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also logging in here and realizing my shyv sideblog is still there gathering dust jsnfkafn

#» out of character — ⌜main sup irl.⌟ #i should probably delete but c':

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katarina.. in arcane s2... noxus having a greater role in the story...

#» out of character — ⌜main sup irl.⌟ #me waking up in cold sweat: katarina in arcane #ASDIFASDIFJ

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Send ☁️ for a childhood memory!

#» prompts — ⌜do not fear the shrouded path.⌟ #what if i stop neglecting katarina and let marcus be the only one doing that. what then #ASDIFJASIDJFAJDF #i miss her :c

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wanting to kill your dad is literally normal every girl has thought about this

#» out of character — ⌜main sup irl.⌟ #» character study — ⌜fear is as powerful a weapon as any dagger.⌟ #» dynamics — ⌜father: i have outgrown your timid rules.⌟

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me: the world sucks life sucks i don't wanna exist anymore

this:

me: omg katarina!!! 🥰🥰🥰

#» out of character — ⌜main sup irl.⌟ #every piece of katarina art that gives her the lil smug smirk #makes me less depressed #i just think she's neat #tbd.

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with the newer new approach to lore, and especially the short stories being set aside, i take kat's comic is the most canon content we have now regarding her, talon and noxus and the du couteaus generally speaking. because i'm assuming recent stuff like that and mageseeker was already done with the new approach in mind...

#esp w song of nunu being canon #convrgence being the exception bc it was in development for a looooong time #thinking thoughts... #» out of character — ⌜main sup irl.⌟ #katarina being the faceless can be real though..... #the time issue w the previous story might just be retconned..... #aihjshdishdie

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kat's band should have a cringe name like lethality or something..

#» out of character — ⌜main sup irl.⌟ #or first blood...... critical strike....... fkjsndfkajnf #tbd.

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pspspspsps boys with a band and kda girlies and tdmg ppl and pentakillers..... i have a music verse for katarina ok bye 🫡

#» out of character — ⌜main sup irl.⌟ #i love the music verse sm... #and since rito gives me nothing.... #thanos vc: i'll do it myself #(i already had it for a while now but you know)

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modern verse talon...... playing ac mirage.......

katarina watching and backseat gaming....

#» out of character — ⌜main sup irl.⌟ #talked about tal playing ac with r once...... #kat is just annoying (affectionate)

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i was thinking about modern verse and music and i feel. these all have the vibes of the type of music katarina would make...

this & this & this & this & this & this & this & this & this & this & this

#it's all paramore and olivia rodrigo and one or two the pretty reckless songs...... #ksdjfnaskjnf #» out of character — ⌜main sup irl.⌟ #esp considering i think she'd be doing music since she was a teen the olivia rodrigo type lyrics also feel so fitting kjdakdfn #hi i'm not existing atm bc i'm depressed and wanting to die 🫡 but i wanted to post this...

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incorrect quotes prompts (1/?)

taken from this generator & this generator! triggering themes & nsfw topics may be present!

❝ i am very small and i have no money, so you can imagine the kind of stress that i'm under. ❞ ❝ when i see initials carved into a tree with a heart i think it's so romantic. two lovers on a date ... one of them carrying a knife for some reason. ❞ ❝ i'm sick and tired of being called 'mortal' like, you don't know that. neither do i. i have never died even ONCE. nothing has been proven yet. stop making assumptions. it's rude. ❞ ❝ hey, quick question. how petty am i allowed to be? ❞ ❝ i'm not funny, i'm just really mean and people think i'm joking. ❞ ❝ i'm a masochist, not a loser. ❞ ❝ i've come to a point in my life where i need a stronger word than fuck. ❞ ❝ like, no offense to myself and all, but what the fuck am i actually doing? ❞ ❝ i think my guardian angel drinks. ❞ ❝ behold, the field in which i grow my fucks! lay thine eyes upon it, and thou shalt see that it is barren! ❞ ❝ i said 'no' to drugs, but they wouldn't listen. ❞ ❝ i'm not a morning person. i'm barely even a person. ❞ ❝ i'm a nice person, but i'm about to start throwing rocks at people. ❞ ❝ well you see, the explanation is perfectly simple and scientific. it was because shut up. shut up is why. ❞ ❝ i came out here to attack people and i'm honestly having such a good time right now. ❞ ❝ i'm the sexiest bitch in this therapy waiting room. ❞ ❝ died and came back as a cowboy, i call that reintarnation. ❞ ❝ could you maybe just like ... stab me ... right in the gut. just REALLY twist it in there. 'cause that honestly seems less painful than this conversation. ❞ ❝ i'd like to offer you moral support, but i have questionable morals. ❞ ❝ i wish i was a cat, but not in a furry kinda way, more like a 'i can sleep all day and hit people with no consequences' kinda way. ❞ ❝ my ultimate goal is to punch god in the eye, just to spite him one last time. ❞ ❝ i would say i outdid myself, but i'm always this good, so i simply did myself. ❞ ❝ i just wanted to say that over the years, i have come to regard you as ... people i met. ❞ ❝ i'm usually that person who has no idea what's going on. ❞ ❝ you treat an outside would with rubbing alcohol. you treat an inside wound with drinking alcohol. ❞ ❝ it's not ugly, just aesthetically challenged. ❞ ❝ you'll have a hard time believing this because it never happens, but i made a mistake. ❞

#» prompts — ⌜only fools hesitate.⌟ #i haven't rb'd a meme here for so long and i am going straight for the meme-y one #it do be like that

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big fan of characters with abandonment + attachment issues so profound that they leave claw marks in everything they touch but would sooner gnaw off their own leg than admit they just want someone to stay for once. in a totally normal well adjusted and not at all projecting way of course.

#» out of character — ⌜main sup irl.⌟ #» character study — ⌜fear is as powerful a weapon as any dagger.⌟ #ha haha #this girl can fit so many abandonment issues that lead to attachment issues in her

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i constantly go on about how pretty irelia's fighting style is and how graceful and precise and beautiful really because it is a dance, so i figured i should. talk about how katarina fights too and i don't think it is at all like irelia. she doesn't fight pretty. even when she's showing off, it's about brutal efficiency. she doesn't fight in a way that leaves her enemies horribly mutilated or anything, but it isn't pretty — it's deadly precision, but it's also messy improvisation when it comes to it. it's bloody and meant to be effective; i don't think it'd be mesmerizing as irelia fighting, and that if it is eye-catching it's only because she's damn good at what she does to the point she often makes things more challenging to herself than they need to be. for fun. because even though she's an assassin she only ever works with actual stealth and not facing her target head-on if the mission demands that to be successful (which is why she doesn't hide herself from the one war veteran in the comic, but makes use of all her skill when assassinating j3). ultimately she's more resourceful than she is graceful.

#» out of character — ⌜main sup irl.⌟ #» character study — ⌜fear is as powerful a weapon as any dagger.⌟

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she's so pretty actually. like. casually standing in roofs and drinking from her flask she did not have to look so good and yet. there she is.

#miss du couteau.... ma'am........ #sorry i went back for that other post and ended up going through some of my commentary on the comic lmao #she really didn't have to look so good..... #» out of character — ⌜main sup irl.⌟

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Were she on her own, it would have been much easier to slip away unnoticed. Garen makes the effort not to be noisy, true, but not enough to match her; and moving without the hindrance of being bound to him was something Katarina could have done without. The assassin knows, however, for all her skill in stealth, she would likely be dead were she alone. She surely had been close to it, only the knight's intervention preventing that outcome. 

The circumstances aren't ideal, but when were they ever? Following plans is all well and good when they work, yet reality seldom cares for each carefully crafted step idealized before being realized as intended. Improvising had saved her more times than she could count; this would be no different. Her life and her freedom would both remain intact by the end of this. 

Katarina had slipped out of Demacia at the beginning of a rebellion and following the murder of a king. Escaping Demacians under regular circumstances couldn't possibly be more difficult than that. A concern for later, nonetheless; they had to survive before she could think about escaping.

"Honor and good deeds are subjective," She repeats, mockery blatant in her tone. "Is that how you Demacians excuse hunting down mages? Or rather — the mages not related to you?"

"Either way, if you freed me we'd have much better odds in a fight," A hopeless request, the assassin is certain, but there is nothing to lose with insisting on it. "Enough you wouldn't have to worry about my shrill voice getting us killed."

"You can't say all that and expect me to be silent, though. A Demacian admitting things are not black and white? That's a first." Relentless provocation wouldn't help convince Garen she ought to be freed, the Noxian knows, yet the opportunity is too good to pass up. When else would she have the chance to learn more about the Captain of the Dauntless Vanguard like this? He is an important part of the Demacian military, but more than that, a friend to the fourth Jarvan. Any information on someone like that could be useful to the empire, and she isn't one to waste opportunities like that.

Besides, she could admit to herself he had caught her interest with his unwilling admissions.

"In my profession," Katarina says, with a lilt that makes it all too clear his tone had been taken as criticism, even if his wording suggested naught. Her eyes remain on the path ahead, but though she continues the conversation seemingly undisturbed, it would be a mistake to assume she wasn't very attentive to their surroundings. "I do what I must do for Noxus, same as you do for Demacia. You kill people on the battlefield, I kill them without anyone else needing to die. That's all there is of black and white in all of this. I know the empire isn't perfect, but it is worth fighting for, and if you expect me to feel any guilt by talking about what my marks might think or want, you're wasting your breath. They had to die for the good of the empire. I do not regret a single life taken for Noxus."

"But my loyalty does not make me blind. I'm not above admitting my nation has flaws, Crownguard, yet we strive to do better. Can Demacia say the same?" Can you?, the question echoes, though she does not ask in such terms. "Maybe I'm not good by your standards, but your hands are not cleaner, and your nation is far from being in any position to claim the moral high ground your people act like you have a right to."

A pause, and she stops moving as he is about to turn left, an eyebrow raised as emerald eyes throw him a sharp glance. "Maybe I should stop talking, if only so you'll pay more attention to where you're going. We're not getting out of here going that way — and I don't know what foolish heroic thing you might be planning to do, but if you don't plan for us both to die, we should leave. Hiding will be a waste of time, and fighting that thing would be the most stupid way to go about this."

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The creature they were being hunted by was a clever beast, and had come far too close to ending both of their lives too many times for him to care to admit. A part of him wanted to admit that if he was alone in this endeavor that he'd be in a better position, but deep down he'd know that was a lie. The assassin was a marvel to behold on the battlefield, she had proven as much during their first meeting. Though Garen supposed if she wasn't good than she wouldn't be here with him in the first place.

Still, his comments had been brought on by... what exactly? He didn't show all his cards usually and yet his defensive words had spilled out so easily and now Katarina's venom was melting at his armor and annoying him. He knew deep down he was feeling remorse for far too many things. Things he should have done, things he could have done, and the doubts her had about his choices only seemed to reignite every time the redhead fought with him in battle. He was reminded that his opinions on mages may have been too harsh... Noxians, what of his opinions on their breed?

Deep down he still didn't trust them, he didn't care for their brutality and yet... he'd seen the things the Mageseekers had done. The things he's done. Did he have any right to judge? Katarina was dangerous, it was why he had been hunting her down, but was she as blinded by their nation's rivalry as he was? If so, why did she have his back as much as he had her own? It couldn't be just survival. Could it?

Glaring over at her, he's mindful of his gait, choosing to walk on only soft spots of earth as both were unaware where the beast had gone or when it'd return. "Honor and good deeds are subjective. Letting the beast maul you might have been the good choice. You're an assassin, right? I'm sure all your past and future victims would be thrilled to know you bled out beneath some claws and teeth."

With one more glare to focal his point, he walks past her, shoulders tense and it certainly showed in his march. A good Noxian. It'd be a funny statement if he wasn't royally pissed off. "Saving you was a choice that'll no doubt bite me in the ass later, but I know I won't survive against this thing without your help." He throws over his shoulder in a gravely tone. "Like I said. Good deeds are subjective, and I'd hope in your profession you were aware that people and kingdoms aren't just white and black. No matter how many times we tell ourselves they are." He was aware of this better than most. He could still hear the hurt in his sister's voice whenever he talked about Demacia's ideals and beliefs. Did Katarina know he only took the task of finding her so he didn't have to face his barbaric regrets back home?

"Now pipe down. Your shrill voice is going to get us both killed." He adds, a hint of a grin in his tone.

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— under the banner of noxus.

#» out of character — ⌜main sup irl.⌟ #» character study — ⌜fear is as powerful a weapon as any dagger.⌟ #from the original tags: #this is important to me #she stabbed him in the back but then looked straight into his eyes to say #monarchy sucks we're freeing demacians of you (for noxus) #she has no more sympathy for j3 than she shows the one guy with the rogue warband #and it's so important to me #he's the king of a nation currently being ruined by its own prejudice #he's a ruler just because he was born into it #what did he do to deserve that crown? #she has only contempt for him but it's not contempt that moves her #it's the empire bc ultimately it's all for noxus #because ultimately conquering other nations is in her eyes setting them free of rulers like this #anyway. she has 0 respect for monarchs

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sometimes i remember kat's comic and the part she murders j3......... it goes so hard

#» out of character — ⌜main sup irl.⌟ #listen. listen. hear me out #noxus is a militaristic imperialistic colonizer nation #katarina does genuinely believes in their supposed principles though #the equality and meritocracy and lack of prejudice and whatnot #and the way she's just like 'bitch the world will be better without you' bc of the way demacia is and the mage prejudice #goes really hard