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Research Time 2! (also remembering to set this one to 1 week)

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One of my hips always tells the truth and the other always lies

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Reblog if you're not homophobic

Every url that reblog’s will be written in a book and shown to my homophobic dad. 

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for the meowers

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important poll:

#im autistic and adhd.

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This is so wholesome

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Quite literally my discord server yesterday asking me, the resident spiritual witchy person, to hex Clarence Thomas.

At least I can say I’m getting some old bottles to make protection charms for them. And I’m making them do a big cleanse when I’m there.

#magic #discord #I wanna preface this by saying I am not in fact a witch. #I do not practice magic #I know a bit about it #but significantly more the all these science guys I’m friends with #Tristan: astrophysicist #Paul: archeologicalgist now law student #mercer (my partner): Masters in Public Policy with a job doing something I don’t understand #yet here they are enlisting me their resident spooky bitch to do some spell work on everyone’s least favorite Supreme Court justice #clarence thomas #I hate him to but like. I don’t got enough protection and I’m sick rn. so. #not happening

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@ male artists who wont quit drawing girls w balloon tits w the shirt suctioned to their body

we get it. youve never seen them before in ur life. now stop

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anyone else relate

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I live in New York. Well on a date with my boyfriend to The MoMA we decided to go to separate rooms (he wandered around and captured the sound of the museum) and while I was in that very room three guys entered talking about how modern art is a bunch of squares, I walked them directly up to that exact painting, Blue Monochrome 1961, and showed them exactly how to experience it. It’s a painting that you stand close to and let the color overwhelm your vision. Then showed them François Morlellet’s Random Distribution of 40,000 Squares Using the Odd and Even Numbers of a Telephone Directory, 50% Blue, 50% Red, which sadly is not on view at the moment as the last time I went they rearranged the galleries, and had them read the wall didactic because how he made this thing is absolutely wild. At this point my boyfriend rejoins me so I didn’t walk them directly to Newman but directed them to go see the Barnette Newman piece just a few rooms over and stand close enough that it too overwhelms. Whether or not I was successful in show them how modern art isn’t “just a bunch of squares” I do feel rather strongly about how people will just go to museum and walk around and not read anything or really feel the art they are looking at. You don’t merely look at art but feel it, experience it. But I did glimpse them looking at the giant red Newman piece rather close so maybe I did.

Modern art has a whole lot to offer than just colorful squares or a smear on a canvas, it has intentionally and insane mastery over the medium they work with. Modern abstract art is about expression, feeling, exploration. Go sit in front of a Rothko and tell me you don’t feel something.

Also picture from that day

abstract and modern art haters are sooo snobby like klein literally Created an entirely new pigment and then painted a canvas in a way where the brush strokes wouldn't be visible. the insinuation that people with no skill could reproduce that is so annoying because unless you are skilled at color mixing and painting you definitely couldn’t lmao

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No, no, NO! You don’t understand! If they were going to make a movie called “Goncharov” it would have to be a modern REBOOT of the 1973 film. Then everyone would have the right to consume the media while simultaneously complaining about how “it isn’t as good as the original” or “I can’t BELIEVE that they left out the iconic part XYZ”. We get to watch the film and preserve the original. Everyone wins.

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Writing popular posts on tumblr is easy watch this

“Nasty Hot Transgender Sex, Jesus style”

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Spotted this in a second hand bookshop and the whiplash I felt was so strong that I think I’ve discovered another 12 stages of grief

#the way I’m in a Russian history class and we were discussing Russian literature and Goncharov came up and I was like HEH?!! #But yeah he’s a guy and a great author #read his stuff

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i actually dont give a shit if hamas did everything and worse that israel accuses them of it still doesn't justify killing 30000 random civilians

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making my own post bc i dont want to start a fight but anyway. I don't like to feel lonely. I want to be friendly with everyone, to be comforting and fun and easy to become friends with, but I'm not nearly good enough at socializing to give that impression. For all my life, I've been more likely to push people away when I try to be friendly, because I just can't seem to understand or use the metatextual layer of communication most people rely on and expect from others. By now I maintain a respectful distance from everyone at all times, never initiate social engagements, and often slip into downright avoidant behavior. It's clearly a behavior pattern that makes life lonelier, but I find myself stuck in it for fear that stepping out of line will make the people who called themselves my friends, who I cherish and don't want to lose, suddenly turn their feelings around entirely and drive me out of their lives.

So basically: in this post OP is presenting as an uncontroversial fact that there's a particular type of autistic person marked by the type of communication difficulties I have and distinct from the type that belongs on this site. Further, they show no hesitation and expect understanding when they say they can't stand my type, but they have no qualms with making us feel welcome for a time via overt signals like allowing our presence in a private social space, even as the covert signals we can't catch make it clear to everyone else that we aren't welcome. They do this while wishing they could just get rid of us, but wait for an opportunity that wont make them seem mean, just to appear kinder than they really want to be to the people they actually care about. In other words, they've casually confirmed exactly what I fear. You can probably see why I wound up with a complex!

TBH, this is the kind of thing that makes me want to put the word 'autistic' in a box on the high shelf. The first meaning of 'autistic' presented here is marked entirely by symbols while the second marked mostly by behavior and ways of knowing. Anyone left of the republicans nowadays probably feels (sincerely) that we all ought to be kind to autistic people, but the basis of that belief (which won't be immediately obvious to anyone who learned it as a maxim) is that people who are difficult to communicate with deserve dignity and community like anyone else. When one can be understood as 'autistic' by performing all the correct social cues to mark oneself as part of the autistic subculture, they can form an idea of what an autistic person looks and acts like (that is, ironically, inaccessible to someone who can not navigate the dance of social cues effectively and thus doesn't accept that particular toys and memes and interests could be more autistic than others). Then, one can understand themself as kind to autistic people because they are kind to marked subculture members whom they have no trouble getting along with, while disposing of anyone who's the kind of autistic that isn't so easy to get along with, all while avoiding any cognitive dissonance. This isn't a hypothetical, this is a cruelty that I have experienced from groups who understood themselves as entirely autistic or autistic-friendly, and didn't see any irony in making me a pariah and dumping vitriolic words all over me because I "should have known better" about an unspoken social rule. I'm sure I'm not the only one.

TL;DR it is so despair-inducing as a laios-type autistic (bad with tone and familiarity and growing-closer-to-others skills) how people will openly announce that they want to excise autistic people like me from the social fabric the second they get a socially acceptable chance to do so, without even realizing they're being anti-autistic.

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Rewatched Goncharov (1973) and did a few studies of my favourite scenes