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If this helps anyone but this is what I'm going to do while fasting for these (hopefully) 2 days if not just one:

Play guitar, I actually sound so much better now!

Play piano, I don't as much as I would like to and I could def learn a new song!

Paint my nails, I was going to the other day but forgot :/

Play games on my phone! I have a color by number one and I swear to you if I get locked in it's an addiction

Drink waterr

Go for a walk!!! I'll definitely go for one especially if my mom and I don't go shopping

Workout, gonna try and do a leg workout everyday because that's how I got my thigh gap to begin with and hopefully it'll make it more defined

Train my bird, he needs so much work still 😭 but he's getting a lot better at coming when called but only in his cage otherwise he just flies away and doesn't care..

Might add more, this is also just to remind myself to be motivated

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guys it's all coming back, im so fucking excited to fast, it's so euphoric, i remember feeling like this, loving to be empty waiting to see the number go down, maybe ill even fast until tuesday if im lucky in monday. i think i just needed that one little 24hr fast to remind myself that i can do it, and it's not that hard, now i feel so motivated

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definitely fasting tomorrow.. let's just say today was horrible, food wise, but my mom and i are probably going clothes shopping tomorrow so that'll get me a few steps at least from walking around, i can walk when i get home too, im not gonna get my steps in for today but i am going to do a leg workout and then maybe dance just to burn a few ca!s, but yesterday's fast wasn't terrible for the 24hrs i had hunger pangs but i feel like most of the time by the time i get those im in the mood of like "yeah i could eat but there's nothing i find appetizing, or nothing im hungry for" anyway wish me luck guys, i last ate at 5 and im most definitely not planning on having anything else so i already feel so much better being almost 2 hours into it already

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i made my 24hr fast yesterday and im so happy, then i didn't eat so great, i think today im just gonna walk and workout, stay busy and have small meals. kinda wanna fast tomorrow so i probably will, i would do two days and fast on monday but my boyfriend wouldn't let me, maybe i could say i had breakfast at home tho so he doesn't make me have it at school. and he might not even be at school on monday because he's sick right now

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played piano for a little bit and sang then played guitar for about an hour or so, my fingers hurt 😭😭 but I sounded so good 😎 and it prevented me from eating! only 5 more hours until it's been 24hrs and im going to my friends house so ill break my fast there because her family eats dinner super late in the day anyway

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just went for my walk, it was 1hr 30 minutes and I got 10k steps and burned 439 ca!s 🥳

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so ive been laying in bed for the hour that ive been up 8am-9am so now i feel so lazy, but it's supposed to rain today and ive been deep into my true crime podcast that im literally in love with I ❤️ MRBALLEN 😭😭🫶🫶

anyway- so im gonna listen to that while i take my dogs for a walk maybe go through two episodes because all of them are about 35-45 minutes long, after i take a shower. i hope everyones day is going well 🤍 i believe in you 🫶

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im gonna do my first 24hr fast since basically forever! im home alone for most of the day so no one will know! and im already like 14hrs in because last time i ate was at 7pm

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sorry im not very active if anyone cares, i feel so horrible right now it's almost funny, so pathetic it's funny.

here's my vent if you care to read 🤍

so theres this girl on my softball team and i have her in band too and she's nice, i guess, she does dance and she's not skinny by any means, no thigh gap, her stomach can be kinda big but no overhanging fat, and her arms are big-ish but it's probably mostly muscle, and she's had to miss a lot of games and practices because she had driver's ed and when she wasn't at practices i would get compliments and people would cheer me on when i did something good but now she's done with drivers ed and no one ever says anything, i hit pretty decently, almost caught a really good ball and all i got was yelled at because i didn't run to the ball on time. the girls used to call me pretty or at least a few but now everyone is just like "oh (her name) is so pretty" "oh (her name) is so effortlessly beautiful". and ik its probably just my wild insecurities but it really sucks, no one calls me pretty when they used to when she wasn't there. no one even really cares that ive been sad at practices, they just shove past me. it's like having an older sibling that everyone loves more than you whose better than everything (and she's not even that much better than me because this is her first year too and she's missed so many practices). she's like the new shiny thing and im just left in the dust overshadowed by this 'better' person.

here's the other kicker of my day.

there's this other girl who i have issues with (not related to softball and it's a long story) but my best friend doesn't have a problem with her anymore even though she used to because she was on my side when we had our fight and the girl I have issues with was crying because no one at her lunch table likes her so she wanted to sit at ours (me and my best friend's and a few other friends of mine) and they said no because not everyone at our table even fucking likes her, like im not the only one who dislikes her. and then by the end of lunch she was sitting with us and it was just like the whole thing at softball that i mentioned previously and i just felt like everyone wanted to talk to her and care about her even though i was visibly upset and distraught, even after i just walked off (to go to the bathroom but it was sort of abrupt) no one cared or batted an eye and when i did get asked if i was okay by one of the girls at the table (while i was going to my locker, even though shes the one who told the girl I have issues with to come to our table.) i just said "why would you care." because it's not like she was really trying to make me feel better and im sure she didn't care that much otherwise she would have asked earlier like meeting me in the bathroom and asking if she didn't want to do it at the table.

sorry for the rant guys ik no one's gonna read it anyway i just had to get that out of my system, i think im gonna cvt myself now

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kill me now guys

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i feel like committing, and im not talking about mass murder or arson.

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I really want to be in the Air Force and plan to be a fighter jet pilot!

3dblr, let’s learn about eachother 🌷

reblog this and tell me a fact about you!

(not related to your 3d)

i love skincare and hair care!!!

it’s so relaxing and self care pays off 🤍

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I'm getting back on track guys and I'm so proud!! I hope everyone is well ❤️ you've got this!

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okay but like fr because i used to have popsicles and they were 40 cals each! like sure that adds up if you have a bunch but when i wanted something sweet it was so nice to have them, only downside is usually when i want to eat i want warm or crunchy food like soup or chips 😞 but still popsicles are good for the sweet tooth! 🤍

I never see anyone on here talking about how amazing popsicles are

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"You need to recover!" My mom didn't raise a quitter.

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if you've ever been interested in skateboarding I highly recommend picking it up!! It's such a good distraction from literally everything!! Food, family, life, bad thoughts, just turn on some good music and go, and I'm so confident in my skateboarding now that its just second nature!! And you get steps in and burn a shit ton of cals, I burned 300+ in 30-40 minutes!! Just sayin

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had like 700-800 cals yesterday and im back in the 111s this morning 😎 im so happy, ill probably skip breakfast again, have a small salad for lunch and then maybe something after my game today

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