#& i think maybe this time... not yet so far. i am ♯Clean as they say

[derpinette]

i am something of a non-practicing cutter

#i think the last time was the summer of 2021 IIRC 0_0 i placed my Tools in some small shelf in the bath room (intentional distinction) #never saw them again... they probably rusted with the humidity anyway Not that that would have stopped me #went to see how much the thing of razors i stole from some guy's office & they were THIRTY TWO dh. like 3 dollars !!!! that is insanity #but anyway also there is the dilemma of self harm being cringe after a certain age ( if it is not for a performance that is ) ... #however i never did that when i was sad it just felt like a good Release sort of like bloodletting [lite...-er version] #whenever i felt a big emotion like fear disgust ( especially disgust ) i just released it out & it warmed me up it felt good #if music was being played it was nice guys finish last or accidentally in love nothing emo because i was never sad i was having a ball #anyway ever since then everytime december rolls around i think of that one post “Destroy Wrist December” #& i think maybe this time... not yet so far. i am ♯Clean as they say