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sad headcanon q’s… 

1. who does your muse hate?

2. how does your muse handle grief?

3. what is your muse’s biggest regret? 

4. how many scars does your muse have?

5. how long can your muse hold a grudge?

6. how does your muse handle loneliness? 

7. what is one of your muse’s greatest fears?

8. what does your muse fear losing the most?

9. does your muse think violence is ever warranted?

10. what is the worst illness your muse has ever had?

11. what would your muse consider their worst failing?

12. does your muse tend to push themselves too hard?

13. how does your muse outwardly express their anger? 

14. what is the worst injury your muse has ever received? 

15. what might others consider your muse’s worst failing to be?

16. does your muse have a short fuse when it comes to temper?

17. who does your muse wish they had said goodbye to, but didn’t?

18. does your muse suffer from nightmares? how often? what about?

19. out of everything your muse has lost/given up, which hurt the most?

20. what is something your muse wants to tell others, but is too afraid to? 

21. how hard is it for your muse to open up to others? what holds them back?

22. looking back, what is one thing your muse wishes they had done differently? 

23. does your muse tend to be hard on themselves when they do something wrong?

24. does your muse lean more toward “forgive and forget” or “resent and remember?”

25. does your muse recognize their faults, or do they have trouble with self-reflection?

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misc prompts for your feels

“ unique just means alone. ” “ i’m not afraid to die, just wish i could live a little first. ” “ i know i’m a monster, but you look at me like i’m a man. ” “ there’s nothing i wouldn’t do to keep you safe. ” “ we all have sins to pay penance for. ” “ don’t look at me like i’m a hero. you’ll only disappoint yourself. ” “ sometimes when you look at me it’s like…it’s like you’re staring straight past my flesh and into my soul. ” “ you make me want to live. ” “ i know i don’t deserve forgiveness, but i like the idea that some people think i might. ” “ i trust you with my life. ” “ you’re more like family to me than my own blood. ” “ i’ve never had any sort of family before. ” “ your life is far more precious than mine. ” “ i don’t care what happens to me. as long as you’re safe. ” “ i need you to live…cause if you’re gone then, i don’t know what the point of it all is anymore. ” “ i know i’m not the person you want, but i’m here. ” “ i love you, and i know you may never feel the same. but i’m okay with that. ” “ i couldn’t say no to you even if i wanted to. ” “ you’re worth more than this. ” “ why do you walk around as if you’re somehow less valuable than the rest of the world? ” “ please, let me help you. ” “ just let me do this for you. ” “ you do have something to live for. you have me. ” “ you’ll always have me. ” “ i see you. i know you feel so invisible all the time, but you’re not. not to me. ” “ it’s okay to be angry, you’re allowed to be upset about what happened to you. ” “ don’t you realize you deserve more than this? ” “ you’re not a machine or— or some thing. you’re a person, and i’m sorry anyone ever made you feel otherwise. ” “ please, just hold on a little longer. i can’t lose you too. ” “ this scar..what happened? ” “ if you won’t do it for yourself, then do it for me. ” “ you’re bleeding— how long have you been hiding this?! ” “ sometimes i realize one day i could die, i could just disappear and the world would be none the wiser. there’d be no one to miss me and that terrifies me more than death itself. ”  “ i’m not sure i know who i’m supposed to be anymore. ” “ my mind is so loud and i’m afraid it’ll never be quiet again. ” “ when i’m in a crowd i just want to melt away and yet, when i’m alone it’s somehow worse. ” “ loneliness is a poison and i’ve been drinking it for so long, i don’t there there’s an anecdote to save my soul. ” “ i don’t care if the world knows my name, i just want you to remember me. ” “ you deserve more than i could ever give you. ” “ i love you. i know that’s not enough, but i do. ” “ you’re safe with me, you always will be. ” “ you make me feel safe. like i’m allowed to be anything i want. ” “ i’d do anything to be the person you love again. ” “ i’ve got you, you’re safe. ” “ just rest, i’m here. ” “ you can stay with me tonight. ”

#meme #queue

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FOR THE “YOU CAN KILL ME BUT DON’T YOU DARE TOUCH THEM” DYNAMICS 

❝  i only want you.  ❞

❝  i don’t need anyone else.  i just…you.  you’re all i need.  ❞

❝  listen,  i’ve lost a lot of people in my life.  i learned how to deal with it but…you’re different.  i can’t take it if it’s you.  ❞

❝  i think about anything happening to you and i— i just.  i fucking lose it.  ❞

❝  you don’t understand.  i need you safe.  not because i don’t think you can handle yourself but because i can’t focus on anything else if there’s even the smallest possibility you’re in danger.  ❞

❝  no one is ever gonna get near you again,  you hear me?  ❞

❝  i won’t let you get hurt.  i promise.  and i don’t make empty promises.  ❞

❝  turn around.  you don’t need to see this part.  ❞

❝  just give the word and i’ll kill every one of them.  ❞

❝  you can’t get all worked up every time something happens to me.  that’s just life.  you’re not always gonna be able to protect me from it.  ❞

❝  no one else understands me.  but you do.  you always do.  ❞

❝  i don’t think i’m the best person for you,  i don’t.  but i do know i’m the one that can keep you safe  ❞

❝  hey—  look at me.  it’s over.  it’s done.  we’re okay.  ❞

❝  who the fuck made you cry i’ll fucking rip their head off.  ❞ 

❝  i know you’ve always got my back.  ❞

❝  please,  let me take care of you this time.  you’re always protecting me but it tears me up inside every time you get hurt because of it.  ❞

❝  can you make everyone else just go away?  i know they mean well but i just want to be alone—  alone with you i mean.  ❞

❝  i know when you’re here,  the real monsters can’t touch me.  ❞

❝   oh,  i am one of the monsters.  but that just means i can keep all the other monsters from ever hurting you again. ❞ 

❝  if you’re gonna keep risking your life for me than you’re also gonna let me patch you up without a single complaint.  ❞

❝  we keep each other safe.  it’s my turn to protect you.  ❞

❝  i killed them for you.  i know you could’ve done it yourself,  but you shouldn’t have to.  ❞

❝   i love you because i know how capable you are.  and i show that love by making sure you don’t have to be the one to always do the hard things.  ❞

❝   i’m gonna make them regret ever even thinking about laying a hand on you.  ❞

❝  tell me what you want me to do.  i’ll do it.  whatever you want.  ❞

❝  i love you just like this.  i love you when you touch me gently like no one else ever has.  and i love you when your hands are bloody and your knuckles are bruised. ❞

❝  please,  just let me protect you.  ❞

❝  are you hurt?  did they hurt you?  ❞

❝  wait,  stop you’re bleeding.  ❞

❝  did you just wince?  where are you hurt?  ❞

❝  i need you in my life.  i’m not used to that—  needing people.  but i do need you.  ❞

❝  you make me feel things i’m not used to feeling.  ❞

❝  why do you let me close when you’re always driving everyone else away?  ❞

❝   you’re mine.  and i protect what’s mine.  ❞

❝  thank you for always being here for me.  ❞

❝  you see things in me that i didn’t even know where there.  ❞

❝  that’s enough.  let’s go home.  ❞

❝  i’m okay now.  i’m safe.  you don’t have to be angry anymore.  ❞

❝  please stop—  this is scaring me. ❞

❝  you don’t have to do this for me.  ❞

❝   hey stop— stop!  look at me.  they’re dead now.  you can stop.  ❞

❝  i have to make an example outta them so no one else tries to hurt you again.  ❞

❝  killing for you is easy.  it’s right.  it feels natural.  ❞

❝  let me do this for you.  ❞

SCENARIOS

[ ONE ]  for sender to take a bullet for receiver. 

[ TWO ]  for receiver to take a bullet for sender. 

[ THREE ]  for sender to protect receiver and then carry them to safety. 

[ FOUR ]  for receiver to protect sender and then carry them to safety. 

[ FIVE ]  for sender to witness receiver get hurt which sends them into a violent rage.

[ SIX ]  for receiver to witness sender get hurt which sends them into a violent rage. 

[ SEVEN ]  for sender to be hurt trying to protect receiver which makes them bloodthirsty for revenge.

[ EIGHT ]   for receiver to be hurt trying to protect sender which makes them bloodthirsty for revenge.

[ NINE ]  for sender to have violently protected receiver,  so receiver kisses them to calm them down. 

[ TEN ]  for receiver to have violently protected sender,  so sender kisses them to calm them down. 

[ ELEVEN ]  for sender to carefully approach receiver in the aftermath,  gently touching them to try and bring them back to themselves. 

[ TWELVE ]  for receiver to carefully approach sender in the aftermath,  gently touching them to try and bring them back to themselves. 

[ THIRTEEN ]  sender was kidnapped,  receiver shows up to save them.  

[ FOURTEEN ]  receiver was kidnapped,  sender shows up to save them.  

[ FIFTEEN ]  sender executes a third party in front of receiver because that person hurt them. 

[ SIXTEEN ]  receiver executes a third party in front of sender because that person hurt them. 

[ SEVENTEEN ]  sender thinks they’re alone but receiver comes out of nowhere to rescue them from someone who intends to do harm/making them uncomfortable. 

[ EIGHTEEN ]   receiver thinks they’re alone but sender comes out of nowhere to rescue them from someone who intends to do harm/making them uncomfortable. 

[ NINETEEN ]  sender has been devastated by something.  receiver holds them until they calm down so they don’t do anything drastic. 

[ TWENTY ]  receiver has been devastated by something.  sender holds them until they calm down so they don’t do anything drastic. 

[ TWENTY-ONE ]  sender thought receiver died so they set out to get revenge.  receiver shows up in time to stand in front of them before they go too far.  

[ TWENTY-TWO ]  receiver thought sender died so they set out to get revenge.  sender shows up in time to stand in front of them before they go too far. 

[ TWENTY-THREE ]  sender is in a vengeful rage because of something that happened to receiver.  receiver gently approaches to calm them down saying this isn’t what they want. 

[ TWENTY-FOUR ]  receiver is in a vengeful rage because of something that happened to sender.  sender gently approaches to calm them down saying this isn’t what they want. 

[ TWENTY-FIVE ]  for sender to have receiver stand by somewhere safe where they can watch sender kill on their behalf. 

[ TWENTY-SIX ]  for receiver to have sender stand by somewhere safe where they can watch receiver kill on their behalf. 

#meme #queue

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✧ Jennifer Morrison | favorite photoshoots of 2015 ✧

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✧ Jennifer Morrison | best hair moments of 2015 ✧

#fc #queue

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also like this for a starter from Emma in general, not just in the fallout verse <3 (they'll be done SLOWLY)

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reblogging one last time for today!

fallout rpers, if you want a starter from that verse for one or more of your muses, hit the heart!

I may assume some LIGHT familiarity between them OR start from the very first meeting, and it will be very random! (also a reminder to people who write male muses that she's a flirt but I don't forceship! and to people who write female muses that I will be enthusiastic to write friendships too!)

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fallout rpers, if you want a starter from that verse for one or more of your muses, hit the heart!

I may assume some LIGHT familiarity between them OR start from the very first meeting, and it will be very random! (also a reminder to people who write male muses that she's a flirt but I don't forceship! and to people who write female muses that I will be enthusiastic to write friendships too!)

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you're more than enough for me. Otherwise, why would I have opened myself up to the humility of rejection? Of laughter and disdain? Because some things are just worth the risk, Emma. Somewhere deep inside, you must know this."

She wished she could believe she'd stay enough, that she wouldn't have to live with the fear that soon enough he'd be expecting more and grow resentful of her. She couldn't feel that small again. "I hope you know there is no laughter nor disdain from me, my... objections are selfish, but they have nothing to do with your worth. You are... you know what I think of you." She wasn't kidding when she had called him perfect; sure, he was a man, he'd have his flaws like anyone, but that didn't change her feelings.

"And when have I ever asked for more than what you already are? I don't want more, Emma -- I want what we have here...now...but forever"

Could he want that forever? For her to be with him but unable to express her feelings in words? He didn't even know the Emma she'd become once she'd look at him as an official romantic partner, he couldn't know if he wanted her. "But I'd be different... You can't be sure you'd still like me once I'm... all... scared and insecure. You are seeing it right now. I'm... listening to you, I am, but I'm terrified."

When he said 'but if you don't want me' it took all her self-control not to say that she did want him, because it wouldn't be fair to him to say so when she also was suggesting to go back to being entirely platonical friends. But her eyes went back to him in an instant when he continued by pointing out he couldn't pretend.

so a separation will mean precisely that: an irreversible break.

That was a terrifying thought. Understandable, and she could not hold anything against him, he had been, once again, perfect, he had tried, and she knew he was right, but she still got up from her bed even if she had no particular plan, tossing the pillow to the side.

"Tell me no, Emma. Tell me you don't want to continue seeing me, and I'll walk through those tent flaps and out of your life forever. Because I would do that for you. Because sometimes, enacting genuine affection means losing the ones you love most."

"So you won't even speak to me anymore? I'm not-I won't fight you, I just need to understand... If I can't... If I can't try this, then it's all gone?" she asked anxiously, but mentally scolded herself for sounding so pitiful when he had the right to set such boundary. "No, you are right-you are obviously right..."

Truth was, telling men no had been sad, heartbreaking at times, but she had never wished to say yes. She had wished to be able to say it, to feel that way and indulge in it, but she had never been in a position where it was killing her to reject someone before.

She went to her desk just to do something, resting her hands on it and breathing, attempting to think, to ignore the way her heart was beating so fast that it was making difficult to breathe, and more than ever felt the need to start running, just run and run until there'd be only trees around her.

"I don't know what to do," she pleased, finally having no choice but to say exactly what she was thinking, and looked at him at loss, "I don't know what to-I don't know what to tell you, I don't know what to say, I don't know what to do."

"I... tried to be better for him, worked even harder... so I know what it feels like to give someone your whole heart and for it to still not be enough. Not even close. It tore me apart."

"To hell with him," Benjamin spat. "You're enough for everyone here in this camp -- you're more than enough for me. Otherwise, why would I have opened myself up to the humility of rejection? Of laughter and disdain?" Helpless, he lifted his shoulders. "Because some things are just worth the risk, Emma. Somewhere deep inside, you must know this."

She curled in further on herself. "But as soon as I'm confronted with reality, you can see that what looked like a cure was just an illusion. I'm still me."

"Yes -- precisely. And it's this version of you I care for!" Benjamin said, exasperated. "I don't know who you were before, but I'm sure I would've found a way to care for that version of you, as well. I find it impossible to not care about you and your many facets."

Emma held up a hand, finally showing a hint of candidness -- though the words that followed were anything but welcome. With each admission, it felt as if bits of his heart were being chipped away with tiny pickaxes, his eyes growing wet and his chin stiffening with hurt frustration.

You're wrong! he wanted to scream, but held his tongue. Just as she couldn't predict the future, he knew the same went tenfold for himself -- but God, he knew this was a mistake.

"This is it. This is all I have, Benjamin," Emma said. "I can't give you anything more, there is no special secret part of me that you'll get by caring for me... This is as far as I go, you already saw my best."

Throat tight, Benjamin pressed, "And when have I ever asked for more than what you already are? I don't want more, Emma -- I want what we have here...now...but forever." Scoffing, he took a clumsy step back, finally erecting a hint of distance. "But if you don't want me, then I suppose I have no choice but to concede. I have spoken my piece, and I've made clear where my heart lies...where it will always lie." He shrugged, frustration burning hot within his breast. "However, if you do choose separation, just understand that I can't abide by pretending everything is as it once was. Because it's not. And unlike you, I know I can't pretend...so a separation will mean precisely that: an irreversible break."

Heart thudding painfully within his chest, Benjamin gritted, "Tell me no, Emma. Tell me you don't want to continue seeing me, and I'll walk through those tent flaps and out of your life forever. Because I would do that for you." His chin trembled. "Because sometimes, enacting genuine affection means losing the ones you love most."

#emma.exe has malfunctioned. the program will be closed shortly #no but eh FAIR #let him react as he wants also this is killing me #a calming calamity #honorhearted

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✧ Jennifer Morrison | favorite photos of 2016 ✧

#fc #queue

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Ah, a woman conquering, now they were talking. Of course Emma still made a disgusted face while still smiling at him when he suggested she may enjoy reading it herself, then pointed at him with a nod when he corrected himself. It was funny how he could already guess that she would not be reading anything. Sure, she had hoped for a friendly match, but she had never actually expected to be talking to her future husband as if they were friends.

"Oh, sweetheart, I can't tell disappoint my mother in law before we marry. That's for after the wedding when it's too late for her to break it off," she answered shamelessly, giving him a playful grin. "I promised myself I'd be fully honest to you, nobody said anything about your mother. Also, shockingly, I don't always enjoy looking like a fool, no matter how truthful it might be. I plan to derail conversations about art by bringing up my singing. That should buy me some more benefit of the doubt from her. God knows I'll need it."

George couldn't help but laugh even as he watched Emma's paint brush go every which direction. It had been odd, having moments like this leading up the wedding. They had so much in common yet there were things they would never agree on. It never was something they fought on yet, simply things they would tease the other about. It was like talking to a friend he had known for years, despite the short amount of time they had known each other. "Alright, maybe she doesn't die at the very beginning, but she does die." He pauses for a moment in thought before continuing. "It's not about a woman conquering, but have you heard of Evelina by Fanny Burney? It's relatively new but I think it's one that you could enjoy reading. Or having read to you." He grinned a little wider, before shaking his head. "Can I ask why you don't simply tell my mother you don't want to read?"

#this is so damn cute #she's dead #writtenxbeginnings

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taken from here, for my Fallout verse:

#by far the FUNNIEST ONE to make #about; #headcanons: fallout

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Jennifer Morrison + s5 bts

#fc #queue

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"I wake at dawn usually, so I can train and then get ready for my day, so it won't be much of a difference for me, since my training days are pretty much over," she shrugged, before thinking that she should have been a little more coy about her mourning routine - and then telling herself that no, she couldn't make herself appear better than she was if she was planning a potential marriage. But he had such a nice smile that she couldn't really regret anything, and found herself grinning back.

She could see in his face that it was the last boundary he had expected her to bring up. "I believe you," she told him, and she did, because she had always been able to tell when she was lied to. But then he caught her off guard and she gave him a startled, if pleased, look, "Oh, I didn't-I assumed I wouldn't be allowed to go home. Spending most of my time here is not a problem at all," she agreed quickly, finding herself smiling again at that unexpected concession, "The only other request I'd have would be to allow one of our children to be raised to be heir of my kingdom. One of the girls, since they can't take the throne here, would do. Or if there are no girls, the youngest boy, perhaps? I understand your lineage comes first, naturally, but while my parents are young, I have no siblings and someone will have to take my place, hopefully far from now." She had never reached this point during previous meetings, and there were no more to be made; he was too perfect to be real, even.

That was yet another response was George wasn't expecting, both of his eyebrows raising in surprise. It was one thing to be understanding of his enjoying the outdoors, even to want to be shown around the grounds and to have input on the gardens. After all, those were things that the women of the ton usually had input on. Usually, however, their husbands were hiring someone else to do the work, especially the higher in society that they were. "That is something that I can do, though I must warn you I get up very early to work in the garden. Not that I expect you to do the same, Lady Swan, but if you want to help, you should know that." His lips pulled into a wider grin, suddenly feeling much more relaxed about all of this than he had. His farm and stars were two of his biggest road blocks when it came to marriage, so to have her already know and be interested? That helped.

His smile turned softer when she mentioned having some sort of relationship between them in the future, slowly finding himself glad for that in the moment. The King focused though when she spoke, frowning as he listened to her. He had never given much thought to the prevalence of men like that in his country, the Ton to be even more specific. "The fact that you have that as one of your rules saddens me deeply, Emma. It is not something that you will have to worry about in regards to me, it is not something that I have done nor something that I would even think I am capable of." No, that would require him to be angry and around her frequently enough for his hands to find his way onto her. Yet he knew after the wedding that there wouldn't be many nights that they spent together. "You have every right to continue to travel to your home land and to help where you see fit. I do not wish to interfere there. You may be asked to spend the majority of your time here, however."

#arranged first meeting #writtenxbeginnings

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She thanks every deity that might exist for the fact that this person - this squire - has somehow instinctively kept their voice down, and entirely ignores the gun aimed at her. "Bear!" Emma whispers back, enunciating the word as clearly as she can even if she's sweating. She points in the direction of the still visible silhouette among the trees, "Bear." Hopefully that's enough to explain why she grabbed them; as much as sometimes she wants to choke the knights she meets, and has in fact punched a few of those, she's always had a softspot for their poorly treated squires. She can't punch a bear, though.

"Come on, you can keep your gun pointed at me if you wanna," she whispers, making them a sign to follow her, "We need to get upwind."

@smiletimeisrunningout asked: ★ to clap a hand over my muse’s mouth and drag them out of sight [first meeting with Dane too?]

Misc. sentence & symbol starters | Accepting

They yelp and grip their gun tightly as they feel a hand clap over their mouth before they're getting dragged out of sight by the same person who clapped a hand over their mouth. They try to dig their heels into the ground in order to make it harder to take them.

They turn quickly, breaking the hold on them, holding up their gun; trying not to shake. "What the hell? Who do you think you are grabbing a Squire?" They whisper shout, so they don't give away their position, gun still pointed at the other.

#protectxthem #v. fallout

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"Really? No, man, you gotta enjoy the world a little bit every time you get the chance! You never know when you'll need to spend a month in a sewer. That'll make you miss the sky." Speaking from experience, Emma grins at him and leans against a tree. "Are you usually still training by this time?" she asks, wondering if that's why he doesn't enjoy the view every now and then; she doesn't know much about the Brotherhood, maybe they have a rigid schedule.

@smiletimeisrunningout asked: “Come watch the sunset with me.” [to Maximus!]

Misc. sentence & symbol starters | Accepting

Max stops walking, drinking the last bit of his purified water and frowning slightly as the last drop hits his tongue. He turns toward Emma and smiles a bit. "Wow. I don't remember the last time I saw the sunset." He walks over to her, standing by her.

#protectxthem #v. fallout

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in case someone missed my personal drama and wants to know why I'm too tired to write lol

I spent the previous 4 hours making the navi page, it was finished and perfect, and then I accidentally deleted half page with a click and actually clicked 'save' next, so it's all gone. I'm going to need some time to fix it and to calm down.