#.crowntheclown

[rkmason]

[IDOL CAFE] ⅓MC ; SEPT. CHRONICLES PART TWO

it’s honestly some weird twist of fate, right? wrong. it can’t be a mere coincidence. within his first month of becoming an mc for a spop channel segmant, the guests happen to be convex members. talk about yikes. half the time, minho is convinced they’re not allowed to mention him in interviews or anything public really. to cross paths like this? more directly than the brief cross-interaction during the mgas where they at least stood on the same stage again, he can’t wrap his mind around a single centimeter— no, millimeter even— of it. 

samsung sure knows how to pick them. if anything, the scheduling team or whoever picked the members to make an appearance on the show. a majority being the original members and two of the same unit that he was in. two unit leaders. hell, the group leader and a new member he’s seen quite a lot in their social updates and other articles. he’s grown quite popular since joining convex and minho is happy to see all of it. he just wasn’t aware he was allowed to witness any of it from this close. 

in the days leading up to filming the segment, he’s unable to focus, to pick even a theme or a base flavor to start with. his mind goes everywhere and anywhere to distract himself from what’s going to be right in front of him. 

actually, saying who would be more accurate. 

chocolate? milk tea? sehun would like those, wouldn’t he? hoseok prefers teas and seungcheol... ah... he doesn’t think of preferences there. not even for hyun. there’s a slim chance he can figure out what link likes too. but he can think of one thing, even if that member isn’t part of the group anymore either. a certain type of tea or hot cocoa made to comfort them all at late hours of night if they needed it, when they needed it.  though it’s not that cold yet, maybe a warm drink would be best. once everyone is on set, he sure as hell hopes so or he’s about to spill things all over himself or his cards or, worse, a co-host or one of the convex members. 

#rkspop:sep20 #.crowntheclown

[michaeldimotta]

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[rkmason]

[IDOL CAFE] ⅓MC ; SEPT. CHRONICLES PART ONE 

thankfully, he has two co-hosts to bounce ideas off of, to rely on, because, truth be told, when left on his own minho just might digress so much that the guests never get to try the drinks. alright, a bit of an exaggeration but, hey, it is him after all. after the first day of learning of the segment he was going to be part of, he went deep into the black hole of just what is a drink.

from the chemistry behind certain types to how different containers can enhance the flavor. he’s never gonna be able to aerate some wine to bring onto the show but he’d be damned if he didn’t understand the concept of it by now after getting lost in youtube on that same topic. just how many drink related videos did he watch? pretty sure he lost count after the first five. as his brother likes to joke, math isn’t his forte and he gets bored as soon as it seems like he’ll need a calculator or to write out each step as a so-called ‘explanation.’ great, math is conceptual and all that but, come on teach, if we both get the idea, why do i have to prove it to you? what kind of relationship can be established with a lack of trust— that certainly never flied in school but damn how he used to try. 

the experience itself reminds him of when he was new in seoul, barely knew most kinds of alcohol beyond traditional beer and how things changed the more he went out, partied, got to know people in the city. he felt like a tourist back then, which is rich considering he used to be a tour guide in sydney, but now he’s right at home. he does just that— makes himself perfectly comfortable— going up to his co-hosts to ask their strategies and ideas. 

okay, maybe he’s scoping out the ‘competition’ but, mostly, he wants to know if they’re just as excited as he is. whether his drink wins today or not, he’s practically dancing in place with the way he moves excitedly back and forth on his feet, facial expressions just as animated as his hand gestures. 

#rkspop:sep20 #.crowntheclown

[rkmason]

flower party

he isn’t too sure of how he got one on his own. in passing makes sense but you’d think he’d remember when someone handed him a lei. did he accept one earlier? did he take it from chanyeol who got it somehow? yeah, that seems most likely to be honest. either way, the colorful flowers of the lei are more realistic than the ones he used to see as a kid. looks fancier too and odds are he shouldn’t just randomly have it. hell, he wonders if someone brought it in particular for someone else. 

if he could, he would’ve done that for naeun but distance is needed and he can’t risk it as much as he did before, not when he got tied to a royal girl before and it hits a little too close to home. 

debating looking for chanyeol again, which wouldn’t be hard considering he’s got ‘bruce,’ minho changes his mind once he spots yeji, walking up to her with a wave in greeting. “hey! so, i’ve given you flowers before but... want this lei? i think it’d look much better on you.” 

#yejirk #.flowerparty #.crowntheclown #rkjuly20eval

[rkmason]

pour up

@hyunark

it’d been his own idea, to offer to run to the nearest convenience store for some drinks or snacks. [originally, he wanted to say ice cream but the chances of that melting by the time he can sneak into the building and make it back up to the practice room stresses him out more than he thought it would, if only because he’d feel bad if any melted before the others.] he’s got his head ducked down, counting the number of drinks again and wondering why he only made a mental list instead of jotting anything down, even if just in the notes app of his phone. too confident, he tsks at his own ego, chuckling because he suddenly thinks of high school again. how he’d do the same thing and end up buying extra drinks just in case anyway. it made him happy regardless, especially if someone ended up taking more than one drink because they liked it or want to. a few laughs here and there whenever someone changed their mind for a different drink he bought for some variety. 

he’s just about to look up, bring his focus back to the path in front of him when he accidentally brushes against someone. “oh shit, my bad,” turning to them immediately, minho holds up a hand in both apology and in case he has to reach out to steady them or calm them. the latter hopefully isn’t the case but, hey, you never know these days. “oh damn, sorry i didn’t mean to curse,” though . . . damn is also questionable but he lets it slide for now, wetting his lips and pressing the hand he had up against the nape of his neck. “wait, aw man, you’re even a sunbae, right?” because he swears she’s familiar... “i’m so sorry ‘bout that. i should’ve looked where i was going. you good?” 

#hyunark #.pourup #.crowntheclown

[rkmason]

treasure

@rkheejin

he does his best to silence the clatter of the lunch tray when he sets it down, hand underneath the edge of the tray as he grins when he sits down next to heejin. ‘course he could’ve asked first but she seems to be sitting alone for now and he’s impatient, itching to ask her a question since he heard the song and wanted to cover it. whether it’s for an evaluation or not, he’s been wanting to work with her in a studio since the mgas ended, since their team was split up and their paths somehow still led to them being in the same company. 

truthfully, there was an entire list of songs he’d love to hear heejin sing, himself involved or not, and he thinks he owes it all to the uniqueness of her voice, to his faith in her talent, to the amount of skill she’s learned despite her age. his admiration for her knows no bounds and it’s carried in the curl of his smile, how the corners of his eyes soften when he looks at her. affection like this isn’t new to him but he does realize she’s one of the few females to receive it, especially a younger one. the other one that comes to mind is one he childishly calls broccoli head all the time. “mind if i sit with you today? i gotta say it might mean a wild chanyeol might appear. i suggest you get some great balls or mega balls if you wanna catch him before he tries to catch you first.” because trc trainees as pokemon masters or pokemon themselves? man, he’d love to see that. 

#rkheejin #.treasure #.crowntheclown

[rkmason]

chocolate

@rkxjongsuk

he’s not the biggest fan of snacks during training. at least, not unless it’s a fruit, but there’s just some days. some days where he feels the need overwhelm him, beating out logic, and somehow he ends up finding himself with a packet of some random snack in hand, offering it to the closest trainee once there’s no staff or coaches in sight. today, it happens to be jongsuk and the snack happens to be one of his latest obsessions. it’s a childhood favorite that’s found its way back into the pantry at home, a small packet taken out and stolen away from the secret stash whenever he craves chocolate.

at first, he’d been laying on his stomach on the practice room floor, bag next to him before he rolls over, onto his back, packet held up high to reach jongsuk as he grins, “want some? if you’re not a fan of chocolate, i’ll take note of it for next time but i can tell ya that even people who don’t like chocolate seem to like pocky. so what do ya say?” though if the answer is no, hey, more for him. 

#rkxjongsuk #.chocolate #.crowntheclown #tw: food

[rkmason]

t-rex friend

admittedly, he struggled with who to tell in trc first. his team members from the mgas that were signed into trc then. his coaches. the t-rex friend the scout seemed to enjoy mentioning to him who was, coincidentally, the current trc trainee minho’s known the longest. as much as he’d like to run up on him and yell, he doubts cursing in the hallways while jumping on the star trainee from the previous end of the year show is what anyone had in mind when deciding to sign him. 

he’d love to know what ultimately sealed that decision in or turned the tables. mostly, he wishes he could ask why not, why the dinosaur favortism. a guy’s just curious. he thinks the situation calls for it, to be quite frank. if only he could drag a dinosaur costume in too... again, doesn’t seem like the best way to start the day and make a first impression. 

instead, he’s got his clown wig again and a bright red nose to match, just waiting to make his final approach after he hears back from chanyeol. 

[ OUTGOING MSG 📲  : hitmonchan  ] • • • 💬 hey trc is in yongsan right?  • • • 💬 the guys are filming a scene here and i figured i ought’a bring you something from halloween   • • • 💬 you already inside trc or you good to meet up for a second? 

#rkpcy #.trex #.crowntheclown

[rkmason]

like a flower

comparatively, it feels easier to find jinsoul, especially when his memory doesn’t fail him and he remembers that the younger female wasn’t just one of his coaches for the mgas but chanyeol’s cousin. then again, he didn’t think of naming everyone he knew in different companies. it wasn’t about that. in the words of one of his favorite contestants on a female only rap show, “this is a competition.” the pressure was definitely greater compared to the first time around and he was thankful the team had coaches to rely on. when he thinks about it, it makes sense that chanyeol and jinsoul are cousins. how he managed to forget, he has no clue but, then again, he hadn’t met her many times before. knowing of someone is different from actually meeting and recognizing them. it’s not the first time he’s failed to connect the dots in a big way. his talk with ahyoung not too long ago is his greatest reminder of that. 

either way, he feels more like a fool after asking chanyeol about her and if he might know where she is in the morning, whether she gets breakfast in the cafeteria or not, those kind of details. guess it’s only fitting since he tried to wear the clown wig again to mess with chanyeol mere minutes before going inside. spotting her in a crowd is easy too with what he considers her trademark blonde hair and a beaming smile like her older cousin’s. does it run in their family or what? “jinsoul-sunbae! special delivery,” he says jokingly. “ah, or should i wait until we’re outside?” the cafeteria might not have been the best place after all. 

#jinsoulrk #.likeaflower #.crowntheclown

[rkmason]

what if

@rkpcy

the theme of the eval was fun to him. originally, he’d been psyched, excited for one, laughing about the other every time an option was given to him. each one got more and more dramatic, to the point that it had minho rolling on the floor, howling in laughter. it was when he was alone that was the problem. he wondered, what if, and that’s a dangerous question for anyone to dwell on for long. questions like what if people thought he wanted to leave convex because of the concept, all jokes about bling bling ball aside, what if people thought he wanted to leave sphere for that reason. compliments that he suits trc, that he fits in, that the concept of the company matches him well, they make him happy. ‘course they do, but does it look like he’s saying screw you to the concepts of companies like sphere and nova because he’s no longer there? 

he misses the old days, the old version of him that didn’t think of these things, that didn’t have to, the version of choi minho that just had fun and lived day by day. was that no longer part of him? what if, what if. the words haunt him and he’s glad for the distraction once chanyeol shows up at the company. normally they cross paths earlier than this, minho taking the route similar to chanyeol’s but today he’d arrived too early, wanting to drown his thoughts in anything else. but maybe he shouldn’t for once, so instead, as soon as chanyeol’s close enough, he’s asking, “hey, so, uh, what do ya think if it really happened? you know, the whole debut with a concept you don’t like. how would you feel?” 

#rkpcy #.whatif #.crowntheclown

[rkmason]

                                            IF YOU ARE HAPPY AND YOU KNOW IT ˟                                                               (       CLAP YOUR HANDS YO IN THIS BEAT       )

it’s not even the first day of the camp by the time minho realizes it’s his first performance with everyone in a group. in november, he came in too late to join them for the busking performances and december had been about acting. yeah, this month is the true test of whether or not he can fit in anymore. the issue of age came up during the mgas, sure, but he realizes again just how much older he is. there’s chanyeol too but chanyeol hasn’t debuted and left a group before.

then again, he realizes he was wary about his age even when he was in nova. there is always someone younger and potentially better and he didn’t think that got to him in the past.

this is also his chance to leave that all behind, to simply be choi minho, trc trainee hoping to debut. there’s no again, or who knows when, but he only wishes to hold onto the desperation, the eagerness, the strength to continue each day. whenever he talks to one of the guys, especially when he talks to chanyeol or doyum, he realizes being inside the company walls aren’t so restricting, so confining. they’re locked up from 5am til midnight most days but he’s haopy.

when he mouths that particular line, he feels like a child again, wanting to clap his hands enthusiastically because he is. he is.

not surprisingly, he thinks of mijoo, of how she tells him to do whatever he wants as long as it makes him happy, and, as he takes a sip of water before they get started on the evaluation day, he thinks of that in particular, thinks this does make him happy.

part of him wants to know the specific moment he fell in love with performing again after leaving convex, after walking away with the most remorse he’s felt in his life, mourning what could’ve been and what won’t because of his mistakes. he wants to pinpoint the moment he decided he’s still allowed to want this, to dream, to act, to perform freely. the other part of him knows: it’s never truly a choice or one moment.

no, it’s his entire life.

#rkjan20eval #.crowntheclown #rkpcy #rkdoyum #rkcheri #bc mentioned! #yODELS BC I WOKE UP FROM AN ACCIDENTAL NAP WITH 20 MIN LEFT TO WRITE #surprisingly this got deeper than i wanted for being in a rush #me: minho don't go emo on me rn wtf

[rkmason]

                           LET’S HAVE NO REGRETS WHEN TODAY HAS GONE BY  ˟                                         SO THAT TIME CAN’T TEAR US APART,                                   (       SO THAT THIS MOMENT CAN BE ETERNAL    )

when it comes to ultimately deciding on what to do for the month, minho’s relieved he has chanyeol to rely on. relieved he has someone to rely on at all. there’s something about being able to decide their own groups that makes him feel uneasy this time around and he realizes, too, that this is his first evaluation back with a song performance that isn’t arranged or chosen beforehand.

it’s more pressure than it should be and it’s all in his head. he quickly psychs himself out and doesn’t tell a soul, even when chanyeol asks him what skill he’s considering showing this month. part of him doesn’t know what to focus on anymore. this isn’t a dance-focused eval and he doesn’t have as much confidence in his voice for idol rapping, which reminds him more and more of convex, of jokes about bling bling ball and texting euijin about the lines that somehow connected them.

when chanyeol tells him of the idea, he’s glad the lack of inspiration he has lately isonly affecting him, happy that chanyeol is going to sing more. truth be told, he thinks that chanyeol should’ve debuted by now. he can only imagine how much popularity his friend would give a new group in trc. then again, it is trc. immediate popularity is almost a necessity when it comes to debuting their groups. they don’t seem to allow anything less.

but speaking of singing and performances and the future, he doesn’t know if he has much space to be a main rapper again when there’s chanyeol and he wants that for his friend, believes chanyeol has more passion for rap than he ever has and he doesn’t know what he really specializes in anymore when he’s put more focus into singing over the past year. instead of taking his own advice to chanyeol, he thinks again about how he once debated a career as a backup dancer. it wasn’t impossible, wasn’t inconceivable, a viable option if anything but he knew better. he wants it all. singing, rapping, dancing. it’s only in that moment he does take what he told chanyeol for his own sake, that he doesn’t have to be limited, that he could do anything, and when he sings for their mentors, voice filling the auditorium with chanyeol’s, with the music, and the strums of his guitar, one part he has in particular stands out most and stays with him:

let’s have no regrets when today has gone by

#rkfeb20eval #.crowntheclown #rkpcy

[rkmason]

crown

he should’ve brought more flowers on his first that, that’s for sure. how it slipped his mind, minho isn’t sure but it was his belief that he ought to thank them first, especially when he felt like he didn’t properly do so the last time they met. the time together had been brief, more so than the time the trc team spent together, but it was a memory he wouldn’t soon forget. over the next few days, it’d taken him some time to get things together but he had more gifts ready. this time around, it was for the members of the trc team and yeji was his first target. 

during the trc team’s final stage, he and hyunggu had placed flower crowns of black roses on their heads. this time around, he wanted to commemorate the occasion with something else. he couldn’t be sure but at least it looked like she likes the color red at the least. a crown of gold hidden behind his back, adorned meticulously [read as he burnt himself a couple times with a borrowed glue gun and had no idea what he was doing but the end result was great and that’s all that really matters, right] with red roses, he quietly sneaks up behind her on the way to a dance workshop, whispering boo near her ear once she’s close enough. hopefully, she doesn’t scream but he wouldn’t mind either. what’s a treat without a trick? [wrong season but who cares] 

#rkyeji #.crown #.crowntheclown #sorry it's late!

[rkmason]

@rkevent: 

You receive a call in the middle of the afternoon and the voice on the other end should be one you already know by now. “Good afternoon, Choi Minho.” It’s the same man who scouted you in Zombie Night and followed you through your audition. “I speak in the name of TRC, and, after long consideration, we decided to offer you a contract under our company.” He makes a short pause to make sure you’re still paying attention before proceeding. “If you’re interested please stop by the TRC building in Yongsangu until the 25th to officially sign as a trainee. I hope to hear again from you soon.”

he expects to hear the sailor moon theme song or one of the songs in the show when by the time the voice on the other end of the phone says i speak in the name of trc and he guesses it’s fitting with the rumors, right? in the name of trc, i punish you. but maybe that’s a bit too soon to joke about it. rumors really oughta be ignored anyway, even if he technically left sphere because of them. all jokes aside, minho feels unexpectedly numb when he hears the words, because it doesn’t feel real, doesn’t seem real. 

slowly, he’s realizing that each time he thinks he’s already past this, about to move on with another goal in life, and explore his options all over again, he goes running back to chasing the same dream. that’s only fitting too. after all, isn’t it the same way he was about mijoo? deciding he could move on and realizing he can’t. he really is a one-track type of guy in the end. 

“the 25th? ah, no way it can be the 27th huh?” although he has to admit he’d consider signing after too because of a certain comeback on the 27th but does he really have room to complain? “do i bring my t-rex friend this time?” he asks with a cheeky grin even though the call is essentially over. speaking of though... how is he gonna sneak in to try and surprise the people he knows there? maybe he’ll take a page out of the scout’s book again. spy mode on. 

( OOC: Congratulations on being offered a contract! Everything you need to know regarding the trainee life can be found here. If you have additional questions, feel free to send asks to the rkevent blog or Mod Bianca on tumblr (@rkseungjoon)/twitter (@luvseungjoon) or Mod Gab on tumblr (@rkdoyexn)/twitter (@jindeukii)!

If your muse chooses to accept the offer, feel free to hop over to their new company’s blog and sign the contract. The choice is entirely yours to make, so think carefully before reaching a decision! You have until November 24th both IC and OOC. )

#rkzombiescout #.crowntheclown #aYYYY #submission

[rkmason]

flower shower

tracking down one of the idols in the company proves to be a harder task than expected. mostly because, for once, he feels a bit embarrassed to ask. a newly signed trainee considering asking where one of the newest idols in trc is? sounds like irreparable behavior, yet if he were only as shameless as he was in high school and even within the first few years that he moved to seoul— if only is as far as he gets. at the very least, he’s familiarizing himself with the building beyond the practice room they were given, beyond the tour he had taken in the past. that, too, feels like a few lifetimes ago. 

he fears the flowers will wilt soon and minho wonders if he should’ve gotten doyeon and jinsoul plants instead but that’s a longer type of commitment compared to trimming the stems and placing them in a vase. when he’s about to give up the chase for the time being— lunch only lasts for so long after all— he overhears someone gushing about seeing some of the k.arma members. hearing the name ‘doyeon’ practically gives him energy but the better word might be luck when he sees her himself, “doyeon-sunbae!” 

#rkdoyexn #.flowershower #.crowntheclown

[rkmason]

cf bf

it’s natural that chanyeol is one of the main trc trainees minho follows around. that’s for lack of a better word considering it’s more like one of them drags the other along depending on the situation and context. more often than not, the context is very necessary to avoid misunderstandings. it’s never stopped any of them but minho isn’t sure he’ll ever be able to explain anything to that one trainee who happened to see minho try to bite chanyeol’s arm. the attempt had been glorious and he nearly face-planted but the look on the guy’s face... just priceless, unforgettable, surprisingly more embarrassed than either minho or chanyeol. 

admittedly, it took longer than it should’ve for minho to realize that maybe the guy thought minho was trying to do something else and instead of pondering the question, he’s moved onto this: sliding yet again into the seat beside chanyeol with too much force but tossing his arm around the gentle giant so he doesn’t slip away. no chance of escape, much better than the ongoing joke of chanyeol falling for him. as much as he appreciates it, it’s not getting any fresher. “if only they let us pair up for this. wait... do they? but imagine, it’s winter time. the perfect time for some couple item ads. isn’t it? i keep getting those online. you?” 

#rkpcy #.cf bf #.crowntheclown