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Every so often I am reminded about this sorry, I was just rereading my intro post on here

“This is about me not the system I belong to”

The brain, about to make me host: “you sure that you don’t want it to be your system”

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“This is about me not the system I belong to”

The brain, about to make me host: “you sure that you don’t want it to be your system”

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Why the fuck

Did I get next host

What the absolute fuck.

#Please I’m not ready for this I’m not ready I know me and the old host were like #really similar except I’m more outspoken but please #I will just cry to the now ex boyfriend and still want to be around him #it’s better this way I know it is but holy fuck #I can’t control my emotions they gen control me #vent

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I'm begging Tumblr to not do me dirty

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Thank you eli

#I’ve been in system for a bit #just new to tumblr #tprty #I didn’t want to respond in the comments bc of the fact that the main is the the hosts account

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I should force ace and seph into making tumblrs I feel like they’d be absolutely hilarious (more so Seph then Ace because Ace would prob just post random body facts he remembers but seph,,, that would be funny he already cries to our friends about his brother and memories what would he do with the anonymity of tumblr,,,, 🤔

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I think one of the sucky things about being in a system is the fact I don’t feel like I deserve to have friends or be friends with people outside of the friends of the system and most of them usually don’t,,, even know me as me…

#fictive #plural #system

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Someone cut the hair with safety scissors and it wasn’t me this time

#they didn’t do half bad but why Bangs we’ve never had Bangs in our life from what I can tell #and I thought I was mentally I’ll for dying the hair twice in one week smh

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Points at myself, I’m very comfortably gay.

#I’m also getting comfortable in the fact that I am demiromantic #damn those gay thoughts follow me though 😔 #it’s almost midnight I’m not making sense #t

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Hello. My name is Edgar, I also tend to go by Valden or Val more times then not. I am an adult.

I am a fictive of Edgar Valden also known as the painter from the game Identity V. I am a part of a larger system. I will not be sharing much about that system. This isn’t about them this is about me.

I’m an asshole, I warn everyone who talks to me about that fact. It’s something I do by accident most times. I have had words used against me to the point they have lost their meaning unless it is someone close to me and it slips my mind that others are not the same. One of my main love languages is friendly bullying about silly things. Though I do try and hold my tongue If I know it’s unwanted.

I am also kinda attached to my identity as Edgar because I have a lot of traumatic memories as him, however idc about doubles or whatever they’re called. I don’t control who you are or anything I don’t see why I should care about that. So I so identity heavily with my source material and will get upset over it. Please don’t make fun of my trauma in my asks though, your ask will just be deleted.

I love attention, my dms are open and so are my asks <3

I enjoy drawing, I use it as a way to cope with my emotions and traumatic experiences. I may post some art if I deem it impersonal enough. I am trying my Best to work through my own shit. However this system also struggles with Autism and BPD so my emotions are completely insane on the best days. I’m also severely depressed, I often put up a mask on that though.

All posts with triggering content will be tagged accordingly

The system is bodily an adult, and I am an adult. We have a partner system. We are diagnosed with DID, BPD, and Autism. I made this blog to have somewhere to ramble and possibly make friends. Shrug.

#plural #idv fictive #fictive #identity v fictive #if this shows up in the main tags I’m Eating Glass yall #my entire persona is an elaborate game of seeing how others react to me #system #onismsystem

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Places one hand into this tag and immediately pulls it back out. Hello.

#idv fictive #I’m still setting up this blog but how much you want to bet this will not fill the hole in my chest from boredom