nonextisence

[nonextisence]

there’s a thing that happens as you grow older; all joy becomes bittersweet, and all sadness becomes underwhelming. i guess it’s our way of dealing with an unpredictable and logistical world; we try to fit everything to those boxes. the happiest i’ve been is where i’ve been unaware of myself. what a shitty life

#n speaks

[nonextisence]

I’m not okay

(from ask polly)

#i keep coming back to this

[nonextisence]

I HATE CHRONIC PAIJ IY STOPS ME FROM DOING THINGS. ITS BEEN YEARS AND I. CANT. GET. OVER. THAT

#chronic pain #chronic illness

[nonextisence]

once again considering the reasons i speak/write. it is so fucking difficult. i’m so mad that to create things i have to put bits of myself into them.

#sad??? #sad boy hours

[nonextisence]

when I googled “making a blog”

I found it saying “don’t talk about things no one is interested in”

good for you! I’m not interested in myself either