someonesfavoriteworstnightmare

[someonesfavoriteworstnightmare]

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[someonesfavoriteworstnightmare]

i am as the poets say totally and unconditionally in love with my daydreams.

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‘every leaf speaks bliss to me, fluttering from the autumn tree’

~ emily brontë

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walking around the uni library and seeing all the literature books and novels and poetry and letters and analysis texts on the bookshelves and stopping to mingle among the racks, to caress and open the ones i know, tracing the soft words with my fingers but then having to stop; look around and see my table there, with my law books, and codes and the people who’ll never know how much i know about the romantics, the gothic, and virginia woolf and how good i would have been studying art

all day

everyday

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Our very own castle on a hill

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Despite the fact that I can't afford therapy anymore, my psychiatrist is saying that if I can't do the intensive outpatient program three times a week, they want me to do inpatient at a psych hospital until my meds level out.

I only have one affordable option for inpatient treatment in Houston, and last time I was there, my partner had to literally force them to let me leave because of transphobia and overall poor treatment at the facility. (Do NOT go to HCPC in Houston if you're trans; when I tried to advocate for myself and correct misgendering, they said that it was part of my psychosis).

If you could give me a dollar or two so I could try to keep doing IOP and avoid the hospital, it would literally be a lifesaver.

My C ashApp and V enmo are both @newtvargas.

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stuff in the secret history that’s not even that abnormal like literally just a normal part of being in college

- frankly? the fact that richard becomes friends with them so quick and is like “these are the best friends of my life we will hang out forever and ever and ever” even though anyone with an outsider’s perspective would be like “bro these people are weird and toxic as hell”

- you can’t sign up for classes that seem like they would be very easy to sign up for and the only explanation an advisor will give you is that “professors are weird about this kind of stuff” and you’re like… isn’t that… your job… to get me into the class anyway???

- “ ‘were you at lunch?’ she meant had i been out of the room yet that day. i said i hadn’t.”

- when henry is like richard you were in stem for a hot minute right? can you do this extremely complex calculus/chemistry problem for me? and richard is like well first of all chemical substances are measured in moles and henry’s like what’s a mole

- that moment when richard is pacing frantically around his room thinking “oh my god i’ve been in college for three years and i still have no idea what i want to do with my life oh my god oh my god and i have to fill out these financial aid papers right fucking now because my major no longer exists” lmao that’ll happen

- the fact that simultaneously it’s the most action-packed and plot-twist-filled book ever and yet if you read closely sixty percent of the book is like “i woke up late. after class i did homework for five hours. no one talked to me. then i went and ate dinner at the dining hall. nobody talked to me there, either”. that’s exactly what college feels like!

- when richard finds out his friends committed murder and immediately has to finish his essay that’s due that day

- when they kill bunny and that’s the week that julian assigns them so much work that none of them would be able to do it even under normal circumstances

- when francis is like “richard you need to drive me to the hospital i think i’m having a heart attack” and the doctor is like “what you have is anxiety” and francis is like nah that can’t possibly be it

- “metahemeralism’s gotta be the ticket here, see?”

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all bitches want is to be yearned for.

it’s me, i’m bitches.

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one reason i like books so much is that the characters and environments written in them are constant because they are written on paper and they remain the same no matter how many times you read them

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If I had unlimited money I'd pick up every sick and wounded pigeon off the streets and bring them to the vet so they'll remember all the good I've done for the Pigeonkind and i can become the king of pigeons.

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“what’s the dead poets society?”

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I just finished the Secret History this morning and the whole while I was reading, I refrained myself from looking up the latin translations, especially the cubitum eamus thing. So I am doing it right now and boy I laughed so hard.

Bruh.

Bro.

Francis.

You're the funniest mtherfckr in this book. i'm gonna put this quote on my wall, maybe on my bag. maybe i'll get it tattooed.

#got to bed? #the secret history #tsh #Francis carrying the book #dark academia in autumn can u blame me?

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i need to feel something

*watches dead poet society 1989*

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ok actually being on here just makes me regret stuying law and not literature or classics so yeah… bye

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life hacks from the marauders > trumtrum