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overcharged my multilingual brain working on both creative and academic endeavours and now i can't even hold a sentence in my head jdjdjddn

#uni is almost over #the dread is seeping in though #so many wips await me

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writers and artists will go "this isn't good enough." my brother in christ, you're creating something new out of nothing and expressing yourself creatively. your productivity and unrealistic standards of perfection do not define you or the worth of your art. you're doing great.

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you came back wrong and i am racked with guilt because i cannot bear to see you like this and i should have let you rest. i loved you so much that i defied death itself but i do not think either of us are happy

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come fucking get me (@ my soulmate)

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Addicting Taste Chapter 10 ~sneak peek~

A/N: It was hard to pick a part that was spoiler free but this one instantly came to mind. It comes together with the chapter as a whole so well but for now here's a scene. Rest assured, she's coming :)

Walking around the tables, all eyes moved to you at once. Some stared at your attire, disgustingly winking or sneering your way. Others quickly scanned you in dismissal to see if you're a threat or just a mere mortal walking around gods of the underworld, way more engrossed in the discussions they were having than to regard you. You assumed those were conversations one was better off not knowing about if they truly treasured life and all its beauties.

Suddenly, Enishi stopped in the middle of the room. You halted in your steps too and before you could question it he turned to you, searching around for any potential intruders to your conversation. He leaned closer to you, looking for privacy from even the blonde behind you.

"Let me do the talking," he said, deep dark eyes focusing on you with authority. The kind of authority you didn't like. You opened your mouth to complain until he continued. "If they find out who you are, we might not get out of here alive. So, please, just let me take care of it this time."

This wasn't a warning for you to behave yourself. This was a warning that you were in the middle of a temporary ceasefire and shit could go sideways so fast if you weren't careful. There would be nothing any of you could do to stop it. Not even firing a bullet or breaking a neck. You had to keep a low profile if you wanted both the information and getting out in one piece.

With a scoff that you hoped didn't go unnoticed, you motioned for him to go on. He threw you another look and to your disappointment, he turned back before you could tell him to shove it somewhere the sun doesn't shine.

Frankly, you could defend yourself from anything after all the training he put you through. There was a part of you that just wanted to take matters into your own hands, get the information, put some holes through a few of these murderers that the world would be better without anyways, and be on your merry way. But the other, the one that was uneasy and worked overtime to tell you everything was wrong all day, agreed with him. So you just followed him, keeping your wits to yourself.

Advancing through the field of vipers, you arrived at the far back of the open row of tables, drenching into a darker black, earlier gold at the entrance disappearing into thin lines on the floor, almost invisible in the dim lighting.

A deep velvety curtain separated you and finding out key information about your parents whereabouts. The same curtain kept behind the sea of monsters that could rip all three of you apart without a sweat.

You turned to Cho, catching his Adam's apple bob up and down in a quiet gulp. Even the freak in him that always looked for a fight was scared shitless by what awaited on the other side.

Facing the curtain once more, you took in a shaky breath with eyes shut tight praying things would be better once you got through that curtain. This was it. If it wasn't... it was over. You'd stop searching. You would get on with your life and start anew somewhere else where no one knew you. You would get to finally live. With an empty, withered, always aching heart for the people you grew fond of in such a short time and the ones who have been lost for even longer. Always grieving something that was never found, always mourning what you found, never at peace. But living.

A hand circled around yours, squeezing tight in what could only be reassurance. You knew that squeeze well enough by now. There was no need to second-guess it. Because when you opened your eyes and followed it to the wide, determined shoulder in front of you, you found the man that stood tall beside you all this time. The only person that has been your rock and did everything in his power to help you, even if his first step to you was deceiving. Even if most of what you built together was a lie. The only one who awakened your soul to the brink of both life and death.

The man your heart will always long for.

The curtain was roughly drawn open by a burly guard, rattling to the side of the frame. The hand holding yours fell instantly, the side of his face hardening as he forged ahead into the fire. Smoke hung in the air, the smell of opium pungent and raw in every breath you took in. If you could get a penny for every illegality you've laid eyes on since you entered the place, you would be filthy rich by the time you took three strides in any direction. Because these people made money breathing while others laid their lives on the line to die.

Thank you for reading :)

#addicting taste #enishi yukishiro #rurouni kenshin #enishi yukishiro x reader #enishi yukishiro x you #chapter 10 sneak peek

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fuck it, does anyone want to see a sneak peek of that addicting taste chapter that's been a wip for the past 5 months?

send an ask and i'll put it there :)

#addicting taste #enishi yukishiro #gonna see if i shall make it or break it down

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Soft Zoro appreciation post

Demon Pirate Hunter my ass, he's silly, cute and occasionaly a bit dumb

#he's so round #you don't even know how much i want to squish those cheekies #just look at him #favorite little man

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it has come to my attention that rurouni kenshin: the final came out 3 years ago!!!

mackenyu did such a good job with portraying enishi and he is constantly the inspiration well that keeps on giving.

i wish they did like a spin off on his character but that's just me living and breathing in the addicting taste universe every day, hour, minute. he's so important to me, i can't even put it into words.

enjoy the photo dump below of some pics i found scattered around in my gallery :)

he's so 🫠✨❤️

#enishi yukishiro #rurouni kenshin #favorite genre of mackenyu ever #i love him so much

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little update ~

i'm in the midst of finishing editing on it but she's long and heavy and really emo. i'm working a tight uni deadline this week and she's gonna have to wait until the weekend sadly :(

but she is coming. thank you so much to those of you who started reading it and are still going through it. she's still a work in progress requiring a lot of care and looking over again, but it means the world that you're still finding it and reading it ❤️

glad to say ch 10 of addicting taste is almost ready

she's yours this weekend 🫡

don't hate me after it because we're driving into the angst

#addicting taste

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glad to say ch 10 of addicting taste is almost ready

she's yours this weekend 🫡

don't hate me after it because we're driving into the angst

#addicting taste #as much as it was a pain i love this chapter so much

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no romance dawn trio! you can’t slay that hard on a wanted poster!

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btw if we're mutuals i automatically think ur cooler than me. doesnt matter if we have been mutuals for 2 minutes or 3 years, if we are following each other u are cooler than me by default <3

#i love you guys

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Zoro Roronoa “Zorojuro” (ロロノア・ゾロ) - One Piece - Episode 1094

#he's so round like an egg and soft

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[writing]: god this is the worst. this is garbage. this is awful. it needs to be burned before anyone else can see it and my reputation is ruined forever

[reading back my writing]: oh this isn't so bad actually

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Spring Chikorita

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#pls don't hate me for the next addicting taste chapters #thats all thanks