#(I wouldn’t pay that much on badges at least xD)

[yuikomorii]

// When I say I’m afraid of Ayato stans, THIS is what I mean:

And yes, all of these were posted today, which makes me even more shocked. 😀😀

#admin #(my chances of getting the Ayato merch I want are getting lower and lower) #(good for his fans though) #(I wouldn’t pay that much on badges at least xD) #(most of these aren’t even rare—)

[thepastyitalian-blog]

Roamin’ around Roma

Ahh I finally made it to ROME! The quintessential Italian city! To sum it up in 3 words: crowded, old, and green. Wow, that doesn’t sound too appealing does it? Sorry, lemme explain...

Rome was extremely crowded, and it didn't help that we were there over the weekend I’m sure. With the Vatican closed on Sundays, we went there saturday to start off. But not before having tiramisu Friday night :) of course it was delicious! Seeing a pattern? Anyway, the Vatican trip has an interesting story. So normally, you are supposed to book tickets online with a time slot to get in. We waited too long, and had to wait in line instead. The place was flooded with “tour guides” trying to get money from us to skip the line. They used every trick in the book to try and get us to give them our money. Some dressed in business suits, some had lanyards and ID badges (but they were blank or just had a picture of them.. nothing official or legit), and one lady even pointed to where her “office” was, saying she worked for the Vatican. Later on, we walked over to the building she pointed to.. it was a bookstore.. -__- good thing we didn't pay her. Also, she told us we would wait “at least 2.5 hours in the line”. Then she said it would be “centuries” until we got into the Vatican. Guess how long the line was? Go on, just guess. 25 minutes HAHAHA! Which was a good thing because we stood in that line during what was hands down the worst storm I have ever been in. By the time I finally bought a poncho off of these guys in the street, I was already soaked beyond belief. My shoes squeaked for hours inside the Vatican which, once we finally got in, was beautiful. But still SO CROWDED. Like Disney World at Christmas times 10 crowded. Yeah. seriously. And much like many other highly religious places, we could not take pictures inside the Sistine Chapel. We couldn't talk either, or a man on a microphone came on to say “SILENCE...thank you”. All of the history inside was amazing, and many of it was not even behind protective glass, which was odd to see. The museum is ginormous, by the way. Absolutely worth seeing. 

The Colosseum was the main reason I wanted to see Rome. It, along with all of the ancient Roman ruins were spectacular. It’s a wonder they are still standing, let alone preserved so well over thousands and thousands of years. It is neat to think about all of the history that happened right where you are standing. The same goes for the whole country, but this is just so in your face historic. As expected, it was also super crowded, and many people tried to convince us the line was much longer than it was and to pay more. The inside is much bigger than it seems on the outside! There are several levels, the highest of which cost more money (capitalism!), so we stuck with the lower ones. After being appalled by the ones in the Vatican, I half expected gift shops all around once inside but there weren’t. Perhaps one day I’ll come back and see the upper levels, but I wouldn’t say I missed out only being on the first floor. 

In Rome we also got to see the Penguins hockey game at the Steeler Bar! Which would have been much more enjoyable if the game did not start at 2am, but hey that’s time zones for ya. I got to sign the Steeler flag so I was happy. We also saw the Trevi fountain, which I did not know existed until all the girls on the trip said we had to go because of the Lizzie McGuire movie... okay. But the sculptures on it were, like most art in this country, breathtaking. All in all, it was an amazing city that had quite a bit more greenery than I imagined. Not all stone and ruins, which was nice. Oh yeah, and this cheap restaurant we went to microwaved our pasta for lunch.. we were not impressed xD. And I also saw a groot tree, which was fun. 

[super-rainbows]

mtnbrvewwdd

Ethan: @.Jamie: Sorry.

Jamie: It’s okay, don’t worry. I don’t mind or anything. Oh, also, I’m glad we got to watch Digimon today! Do you think there’s any more episodes out, or was that it?

Ethan: That was probably it, I think, but I can check.

Rainbow: can we read Neverworld?

Ethan: Yeah. I need to figure out how to make the replace rules apply to the lower part of the lexc thing.

Rainbow: oh! lower! use the slashes instead of the lines!

Ethan: You’re right! Thank you so much! <3 I think it worked! I’m not sure if it worked for every word, but maybe I messed something up. Either way, this is the closest I’ve gotten it to working so far!

Rainbow: glad I could help! we have to read Neverworld now, right? lol

Ethan: I guess. :P

Rainbow: anyway, are you okay?

Ethan: Yeah. Well, ish. &%. Also I don’t see why this person only wants to see me for 6 weeks. How am I meant to solve anything/everything in such a short amount of time? And isn’t the whole point of going to somewhere where I pay them that they can’t just kick me out after a certain amount of time?

Rainbow: I don’t know. I think it’s that he wants to like reevaluate it after 6 weeks, though.

Ethan: I’m trying to remember what he said about the piq thing and I can’t.

Rainbow: he said if you told him piq’s name then he’d be obligated to report it but that it probably wouldn’t go anywhere because of everything (that he was so young, it was 8 years ago, that the people who deal with that stuff are busy apparently, etc) and said that reports never really get anywhere unless it’s a “very serious case abuse” and that might’ve been the phrasing that upset you? but you were already upset by the time he got to that part, I think. you were also upset because of the number of times you said “sexual assault” out loud. well done for like describing it out loud, btw.

Ethan: It just hurts. I wouldn’t consider it an accomplishment to say it out loud. I want to cry. I don’t know why it hurts when it’s so insignificant.

Rainbow: obviously it’s not insignificant if it hurts you this much. it wasn’t insignificant anyway.

Ethan: Maybe that’s why he only wants to see me for 6 weeks; I’m not worth anything else and it’s such a small and insignificant “trauma” that it barely warrants therapy.

Rainbow: ... do you wanna go to bed? or at least stop looking in the trauma tags.

Ethan: You don’t look in the trauma tags.

Rainbow: -_- I mean, yeah, but still. anyway are you okay?

Ethan: Not really. I feel awful and want to scream and cry.

Jamie: If you’re insistent on taking caffeine pills, only take like two, and take them now. 

Jamie: That may not have been the best idea.

Ethan: I don’t care.

Jamie: Well, okay. Try and sleep soon though, okay? You have to be up at 8 tomorrow, as opposed to 10.

Ethan: Tragic. I don’t even want to go on an Erasmus. But I guess it’s good to have a meeting and information about it.

Rainbow: isn’t some deadline for it the 15th of February?

Ethan: Oh yeah. Maybe I’ll get my mum to contact the psychiatrist somehow to see if he can send me a letter saying I shouldn’t do it, before then. Unless we’re allowed opt out.

Rainbow: lol “I’m too autistic and mentally ill for this”

Ethan: Well like, where would I get testosterone and epilim? How would I get testosterone injections? I’d miss Loughlinstown appointments, and they like kicking you out of their system if you miss one (supposedly), and I’d be unable to access any kind of mental health services for a year, pretty much. I would be willing to make a reasonable attempt to work around this if the exchange thing was necessary, but it’s really not. While the French and German people would be improving their language, if anything, I’d be dis-improving Irish because I’d be in Scotland. I know it’s turning down a chance at independence, but it’s just too much and too difficult. I know you were kinda joking, but I really feel like I am too autistic and mentally ill to go abroad by myself for an entire year.

Rainbow: the main joking part was the phrasing, really. just ‘cause like, if they give you the option to opt out what would you even say? the trans thing actually seems like your best excuse if you aren’t in like committed therapy by that time.

Ethan: But I most likely could or would be, anyway. And I can’t be like “I can’t go abroad, I’m trans” because that’s kind of a weak excuse, it sounds ridiculous, and I also don’t want to tell people that.

Rainbow: you literally have multiple badges on your bag saying that exact thing. you are so blatant about it.

Ethan: Yeah, but still. Oh, the person today, “so when did you transform?”

Rainbow: XD yeah that is fucking awful phrasing. can you report him for being stupid or something? just ‘cause they are specifically meant to be able to handle trans people.

Ethan: I don’t mind too much, since he didn’t try to focus excessively on it or anything. But he seemed confused by the idea that “trans” isn’t a gender of its own/that I could be “male” and “trans” at the same time. Like ???

Rainbow: also I like how you’re like “I’m going to avoid letting him know that I have bpd” but then pretty much everything you say is just referencing bpd symptoms, lol

Ethan: No, I’m willing to reference the symptoms, obviously, I just don’t want him to know that I have that specific diagnosis.

Rainbow: ALSO next time I fucking swear since you already mentioned me and Jamie, would you fucking explain it properly please?

Ethan: Yeah, I’ll try.

Rainbow: I know you’re terrified of making any claims that we’re anything beyond “imaginary friends” but seriously

Ethan: I’ll mention that when I dissociate sufficiently you “sub in” for me and then I only remember things blurrily. But I just don’t want him to think I’m exaggerating or lying.

Rainbow: yeah, I know. but every single person you mention any of this to, you always understate it like hell. like, that’s the complete opposite of exaggerating. you could do with stating it clearly and bluntly just once.

Ethan: Wow, I feel weird.

Rainbow: caffeine pills probably really weren’t a good idea. I know you feel emotionally awful, but :/ Ethan no, don’t look him up on facebook. seriously.

Ethan: ...

Rainbow: don’t make yourself sad, niceness, please.

Ethan: Will you be sad?

Rainbow: I won’t be like, disappointed in you or anything, don’t worry. just :/

Ethan: Hmm. It doesn’t feel like anything.

Rainbow: lol. maybe you exhausted all your feelings? though I think it’s more like, you just don’t notice. anyway, I order you to go to bed.

Ethan: Fine.

#imaginary friends