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I'm at a Taylor Swift dance party and I'm absolutely alone. Surrounded by couples, groups of friends and I'm just by myself. It absolutely sucks. Cause I know I should be having the time of my life, but its kinda hard to do that alone. Watching everyone else have the time of their lives. I'm just hating my life a bit more tonight.

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The only time people call me is to vent about their life. They could care less about kine. Because when I am honest people push me away. "Oh sees always so sad. She's always in a bad mood. Why can't she just be happy. She's such a Debbie downer. Probably just doing it for attention."

Like I'm so over it. I'm so over life. I'm tired and annoyed and I just wish I had people in my life who loved me as am I. Who'll be there for me while I work on getting out of this darkness. Cause it's lonely and I'm tired of being alone. I don't want to die, but every day it's seeming like a better option. Because what's the point in living in a world where people don't care about you?

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Please check out my recent tiktok. There's a joke that only swifties will get and I'd love it if y'all reacted to it!

#red taylor’s version #taylorswift #taylornation #swiftie #RED #all too well #ten minute all too well

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Ya know I have the best sister and I love her to death.

Yet I opened up to her about my mental health struggles. Like all the ugliness and she hasn't talked to me in days and now I don't know how to feel.

I let someone in to my darkness and I think I scared them away. That I burdened them with who I am and my heart aches even more.

I don't even want to open up to anyone else close to me because I don't have many people in my life. If they all decided to stop talking to me I don't think my heart could take it.

I'm not strong enough. 😔

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Today's date 3/14/2021 adds up to 13.

So of course Taylor was destined to win AOTY!! It was meant to be!! So proud of you @taylorswift. So very much deserved!!!

The fans are the reason we’re floating tonight, and we’ll never forget it.

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Dear @taylorswift

I hope you feel comfortable to come back and joke around and stuff. I know you're always lurking. Just know that I miss your randomness on here. Also that I am so proud of your two new albums and I'm so excited to hear your re-recorded albums. You've given me so much joy during a very dark time. This pandemic/quarantine hasn't been easy, but that you for bringing the light in to the darkness for me and all the fans out there.

Sending you and the fam Love, Light and Happiness

Love Rachel 💜😻💜😻💜😻❤😻💜😻💜😻💜

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Long story short, I survived.

I freaking love folklore and evermore @taylorswift. Thank you for making 2020 just a bit brighter for a lot of us

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The song was just the icing on the cake. I'm dying!

@taylorswift @taylornation

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When you only reactivated your Tumblr account to be closer to @taylorswift , but douche nuggets on this app had to go and ruin all the fun. I hope for the rest of you life that every time you are barefoot you slam your pinky toe into something.

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Hey @taylorswift is this level of crazy cat lady acceptable?

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First thing I thought of this morning!!!

@taylorswift

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PLEASE GET OUT AND VOTE!!

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WHY IS EVERYONE GETTING HACKED ON THIS APP!?!?! SO TIRED OF GETTING TAGGED IN THOSE STUPID RAYBANS POST.

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I've been struggling to much lately. I spend far too much time alone. I go days without talking to people. My only interaction is when I work. Im a server so sometimes those interactions aren't always positive. People who I thought were my friends completely forget about me. Like they went out to dinner for a mutual friends birthday and didn't even invite me. They pretty much hid it from me. I thought they were my friends, but I guess their not. Everyone always leaves me. I give and give and im so tired. So tired of opening myself up. Of letting people in. Cause at the end of the day I'm the one that's left hurting and no one notices. I havent seen my sister and best friend, in person, in almost three years. Because of the pandemic I dont know if that'll happen this year. My heart is broken. Pretty much shattered. I've tried to make friends online but thats been a bust too. I'm so damn alone and lonely. I'm so happy @taylorswift released her album folklore. It brought me a bit of comfort. I even ordered a ton of merch. Yet I just wish I had someone to share it all with. I'm so tired of not being enough. What's wrong with me that everyone always leaves me? Why am I so easy to forget? What did I do wrong?

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This is why we can't have nice things hours different now and days. People really had to make Tumblr stop being a safe space for Taylor. Hope it was worth it. Loved your performance tonight. It was beautiful. @taylorswift I hope you consider coming back

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Well my birthday is a little over a week away and I wanted to share my amazon wish list again. Its not much, but if you feel moved to maybe get something I'd be grateful. Ill be spending another birthday alone. All the other times there wasn't really a reason. Just wasn't important enough to people I guess. I'd just like to not feel so worthless on my birthday. Even if you just wanted to wish me a happy Birthday that would be nice. My birthday is Sept. 09. I dread my birthday because I'm always disappointed. I see other people get these great parties and surprises. I get a few text and that's it. Now with covid here I know that'll only make it worse. If you made it this far, thanks.

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Y'all really had to take away Taylors safe space here. Like can you imagine how much fun she would've had here since the release of folklore? People always want to ruin stuff and then act like they did nothing wrong.

You don't know people behind closed doors. Everything in this world is blasted on social media all the time. The good and the bad. Some stuff should be done in private. Good deeds shouldn't be done for clout. They should just be because you're a decent human being.

Celebrities don't need to post everything good they do. Regular people either.