sagaess

[sagaess]

[teen vc] it’s not a phase mom, this is who i am – i’m gothra. or, everybody put your hands together for a moth who makes his own lamps by shooting them out of his horns. this is hesei / monsterverse adaptable BATTRA.  /   beloved by bella.

#promo. #me but actually doing something active on this blog bc i love bella #and her hot topic ass moth son

[sagaess]

TRANSFORMERS WAS A PLOY TO SELL TOYS THEY HAVE NO RIGHT DOING THIS TO ME

KEELYN  FINISHED  LOST  LIGHT  AND  I’M  CRYING  AS  HARD  AS  SHE  IS .

#ooc. #i'm !!!!! goin through it !!!!!!!!!!

[sagaess]

(    *    & .    —    BILLIE  EILISH  LYRICS .

‘  don’t  you  know  i’m  no  good  for  you ?  ’

‘  nothing  ever  stops  you  leaving .  ’

‘  i  could  lie ,  say  i  like  it  like  that .  ’

‘  don’t  you  know  too  much  already ?  ’

‘  i’ll  only  hurt  you  if  you  let  me .  ’

‘  call  me  friend ,  but  keep  me  closer .  ’

‘  nothing  is  better  sometimes .  ’

‘  let  me  let  you  go .  ’

‘  i  just  wish  you  could  feel  what  you  say .  ’

‘  i  know  you  too  well .  ’

‘  if  ‘ i  love  you ’  was  a  promise ,  would  you  break  it  if  you’re  honest ?  ’

‘  i  don’t  wanna  be  you  anymore .  ’

‘  losing  feeling  is  getting  old .  ’

‘  only  you  know  the  way  that  i  break .  ’

‘  if  we  were  meant  to  be ,  we  would’ve  been  by  now .  ’

‘  all  i  see  is  him  right  now .  ’

‘  go  ahead  and  watch  my  heart  burn  with  the  fire  that  you  started  in  me ,  but  i’ll  never  let  you  back  to  put  it  out .  ’

‘  your  love  feels  so  fake .  ’

‘  if  i  could  get  to  sleep ,  i  would  have  slept  by  now .  ’

‘  when  you  call  my  name ,  do  you  think  i’ll  come  running ?  ’

‘  so  good  at  giving  me  nothing .  ’

‘  when  you  close  your  eyes ,  do  you  picture  me ?  ’

‘  you  should  see  me  in  a  crown .  ’

‘  your  silence  is  my  favorite  sound .  ’

‘  i  like  the  way  they  all  scream .  ’

‘  i  think  you’re  pretty .  ’

‘  i’m  not  your  baby .  ’

‘  where’s  my  mind ?  ’

‘  what  an  expensive  fate .  ’

‘  my  v  is  for  vendetta .  ’

‘  thought  that  i’d  feel  better ,  but  now  i  got  a  bellyache .  ’

‘  i  wear  my  noose  like  a  necklace .  ’

‘  i  wanna  make  ‘em  scared .  ’

‘  don’t  be  cautious ,  don’t  be  kind .  ’

‘  i  don’t  belong  to  anyone .  ’

‘  by  the  way ,  you’ve  been  uninvited .  ’

‘  why  so  sad ,  bunny ?  ’

‘  call  me  calloused ,  call  me  cold .  ’

‘  you  better  love  me .  ’

‘  i  would  hate  to  see  you  go .  ’

‘  i  hate  to  be  the  one  that  told  you  so .  ’

‘  you  just  crossed  the  line ,  you’ve  run  out  of  time .  ’

‘  sorry ,  sorry ,  i’m  sorry ,  sorry …  sike .  ’

‘  wake  up  and  smell  the  coffee .  ’

‘  is  your  cup  half  full  or  empty ?  ’

‘  i  love  it  when  you’re  awfully  quiet .  ’

‘  you  don’t  have  to  keep  it  quiet .  ’

‘  i  know  it  makes  you  nervous ,  but  i  promise  you  it’s  worth  it .  ’

‘  i  promise  you  it’s  worth  it  to  show  ‘em  everything  you  kept  inside .  ’

‘  too  shy  to  say ,  but  i  hope  you  stay .  ’

#memes. #kill me kill me kill me

[sagaess]

bisexual 👏 muses 👏 in 👏 heterosexual 👏 relationships 👏 are 👏 still 👏 bisexual !  the 👏  relationship  👏  they’re  👏  in  👏  should  👏  not  👏  and  👏  DOES   NOT  👏  invalidate  👏  their  👏  bisexuality ! 👏

#ooc. #psa. #i guess it needs to be spelled out bc some of yall can't think

[sagaess]

a court of mist and fury sentence starters

“i fell in love with you, smartass, because you were one of us.”

“when you spend so long trapped in the darkness, you find the darkness begins to stare back.”

“there are good days and hard days for me—even now. don’t let the hard days win.”

“if you were going to die, i was going to die with you.”

“you’re a real bastard, you know that?”

“there are different kinds of darkness. there is the darkness that frightens, the darkness that soothes, the darkness that is restful. there is the darkness of lovers, and the darkness of assassins. it becomes what the bearer wishes it to be, needs it to be. it is not wholly bad or good.”

“i’m thinking… i’m thinking i was a lonely, helpless person, and i might have fallen in love with the first thing to show me a hint of kindness and safety.”

“i am broken, and healing, but every piece of my heart belongs to you.”

“i would have torn apart the world to get you back.”

“i’m thinking that i look at you and feel like i’m dying. like i can’t breathe. i’m thinking that i want you so badly i can’t concentrate half the time i’m around you, and this room is too small for me to properly bed you.”

“i hope they all burn in hell.”

“the issue isn’t whether they loved you, it’s how much. too much. love can be a poison.”

“many atrocities have been done in the name of the greater good.”

“did you enjoy the sight of me kneeling before you?”

“you gave up on me. you were my friend.”

“life is better when you’re around. and look how lovely your handwriting is.”

“i know you—more than you realize, i think—and i don’t believe for one damn minute that you’re remotely fine with being a pretty trophy for someone who sat on their ass for nearly fifty years, then sat on their ass while you were shredded apart—”

“come on. we don’t bite. unless you ask us to.”

“but i couldn’t… i couldn’t stop being around you, and loving you, and wanting you. i still can’t stay away.”

“i’d much rather you licked my wounds for me.”

“you decide your fate—your choices. not me.”

“i’m surprised there aren’t more mirrors in this house, since you seem to love looking at yourself so much.”

“i heard you begging for someone, anyone, to get you out. i heard you say no.”

“i will kill anyone who harms you. i will kill them, and take a damn long time doing it. go ahead. hate me—despise me for it.”

#memes. #attack me do it

[sagaess]

the   act   of   becoming   is   a   defiance  of   all   expectation .   I    AM    ABOVE .   I    see    where    the    blade    must    go .    I    SEE    THROUGH   YOU .   (   re - est .  2019 ,   dash - only   for   now ,   by    rye .   )

#promo. #i love rye and her writing more than my own life

[sagaess]

dragon age starters

feel most free to change pronouns ,  etc .

❝ it doesn’t matter that they won’t remember me. what matters is i helped. ❞ ❝ bad things should happen to bad people. ❞ ❝ i’m here to set things right. also ? to look dashing. that part’s less difficult. ❞ ❝ planning has never been my strong suit . now, killing…killing & love-making. those i am better at. ❞ ❝ oh ! we could get matching outfits ! ❞ ❝ i’m not saying i should be your first pick for a dance partner at the ball , but in the deep roads , i’m your man / woman. ❞ ❝ draw your weapon & say that again ! ❞ ❝ we’re here to kill them all, yes ? for sport ? ❞ ❝ you tend to get up to interesting things. you meet interesting people & then you kill them. ❞ ❝ i never worry, darling. a leash can be pulled from either end. ❞ ❝ it’s like you need permission to be alive. ❞ ❝ has anyone told you what marvelous eyes you possess, my dear ? ❞ ❝ have you ever licked a lamp post in winter ? ❞ ❝ i’ll try not to hit anyone. ❞ ❝ there you are. everyone’s been looking for you. ❞ ❝ the last man standing gets final say on who is right or wrong. ❞ ❝ i like my hair the way it is, thank you. ❞ ❝ do you think about how to kill everyone you meet ? ❞ ❝ are you… sassing me, ____? ❞ ❝ yes, but she/you seems more… “ooh, pretty colors !” than “muahaha ! i am princess stabbity ! stab, kill, kill ! ❞ ❝ congratulations ! you have found a wastebin . ❞ ❝ what are you going to do with that sword ? ❞ ❝ not listening ! la la-la la la ! ❞ ❝ i saw you looking at the girl/boy in town earlier . ❞ ❝ anyone wishing to accuse me of weakness is welcome to try. ❞ ❝ …did you cut your own hair ? ❞ ❝ ”one by one they follow, drowning in the sea”. the rest of the poem is sad.. ❞ ❝ you aren’t all stone, ____. there is a person inside of you. ❞ ❝ we crush the heads of rude women when we feel like it. just so you know. ❞ ❝ protect what matters with everything you have, or you’ll have nothing, and deserve it. ❞ ❝ i want you to know that what we had was real. ❞ ❝ in the end you are always alone with your actions. ❞ ❝ somebody’s been drinking. ❞ ❝ let’s show them our hearts, and then show them theirs.. ❞ ❝ do you feel that ? my magic-sensing nose is tingling. ❞ ❝ well, shit. ❞ ❝ you worry me, you know that ? ❞ ❝ i’m cold. & it’s indoors. this is so wrong. ❞ ❝ i saw what you were doing back there. ❞ ❝ we will never speak of this again. ❞ ❝ you’re a big softie ! ❞  ❝ i’ve got just the thing to cure that pout. ❞ ❝ eight, nine, now you die. ❞ ❝ daughters never grow up. they remain six years old with pigtails & skinned knees forever. ❞ ❝ i don’t need my pants, anyway. ❞ ❝ smiles. we must be careful how we present ourselves. ❞ ❝ be careful what you wish for. power is treacherous. i have seen many people–great leaders–consumed by it. ❞ ❝ don’t touch me ! stay away ! ❞ ❝ i think of him/you/her as much as he/you/she thinks at all. ❞ ❝ i knew nothing of friendship before we met. ❞ ❝ you can approve or not approve as you wish, but this is one thing you cannot influence and mold to your liking. ❞ ❝ there you go, breaking my heart. ❞  ❝ does anyone else feel the verge to vomit? ❞ ❝ i…love you. just… wanted to tell you that. ❞ ❝ let those who would destroy us step into the light. ❞ ❝ it’s dangerous when too many men in the same armor think they’re right. ❞ ❝ if you love a character, you give them pain, ruin their lives, make them suffer. maybe even throw in a heroic death. ❞ ❝ i do quite like watching you leave. ❞ ❝ send him a fruit basket. everyone loves those. ❞ ❝ did i stutter ? ❞ ❝ are you kidding ? i’m surprised you didn’t kill anyone just coming over here. ❞ ❝ the world may want my time, but you have my heart ❞ ❝ have you ever heard the saying ‘let sleeping abominations lie’?  now would be the time to consider it. ❞ ❝ that sounded much better in my head . ❞ ❝ i have an excellent sense of dramatic timing. & good hair.  ❞ ❝ the air hurts. i have to stop. ❞ ❝ challenge someone to arm-wrestle me. ❞ ❝ so, you’re not like a lot of other girls/boys. ❞ ❝ not long ago this was impossible to imagine. you, the man i love, victory close at hand. ❞ ❝ how do you do that ? make everything better with a smile ? ❞ ❝ it gets no easier. your struggles have only just begun. ❞ ❝ there comes a time when you must stop running, when you turn & face the tiger.  ❞ ❝ it’s family, you protect. doesn’t matter who it is, blood or not. ❞ ❝ perhaps we should carve our names into the giant tree ? ❞ ❝ hey ! that’s mine ! ❞ ❝ our mistakes make us who we are. ❞ ❝ fear makes men more dangerous than magic ever could. ❞ ❝ don’t let anyone tell you when to move on. take their hand & say, “my choice". ❞ ❝ words are easy, like the wind; faithful friends are hard to find. ❞ ❝ shitballs. fuck. shit. crap. ❞ ❝ living a lie … it festers inside you, like poison. ❞

#memes. #i die tonight i know this

[sagaess]

❛ Don’t cry. If you have become human enough to cry, then all the magic in the world cannot change you back. ❜ amalthea xoxo

     words seem not to fully reach, as if drifting and passing through a great barrier, caught and drowned upon crashing waves and foam, but with a start, like a deer caught before the hunter’s gun, does the lady acknowledge. a slender hand raises, a pale and smooth thing that catches the moon like the snow that spreads out before them, and fingertips dab at a frost-kissed cheek. had i been crying ? she did not remember crying, nor did not remember what it was that she ought to be crying about. but there they were, gathered upon her fingers and gliding toward her palm, and the lady starts again at the sight of them, nervous and distressed. ❛ i’m sorry, i——— i don’t know why. ❜ she knew so little these days, of what was real or a passing dream; the line between either in this land seemed so very fragile.     and perhaps that was the reason for the droplets that continue to fall over the porcelain of her cheek ( how pure and serene it had been, when this body was new; now it shows cracks, mortal worries and decay that eats away, though skin remains untouched ), dripping from a trembling chin as she looks to the she-wolf with wide eyes, a lamb seeking help from that which should devour her. ❛ i don’t —— what had we been talking about before ? had we been talking ? ❜ lilac hues are cast back out against the blinding white, as if the winter itself might have an answer, but the wind simply blows against the furs she has been draped in and bites at skin left bare. amalthea shivers, tightens her grip, and when she speaks again her voice is so quiet, so soft and steady despite the flow of tears down her face, it’s any wonder the tsaritsa can catch it.❛ or was that a dream as well . . . ? ❜

@vlchtsa          //          the last unicorn starters

#vlchtsa #✧┊« ic || amalthea #thanks i love them and need more of em

[sagaess]

THE LAST UNICORN (1982) SENTENCE MEME. feel free to adjust as needed !!

Do not boast, old woman. Your death sits in that cage, and she hears you.

Suppose they’re hiding together… somewhere far away? What if they’re waiting for me? In need of my help? … I must go quickly, and come back as soon as I can.

Don’t look back, and don’t run. You must never run from anything immortal; it attracts their attention.

I can never regret. I can feel sorrow, but it’s not the same thing.

I can feel this body dying all around me!

But, I am always dreaming, even when I’m awake; it is never finished.

Everything dies! I want to die when YOU die!

_____, who am I? Why am I here? What is it that I am seeking in this strange place, day after day? I knew a moment ago, but I have forgotten.

Once, I can’t remember, I was long ago, someone strange. I was innocent and wise, and full of pain.

It’s a very rare person who is taken for what he truly is.

Be rary of wousing a wizard’s wrath — rousing a rizard’s — Be wary of making a magician angry, if I chose, I could turn you into a frog!

Oh, God! I’m engaged to a Douglas fir!

Don’t cry. If you have become human enough to cry, then all the magic in the world cannot change you back.

She will remember your heart when men are fairy tales, and books are written by rabbits.

You are losing my interest, and that is very dangerous.

What is the matter with your eyes? Why can I not see myself, in your eyes?

I know you! I almost knew you as soon as I saw you on the road coming to my door. Since then, there is no movement of yours that has not betrayed you! A pace, a glance, a turn of the head, the flash of your throat as you breathe… even your way of standing perfectly still — they were all my spies!

Do you still deny yourself? Do you dare still pretend to be human? I’ll hurl you down to the others with my own hands if you dare deny yourself!

Set me free. We are sisters, you and I.

_____, I would not be you for all the world. You have let your doom in by the front door, but it will not depart that way!

Creatures of night, brought to light.

No cat out of its first fur was ever deceived by appearances, unlike human beings, who seem to enjoy it.

A clock isn’t time; it’s just numbers and springs. Pay it no mind.

Say my name then. If you know my name, tell it to me.

Tell me what you see. Don’t be afraid. Look at your fellow legends and tell me what you see.

I know you. If I were blind, I would know what you are.

Do nothing ’til you hear from me.

Oh, she’ll kill me one day or another. But she will remember forever that I caught her; I held her prisoner. So there’s my immortality, eh?

Now, you were out on the road, hunting for your own death, and I know where it awaits you.

You know better… Keep your poor shadows, if you will, but let me go, and, let her go. I cannot see her caged. She is real, like me. We are two sides of the same magic…

Who are you for then? Do you think those fools knew you, without any help from me?

Take me with you, for luck, for laughs, for the unknown…

You may come with me, if you like, though I wish you’d asked for some other reward for having freed me.

No, it can’t be. Can it be? Where have you been? Where have you been? Damn you! Where have you been?

And where were you twenty years ago? Ten years ago? Where were you when I was new?

The magic chose the shape, not I. I am a bearer, I am a dwelling, I am a messenger…

Why won’t you help me? Why must you always speak in riddles?

No cat anywhere, ever gave anyone a straight answer.

There is nothing I can look at for very long, except the sea.

Trouble me, please, trouble me! I would court you with more grace, if I knew how. I only wish you wanted something of me…

Drown out my dreams! Keep me from remembering, whatever wants me to remember it!

There are no happy endings, because nothing ends.

Do something! You have the power! I will kill you if you don’t do something.

Not all the magic in the world can help her now.

I wish I could see her just once more, so I could tell her all that’s in my heart. She will never know what I really meant to say.

Well, men don’t always know when they’re happy. But I — I think so. And you?

I am sorry. I have done you evil and I cannot undo it.

#memes.

[sagaess]

(    *   & .   —   THE  HAUNTING  OF  HILL  HOUSE  SENTENCE  STARTERS

*   warning   :   may  contain  spoilers  for  episodes  one  through  ten .

‘  if  you  were  me ,  you  wouldn’t  be  such  a  fucking  asshole .  ’

‘  the  world  out  there  has  teeth  and  it  is  hungry  and  it  is  stupid  and  it eats  and  eats  mindlessly .  ’

‘  you  listen  to  your  gut .  even  if  it  makes  them  hate  you .  ’

‘  i  am  a  dream  and  so  are  you  and  so  are  we .  ’

‘  you  are  a  looker ,  aren’t  you ?  ’

‘  honey ,  someone’s  in  the  house .  ’

‘  i’m  dreaming ,  right ?  ’

‘  i  just  need  a  little  time  away .  it’s  nothing  more  than  that .  ’

‘  you’re  saying  it  was  an  accident ,  so  you  accidentally  put  your  hand  through  a  mirror ?  ’

‘  i’m  scared .  that’s  all  i  am .  there  is  nothing  else .  i’m  only  scared .  ’

‘  do  you  think  there’s  something  wrong  with  me ?  like ,  really  wrong ?  ’

‘  it’s  alright ,  sugar .  it’s  just  a  dream  —  just  a  screaming  meemie .  ’

‘  we  yield  to  it  or  we  fight  it ,  but  we  cannot  meet  it  halfway .  ’

‘  i  seldom  am  well  behaved .  ’

‘  i  enjoyed  the  conversation ,  but  i’m  gonna  say  goodnight .  ’

‘  did  you  just  punch  me  in  the  boob ?  ’

‘  just  enjoy  me .  i’m  loving  you .  ’

‘  i  wouldn’t  have  changed  a  thing .  i  need  you  to  know  that .  ’

‘  forgiveness  is  warm  like  a  tear  on  a  cheek .  ’

‘  i  loved  you  completely  and  you  loved  me  the  same .  ’

‘  that’s  all .  the  rest  is  confetti .  ’

‘  forgive  a  girl  for  being  lonely .  ’

‘  there’s  nothing  sadder  than  a  cold  bed .  ’

‘  journey’s  end  when  lovers  meet .  ’

‘  journeys  don’t  end ,  not  if  you  love  someone .  they  don’t  end  at  all .  ’

‘  probably  best  you  didn’t  say  anything  to  them .  ’

‘  i’m  asking  you  to  love  me  hard  for  the  next  few  minutes .  ’

‘  i’m  gonna  jump  and  i’m  asking  you  to  hold  my  hand  while  i’m  falling .  ’

‘  i  have  something  that  i  have  to  tell  you ,  but  i  need  you  to  remember  when  i  do  that  i  love  you .  ’

‘  i  wish  i  would’ve  loved  you  better .  ’

‘  pandas  don’t  like  macaroni .  ’

‘  i’m  just  floating  in  this  ocean  of  nothing  and  i  wonder  if  this  is  it ,  this  is  what  death  is .  ’

‘  i  wonder  if  this  is  what  death  is ,  just  out  there  in  the  darkness ,  just  darkness  and  numbness  and  alone .  ’

‘  i  wondered  if  that’s  what  they  felt ,  just  numb  and  nothing  and  alone .  ’

‘  he  was  a  light  in  the  darkness .  he  was  a  life  preserver  in  the  ocean .  ’  

‘  i  reached  for  him  because  i  had  to  feel  something .  i  had  to  feel  anything .  ’

‘  god ,  i’m  so  glad  i  did  it  though .  thank  god  it  worked .  ’

‘  i  felt  scared .  so  fucking  scared .  ’

‘  honestly  i  had  to  do  it  because  it  felt  better  than  feeling  nothing .  ’

‘  that  thorough  fucking  shame  was  so  much  better  than  that  horrible  empty  feeling .  ’

‘  you  have  to  live .  ’

‘  i  don’t —  i  don’t  know  how  to  do  this  without  you .  ’

‘  i  learned  a  secret  :  there  is  no  without .  i  am  not  gone .  i  am  scattered  into  so  many  pieces ,  sprinkled  on  your  life  like  new  snow .  ’

‘  when  we  die ,  we  turn  into  stories  and  every  time  someone  tells  one  of  those  stories  it’s  like  we’re  still  here .  ’

‘  we’re  all  stories  in  the  end .  ’

‘  you’re  supposed  to  protect  me ,  but  you  say  the  meanest  things  to  me  when  i  try  to  tell  you  things .  ’

‘  that  was  really  wild  stuff .  ’

‘  that  was  really  wild  stuff  considering  you  were  asleep  for ,  what ,  like…  ninety-nine  percent  of  it ?  ’

‘  i’m  sorry .  i  should  have  made  more  of  an  effort  with  you .  ’

‘  you  tried  the  best  that  you  could .  i  should’ve  met  you  halfway .  ’

‘  people  fuck  up .  i  guess  you  don’t  get  that  —  you  really  don’t  get  it  until  you  fuck  up .  really  fuck  up .  ’

‘  i  felt…  nothing .  just  nothing .  and  it  spread  everywhere  in  me ,  this  nothing ,  until  i  couldn’t  feel  anything  anymore .  i  was  just  this  dark ,  empty  black  hole .   ’

‘  i  felt  nothing  and  so  i  drank  and  i  drank  and  nothing  worked .  i  couldn’t  feel  anything .  ’

#memes.

[sagaess]

"i'm sure taako knows what he's doing up there. lup is helping." he's pretending that the fireworks didn't end too close to the earth that last time. or that they're bigger and brighter than the test ones the twins were doing. a kiss to her cheek. then her lips. "happy new year, jules. i love you."

     she laughs at the uncertainty in his words, watching as waves of colorful sparks follow one after another, dipping lower and lower to the ground, threatening to set something ablaze. now that would really be a show ! ❛ yes, i’m sure he does. ❜ is spoken with a chuckle tilted to the sky; after all, that’s most likely the very intention of the twins, to keep them on the edge of their seats, mischievous as it may be. julia swears that she can see lucretia’s deep-set frown of pure exasperation from here, but she makes no move. they all seem to be of like mind, at least for now. let them have their fun.

     a sweet kiss to joy-rounded cheek brings the amusement to turn to something more soft though, more bashful and silly despite their years together ( despite the fact that we’re married, she thinks, and even now the word gives her the giddiness of a young maiden ). then her chin is tilted to better meet warm lips, and she can’t help but sigh into it, turn in his arms so that she may properly gaze upon him, awash in the lights of the twins’ production, but he glows brighter than whatever magical concoction they throw upon their heads. ❛ and i love you, magnus, ❜ my magnus. my heart, my soul, my best friend. a kiss is shared in turn, placed to the underside of his chin, nose scrunching at the scruff that meets her. ❛ happy new year, my love. ❜

@tairngire          //          new year’s kiss

#tairngire #✧┊« ic || julia #g o d this is so fucking soft and sweet i am #sO WEAK FOR THE BURNSIDES

[sagaess]

     ❛ The human body can be drained of blood in 8.6 seconds given adequate vacuuming systems. ❜

open starter

#open starter. #✧┊« ic || river #handy information for all

[sagaess]

     ❛ the sun came out, and i walked on my feet, and heard with my ears. i ate the bits, the bits did stay down and i work, i —— function like i’m a girl... i hate it, because i know it’ll go away ! ❜

open starter

#open starter. #✧┊« ic || river #open for mutuals only please and thanks! #this part in the show never ceases to hurt me

[sagaess]

"we know each other. we can talk." - inej

BECAUSE   KEELYN   WANTS   TO   DIE ,   APPARENTLY    //    ALWAYS   READY .

          ❛❛    can    we ?    ❜❜    it’s    an    unfair    question ,    spoken    from    somewhere    deep    and    black    and   terrible .    kaz    knows     they     can ;    they    can    speak    even    when    they    don’t     need    to ,    because    what    lives    in    their    silence    is    uncontrollable ,    undeniable .     what    they    don’t    do    proves    more    than    what    they    do ,    and    what    they    covet    reveals    more    than    what    they    divulge .    but    there    are    some    bridges    you    do    not    cross ;   there    are    coins    you    don’t    flip ,    there    are    breaths    you    do    not    hold ,    there    are    questions    you    do    not    leave    UNASKED .    silence    is    a    mighty    beast ,    an    unpredictable    monster .

          kaz    all    but     slams    his    glass    of    whiskey    down    on    his     desk ;    it     splashes    onto    the    wood    but    he    doesn’t    care .    this    ISN’T    how    inej    deserves    to    see    him    ———    but    then    again ,    there’s    much    she    doesn’t    deserve ,    least    of    all    to    be    beholden    to    someone    like    him .    may    the    winds    and    our    good    fortune    see    you    sailing    away    soon .    he    cannot    stand    her .    he    cannot    stand    the    way    she    plays    his    heartstrings    like    piano ,    how    she    passes    through    his    heart    and    yet    leaves    all    trace    of    her    existence .     he    cannot    stand …    her .    and    that    isn’t    right .

          bitter    coffees    fall    upon    her .    ❛❛    do    we ,    inej ?    do     we    know    each     other ?    ❜❜    doubt    does    not    suit    him .    arrogance ,    perhaps ,    but    not    doubt .    no ,    it    isn’t    doubt ;    it’s    fear ,    and    he    hates    it .

          because    if    we    did ,    you’d    know    BETTER .    you    know    better .    he    cannot    bring    himself    to    say    it .    inej    stares    at    him ,    resolute ,    and    his    skin   crawls .    how    can    she    look    at    him    like    that    still ?    what   I    wouldn’t    have    given    to    have    taken    that   kindness    from    you .   you’d    be    unable    to    harm    me   that    way .

         kaz    feels    her    absence .    the    glass    cracks    in    his    grip ,    draws    blood    from    his    naked    hands .    it’s    a    good    thing    she    isn’t    here    to    watch    him    bleed .

         not    like    she’d    be    able    to    tell    which    blood    is    from    his    hand    and    which    one    from    his    HEART .

@sagaess   +    inej !

#saved. #me: kill me! rye: okay me: no wait sto-

[sagaess]

i can’t wait to die by rye’s hand

#ooc. #remember me fondly f for respects and the like

[sagaess]

ailaalue‌:

man: has anyone ever told you you’re beautiful? me: oh no sir, today is my first day out of doors and papà forbade mirrors in the house lest we fall victim to vanity

#✧┊« musings || penny

[sagaess]

River was more than gifted. She… she was a gift. Everything she did, music, math, theoretical physics - even-even dance - there was nothing that didn’t come as naturally to her as breathing does to us.

#✧┊« ˡᶤᵗᵗˡᵉ ᵍᶤʳˡ; ˢᶜᵃᵗᵗᵉʳᵉᵈ ᵍᶤʳˡ; ᶰᵉᵛᵉʳ ᶠᵒʳᵍᵉᵗ ᵗʰᵃᵗ ʸᵒᵘ ᵃʳᵉ ᵈᶤᵛᶤᶰᵉ || river