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i’m personally rooting for sam to explode homelander like a fruit in a blender

#imagine how pissed off butcher would be if some random person killed homelander

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if ur so inclined.. maybe like this & we can plot?

#lonely dot org

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Sissy Spacek as CARRIE (1976)

#bros the choke this film has on me for annie #something delusional manipulated daughter god is Watching moment of insane powers #inspo.

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russian doll (season one) dialogue prompts from the first season of netflix's russian doll.

sweet birthday baby!

are you having fun?

do, uh… do ladies have midlife crises?

aren't you a little young for a midlife crisis?

it's my bad attitude that keeps me young.

you all right?

being a feline lover is not and has never been sad.

i thought you were a real sick fuck, but i see you're pretty deep, actually.

what's up with you?

have we met before?

the universe is trying to fuck with me, and i refuse to engage.

are you gonna tell me what's going on?

you know, your friends can't help you if you don't let them.

you're not helping me at all. you're sabotaging me.

will you help me out with something?

uh, i think i might be losing it, like i'm going crazy.

you will not be alone, okay?

thursday. what a concept!

buildings aren't haunted. people are.

did you kill someone?

i think we have something really, really good. and it's worth pursuing.

he goes, "you're using them as a distraction from the abyss," but he's wrong, because you are the abyss.

i want to cut your hair.

i'll never understand why you're being nice to me.

i think i finally figured out a little something about how this world works.

hey, man. didn't you get the news? we're about to die.

stop playing these mind games.

this is the problem. you're always trying to fix every little thing.

i… i can't do this anymore.

how could you do this to me?

i can… i… i can do it by myself. i can.

no one can do anything by themselves.

you showed up and everything has gone off.

from what i gather, we are in this together.

you're an asshole.

why do you think this is happening to us?

i love that you're a cunt. it makes me feel morally superior.

for my birthday, tell me if i'm a bad person.

nobody chooses me. i'm the hole where a choice should be.

you want me to feel guilty? well, i don't.

i don't want to be attached to anyone.

people thinking that i'm crazy is one of my biggest fears.

sometimes hail marys are the best marys we've got.

you ever been married, engaged?

i think i'm meant to be alone.

not many people could go through what we are going through.

how do you know that you're real?

we… we need each other. i need you. you need me.

look. i am sorry that i yelled at you for just trying to be a nice person, okay?

i just… i do not want to do this alone.

you are the most selfish person i have ever met.

thank you for changing my life.

i love you. i mean that in the truest sense.

no matter how much we think we're fooling people, our bodies… they can't keep lying the way that our minds can.

for years, i've just been… i've just been hollow.

i thought if i kept my head down, did everything right... this aching, gnawing feeling of being an absolute failure would just… would just go away.

i don't know why i'm alive.

life is like a box of timelines. you feel me?

i'm convinced our true purpose is to to connect with each other, if not help save each other's lives.

#guess im in my 0.3 era

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this was more what i had in mind

@sunsupe you

#dont talk abt the fact i nearly didnt follow anyone apart from teg cause of the unwells

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if i ever grow another braincell i’ll talk about vought and the image crafting of not allowing supes to be seen in anything but their suits & the complex around human vs supe/gods among men it creates by portraying supes as regular people (homelander’s fake home/backstory, the ad in season 1, a-train’s ‘biopic’ film) but only showing their humanity while keeping them dressed up.

#‘we’re not a superhero company— we’re a biopharmaceutical company’ #** even then the.. suits themselves #homelander talking about wanting an american flag #annie’s ‘family friendly’ suit for the jesus convention #a-train’s ‘rebrand’

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literally obsessed with the comments on this video

#drugs cw #the last one got me real good #homelander dropping that car on you was an honest mistake

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“It was true: the other mother loved her. But she loved Coraline as a miser loves money, or a dragon loves its gold. In the other mother’s button eyes, Coraline knew that she was a possession, nothing more. A tolerated pet, whose behavior was no longer amusing.”

warnings for:  emotional abuse and child manipulation.

WHAT IS PRINCESS BY PROXY SYNDROME?

princess by proxy syndrome,   a subcategory of achievement by proxy distortion (ABPD),   is a pattern of adult behaviors that occurs when an adult’s pride and satisfaction are achieved through a child’s activities.     parents and adults who lovingly and compassionately support children’s activities are normal.     those with ABPD objectify their children,   seeing them either consciously or unconsciously as a means to obtain financial or social gains for themselves.     studies show that sexual objectification can put a child at risk for abuse and neglect.

ABPD is often seen as a sub-set of munchausen syndrome by proxy (MSbP),   a condition in which a caregiver creates the appearance of health problems onto another,   often their child.     as a proxy disorder,   they are forced from one person onto another [unwillingly].     in annie’s  case,   her mother [donna january]’s desire to be a superhero was forced onto annie,  as seen in 3.03 when donna mimics the dance that annie is doing on stage at the little miss hero pageant contest.

annie spent her childhood in superhero pageants & lacking time in regular schooling,   [‘she took me to all the little miss hero pageants, but i hated it.’  1.01]   isolating her from normal peers & children her age.

AS SOMEONE SIGNIFIGANTLY MORE POWERFUL THEN HER PEERS,   annie wasn’t allowed to participate in any group games or school sports,   due to having such a large advantage over them.

the majority of social contact with people her age that annie was allowed & given,   were with children in pageants but even then,   her mother played them as her rivals and annie wasn’t allowed to actually befriend them.     she heavily lacked normalized social interactions and grew up on the platform her mother placed her on.     [part of this plays into an internal concept & mentality that she sees herself as a doll / doll limbs / doll pieces].     the following excerpt is from 1.08.

as seen in 3.03,  despite being at a pageant with other young superheroes,  annie doesn’t speak with them & only interacts with her mother,  being repeated brushed off by her mother despite being in physical pain.     she was systematically isolated so that she only had her mother as a friend figure & would be unable to reach out to others.     seen below is two screencaps from 3.03.

annie was heavily emotionally abused & manipulated by her mother,  forced into the role of ‘starlight’ and unable to have any influence in her own childhood or make any of her own choices.     she was isolated,  emotionally abused & manipulated by her mother into her entire existence.     the first  real  choice annie makes in her life is speaking up at the believe expo,   giving her a chance to make herself into a real person.     it takes truly a long time for annie to become independent from her mother & her abuse/manipulation.

“Today’s tot glitz pageants are a multi billion-dollar industry. The entry fees coupled with extravagant costumes and makeup run up the participant tab to several hundred, if not thousands of dollars. The financial investment often exceeds the top cash prize. Parents who invest thousands of dollars in tot pageants for the rare chance at fame are exhibiting the first stage of ABPD called “Risky sacrifice.” With risky sacrifice, the adult loses the ability to differentiate their needs for success and achievement from the child’s. Parents may make risky financial decisions to support the child’s perceived abilities; rationalizations to justify the child’s intensely focused participation in a specific activity (eg: pageants) and increasing pressure for the child to perform no matter what are characteristics. The pageants I attended were rife with this behavior with many parents saying textbook ABPD risky sacrifice comments like, “It costs a lot of money and we are in debt, but my daughter likes doing the pageants.” Really? The kid is two years old. Or “My daughter is in the first grade but sometimes we miss school so we can get to a pageant. We’ve invested so much in her coaching and outfits that we’d hate to lose it.” Priorities, anyone? The second stage of ABPD is “Objectification.” In this stage the adult can’t differentiate their needs and goals for success from their child’s. The adult wants their child to win at all cost and there is an excessive focus on the pageant or sport. The child may be forced to train or perform beyond their abilities or in the case of pageants, don an unrealistically flawless appearance. The pageants I attended judged contestants on flawless appearance, poise and personality….however none spoke a word so personality was based on looks alone. Some hypercritical parents chastised their tots for not “performing” or looking less than perfect, openly blaming the child for “failure” and insisting that the child would practice more or “learn to look perfect.” The last stage is “Potential Abuse.” This is a severe or complete loss of the adult’s ability to differentiate their needs and goals from the child’s. At this level, the child is at risk for exploitation and is often forced to continue the sport or in this case, pageant activity despite potential physical or emotional harm; this is often done in an effort to provide financial or material gain for the adult.”   - PSYCHOLOGY TODAY.

#yeah i'm reposting (& partially re-writing + adding) an old meta!!!!! #it was good!!!!! #child abuse cw #child neglect cw #emotional abuse cw

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ANNIE JANUARY in THE BOYS 3x08 | The Instant White-Hot Wild

#the boys spoilers #one day i’ll get over this but today isn’t that day #i begged for this and amazon fed me so well #the way you can’t even see her eyes vs annie blinding her birth parents… #powerhouse annie my beloved #tbt*/

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inspiration:          missing gods,   the sun/burning alive,   beauty pageants & prom queens,   sainthood,   eclipses,   young godhood,   hallowed beings & hallowed grounds,   new vs old gods,   angels burnt,   reforming religion/creating your own religion,   denouncing yourself.

𝚒𝚗𝚍𝚎𝚙𝚎𝚗𝚍𝚎𝚗𝚝,   𝚜𝚎𝚕𝚎𝚌𝚝𝚒𝚟𝚎   and   𝚙𝚛𝚒𝚟𝚊𝚝𝚎         writing blog for       annie january,   starlight         of        the boys.          as lovingly designed by  naz.          amazon based,   comic influence.          dupe friendly/mutuals only.

                                      #sunsupe,   formerly @nlustris

                                                other details below.

mixed-media with a heavy preference towards the tv series over the comics (primarily due to the gross graphic nature of the comics). i’ve finished the comics & tv series, and currently write annie based post season 3 with influence from the comics, theories and my own personal headcanons.

without any prior plotting/speaking, annie is not in a relationship with hughie on the sole basis i don’t want to forceship but i do ship them but i have no interest in forcing it on anyone!  i also portrayal starlight as bisexual because fuck the hets

i have piles of other verses but i am very lazy with typing so just ask me about them!  if we’re mutuals,  i 100% have thought of a way for us to interact.

i will not write with stormfront blogs.   end of story,  die nazis.    i don’t write nsfw because i’m lazy frankly but nsft is my tag for it,   triggers tagged as content cw.   tag animal death, injury & illness for me please.   any white-washed dc/mcu/etc blogs,  fuck off.

divergences:   starlight is both electricity and light based. her original powers are light manipulation and projection, not electricity absorption & energy projection. on this blog, starlight is capable of both. any forms of light are accessible to her, but she primarily uses light over electricity. unlike in the tv series, starlight is capable of flight in the comics & i follow such canon. her powers are primarily emitted by the palms of her hands, but can come from any part of her body. clothing covering her makes it more difficult for her to emit light (re. her second suit contains cut outs in the gloves, specifically in the shape of a star, to allow her to emit light). her power is developed & absorbed from any form of light but primarily natural light and not man made.     starlight’s identity is reveal on instagram (after herogasm, 3.06) in season 3 and not during season 1.  she is currently no longer a member of the seven & is a member of the boys,  while starting to work on her bachelors degree.

the block button and i are best friends. we’re open mouth kissing.   if u know me thats cool!  ur welcome to avoid me if u still have beef with me but my bones are too sore to care anymore

naz,   24,   they/them,   jewish.   nzst.   autistic, schizo,  generally stupid.

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