concerned with the conflict between deontological (more spefically, Kantian) and consequentialist ethics.

(TL;DR: Deontological ethics state that the imperatives behind the action - moral or obligational - are what matters, consequentialist, the action’s outcome.)

Vriska operates purely on the former: She cares not for consequences. She is driven to act the way she does by circumstances like her guardian and Scratch, and her worldview is significantly shaped by the ideas their upbringing curates within her mind.

Are Vriska’s actions justified from deontological perspective? Yes. Literally every single malevolent thing she did was dictated by an external malevolent influence; when she acts callously on her own, she does things because she believes she has a goal to adhere to.

Are they justified from consequentialist perspective? No. Just no.

Did Vriska actually do anything wrong? IDK man, it depends on what system do you follow?

Does reasoning justify consequence?

#homestuck #theory #vriska #vriscourse

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That’ll be...Hospital AU + Accidentally Saving The Day.

I’ll twist the circumstances a bit, if you don’t mind, okay?

-- arachnidsGrip [AG] began trolling gallowsCalibrator [GC] --

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-- arachnidsGrip [AG] ceased trolling gallowsCalibrator [GC] --

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“Can you be more fucking careful, Vantas?”

Karkat shoots you an annoyed glance. 

“Sure I can, Pyrope. Maybe you’d consider not moving so that I could properly tie this fucking bandage?”

You roll your eyes and examine the cast on your aching arm. You’ll have to take a break from detective stuff - two months, give or take a few weeks. Overall, though, you got off relatively likely - other than a nasty gash, an IV required to cover the consequences and a broken ulna now safely encased into plaster.

Karkat leaves your bandaged leg and looks at you with a mildly amused expression, his fist against his cheek.

“What were you doing there that night, anyway?”

“Checking the lead Vriska left for me. She decided to blow the bank up. I can’t believe she thought it would be even remotely funny. Or acceptable, for that matter.”

He frowns.

“You should stop taking those risks. Look at yourself. You were really lucky I was there.”

“What were you doing there, anyway?”

“Oh, I was just doing my community leader duties and checking out a nearby clubhouse when I heard an explosion. And then I dragged you out of the rubble, seeing as literally no people doing emergency response are even remotely competent. They could be replaced with a bunch of babies who poop hard into their diapers and that would be a win.”

You crack a smile and reach out with your healthy arm to tug at his apron.

“Hey, cut it off. I’ve got places to be.”

“Surely you do. Wouldn’t you rather sit with your old girlfriend for a while?”

“Oh, sure, I rather would.” He kisses you on the forehead and winks, heading to the door. “I’m going to come back in a few hours, okay? Please don’t run away chasing Vriska in a hospital gown and a cast while I’m off.” And he’s gone, leaving you to wonder why did you even respond to Vriska’s bait in the first place.

#homestuck #karezi

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Wow! Who could have believed? @terezine​ is out and, apparently, I’ve written two pieces for it. This one is a cheeky “Terezi and Kanaya drag Karkat’s dreamself around Prospit” piece. I hope you will enjoy it.

#homestuck #terezi

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Wow! Who could have believed? @terezine​ is out and, apparently, I’ve written two pieces for it. This one is a humanstuck “Terezi is a retiring detective” fic. I hope you enjoy it.

#homestuck #terezi

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A Bitter Parting: the Restored Scholar

I’d like to talk about what transpired. Feel free to ignore this if you are not interested in my personal ramblings or SMEN spoilers.

Section 1: Belief, disbelief and disappointment

I guess I will start with disappointment.

I am massively disappointed by the current affairs. I don’t think I have to say anything that wasn’t already said by someone else.

As of now, I believe all the accusations against Alexis Kennedy. (Cut me some slack; the first accusation - by a now-removed Twitter account @abuseindustry - was done by someone operating from a fresh account despite claiming to be active for 10 years as an organization, and overtly eager to encourage others to send them stories.) I don’t think it would be ethical for me to financially support his works in the future - even if Book of Hours, unlikely, gets kickstarted, I’m not going to pay for it, and I’m definitely not going to recommend Cultist Simulator to anyone else, even though I believe that Lottie and Marc can do something good out of the current situation.

Section 2: Personal involvement and burnouts

I guess I could say that I was pretty involved into CultSim - the mods, the community - heck, there’s even a guide floating at the Discord I wrote.

I’m not entirely sure whenever keeping what I’ve written would be appropriate, but I’m not going to remove any of my works from access. Working on these mods was something important specifically to me, and I don’t think that the effort I poured into them is inherently tainted. I might consider finishing what I’ve already started, but I won’t guarantee that I will or that I’ll do something new.

Likewise, I was pretty involved in Fallen London’s discord community. (Not the Delicious Server, though.) More than one and a half year is a long time, even though it’s way shorter when compared to those who remember Fallen London back when it was called Echo Bazaar. I guess I made friendships (and rivalries), helped people, speculated and did all these fancy things people do when they engage with something they like.

I don’t really think I do want to keep playing the game and stay in the community anymore, though. I feel burned out by the lack of content (even though Arbor just appeared - guess I can’t make myself care about it enough), the grinds, whatever. Throwing my accounts on the Seeking pyre would be the traditional way to leave, but my main is happily wielding the +4 BDR and I’m too lazy to carry my alts there. Sure, I could stop playing and stay active, but…I just don’t feel it. Time to move on, perhaps.

Section 3: Farewells.

Or - to be more precise - farewells and thoughts.

To everyone who suffered from Kennedy’s behaviour: My condolences. I hope the future will be brighter for you.

To FBG employees: Thank you. I enjoyed your work a lot.

To Lottie and Marc: Good luck.

To Procopius himself: I thought better of you, old man. You can’t fix what you’ve done but there’s always an option to record your name amongst other names at the edge of the world and wait.

To the entirety of all the communities I’ve been in: It was an entertaining ride, but, alas, all rides eventually end for someone.

Thank you for your attention,

Arthur N,

#fallen london #cultist simulator

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it's karezi day, so here you go

#homestuck #karezi