sanamuse

[sanamuse]

packagecfgirlyevil​:

princeton had been a deal - go to his mother’s alma mater, do decently enough to get a good job, and for the most part, his parents left him alone. he wasn’t exactly thrilled with it, but he didn’t have a lot of other ideas either - going with the flow was just kind of what he was always used to.

the bonus of it all was the people. some were incredibly stuck up, which made them easy targets to joke around with, though they didn’t think so, and most were hot - crash had a type, and it tended to be people who were too good for him. which holly definitely was - gorgeous, wicked smart, a little shy, but didn’t seem to truly mind his presence, which was all he could ask for as he wormed his way into her heart.

“they do,” he said solemnly, pushing the sleeve of his sweater up to showcase his arm as if there’d be suddenly an outbreak of a rash on his skin - “i’m moments away from needing an epipen, but i figured this is where i’d find you anyways.”

and the books surrounding her meant she’d probably been there for awhile, which had been his other assumption - holly worked herself to the bone, she needed someone like him to help break her out of her routines. “how much you got left? i found this insane mini golf course, and we’re going. you can’t say no - i’ve found a way to make it educational for us both. you can consider it a geometry tutoring session or something.”

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"if you don't know me well enough by now to know that I absolutely will, I think this friendship of ours has bigger things to worry about than my lack of hand co-ordination and your lack of boundaries." she considers it though, biting at her lip as she glances between her essay and crash and tries to decide if she'd put enough work in for the day to justify a break "i spent the entire summer before my sisters first year of high school prepping her for freshman math on the putt-putt course back home - you’re gonna learn mckay and you’re gonna love it."

she hadn't returned to riverside since she left almost three years ago choosing to spend her breaks with her aunt before she’d gotten her own apartment just off campus and although her and merry had slowly been inching their way back to each other - with merrick attending college over the bridge - they still had too long a way to go before things could ever be as simple and comforting  between them as it had when they were young.

nostalgia maybe and wistful melancholy make up her mind for her (and possibly the twinkle in a pair of brown eyes that promises an end to both or at the very least a temporary reprieve) have her packing up her books neatly into her satchel before she can give herself a chance to second guess her decision and talk herself out of a fun time like she usually does.

 "i'll need to swing by home to drop my things off and change and i'll absolutely need to re-caffeinate." some people downed a bottle of vodka to gain their liquid courage, holly preferred to find hers at the bottom of a coffee mug "do you wanna come with me or give me the address and i'll meet you there?"

#☆ holly wood (muse) #☆ crash mccay (opp) #☆ dei sub numine viget (verse) #packagecfgirlyevil

[sanamuse]

packagecfgirlyevil·:

showing up at cooper’s had been instinct; for the past couple years, the two had been practically co-dependent, helping navigate through new york and college and finding themselves overwhelmed with the chaos of it all. when she had a bad day, it was still him she yearned for. ( and maybe it said something about her self esteem, that she was less hurt by the cheating than the fact that she was second choice, again, but - )

she’d let herself in, somehow falling asleep waiting. she knew where he probably was - with crash, certainly - and even if he came home with the other, maybe that was fine too. it wasn’t the first time her boyfriend had had his own boyfriend, she just…would have appreciated a heads up.

still, she shot up in surprise when she felt him wake her, stifling a yawn as she tried to remember why she was there. “not yet,” she said with a shrug, “i don’t - i don’t like how we left things. and i miss you,” she admitted, her words quiet. “i didn’t want to leave things the way we did. i was a bitch and i said some….really horrible things and - ” she bit her lip, her emotions already teetering on the brink before she reigned herself in. “i just missed you,” she said again with a small sigh.“

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every instinct in his body cried out to close the gap between them, beg forgiveness, say anything -do anything- to put the whole ordeal behind them and forget it ever happened.

he can't though, it's an old habit - the avoidance - one he's trying to grow out of with various degrees of success.

"pretty sure i deserved at least half of what you said that night mere." the i miss you too goes unsaid but merrick knows him well enough by now to understand his silences usually said more about what he was feeling than his words ever could.

but he owes her something - closure maybe or a clean slate. before her he'd never cared enough about any of the girls he'd dated to try to mend things once they broke. before merrick the only person he cared enough about to be real with was crash.

(a month without either of them in his life had been almost too much to take)

“i know you said you didn't want to hear any excuses but how about an explanation?”

#☆ cooper clayton (muse) #☆ merrick wood (opp) #☆ cheatings just a thing you do (verse) #packagecfgirlyevil

[sanamuse]

(cheek) — to give my muse a kiss on the cheek! could be platonic, familial, or romantic (maya & whitney) for @packagecfgirlyevil​

hitting on junior staff members barely older than his daughters while his political mastermind of a wife (and maybe maya was slightly biased when it came to mayor wood but her sister was a freaking supernova and billy wood had never truly appreciated her shine) was supposed to be celebrating her achievements but was instead trying unsuccessfully to blend into the furniture had to be one of the lowest things she'd ever witnessed her brother in law do.

(and considering the fact the man had two illegitimate children, couldn't survive a day without downing half a bottle of whiskey and his weakness for sticking his dick in any bottled blonde who looked his way that list was vast and varied)

grabbing two glasses of champagne maya weaved her way through the crowd of fake southern belles and handsy middle aged politicians, sidling up to her sister to place a quick kiss on her cheek.

"say the word and i'll have bucking billy pushing up daisies before the night is through" voice low and for her sisters ears only she's mostly joking but there's a hint of real intention behind her offer "i spent a booze filled weekend rocking the world of a guy i'm 90% sure had serious links to organised crime the last time i hit up NYC visiting char - i can make it happen.”

she hands her sister one of the glasses as she pulls back, standing close enough to act as a human barrier between the crowds of people and a slowly stewing whitney "or if you're into instant gratification how about i just walk on up there and knee him in the balls - do what you’re too composed to do yourself."

#☆ maya merrick (muse) #☆ whitney wood (opp) #packagecfgirlyevil #//i planned to do yale x colette #//but maya was like - lets go for a trifecta

[sanamuse]

“  your inability to learn complicated handshakes is tearing this friendship apart.  ” ( crash & holly ) - for @packagecfgirlyevil​

"your inability to learn complicated handshakes is tearing this friendship apart."

she rolled her eyes as crash pulled his hand away and dropped into the chair beside her, almost too animated and dramatic to feel like he belonged scouring the stacks of lewis library. 

sometimes holly questioned why he was even attending princeton to begin with, not that he wasn't intelligent enough -she found him to be scarily clever when he wanted to be and definitely ivy league material - but he came across as so completely uninterested in anything academic that she wondered why he was wasting his time bothering to obtain a degree at all when he should be doing something more adventurous and exciting.

"i thought we'd already established your almost pathological need to insert yourself in to my much needed alone time was the real reason we're struggling to reach bff status." she was aiming for standoffish but she was fairly sure the small smile tugging at her lips was ruining her efforts.

when she was being completely honest with herself she found him to be more than just a little bit adorable despite his over inflated sense of ego and his never ending well of charm - when it came to the opposite sex holly had always had a type and crash mccay (as dangerous and chaotic as his first name implied) stamped everyone of her attraction bingo boxes, she knew if she wasn’t careful she’d go and do something completely idiotic like develop feelings more complicated then just a harmless crush.

she really should have made a more concerted effort to stay as far away from him as possible the moment they'd met. keeping him firmly locked in the friend section of her mind was proving to be just as difficult for her now as it had been for her at sixteen when it had been her best friend making her laugh and blush and daydream about happily ever afters that would inevitably never come to pass.

"what are you doing here anyway? the last time i invited you to study with me you told me libraries made you break out in hives."

#☆ holly wood (muse) #☆ crash mccay (opp) #☆ dei sub numine viget (verse) #para #//two down like 7 more to go

[sanamuse]

[ cover ]  for your muse to cover mine with a blanket or a jacket - for @packagecfgirlyevil         (because i honestly have no idea what your indie is anymore!!)

when he'd first walked through the door to his shitty off campus apartment to find his ex-girlfriend passed out on his sofa, cooper had briefly flirted with the idea that he was higher than he actually felt because there was no possible way merrick wood would ever even think to come near him again, not after the way they'd ended things, not after what she'd caught him doing. 

(he’d fucked up, majorly, he’s aware even if he still won’t admit to it, but he’d never been able to say no to crash not in the twenty something years the two of them had known each other, and definitely not since the first time the two of them had hooked up)

but there she was, crazy hair spread over the cheap, scratchy fabric of the couch arm, his missing oversized faded nyu sweatshirt almost swallowing her slight frame whole, shivering in her sleep.

he tried to be as gentle as possible as he grabbed the throw hanging off the back of the sofa to cover her with, but the nervous shake of his hands made it almost impossible not to jolt her awake, the blonde jerking upright as cooper moved away settling himself against the coffee table far enough away to give both of them the comfort of space.

"you lost mere? last i heard you’d packed up all your shit and ran away to boston."

#★ cooper clayton #☆ merrick wood (opp) #☆ cheatings just a thing you do (verse) #what do i even tag you as ashley ???? #///i havent written anything in almost a year and it shows #para

[sanamuse]

→ BE MY VALENTINE!

prompts to celebrate valentine’s day, with options for romantic or platonic. even the enemies can have some valentine’s fun.  ‘my muse’ meaning receiver’s muse! can also reverse if you’d like. 

🌷 to kiss my muse

💖 to confess attraction to my muse 

🍫 to give my muse a box of chocolates

🌹 to give my muse flowers

🧸 to give my muse a giant teddy bear

🍷 to invite my muse to dinner 

✨ to go stargazing with my muse

☕ for our muses to have coffee together

🌈 for our muses to dance together

🌼 for my muse to compliment your muse

🥀 for my muse to confess a secret

🍒 for your muse to tie a cherry stem with their tongue

🦢 for my muse to talk about someone they love 

🔪 for my muse to threaten your muse 

🖤 for my muse to reject your muse

                                                            — ♥ —

“Be my valentine?”

“Would you be so kind as to fall in love with me?”

“Darling, you’re the one I want.”

“This is no time for confessing.“

“You know, darling, you bring out the worst in me.”

“If you’re free tonight, maybe we could spend some time together.”

“I know I’ve kissed you before, but I didn’t do it right. Can I try again?”

“I hate Valentine’s Day.” 

“I love you— ain’t that the worst thing you ever heard?”

“You have my whole heart.”

“I hope I never lose you.”

“All the good in me is because of you.“

“If I could give you the moon, I would.”

“Eat your heart out.”

“We both have our rabid hearts.”

“I thought maybe we would kiss tonight.”

“You’re not the person I wanted to see today.”

“I love everybody because I love you.” 

“Do you want company?”

“Nobody fucks me like me.”

“Can we always be this close?”

“Please don’t say you love me.”

“I once believed love would be burning red, but it’s golden.” 

#ask meme #the goal is to start writing again on my next few days off #so 6 days and counting WOOTWOOT #if you send these specify which muse and/or ship #maybe thatll help inspo strike

[sanamuse]

                                    moodboard meme

send me one of the following symbols and i’ll make a moodboard for my character.

✿ for a general moodboard about my muse

💛 for a moodboard about our muses’ relationship

❤  for a moodboard about a romantic relationship of my muse 

💗 for a moodboard about another significant relationship in my muse’s life

💕  for a moodboard on my muse’s view on romantic and/or sexual relationships 

👗 for a moodboard about my muse’s fashion style

👶 for a moodboard about my muse’s childhood

🏠  for a moodboard about my muse’s home aesthetics

🍕 for a moodboard about my muse’s favorite foods

👮 for a moodboard about my muse’s occupation

#im wishful thinking #that i'll have free time soon

[sanamuse]

livia williams - personality types                      

                                        the mediator  ✿  the loyalist  ✿ neutral good                                                                                                   the sun  ✿ phlegmatic

seven deadly sin sloth

seven heavenly virtue  kindness

hogwarts house  hufflepuff

patronus swan

archetype  55% creative, 32% caregiver & 13% spiritual

positives -  creative, passionate, friendly, loyal, protective, supportive, humble, compassionate, encouraging. 

negatives - suspicious, scatterbrained, haughty, materialistic, weak-willed, forgetful, cowardly, irresponsible.

#☆ livia wiliams (muse) #☆ livia williams (about) #(q)

[sanamuse]

i dream hard, i beat myself up, i’m trying to trust you and never give up ♥ shining light, show and tell. don’t be scared, truth is hell  ♥ i’ll come home to you, you’ll come home to me, my love will be your remedy ♥ i’m only honest when it rains, an open book, with a torn out page ♥ when the sun breaks through, and you’re feelin’ strong. when you give your best but it still goes wrong. either way i’ll always be your home ♥ help, i’m alive, my heart keeps beating like a hammer. hard to be soft, tough to be tender ♥ if i could be with you tonight, i would sing you to sleep. never let them take the light behind your eyes ♥ and i can smell it in your perfume. spread your heartache in the air ♥ so won’t you give me tonight and the rest of your life? i wanna have it all with you ♥ now we’ll try to stay blind to the hope and fear outside. hey child, stay wilder than the wind and blow me in to cry ♥ all i do is sit and drink without you, if i choose, then i lose. distract my brain from the terrible news, it’s not living, if it’s not with you ♥ baby here we are tonight, the dark will turn into the sunlight. don’t you know it always does and always was.

                          the dead will live, the living die…

                                                    …and music shall untune the sky.

#☆ holly wood (muse) #☆ holly wood (about) #☆ the catastrophic (verse) #(q)

[sanamuse]

nonverbal memes

add + to reverse who does the action

[ attention ] for your muse to touch mine as a way of getting their attention  [ sleep ] for your muse to wake mine  [ cover ]  for your muse to cover mine with a blanket or a jacket  [ lift ] for your muse to give mine a hand stepping up or over something etc.  [ kiss ]  for your muse to come up to mine and kiss them without warning  [ run ] for your muse to run their fingers through mine’s hair  [ braid ] for your muse to braid mine’s hair  [ embrace ]  for your muse to hold mine  [ smile ] for your muse to smile at mine from across the room  [ wave ] for your muse to gesture to mine to come closer  [ panic ] for your muse to grab mine’s arm or get behind them in a moment of danger  [ touch ] for your muse to rest their forehead against mine’s [ weep ]  for your muse to catch mine crying  [ eat ]  for your muse to offer mine food [ hit ] for your muse to attack mine  [ love ] for your muse to touch mine as a show of affection or reassurance  [ nap ] for your muse to fall asleep against mine  [ rest ] for your muse to rest their head in mine’s lap  [ look ] for your muse to catch mine staring  [ seduce ] for your muse to touch mine sexually  [ help ] for your muse to lean on mine for support  [ give ] for your muse to offer mine their arm  [ entwine ] for your muse to hold mine’s hand  [ laugh ] for your muse to laugh at something mine did  [ dance ] for your muse to dance with mine  [ sit ] for your muse to pull mine into their lap  [ yell ] for your muse to calm mine down  [ cry ] for your muse to wipe mine’s tears away  [ dream ] for your muse to wake mine from a nightmare  [ surprise ] for your muse to show up at mine’s house without explanation  [ fix ] for your muse to treat mine’s injury  [ sacrifice ] for your muse to get hurt protecting mine  [ guard ] for your muse to step between my muse and danger  [ taste ] for your muse to cook for mine  [ sing ] for your muse to sing to mine 

#starter #(q)

[sanamuse]

holly wood - personality types                      

                                the perfectionist  ✿  lawful neutral  ✿ the lovers                                                 the advocate  ✿ melancholic

seven deadly sin  envy

seven heavenly virtue  temperence

hogwarts house  ravenclaw

patronus  pheonix

archetype  45% intellectual, 35% caregiver & 20% advocate

positives -  focused, determined, loyal, compassionate, altruistic, passionate, intelligent, principled, insightful, patient.

negatives - anxious, jealous, closed-off, nervous, obsessive, self-critical, stubborn, insecure, withdrawn, neurotic.

#☆ holly wood (muse) #☆ holly wood (about) #(q)

[sanamuse]

One-Liners - Dialogue Prompts

Romantic Part 1

“I could listen to you all day.”

“Have I already told you how cute you look?”

“One kiss is just never enough.”

“Not to sound cheesy, but your smile really lights up the room.”

“I cannot find the words to describe how I feel about you.”

“Being happy, fortunately coincides with making you happy.”

“Call me when you get home, so I know you’re safe.”

“Tonight was just perfect.”

“However many years we have left, I want to spend them all with you.”

“I have the feeling that you’re trying not to kiss me and I give you permission to just do it.”

“You remembered my favourite food.”

“Sometimes, being with you feels like a dream that I don’t ever want to wake up from.”

“Being half-asleep is a very good look on you.”

“You can always talk to me, I will always be here for you.”

“I’ve missed you so much.”

Smutty Part 1, Part 2 and Part 3

“I dreamed of your legs wrapped around my waist.”

“Don’t act innocent when we both know where your mouth was two minutes ago.”

“We should probably leave, before we start a scandal.”

“Stop looking at me like that or my knees will not hold me any longer.”

“I think you lost your underwear somewhere.”

“My tongue still remembers the way you taste.”

“Is there some space left in that bathtub?”

“The way your eyes get darker when you get aroused, is making me lose my mind.”

“I want to count every one of your freckles with my lips.”

“Jealousy seems to be a great motivator for you.”

“Oh no, there is only one bed, what will we do now?”

“I could make you feel better.”

“Get back down here, we’re not done yet.”

“Later you will definitely need to tell me where you learned this.”

“I know I should care about the reason why you’re naked in my bed, but I will just enjoy it for a moment.”

“You’re a lot more flexible than I thought.”

“I want to please you.”

“Tell me what you would want to do, if you were here right now.”

“Your shirt got a little dirty, how about we take it off?”

“I want to give you a hickey, so everyone can see how I feel about you.”

“Oh, I love that sound you make.”

“Do you want to take it off or should I do it for you?”

“I never imagined you to be so sensitive, but I love it.”

“Maybe you could use that mouth for more than just talking nonsense.”

“If we weren’t in public right now…”

“Your hand feels much better than my own.”

“As soon as we’re both sober, we can do every dirty little thing you ever dreamed of.”

“Come on, you have to work for it.”

“I’ll take it that you like what you see.”

“Your moans will wake everyone up and I’m oddly fine with that.”

“Your eyes are already saying yes, now I just need your mouth to tell me the same.”

“I can never seem to get enough of you.”

“How about we continue this somewhere more private?”

“Oh, can you feel this?”

“We won’t be missed for a couple hours, we should take advantage of that.”

“I went to the gym, so I will be able to hold you up even longer.”

“How about we get really dirty before we shower, so that it’s actually worth the effort?”

“Reality is even better than my dreams.”

“I told you, you would eventually start begging.”

“You always know so well what I like.”

“Oh, you’re such a tease!”

“I’m not necessarily hungry for food right now.”

“You’re so tense, do you want me to make you more relaxed?”

“Hmm, is that a threat or a promise?”

“Who would have thought that this is something that you’re into?”

Physical - Part 1 and Part 2

“Your hands are always so soft.”

“I would love to run my hand through your hair.”

“Come on, let’s take a nice bath together.”

“I think your legs were made to be wrapped around my waist.”

“You know, I prefer you naked, but that dress also looks breathtaking on you.”

“Do what I say or I will mercilessly tickle you.”

“I’m in love with your voice.”

“Did you know that your eyes change colours when you look at me?”

“I’m obsessed with the way your hand fits in mine.”

“You smell amazing.”

“I don’t think I have ever felt safer than in your arms.”

“Tough day? Do you want me to give you a massage?”

“Let me wash your hair for you.”

“The taste of your lips is like a drug.”

“You have a million freckles and I want to count them all.”

“Your lips are just too damn kissable.”

“That colour looks perfect on your skin.”

“Sometimes when we hug, I don’t ever want to let go.”

“Don’t roll your eyes at me.”

“Should I comb your hair for you?”

“Your body fits perfectly with mine while dancing.”

“Come on, take my hand.”

“Those legs of yours look like they go on forever.”

“Your hands are so cold, let me warm them up.”

“Did you know that you have a million freckles on your shoulders?”

“That look in your eyes means nothing good.”

“Is that a blush I see?”

“Can I braid your hair?”

“Ah, your feet are ice-cold!”

“I can hardly wait to put a ring on that finger.”

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#starter #(q)

[sanamuse]

colette jacobson - personality types                      

                                   the campaigner  ✿  chaotic neutral  ✿ the fool                                                                                             the enthusiast  ✿ sanguine

seven deadly sin wrath

seven heavenly virtue  diligence

hogwarts house  slytherin

patronus cat

archetype  42% rebel, 42% performer & 16% caregiver

positives - energetic, open-minded, talkative, adaptable, imaginative, brave, loyal, playful, curious.

negatives - secretive, obsessive, jealous, sarcastic, violent, greedy, callous, disorganized, self-destructive.

#☆ colette jacobson (muse) #☆ colette jacobson (about) #(q)

[sanamuse]

all these places have their moments with lovers and friends i still can recall, some are dead and some are living in my life i’ve loved them all ☀ our worlds have come to an end, i feel a song in my heart again ☀ i suppose for me as an artist it wasn’t always just about expressing my work ☀ if you ever find yourself lost in the dark and you can’t see, i’ll be the light to guide you ☀ when you get elevated they love it or they hate it ☀ and i’m right over here, why can’t you see me? oh and i’m giving it my all ☀ i’m the ghost of a girl that i want to be most. i’m the shell of a girl that i used to know well ☀ and i think of all the things of what you’re doing in my head i paint a picture ☀ if it makes you happy it can’t be that bad. if it makes you happy then why the hell are you so sad ☀ sunny days, everybody loves them, tell me can you stand the rain ☀ have you ever closed your eyes, seen a vision and it took you away ☀ i just might have a problem that you’ll understand, we all need somebody to lean on.

                     a painter paints pictures on canvas…

                                  …musicians paint their pictures on silence.

#☆ livia wiliams (muse) #☆ the catastrophic (verse) #☆ livia williams (about) #(q)

[sanamuse]

touching tenderly.

a selection of little prompts about touching other people, as sometimes we need connection, and that is all. 

a touch to grant forgiveness.

a touch to express empathy.

a touch to lend assistance.

a touch to give reassurance.

a touch to give permission.

a touch in the pale morning light.

a touch in the heat of the moment.

a touch when it is storming.

a touch when they are afraid.

a touch when you are afraid.

a touch when there is no time left.

a touch in a moment of urgency.

a touch when you’re falling apart.

a touch when you need to apologise.

a touch in the midst of despair.

a touch that says ‘i want you.’

a touch that heals a wound.

a touch that says ‘kiss me like you mean it’.

a touch that teases and tickles.

a touch to silently make sure that they’re alright.

a touch as they’re drifting off to sleep.

a touch at the beginning.

a touch at the end. 

#starter #(q)

[sanamuse]

UNDERRATED AFFECTIONATE GESTURES

send one for your muse (the sender) to do to my muse (the receiver) and add + to reserve the roles!

(ruffle) — to ruffle my muse’s hair playfully

(massage) — to give my muse a relaxing back/head/foot massage

(cheek) — to give my muse a kiss on the cheek! could be platonic, familial, or romantic

(behind) — to give my muse a hug from behind

(pull) — to pull my muse into your muse’s arms to cuddle

(pillow) — to whack my muse with a pillow in an attempt to start a pillow fight

(pin) — to playfully pin my muse to the ground/wall

(tickle) — to sneak up behind my muse and tickle them

(lift) — to lift up my muse

(spoon) — to let my muse be the little spoon

(dance) — to pull my muse into a slow dance

(nuzzle) — to nuzzle your muse’s head in my muse’s neck

(trace) — to trace a part of my muse’s body (specify!)

#starters #going to attempt to get back in the swing of things #( q )

[sanamuse]

and i’ll never let you go, cause i know this is a fight that someday we’re gonna win. just thought you should know, you and me…                                                              …that’s my whole world.

#☆ holly wood (muse) #☆ logan norris (opp) #☆ moon shine (verse) #☆ the catastrophic (verse) #☆ this time im ready to run (verse) #☆ can i keep you? (verse) #queue sera sera