#& i saw another !! from twintania even :O but idk regardless TwT

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it's pretty hard to find more like minded people who like ffxiv esp as a minor & in ph ;; but i know quite a few! not any in my country bcs :") but my twin & my 2 irls i got into it <3 so like. idk but maybe i cld make a discord q-q ( oh gods warning for tags. very long ,,, )

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #there's a few reasons as to why i'm hesitant to do so though ...... #and i don't even like talking /too/ much with others. so that's that too dohfidhskdjs #but i literaly know two people on twitter 17-19 and my twin who doesn't rlly count bcs we do everything together and two close friends T__T #and it's hard for some friends i know who are interested bcs either they don't have a device/console or they need space !! or too slow >_< #or. i'm not close enough w then orr we're not of the same mind yeah ?? like. my former fc mates in twin b4 i moved to oce ^^; #i tried looking thru a website and saw 1 that'd be cool but just for adults. valid T___T #& i saw another !! from twintania even :O but idk regardless TwT #man it rlly is difficult as a minor & shy & kinda socially anxious & philippines eee #BUT I DID SEE 2 Y'SHTOLAS AT THE CON. i will never forget that. no pic but i'm so happy #it's kinda hard to rely on my people in the country to get into xiv (as a minor) bcs y'all just play uhm. free games WHEEZE #💀💀💀 many other reasons that i'm iffy about but i don't want to come off that way bcs i'm not that Yeah. also wtvr ig <//3 #UGHFHFJEHFJ SORRY FOR. TALKING ABT THIS. uh. i've been a bit less subtle abt it bcs it's been almost 2 years since i've played and it still #feels rather lonely ;; yeah ;;; idk it's honestly been eating me up from the inside for so long esp w not being in an fc yet in ravana >< #wahhh so yeah T___T ig the best thing wld be for my irls to play more xiv or hang more w my friends who ik r in xiv but for various reasons #that isn't. easy either :( aaaaaaaaaaaa #like. idk man but my experience in ffxiv is just. really yeah #nothing has captured me just as much as this esp bcs my interests tend to fluctuate but this has stayed w me for so long #even w the fact i played it the whole summer in '20 and i'm endgame alrdy ?? and the fact i think abt it everyday and don't even get tired #the story is INCREDIBLY good. none of what i've played can compare. not even other final fantasies. esp when it comes to shb bcs i barely #can think of criticism about it ;;; the other expansions are all beautiful (yes. all) even w their imperfections and flaws? for me it adds #to my appreciation but i like to be critical abt it regardless and all !! tbh maybe it's also just me actually being a fan of mmos but #ffxiv rlly is an rpg first and an mmo 2nd >< and the most final fantasy at it's core honestly !! and the music is incredibly top tier :O #idk man but p5 and fe3h and gbf and octopath and other games i've played ;; what makes the story good is all in xiv imo ?? #altho it's kind of a cheat bcs it's an mmo WHEEZE but it rlly does feel like an rpg first and this is from someone who honestly mostly #played rpgs b4 xiv >< i cld go on and on but lehfoebfisj i do that too much and i'm rambling so much na ere aaaaaa #idk but. yeah. idk. when i think abt what makes 3H and p5 and gbf good and others. it's just also in xiv #i hope i don't come off as close minded and ignorant though T___T this is just me rn being yeah over my greatest passion !! #oh gods i accidentally deleted a tag up there and reached 30 tags GOODBYE i talk (text) so much oml