#'don't dismiss what i'm saying/doing. stop flaunting your strength at me/hurting me for no reason.'

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Eunyung and stealing

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Eunyung had never stolen anything before the first time he was accused of it, after running away the first time. He didn't steal those headphones, yet still got beaten up for it.

His dad didn't even let him explain himself before starting to hit him. Only afterwards did EY get the chance to say he didn't do it so his dad could hear, who ofc didn't care enough to believe him. Instead of trusting him or at least listening to him, he asked EY to apologize for sth he didn’t do and just get the whole thing over with.

^^ Here, EY was caught off guard by his dad's "gentleness" (<- not hitting him) when he leaned down and whispered to him (hence the small blush above). To me, it seems like he had a sliver of hope that his dad would be nice to him for once. But the gentleness vanished quickly as his dad then proceeded shaming and guilt-tripping him into apologizing (hence the blush below).

That tactic didn't work bc EY knows how unfair the thing he's being asked to do is. He knows he's innocent bc he really didn't steal anything. When he refused and insisted he really didn't do it, his dad pulled the "I'm so disappointed in you. You never change"-card.

Now, that tactic worked. In the end he just gave in and apologized as told in order to avoid more conflict and finally get out of that uncomfortable situation -> Something like resignation

(^^ This also ties into why EY was so upset with HJ's words during Thanksgiving's arc -> he hates the idea that he can't change and will stay like this forever. That's also a reason why he apologized despite being innocent -> EY wanted to prove his dad wrong: He can change. He can be something other than a disappointment not worth anyone's time.)

The guy who actually did it got away with it and EY got made fun of for being stupid enough to take the blame. He sought out the guy to take revenge bc he knew there'd be no other type of justice for someone like him.

His dad’s actions that day (wrongly accusing and forcing EY to take the blame) is what pushed him to try stealing -> If he was going to suffer the consequences anyway, he should at least benefit from it somehow by actually stealing sth and profit from whatever he stole. That way the accusation would at least be valid.

That day, EY learned to seek justice by himself because no one else would; and he learned to steal. He started stealing in his first year of middle school, one month after running away from home for the first time. All because of his dad. EY never had a father, he had the opposite of a role model -> he knew what he did not want to be.

#<EY's dad taught him to steal. EY never had anyone in his corner standing up for him. Ey did NOT want to be like his dad.> #this is again the 'growing into the role everyone around you gives you' #if you run away and are homeless people will expect you to engage in criminal behavior and steal things you need #<- you've already been assigned that role/label. #if people will assume and treat you like you're a criminal no matter what you do (and therefore suffer the consequences of said assumption) #you have nothing to lose. if you actually start stealing. nothing will change and no one would be surprised #your reputation will stay the same. however. this time you'll at least have the headphones you took when no one was looking to enjoy. #'everyone already thinks i'm a delinquent. might as well. why not? especially if i'm going to get sth out of it' #<- i'm trying to explain his thought process i hope it makes some sense #(guess what my major and minor are. i bet u won't get it right) #also if you look at how ey's dad treats and talks to him. you can see exactly where his issues with some of hj's words stem from: #'don't say i can't change. don't look at me like i'm trash or not worth your time.' #'don't dismiss what i'm saying/doing. stop flaunting your strength at me/hurting me for no reason.' #<- to name a few #no home #no home manhwa #meta #stealing arc #multipart #집이 없어 #webtoon #eunyung baek #ey hj parallels