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themis... this cute little guy... him having, like, the deepest voice known to mankind is. the best thing ever.

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #themis my dear ..... he is everything #i love both his en and jp voices !! okay but ngl his voice in my head is a bit softer but GOD i love his voice being like That. deep #it contradicts his baby face and i think that's so poggers yk #⋯ ꒰ა ffxiv ໒꒱ *·˚ #themis #elidibus

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if i do "?" in text i'm genuinely tilting my head like a dog if i do "!!" my eyes are sparkling and i am figuratively wagging my tail if i am IN ALL CAPS i'm screaming from the top of a mountain with all the power i can with love and the strength of RAGHHH within me

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #sorry guys. i will not shut up. #honestly i really miss it here on tumblr SNIFFS ..... i say this sm tho but damn real/offline life has really been fun <33 #anyway. meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow me #very good day ty to those who greeted me anywhere or even just liked a post as a little hi hbd or just acknowledgement ya know arghhh arghhh #I'M SO TIRED NOW ACTUALLY i'm on 5 battery but watch me keep talking (writing) some more #i'm insane btw i went out w friends earlier this tuesday (love them sm) and then. they pitched in to buy me the origin of species bcs i've #been wanting the book LMFAO AS A BDAY GIFT IDK IT'S SO FUNNY TO ME BUT GENUINELY I'M SO HAPPY (NERD) <333 #and today i've talked a lot again w one best friend and another of my dearest friends and another too and idk fun day fr #okay i shut up now #that's a lie btw who knows when i will shut up #i might shut up now actually actually #actually i like rambling it's so fun teehee #BUT YEAH TY AGAIN ... genuinely makes me so happy i feel so giddy i was scared today would turn out bad and hey it isn't perfect but to me #it kinda is. in its own way. imperfectly perfect ^_^ <3 yeehaw!!

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i will return on tumblr soon bcs i'm graduating hs soon and acads r done so i have a Lot of time on my hands for now Anyway can i just say am very proud of myself. got into the Top 1 school in my country, top campus, and a vv competitive stem course. yay 😁💝💘❤️‍🔥✨

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #it's hilarious bcs i got waitlisted for compsci #which i'm actually rlly proud of bcs i didn't take the exams that seriously and most of jhs was online #compsci competitive af man #but i prove my worth both online & onsite ^_^ always straight As baby! even this gr 12 LOL <3 #i got into my 3rd choice (2nd choice was psych i am So glad i didn't get in i ended up not wanting it anymore. also competitive asf so i'm #ok w that) WHICH IS the best possible outcome actually bcs it Is my dream course. #i will reveal more another time tho ... >:)) Anyway am just super proud hehe. also of my twin (we both passed & all that <3) ^___^ #also my friends !! barely any passed actually and even then i know only like 10-15 of ppl in my whole school who Did pass #and less so for their first choice/dream course or their preferred campus #MWHAHAHAHAHA >:))) ok i'm not shitting on anyone tho i'm just so so so proud and happy #gbye i am busy tho relaxing LMFAO i've been getting 12 hours of sleep the last 3 days. god. school was tiring af #but i'm a weirdo so it's fun B) Amen. i like saying amen despite being this rlly agnostic/atheist person LMFAOOO #upcat i love u. ty for loving me LMFAOOAOAOAOAOAOAO #so proud idk ig. i knew i'd make it (i hope thsi doesn't come off as pretentious) but i didn't know exactly Where #but the universe did its thing and i got into my dream school dream campus dream course #unsure abt dream school really but it's upd or not up. and also def my dream course ^_^

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MOOTS WHEN IS YOUR BDAY !!!!! please tell me & comment or wtvr asap 👍💗

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #wna giv u all gifties when i can but it is very dependent & i am busy but i Still want to try ^_^ #AND IN GENERAL i want to greet you all ya know ... yeah ..... #any mutuals reply tbh. idc how long we've known each other for or how close we are. yeehaw.

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dear gods i adore horror tbh but i am way too sensitive to it

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #idk how to describe 'sensitive' rn i'm dying in the head i should be asleep but Man!!!!! #i search up tons of horror stuff for funsies. movies uhh creepypastas stories real life events etc. fun! #BUT it freaks me out wayyy too much. bcs i really don't deal well w Those feelings of paranoia. #my imagination too good i was scared at night going to sleep bcs i'd imagine what to do if an intruder came in from the bedroom door #or bathroom door and think of how i'd escape Death......... #Did Not Help my area before was kinda yk. chillax. chillax meaning grassy tree-sy backyard overgrown trees #old-ish in a filipino chill neighborhood that isn't very fancy ?????? idk. #and the fact one time my dad almost died and someone standing close to him Did die so. haha. traumatized from that. #I WASN'T THERE..... but i rmbr my dad coming home and the news absolutely terrified me. anyway! #wow... rambling on tumblr at 3 and a half am... Nostalgic. #anyway yeah i love love love horror stuff but i am !!! so bad w them !!! like jesus christ i adore resident evil and bloodborne #is my whole bloodline. or something. but i can't even watch my twin kill 1 zombie in a re game Demo (she can't do it either) #and i can only make it to killing the first monster in bloodborne and explore a tiny bit where there are still no enemies. god. #AAAGGGGHHHhhhh ... and the first point of horror in omori then i stop playing for months...... even tho i rlly wna play more :(( #2024 ........ cmon... i will try to overcome my fears more. #i've improved somewhat at least! ...from when i was younger. like. man. i could never stay in night-time in games ever. #ffxv? nah i always have to travel at morning. only when i got strong enough that daemons were nothing to me did i stop #getting scared. ouuughhh... and i always try to be stealthy in games........... for many reasons ofc but 1. Scared #okay i shut up now. apollo rambles of tonight: done and over!

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hi guys please wish me luck for my college entrance exam tomorrow for one of my dream schools xoxo

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #LET'S GOOO MGA PAREH 💙🦅💙🦅💙🦅💙🦅 #i'm so chill for some reason even if ik i will never forgive myself if i don't get in. anyway. manifesting!!! i will pass with flying colors #IT'S REAL DAMN STRESSFUL FOR ME bcs i am aiming for honors courses which means i have to be top 15%... i am top 15% (and higher) in my batch #in school anyway but... urgh... #so. yeah. give me all your best wishes thankyousomuchxoxo AHHEHEHWHSHFJAH sobbing (but fr. if you do. i really appreciate it!!) #i believe in myself :] mostly. the time limit scares me and math and abstract reasoning bcs 5 minutes for 30 items but yeah. okay. #i am Smart ..... bro i literally got perfect on my physics exam and got 100 in statistics (i am really proud of these in particular) #my extracurriculars are good !! all my math scores are insane (cue a math nerd) and science (science nerd) english (god. no explanation #needed) honestly every subject is slay and so is my essay-making but ERGH. honors course... top 15%... #i will try to be chill! honestly i am already lol the nerves aren't getting to me somehow. gl to me and all that i know and do not know. #both here and irl :3 also to fellow ph kids (who are most likely younger than me if they aren't older and yk not worrying abt cets anymore #LMFAO) err idk if . okay idk what i was going to say LMFAO anyway i'm busy af and idk if i'm good with teaching others #but if you ever want any tips from me (honestly i don't really have tips. i do what i do and just make it. but there's a lot involved there) #feel free to come to me for anything ^_^ anything at all tbh. doesn't have to be acads idk i like helping others in general. BUT IT DEPENDS. #but yeah just hmu whatever i will have you know i am genuinely a smart & responsible kid and i am proud of that bcs my family is amazing w #smarts but also the Hard Work is there so :3 !! english is my forte science is my forte math is my forte. also socsci and whatever tbh. #i'm probably insane but i genuinely love all those topics and what we learn in school FISHFK so yeah !!! okay i shut up now #will do my best... zzz... and then i will work on myself. to be better than i already am and even better than i could possibly be. ya. fun! #the mga pareh is a joke btw i like imitating filipino kids like that. like yooo mga pareh let's goooooo wahee!!!!!

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merry christmas btw i kinda forgot to say it ere at all oopsies >_< i hope you all had/have a wonderful holiday season or week or day or month regardless of your religion and if you celebrate christmas !!!!!

i got 'the end of everything' by katie mack for xmas (i begged my parents lol) bcs i finally saw it in a bookstore after months of looking for it that i just Fell to the ground ..... i love astrophysics i love space i love science. i also love u all

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #:3 :3 :3 meow #urgh. tired! i wish to ignore my responsibilities but i should not cannot #i actually got genshin again yesterday which sounds unreal. i just want pretty blonde girl navia LMFAOOO #but also i've actually been making progress w quests and shit so yay ^_^ also playing again bcs i lov my friends. nini u will not see this #but ily. also u berry even tho we are on wholly different servers bcs i'm on na haha despite the fact i am literally asian & in asia but ok #i miss ffxiv ... :(( i meant to make my theme vincent valentine and reference hit song valentine by hit band mäneskin #but i was like i do not think i can live long w this. and then thought hard. and then. ryne/gaia... my darlings <3 #also idk if i've said but i'm finally. heading and delving more into dnd finally !! tis meant to be lmfao i love my friends wow #and also my dad had his own dnd set back in the day he never used unfortunately and doesnt hav anymore but Yes <333 #bg3 ocs are tasty! you have apollo erebus and thanatos there is an obvious theme in names going on! #funny there is one silly bard (my guy ever. obviously) and then the other two are durges on opposite ends #pretty boy draconic sorcerer who tries to be good but honestly he's romancing astarion too so he's kinda Yeah #and then you have than who is. what a pretty enby he/she ladyman! romancing minthara ofc <3 they are my evil girlie #evil girlies more like. Two of them yay!!! w opposite color schemes (quite intentional but also i Just Love Red) #haven't watched pjotvseries bcs i will cry throughout the whole thing (probably not an exaggeration) so i am obviously not ready #yeah. ^_^ <3

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show me this and i'll be ruined immediately every time :")

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #⋯ ꒰ა ffxiv ໒꒱ *·˚ #themis #!!!?!?!?!?!?!?! #okay so look. pandaemonium tier. i have NOT done the latest one yet but ever since the start the whole thing has been my favorite #and it rose themis to being my 2nd favorite character just below raha which is saying a lot. and for a second i was even willing to say he #was the first. but raha is just different sorry themis. but YEAH #these lines live on in me forever oh my god everything w themis is just so holy fuck. oh my GOD #i think themis. deserves the world #LOOK okay wolthemis and all and and and and and then the fact that ?? the whole fallen star nickname thing ??? that Say My Name scene ???? #and the moment he was revealed to be yk. finally. the fucking SCREAM i let out holy shit i have a voice recording of that. amazing #i am scared to do the last tier and by scared i mean terribly excited in a terrible way #i do not want pandaemonium story to end but i really wonder what the hell happens at the end... of it all. AAAAAAAAA

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btw to filipino moots im gna be an arenean B) or iskolar ng bayan who knows!

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #my only choices for college r the big 4 personally i'm so sorrey ... but minus ust tbh bcs i rlly dont want to be a thomasian LOL #IT'S JUST REALLY PERSONAL i don't like the culture of ust & etc . i have my reasons. dlsu is ok but ateneo or up is my Dream #may be a surprise but i've always been a straight a student and real smart :3 even in anything to do w filipino #but that is the one thing that drags my grades (slightly) down ..... but my math is so exemplary and i get perfect computer anything always #bs cs future major hereee but since i want ateneo i'm going for dual degree cs bs-dgdd #yeehaw i never talk abt really real life stuff like this but this is still okey #one day u might get a face revea but only for my eyes bcs im sorta obsessed w and unfortunately think im really cute. so #ANYWAY !!!!! excited for college tbh. scared. but yes! #i havent finished my admu app but it is due friday i am so crazy LMFAOOOOOOO but i have recos alr <3 yay <33 #rlly confident in myself but i want to be careful and really get what i desevre. gna do my best and try to get top 15% AND MAYBE even 200 #but that one specifically is sorta crazy but tbf i could achieve it if i study a bit more :P so ya #it's amazing bcs ... english is literally second nature to me BUT i am and have always been amazing at math & sci #always been a math kid and sci kid AND art kid AND eng kid and music too and computer #idk. just proud of myself. i love me lol #there's a lot to it but no need to get into specifics :3 im just happy w myself yay!

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hi i'm trying to be normal but it's so hard when you're so crazy over evangelion... and kawoshin.....

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #gusygusygusygusy. guys. didya know neon genesis evangelion is actually everything to me #it was my childhood that never was my childhood !!! it has stuff w sci-fi and science and ANGELS !!!!! AND RELIGOUS REFERENCESHWGWGAYAUDHGOE #AN ODE TO JOY !!!!!! kaworu. and. god. i know that piece okay i loved doing it as a kid it was one of my favorites. still is #ANGELS !!!! ASUKA !!!!!! REI WJEHWHSGDKSJ SHINJI . kaworu. oh my GODDDJHRJEHEJDHS #okay so my aunt ABSOLUTELY ADORES evangelion and my dad too. so. as a kid my dad made me and arti watch an episode but idk if we ever did #i still rmbr that time clearly tho. oh my god. #it also doesn't help that evangelion means so much to me in a similar way to kh. Also because of my aunt. #AND HIKARU UTADA RAGHHhhhhh good gods my guys #so as you can see. i am severely unwell. #:)) GOOOOOOOOD. oh my god #went to jp too years ago and went on the evangelion ride in one of those theme parks i forgor which one uhh universal studios? #w my aunt and dad and twin! so that was insane. i was so young but i still rmbr that. i loved it #evangelion and kingdom hearts... fullmetal alchemist and final fantasy... can you tell my family has really good taste #so many games so many animangas so many media all bcs of my family i adore my family (generally) guyshehehahshsbfjbskcbsk #rvangehwliognhrwh kaworhsingnfhegshddh good gods. kaworu...

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my favorite teacher plays dnd and bg3 do you know how crazy that is to me

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #LOTS OF THOUGHTS HII GOOD NOON TODAY WAS A REAL FUN DAY #I ALMOST BROKE DOWN AND ALSO I KINDA VENTED AND G #UH. WHY IS TUMBLR WEIRD AND CLOSING MY POST. ANYWAY! #i did vent to my friends abt annoying classmates (aka annoying ppl who are irresponsible) that bring me and my friends and groups grades #down. and yeah. but i bonded a lot w various frienda and and and fun day and and and I LEARN ^^ AND #things are quite bad sometimes but sometimes they aren't actually that bad and idk school is just really fun i'm almost sad #just really happy with where i am rn and my friends are noticing too sniffs ..... noticing how i'm talking more or whatnot #and more comfy and whatnot and hey it did take like. quite a while. but still! just. really happy #bcs this Quite A While was either basically immediate but in the making (two friends) or gradual but always getting there (group in class) #and etc !!! like hey maybe some friends online or irl i am not talking to as much atm but there's the comfort that we still greatly care #for wach other. and whatnot. and there's just a lot and damn if i gave up this wouldn't be happening lol my point is things do get better #and a lot of it tbh is on how you improve and see things (???) idk but damn i'm just rlly proud of myself #I COULD STILL DO BETTER mbut idk all of this is me and im just rlly secure in that and i have been since the longest time ngl. im amazing #yeehaw ANYWAYYYYFGEGKR BG3 I STARTED A DARK URGE RUN LAST NIGHT YE GODS ITS A BIT SCARY TO ME BUT I LOVE THE BLOOD #im trying to fight against it bcs im using my main tav but boom make him a durge guy so ^_^

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good morning my personality for the day is that i'm uncontrollably sobbing on the inside about ff9 and ff10

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #RAGHHH FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL AGAIN....... feels unreal tbh lol whatever #i'm a tad bit sick which is worrisome and it's been raining a fuckton in the ph . thankfully i'm not affected #but my heart goes out to those who have :') you guys here stay safe okay!! #and HIII I HOPE YOU ALL ARE WELL <3 it's way too early for me in the morning i woke up at 5 holy fuck uh. i hope u all are well #anyway Not Alone and Suteki Da Ne and Melodies Of Life ..... i am ruined #the ending of ffx . the whole thing with Friendship in ffix. #yk the funny thing... ffx was my childhood it is and was everything to me and my first final fantasy but i still haven't finished it actuall #ik the story and i'm literally at the end but my spheres suck. i was not even 13 when i started playing okay.... on ps3 And ps4 #:(( tidus and yuna are everything to me. the whole main cast is tbh. i love them dearly #ix i have not actually played yet hahaha i'm crazy ik but my twin has!! anddd i just love all final fantasies vvv much #ik some stuff abt ix but obvs it's nothing compared to. Actually Playing The Game #i did play a bit tho ^_^ until the #vamo' alla flamenco!! #oh i had to search it to make sure i was right in spelling and Bless. i actually was lol #honestly idk my fav in ix but x it is . tidus yuna rikku. can't pick! but yes i adore tidus he's everything #uhmm ix tho... freya? zidane? dagger? vivi? ya #awh. i love ff sooo much #still also very much in a xiv mood btw. uhmm raha themis alisaie hyth zenos zero my beloveds! #those r my top favs me thinks but i have wayyy too many :] lyse... magnai... fandaniel... venat... thancred... ryne... urianger... fordola #and etc. dhgjsbsj there is a Lot. my heart goes out to so many of them but i think my top favs are the ones i said first fr ^_^ #funny daniel got demoted to a lesser fav i'm sorry luv LMFAO but maybe when i'm in a fandaniel mood again someday. yay!

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today fun :3 lots of stuff & being chaotic at school but also a few friends went to a con recently (cosmaniaaa crazy of them to go right before exam week tbh slay) and SOBBING ok astarion + clive + gojo sticker ..... thanku i love them

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #i don't ever really ask for anything unless someone offers bcs hey if they want to i'll let them #it depends ofc but still. just makes me rlly happy sniffs friends doing small thinggies. thinking of me. ty <3 #RAGHHH okay busy day :3 okay ... let's go ..... gotta write a whole ton of shit today <//3 <33 !!!!!

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i just saw a fic w the title being one of new hozier's songs and the summary being a lyric and i knew at once. yes. astarion is so hozier-coded .......

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #so glad to find another Like Me (<- will not shut up about hozier. and astarion.) #it's so bad (good) how my interests overlap bcs... release of unreal unearth around bg3 full release AND good omens s2 :/ okay. shut up. #anyway i'm writing a little for astarion in my drafts but it is incredibly self-indulgent LMFAO <//3 watch me write w hozier as inspiration

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okay rambles but i started creatively writing in like ... 5th grade? and. oh god just a little encouragement to anyone looking to get into writing or insecure or whatnot, but HELLS, maybe it's to he expected with my (obviously) very young age and inexperience with writing then, but my writing was really. yeah. Yeah. but then i'm what... a lot older now, obviously, and my writing has gotten leagues better. i'm probably not a good example for this bcs childhood years development stuff are different etc etc BUT practicing writing more and whatnot really does go a long way :]

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #my writing in 2020 is a lot different than my writing now even! especially so compared to my writing from 2010s #reading a lot of media is also really important :] i always read a lot of books BUT i only started to really read poetry since the pandemic #which were uh basically my early teenage years so idk if i'm a good example for this bcs childhood brain development and stuff (???) #BUT STILL ..... playing games like ffxiv and being really invested in the lore and writing + reading more poems and being fascinated with #more authors and pieces of literature + expanding my general vocabulary knowledge whatnot ... it all really goes a long way! #oh man i'm pretty proud of myself actually. i do love my writing. as imperfect (as all things are) it is. #i had a lot of Pauses with writing throughout my uhh relatively short life thus far since i'm NOT yet an adult and all aha but yeah! #so bless ffxiv again for bringing back my writing spirit... and other medias and whatever <3 #rn i have to thank bg3 for bringing back my Creative Spirit bcs i've been writing a lot more again and having/working on my creative ideas!! #okay i just wanted to ramble a bit lol ^_^ there! #idk my being a writer is very important to me. and my journey as one too. #i want to make a book one day! most feasibly would be to make a collection of short stories :] a bit similar to 'm is for magic' maybe bcs #i grew up with that lol neil gaiman i adore you <3 #i have a very special original world in my head but i am a little selfish and want to keep them all to myself... oops. or who knows! #anyway i have a lot of ideas and i adore writing and literature sooo much <3 #anyway. okay. leaving it here. #cheering on every writer author whatever out there !!! unless you're a sucky person of course yuck bigots but yeah ^^ <3 #huge writing inspo for me is uhhhhhhhh. thinking #ffxiv! does ffxiv count. esp drk quests. and shb as a whole. and then... edgar allan poe? neil gaiman? yeah? #can't remember anyone else good gods but i love vivid and imaginative storytelling and writing descriptively :] a bit of prose but also #quite simple in its eloquence (???) unsure honestly oh gods anyway BYE rambles over apollo signing off beep boop AGHHHHH (screams)

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hiii :333 i think i am alive !! ( small update in da tags )

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #WOOOAGHHHHH HAVENT BEEN HERE IN AGES. WOW> #sorry guys im a straight a student in their senior year of hs... i have been enjoying real life ^_^ i miss it here tho. :( #will be active soon bcs school is gna end. fucking sobbing but we don't talk abt that #i am here instead of working on the uh. 2 group presentations i need to work on. and the 1 Solo presentation............. #which is crazy btw bcs it's a whole research event thing bcs im in stem ^_^ closing remarks heehaw. Just Me. #so i'm proud of myself & for better understanding myself lately but there is still sm i want to do!!! like On here <3 #in a much better headspace and life and etc. its good yay. #anyway hashtag wanna be an astrophysicist (a+ physics? ez. but also ive always loved math & astronomy) astronomer musician #author video game dev (future compsci student! or physics. still deciding.) uhhh psychologist philosopher blablabla phd one day #yay ^__________^ I MISS WRITING ON HERE THO and interacting w moots :P altho idrk how to get back into that shit #anywhere really but it's ok we find ways. man. i miss it here. before i get active again tho i should rlly makes lists to do and Fix stuff. #bye for now yay just a lil update from me !!! ^_^ it's been at least... 4 months? bcs i rmbr not properly saying happy new year on here HEL #raaaaaaaaaaaaa apollo is so back babaey the world is so beautiful & so am I. anyway. u all take care mwamwamwa