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Please I beg everyone just ignore how bat shit insane I’m becoming

Nbd I’m just beyond upset that I’ve been working out consistently and trying to keep an eye on my eating habits and I’ve fucking gained weight so I’m already just eons of mad at myself (also because if every single doctor visit turns to a focus on what I’m doing to lose weight I will actually put a bullet in my head) but I’m just so big mad at the “you don’t have adhd” thing

“You would’ve been diagnosed as a child.” No, if I were a boy I would’ve. I was a girl in the 90s; that was just “immaturity” and “being stubborn.”

“You didn’t have any issue in school.” Not after I decided watching my mom have to go to bat for my brother’s issues was already too much so if I just triple my efforts and get an A in everything no one has to worry.

“Your lack of focus is just depression.” I discuss all my symptoms with my therapist which is why she thinks it’s very likely; didn’t realize I also had to justify it to you when they don’t affect my physical health.

Also in this whole discussion my anxiety came up but we just ignoring my very horrendous and prevalent PTSD?

I know I shouldn’t dwell on it because I got the meds I was asking for but I am so genuinely upset because that’s such a man response and I miss my old doctor 🙃

Just out here, ready to scream because all my blood work came back normal so despite feeling like something is definitely wrong with me I am now labeled “just fat” despite the fact that I’ve been working out consistently for 3 months and all my clothes have more room.

Oh also he doesn’t think I have ADHD and I don’t have the time to explain to him that my guilt complex meant I hid any and all strugglin so my parents didn’t have to worry about it.

#tw doctors #I don’t know why my brain isn’t letting go of this #he’s not even trying to outwardly discredit me #but like #how limited a view you have sir

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If I don’t laugh I cry episode 10000000:

A fucking bird flew INTO MY STORE and I spent at least 20 minutes with broom in hand banging around trying to get it to fly back out and I would scare it and it would rapidly flutter and scare me.

Anyway it’s out and my door is closed but every time something shifts I fear another bird snuck in while I was engaged in a battle with the first one.

I’m not even afraid of birds.

#work antics #can the wildlife PLEASE stop entering the store #it makes me so anxious #birds

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Are you right? I mean yeah probably, and I know I should but right now I’m ready to list my doctor as my thirteenth reason and maybe actually lose my full mind

Just out here, ready to scream because all my blood work came back normal so despite feeling like something is definitely wrong with me I am now labeled “just fat” despite the fact that I’ve been working out consistently for 3 months and all my clothes have more room.

Oh also he doesn’t think I have ADHD and I don’t have the time to explain to him that my guilt complex meant I hid any and all strugglin so my parents didn’t have to worry about it.

#yeah definitely just depression #can’t be anything else

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Just out here, ready to scream because all my blood work came back normal so despite feeling like something is definitely wrong with me I am now labeled “just fat” despite the fact that I’ve been working out consistently for 3 months and all my clothes have more room.

Oh also he doesn’t think I have ADHD and I don’t have the time to explain to him that my guilt complex meant I hid any and all strugglin so my parents didn’t have to worry about it.

#I want suggestions on what it might be causing issues #I don’t want “try weight watchers” and telling me my lack of focus is just cause I’m depressed #I know it’s fucking worse cause I’m depressed #I know I need to lose weight but everything else is unaffected so like SOMETHING ELSE IS THERE #I’m tired

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Drunk Robin: Don't fear death, fear the state you will die in.

Drunk Eddie, whispering fearfully: New Jersey.

#too high for this #I'm about to pee

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Full disclosure IDGAF about the caption but it wouldn’t let me delete it so I could just appreciate t h e m

now we can all agree that when we say "the ghoul boys" we actually mean Egon and Ray from the hit film Ghostbusters (1984) and not the class traitors from buzzfeed unsolved

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I’m so in love with him are you KIDDING ME

Trans people reblog to crack open a cold one with Dan Akroyd

#dan aykroyd #blorboposting #send help

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I’m once again here knowing I will not get myself to go full bonkers because the fucker manning the little emergency switch in the back of my mind that WILL NOT LET ME GIVE UP CONTROL hasn’t ever fucking slept a day in his life and he no longer requires mortal things like rest and food, just the knowledge that I am forever at his mercy and sweet fuck this guy wants me to get a fucking aneurism before he lets me give an ounce of control to a mental health professional.

Anyway hi every 10 minutes at work I have a silent dry heave at how much I fucking hate living in this flesh prison.

#tw mental illness #disregard this post

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brb tryina get myself involuntarily committed because I have once again reached the absolute precipice of nothing brings me joy for more than 2 minutes and I want to scream in the woods until a bear rips out my vocal cords.

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Update Harvard students are walking out in solidarity with Columbia’s students

These are billion dollar for profit institutions that directly impact financial backing of Israel’s apartheid regime

#free palestine #fuck yeah ❤️

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society really lost the war when dressing nice / slutty = “gay” “metrosexual” “is he 💅🏻”. we had decades of men wearing crop tops and short shorts without blinking an eye and now it’s ye ole pilgrim standards and talk of scandal if they show their knees

#I’m TELLING YOU #bring back whores #lovingly

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If you see this on your dashboard, reblog this, NO MATTER WHAT and all your dreams and wishes will come true.

#I know better than to type my dreams in the tags #I remember how birthday candles work #wishhhhhh

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Slimy Ray

#he’s gooey and insane #i love him your honor #I needed this cause I’m so done hearing about watcher drama #ray stantz #dan aykroyd #blorboposting

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guys are you into dan akyroyd lore? it goes fucking crazy!! off the top of my head he partly owns several wineries, he has a vodka brand, he created and owns the house of blues music venues, his great grandad talked with arthur conan doyle about spiritualism which dan is also a fan of, he had tourettes as a kid, his aspergers is self diagnosed, he was engaged to carrie fisher after proposing on the set of blues brothers but she left him for her ex. there is so much more that i can’t remember though so go and read his entire wikipedia like i just did. incredible lore.

#I’m in deep #I have 2 crystal head bottles in my home #one is filled with teeth #only some of them are mine. #dan aykroyd #blorboposting #the only thing I wasn’t aware of was the Arthur Conan Doyle bit

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Hey everyone, please consider buying the 2024 itch.io Palestinian Relief Bundle- it's 373 games, game-making assets, tabletop roleplaying games, zines, and comics for a minimum of just 8 USD! They have a goal of 100,000 USD, and as of the time I'm writing this post, they have 8 more days to reach it.

Link will be in the reblog!

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happy 4/20, you primitive screwheads

#bruce campbell #oh for the love of Christ #the chin #the facial hair #that streak of silver #honestly come murder me #my kingdom for these fucking old men for FUCK SAKE #horny on main sorry

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the mood

#ahh yes #my first true love