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alright . so i have moved to my place . i figured out a new URL for cloud and i am in the process of moving everything there . same info . same background . same icons . im not changing much . i will be updating the carrd rules , the relationships just a little bit , dropping SOME threads but not all .

i will be following the same people too ! but in the case i miss you , PLEASE LET ME KNOW IF YOU WANT ME TO FOLLOW YOU . 

i do have a different URL .

#update.

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i know i said i would be here , but hanging up my dmlx and dmcl stuff on the walls at my new place got me contemplating rebooting felix or claude . idk tho . anyway . i am officially moved into my new place . I may be here tomorrow . but im not sure ?

#ooc. #tbd. #mobile. #going back into the fe community is very risky esp with 3 hopes coming out #and i have very low tolerance for the community since nobody understands nuance but #claude is just too good to not write #and i miss him #i need to also finish that fanfic too

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hi . im alive . yes . im almost done packing everything . im moving halfway across the country so i will be out for at least 2.5 days . more to get everything unpacked at my new place ( luckily its only things that I can bring with me in my small car ) . 

be on the lookout late next week for an update . i desire to bring cloud back . i’ll be making a new blog for him . new url & everything . i heard news of something coming ? haven’t really been online since i’ve been packing . 

i hope you guys are well . i am doing okay . just dealing with allergies due to the dust . the cats are doing okay as well , just very :< due to change , the harnesses , & the move . 

#update. #mobile.

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Me : on extended break from tumblr

Tumblr : hey i know you on break but sam tho . gotta tell you that sam followed you

@tribourne

#ooc. #tbd. #mobile. #i am not getting any notifs in this app unless blu mari or sam post or do anything #and I'm living for it

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me : the smart thing to do here is just move cloud to my mumu also me : move him to a new blog .

#ooc. #cloud strife is just a muse that would drown my other characters #so he is deserving of his own blog .

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good evening . OCs deserve love too . pass it on .

#ooc.

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im alive .

#ooc. #thought you saw the last of me ???

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Cloud Strife as the WoL in nice clothes.

#visage.

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#ships. #hercbled #baracafee #lol okay but this is funny #i had to reblog it

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u - umm .... hi ... im alive & also really really fucking dumb .

EYE INJURY TW under the read more T^T

its more for why i haven’t been super responsive on discord .

so im a dumbass that .... cut my eye . like literally cut my eye . on accident . on sunday ..... and i had some intentioned to come back to write a bit before my birthday vacation . but ... alas , i havent been able to . 

i was legit blind for 2 days ( because i couldn’t even open my good eye without being in pain ) and today is the first day that i can open my bad eye for a longer period of time . unfortunately i have very little depth perception , have blurry vision in the bad eye , and staring at the screen for longer than 2 hours makes me really really REALLY exhausted . i’ve been taken naps when i can but yea ... up until yesterday i couldn’t really talk to people . 

im okay now !!! the eye doctor told me that its healing alright . just have to take it easy . i cannot drive still . which means im out of commission for work . thank goodness for my sick time . but im just taking it really easy . i am sorry for not telling a lot of people . i figured this was the easiest way to tell everybody without having to explain every time .

& yes , i know . im really stupid . it happens .. but hey the doc said that i was lucky enough for it to just be a superficial , yet vERY LARGE cut on my eye . there is no other damage and nothing is permanent . from what we can see .

i also don’t know what is going to become of this blog , i might do a bit of a reset here . but it really depends . i love cloud a lot . if anybody wants to like plot or talk about their muse and cloud , you are more than welcome to hmu on discord , just ask for it . otherwise , this hiatus is definitely staying for a bit longer . 

im sorry loves .

#update. #ooc.

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miss seeing u on my dash :c

oh ? mood mjorn nonny ! i really am sorry i haven't been active lately . i've been wanting to come on to write , on any of my blogs to be honest . but im really just struggling to find muse to write & i refuse to force myself to write .

i've been also super swamped with work , & honestly , my financial situation kind took a turn for the worse . given irl events happening & all , i just have been avoiding most social media too .

that & i've been spending time on other things right now . i've been kinda going on dates with a friend & spending time with him in general whenever i have energy & then watch documentaries and playing new games on my down time .

but ! i am okay . i am alive . im not as severely depressed as i had been but im just super stressed ...

i've always said that this blog will be on hiatus . & im taking an extended break . but i do miss being on here & on cloud .

i may honestly be doing a soft reset or something but im not sure . maybe i'll open up the FF7R here soon or something to get the brain juices flowing . but this is hard when i'm playing PLA & am looking forward to the FE 3 Hopes since I write DMCL & DMLX so .. yea ... im sorry love !

#ooc. #anon. #// i really am sorry im not here though #i miss being here i just have been away to recoup

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cloud could be your probationary boyfriend until the summer :3

#my friend asked me if he could be my probationary boyfriend until we can meet irl and i spat out my drink . #like sweetheart i adore you but HLSKEHBFD #NO #trial boyfriend im GHLKDSDAGFBG #anyway i am so sorry for the prolonged hiatus #i had to reschedule my trip because shit happened on my friend's end but #im still not really in the mood to write im so sorry #struggling with some other irl stuff too so im HRNGH #mutuals can ask for my discord tho #been playing fe and assassins creed as like my coping mechanism

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me 🤝 sam

supporting each other .

#ooc. #mobile. #// im laughing cause we dont talk much but when we do its always a lovely time #// i enjoy sam on my dash 🥰

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Hi im too shy to reach out 2 u but i hope ur doing ok

idk how long this has been sitting here or if it was sent after my last post but ! henlo ... im doing a little better than i have been . im sorry if i worried you or anybody else . im okay . i promise . just had a really bad episode that eventually led me to self isolate . a couple of friends have been keeping me company . or rather ... theyve been checking up on me . ( rafa & rory , bless their hearts , have been messaging me . with rafa making me watch stuff with him ) . but yea . i couldnt come on tumblr from how bad i had deteriorated tho . & Im not about that life to liveblog consistently in public about bad my mental health is or is getting .

i also just couldnt be here because i had lost all joy in literally everything that i love to do . which ... happens sometimes . & its better than doing something i might regret .

im also working a lot of OT rn too . & i have a new shift . so it keeps me up really late . then the depression sleeping has me sleeping the rest of my day away . ill probably be back in a few days or something . hmmmm ... maybe on luna though . but idk . that really depends cause an old friend that i had kinda lost contact with 2 years ago reached out to me recently so im kinda not currently in any mindset to be here you know ? my mind is elsewhere .

my dms are always open though so if you ever wanna talk . im here . im slowly coming out of it . just trying to take it really easy . mainly because im not 100 percent better still . but thank you for reaching out . i do hope you and other people are doing alright as well . i send you lots of luv & kehisses .

#ooc. #mobile. #anon. #// im okay i have been a mix of emotions so its just better that i not be here #// but im okay #// thank you to those who have reached out tho #// i really didnt mean to scare anybody . #// january is just not a good month for me #// jan march aug and dec are bad months for me in general so #// just needed a break from a lot of stuff im sorry

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cloud “i never smile” strife

#visage. #jessie.

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okei . so i did it . i sat down & stared at the threadtracker site & remembered how to use it . ( please have mercy on me , it really has been 3 years since i used it . ) i think i gathered MOST of the threads . save for like .. the STARTERS that people have made for me - which are mostly tucked away in my drafts . you can check out the tracker HERE if you so desire .

#ooc. #update. #// i said this and then i remembered i forgot to add ALL of zacks threads on there #// so it's MOSTLY done .

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bitch im babie .

#ic or ooc #its both #no context