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having so much love in your heart is beautiful and amazing right up until you’re alone in your bedroom clutching at your chest and whimpering like a wounded dog

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˖ ࣪⭑ ˖ ࣪⭑made by me:) ˖ ࣪⭑ ˖ ࣪⭑

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a little warning for the girls 📌

if you're a part of the 3dblr community in any way and your blog is filled with posts about mental illness, thinspo and the like, be VERY WARY of non-3dblr accs who start sending you messages like "oh I love your aesthetic" or "you have such great taste" because 9 out of 10 times the conversation will turn to "are any of those your own photos?" and "I wonder if you look like your aesthetic" and suggestions and even requests for your own pictures.

there are MANY PREDATORS who lurk around 3d tags on Tumblr to prey on minors and on mentally fragile girls to try and get them to expose themselves. DON'T FALL FOR IT. if you start to get this type of message or if anyone here makes you uncomfortable asking you to share more than what you already share on your feed, don't send them your pics, block them and let the others know.

stay safe out here 🤍

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god i am not your strongest solider, please fucking stop

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I NOW GOT A NORMAL LOOKING BODY.

Im not fat anymore

#disordered eating thoughts #ed not ed sheeran #ed vent #tw ana diary #@na trigger #ed behaviour tw #i want to ⭐️ve #⭐️ve

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me in the protein section

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Sorry but it's so funny 😭💀

If I don't loose 10kg by Christmas Santa won't be the only fat fuck flying off the roof.🩶

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If you’ve never been all that disobedient before, you can and should start really, really small. For example, you can wear the slightly revealing or gloriously trashy-looking garment that makes your mom roll her eyes and sigh despondently every time she sees you put it on. You will feel judged and disapproved of when you put it on, but that is fine. Your goal is to sit with the uncomfortable feelings and continue with your desired behavior anyway.  Saunter down the steps in that highlighter-yellow Garfield crop top with your chest hair flowing over the neckline, and harness as much courage as you can muster. It’s okay if you feel like a beacon of sin. Just keep it moving. Your emotions are not the target here. Your behavior is. You can feel however you are feeling in the moment so long as you keep acting like you’re free.  Do you have a favorite TV show that a partner or roommate vocally hates? Try watching that show around them without apologizing or defensively joining them in mocking the program. At first, you probably won’t be able to enjoy the show while in their presence. You’ll feel self-conscious about everything they find annoying or cringe-inducing about the show, and so focused on their reactions that you can’t relax. That’s okay. Allow those feelings of embarrassment and guilt to exist and pass through you without giving up. In time, you will be able to ignore these reactions more, and enjoy the activity.  You want to see the needle of discomfort moving down just a little, like Link’s body temperature meter in Tears of the Kingdom when he puts on a breathable outfit in a hot climate. You’re not gonna go from roiling hot to frosty cold in an instant. But after a certain point, you won’t be actively in pain anymore. Things are just gonna slowly suck less, bit by bit, until they are finally okay. That’s true of most major life adjustments, I find.  Probably the best way to develop self-advocacy skills while growing in your distress tolerance is simply by telling other people no. Do this without explanation or hedging. Nitpicky aunt wants to hear all about your dating life? “No, I don’t want to talk about that.” Unreliable ex-friend wants you to do them the tiny favor of moving their entire home gymnasium into a new third story walk-up? “No, I’m not available.” Manipulative shift supervisor wants to cajole you into sticking around for another three hours to close? “No.”  As many advice columnists smarter than me have already intoned, “no” is a complete sentence. “No” requires no explanation. “No” is not subject to debate. “No” can be repeated over and over like a broken record if a disrespectful person acts like they can’t hear it. And you can walk away at any time to make your “no” physical and impossible to argue with, when someone has proven they don’t respect your boundaries. 

you can read or listen to the full piece for free here

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Some 4n4 Tips if You're 16 or Younger

GET OUT!! GET OUT WHILE YOU STILL CAN!! MOST OF US WILL BE HAUNTED BY SHAME OF A BASIC NEED TILL WE DIE IN OUR 30S AND 40S!! "It doesn't matter, I'll be dead by 18," WRONG! LIFE CAN BE BEAUTIFUL, JUST LEAVE YOUR HOMETOWN! I'VE BEEN DEALING WITH THIS SHIT SINCE I WAS 14 AND ILL PROBABLY DIE VOMITING ON A TOILET! GET OUT AND GET HELP THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS "Not sick enough" THE PRO-ANA GIRLS ARE LYING TO YOU; THIS SHIT DOESN'T STOP WHEN YOU'RE THIN! NOBODY WILL LIKE YOU MORE WHEN YOU'RE THIN BECAUSE YOU'LL BECOME BORING SHELL OF YOURSELF! DON'T TRY TO GAIN THE APPROVAL OF SHALLOW PEOPLE YOU'LL KNOW FOR ONLY A FEW YEARS!

SAVE YOURSELF AND GET OUT NOW!

Stay safe.

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Ana girlies fainting : Am I pretty yet ? 😍😍😍🥰

i literally love working out on an empty stomach. i can FEEL the skinny happening

#no hate i do this too #we love kissing the floor

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I feel prettier when I haven't eat3n

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There's plenty of leftovers in the kitchen bc I don't eat them. It's nice to see.

#disordered eating thoughts #ed not ed sheeran #ed vent #tw ana diary #@na trigger #ed behaviour tw #th!n$piration #th!nsp0 #⭐️ving #i want to ⭐️ve #⭐️ve #4n4 #4n0rexic

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I've been paying attention to food for months now, never succeeding at hard restricting. But motherfcker something must have moved in me bc it's been 4 days I don't even think about food, no cravings no hunger, I can barely believe it's true. I experienced for the first time in my life the lack of energy, can-I-even-stand-up kinda way. I hope tomorrow I wake up in the same mindset, it's so fucking nice to not be obsessed to eat anymore

#disordered eating thoughts #ed not ed sheeran #ed vent #tw ana diary #@na trigger #ed behaviour tw #th!n$piration #th!nsp0 #4n0rexic #4n4 #⭐️ve #i want to ⭐️ve #⭐️ving

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I can't stop until I've got a thigh gap

I can't stop until my fingers can wrap around my arm

I can't stop until I can walk into any store and fit into the smallest sizes

I can't stop until I understand what it means to be respected as a thin person

I can't stop until I look as sick as I feel

I have to keep going or I'm going to be fat for the rest of my life, and that's something I can never let myself experience

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The way you treat animals matters to me.

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Fr they would have no problem with me starving. They'd be happy about it

#disordered eating thoughts #ed not ed sheeran #ed vent #tw ana diary #@na trigger #ed behaviour tw #ed bllog #4norexia