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rotting

2023 intro. 

things are moving all toooooo fast, i hate saying this i wish i still was in high school figuring things out when in high school i hated it? (and in another three years or so i’ll be saying i wish i was a freshman in college once again, it’s a perpetual state of not loving where you’re at, something i should fix right?) 

hello. the worst feeling is life is the feeling of rotting and being entrapped in folds of yourself like you can’t mentally handle your mind spiraling. i overthink too much i hate my head space, when you have many moments to yourself you often are entrapped in that oh so overwhelming gut wrenching feeling. then moments later i recover. anyways a lot happened in the those 2 1/2 year time span! I FEEL FUCKING CRAZYYYY! anyways you had your first romantic experience ensue when in reality it was just a figment of your imagination or an idea of a person that is. i think i reached the checkpoint as to where i wanted my relationship would realistically play out, need to end that but then when i finally end things i will feel terribly distraught about it (attachment issues). in my design class i had designed and photographed a cover but then someone who had vaguely similar concept deleted my slide so the professor wouldn’t review it, just for five seconds of fame. can’t believe that person did that, as if i couldn’t figure out two and two together that she deleted it, very upset, but oh well, a lot of things are left unjust and that was one of my first surreal moments of someone just being that shitty. i want to pursue design in college but its competitive, and im one to be disheartened easily but i can’t give up this easily, i need more photography ideas, gonna reach out for help but i overthink and start with the narrative people think i’m weird, or uninteresting i need to get over that hurdle, i hate people yet wanna find people. ugh its all too much. i’ll update and post on this later once ive figured things out, or havent. 

on other things that have made me happy: 

Bee and Puppycat very cute show 10/10 recommend very weird actually but i like it 

kafe neo gyro and greek fries shit SLAAAAAPS

oddly enough white rice, tamale, and srracha, that shit i used to make after school in like sophomore year of high school all so nostalgic

my old small room where i began all my relationships with the folks online

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three years later, not sure why i decided to post my soundcloud in the other post, gonna start getting into tumblr again, not for a particular reason besides to kill time

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if ya like music

follow me on soundcloud i dont promise you anything 

https://soundcloud.com/user-604462757

#soundcloud #chill