#GOD drug problems are so fucking common on my dads side it’ll disappoint him so much and it’ll give my mom one more thing to have a martyr

[that-jack-kline-bestie]

fuck I’m gonna die forever and ever and I don’t want to do that

#tw intrusive thoughts #I overdose ONCE and now I can’t stop remembering what it feels like when your heart stops beating #literally I can’t even sleep at night I’m terrified I’ll die in my sleep #like yeah okay heart problems from this drug are extremely rare and you’d probably notice symptoms before it turned fatal if it ever did/ #/get life-threatening #but fuckkkkk if that helps much #I just want an ekg or something but my parents would know and it’d be so expensive and plus I’d have to explain that I stole my moms new/ #/meds as soon as I heard she got them and then I’d have to explain that I have had a bit more of a drug problem than they know about and/ #/GOD drug problems are so fucking common on my dads side it’ll disappoint him so much and it’ll give my mom one more thing to have a martyr/ #/complex about bc she’s just ‘so stressed’ man youre the one who didnt notice i was so high i could barely walk straight for a goddamn year #fuck #anyway