#(yea I'm projecting w that last bit but hear me out)

[theearnestonion]

vent/rant ahead, especially in the tags:

I don't think I'll ever get people who scorn subcultures popular with teens, like emo, goth, scene, punk & whatever else. emo seems to get Extra distain.

Like, come on dude. All this vitriol toward something that makes people happy, and what for? Something that makes young people exploring who they are feel confident & secure & validated? Something at might have made You happy once? And what fucking for? Because you have put the weight of your hatred of your past self or some specific shitheads you knew as a kid on everyone else's shoulders? On Teenagers' shoulders?? fuck you.

#rant tw #vent tw #this isn't even directed at anyone I can think of. #just saw an ad where a woman eating a vegan snack bar is confronted by her emo/scene 16 y/o self. and it was sort of mocking of teenagers #with the ''you don't understand me >:('' thing. and its like #yes. teens feel misunderstood. because of Shit Like This. someone frustrated with growing up & becoming aware of all the bad shit in the #whole fucking world. the limitation of their station in life after being told they could be anything #(yea I'm projecting w that last bit but hear me out) #ESPECIALLY kids with unaddressed mental health issues. WILL FEEL FUCKING MISUNDERSTOOD #BECAUSE THEY /ARE/ MISUNDERSTOOD. #being young is HARD no matter what fucking adults tell you. middle school is Hard. Highschool is Hard. #Life Is Hard. stop mocking literal kids for finding joy individuality confidence or an outlet for negative emotions. #dealing with frustration anger sadness & loneliness through fashion instead of self-destructive behaviors is HEALTHY you chucklekfucks #and if you teach young people that their likes & interests & outlets are Bad & Embarrassing they WILL find other outlets. ones that might #not be as healthy as poofy scene-kid emo-swoop hair and combat boots & big-ass winged eyeliner #anyways cringe culture is dead. not because ''don't be mean to people uwu'' but because making Children feel like they are stupid #for their likes and interests is Middleschool Bully Tier Shit #(altho "don't be mean to people uwu'' is also a Reasonable Thing. not wanting people to be assholes to u is a pretty standard human trait) #and making Kids feel like they can't have their own healthy emotional outlets like style and music Will push them to more private & #more destructive ones. #let Kids be themselves & explore '''embarrassing''' subcultures that make them feel safe & understood. #let Teens be themselves & explore '''embarrassing''' subcultures that make them feel safe & understood. #let Adults be themselves & explore '''embarrassing''' subcultures that make them feel safe & understood. #and fuck everyone else. #cringe culture is dead #anyways I'm big mad how bout ya'll

[natsbaby]

You're such an idiot

Pairing: Scarlett Johansson x Fem!Reader

Summary: Y/N, a struggling actress, and Scarlett are co-stars in a movie directed by a mutual friend and you never realized how much your heart can beat for someone as much as you do with Scarlett. (IM SORRY IM BAD AT SUMMARIES)

Warnings: a LITTLE angsty, maybe if you squint, drinking of fake alcohol, maybe my bad writing ☠️

Word Count: ~1.9K I think

A/N: Scarlett's not an A-List actor here so think of this as around 2010 or pre MCU time! oh and If you know Drinking Buddies, this is inspired from that campfire scene <3 this is my first time writing in a really long time so I'm sorry if it's not that good but I hope you enjoy this lowkey angst w happy ending thing!

"Why am I so unlucky in life?" You let out a frustrated groan as you flop down on the little couch in your movie trailer, feeling the frustration rise the more you think about her.

You're a struggling and upcoming actor, trying to get by day-by-day with pilot episodes from television shows and short films here and there. You've hit a roadblock when your latest short film didn't push through due to the director's financial problems and had no choice but to cancel the project all together. After your director friend heard about this revelation during those "once in a blue moon" lunches, he pitched a movie that he plans to film with some lowkey actors and you thought it would be fun.

The movie is about a group of friends coming together for a wedding and they catch up the night before the wedding after not seeing each other in so long. You play as one of the best friends of the person getting married who has a major lowkey crush on her. By chance, this person is the one and only Scarlett Johansson who you just can't help but short circuit the moment you met her months prior. I mean, how can you not think about this gorgeous woman who you have grown to be really close with this past few months from pre production to filming.

You've honestly done so well with hiding your growing feelings for Scarlett until one day at one of the last table reads. You were reading through one of the more emotionally demanding scenes in the film where your character, Cathy, is sitting in front of a camp fire with Scarlett's character, Kelly, and professing your love for her. Apparently, she would feel the same way because Scarlett's character would kiss you at the end.

It's a really nice scene but also really bad for the weak of heart aka you. Now here you are, trying to calm your nerves knowing what's going to happen in the next scene.

"God if you can hear me, help me please. All I want is one day without my heart jumping out of my chest" You say up to your ceiling as you massage your temples in slow circles while continuing to try and calm your heart down a little longer.

You hear a knock on the door as the production assistant tells you that you have 5 minutes till the next scene. You thank her and say you're on the way as you get up from your spot. You walk to the door to open it, but stopped as it opens on its own revealing the familiar blonde you've grown to love these past months.

"Come on, let's get this show on the road" Scarlett says as she gives you that charming little smile that makes your heart flutter.

"Yea let's go" you say back with a nervous smile and head to set with her.

As you two arrive on set, both you and Scarlett cant help but feel at awe at how amazing of a job the set department did. The cabin the producers rented out for the scene has a beachfront that has a gorgeous view of the sea. The full moon is out with the stars scattered out, decorating the sky to match the beach. It's been decked out to look like a campfire party with some logs laid down as chairs around the camp fire, and honestly it looks unnecessarily more romantic than you expected.

You start to grow a lot a bit more nervous for the scene. It seems like Scarlett noticed because you suddenly feel her hand, softly holding your own and give it a gentle squeeze and a small smile of encouragement.

"It's gonna be alright, just another day at work right?" She comforts you with a smile. You smile back and reciprocated the hand squeeze and get to positions. You start to close your eyes and mentally get into the zone, quickly going through what you have to say.

What you didn't know is while doing that, Scarlett is watching you with a small smile on her face. She looks away however when you open your eyes and you both hear the director starting to get ready with the crew.

"Alright you two, we'll start filming the confession scene after I call action. Do you two need anything before we start?" The director inquires. You both shake your heads no, allowing the director to call action.

"I cant believe you're getting married tomorrow with your college boyfriend" you say as your character to Scarlett.

You're both sitting down side by side on the log bench in front of the campfire and holding a beer bottle each. Scarlett hums in agreement while watching the crackling of the burning wood in front of her with her head resting on the palm of her hand, her elbow resting on her thigh. You cant help but notice how gorgeous she looks with the orange-yellow hue reflecting on her face.

"It's weird honestly. I love Derek, but I can't help but feel the time fly by. It was like yesterday when we would just be staying in on a Friday night watching the horrible romcoms you love so much and now years later, we're here" she lets out a sigh as she turns her head to face you and gives you a sad smile. You pause for a moment, pretending to think for a bit.

"Maybe it is the nerves, but it's part of life you know. Everyone grows old eventually, even though you don't look like a day after 20. Seriously, what's your secret?" You laugh as Scarlett leans back from her position and laughs with you.

"Do you remember how in uni when we were roommates, you would always sneak out to meet Derek and I'd have to cover your ass while you two were still private about dating" you ask her and she rolls her eyes a little while smiling.

"Hey in my defense, Derek was the one that wanted to keep it private for some time before we tell other people" she pouts as you take a sip of your fake beer and putting it down on the sand.

"Yea but who decided it would be a great idea to go skinny dip at the school fountain as a dare from his frat buddies" you both laugh at the memory and you smile at her.

"What?" She looks at you curiously.

"Why did we ever grow apart after uni? We were so close before you know, until one day you just stopped replying to my messages. Thought I was going insane" you sadly reveal, making Scarlett stay quiet for some time thinking of what to say next.

"It wasn't my choice you know" she starts as she shifts in her seat, settling to sit down on the sand instead of the log and you follow her movements, sitting on the sand as well.

"I needed time away from everyone after Derek and I broke up in graduation. After spending a few months off the grid and exploring the world a little bit, I ended up meeting Derek in a small town outside London. I didn't plan on talking to him again, but he wanted to have some drinks with me. We ended up talking the entire night and eventually led to today." She explains as you listen to her. You cant help but feel for what's happening now and feel really sad.

"I wanted to text you, you know" You give Scarlett a sad smile.

"Really?" She asks softly.

"I really wanted to ask how you are, be there for you. I was worried that something had happen to you, but Anna told me that you, at the time, called her saying you're doing well and met with Derek. I thought I just wasted my already non-existing chance with you." You lean your head back to rest in the log so you can look up at the stars. As you get deeper into your character, you cant help but suddenly go out of script surprising everyone including Scarlett.

"Whenever you would hang out with him, I would feel like something isn't right. At first, I thought it was me being jealous because of your attention to him. We used to hang out a lot, remember? Movie nights on Fridays and breakfast on Sundays, but it all changed when you got together with him." You think back to the pre-production stage how you and Scarlett would hang out before table reads as a way of bonding as she'd love to put it.

The both of you would go to Scarlett's place and eat waffles before heading out, or would watch a trashy movie just to relax after a long day from work. It all stopped the moment she started dating Ryan Reynolds.

"I had an idea that we'd drift apart eventually because of life after university but, I didn't realize it would start a lot sooner." You turn your head a little to look at Scarlett who's looking at you with an expression you can't seem to read.

"Cathy-" she starts but you cut her off.

"I missed how we would drop everything the moment we went through the door to our room and be in our own little world. I don't blame you though, I can tell you're happy with Derek and I'm happy for you. You deserve all the happiness in the world, even if it means I'm not in it" your voice cracks a little at the end as you start to feel your emotions starting to rise and you look back up at the stars, praying you don't start crying.

"I thought I was going insane at what I'm feeling without realizing that the moment you left campus on graduation day would also be the last time I saw you, with my heart in your hands. I should have told you sooner about this, I know and I'm sorry. I should have done something because things might change, but here we are under this beautiful night sky the night before your wedding" you chuckle a little to yourself as you lift your head up for the first time, a tear rolling down your cheek. You wipe it away with the sleeve of the flannel you're wearing while looking down and away from Scarlett.

Scarlett starts to tear up as she starts to understand what's going on. After she started dating Ryan, you both stopped hanging out because she'd always go on dates with him. At first, you didn't mind, but you only realized you have feelings for her the less time you spent together. You bring your knees up to your chest as you look down at your hands over your knees, fiddling with your fingers before continuing.

"Derek is lucky to have you, he's lucky to have this woman in his life who is so selfless, witty, but also hardworking and so caring to everyone around her. I have a lot of regrets in my life but I only realized now that a lot of those regrets are with you. It's probably really selfish of me for telling you all this now, on the night before your wedding but I can't handle more regrets. I-" you get cut off from your thoughts with Scarlett muttering a soft "dammit" while reaching out to hold your cheek with her hand and turning your to the side with her finger as she kisses you.

You close your eyes as you suddenly feel fireworks rupture deep in your chest with your mind growing fuzzy as you kiss her back, feeling her tears rolling down her cheeks. The salty taste but warm feeling mingling into the kiss making you fall deeper in love with the woman in front of you. You feel Scarlett moving her hand from your cheek to the back of your neck to pull you closer, feeling her heart beat hard against yours in perfect symphony.

You pull back just enough to break the kiss but not so much that you couldn't rest your forehead against hers, the both of you panting a bit from the intensity of the kiss. You open your eyes to see her deep green eyes looking back at you.

"You're such an idiot" she says softly as she pulls back further, smiling at you with adoration and maybe even love as the director yells cut.

#scarlett johansson #scarlett johansson x reader #scarlett johansson imagines #celebrity oneshots #x reader oneshots #I cant believe I just wrote something #honestly think I'm insane for doing this but oh well #natasha romanoff x reader #oooo I should do a natasha one next 👀