#1) switching from multiple coworkers at the daycare to just me at the daycare to just me nannying

[pinkfey]

i have a theory about why i’m so burnt out !!

#so i’ve been doing this combination preschool teaching/childcare thing for almost five years now #i’ve worked with kids of all ages #the youngest being two months #and have watched so many kids grow #and it’s been so rewarding #but i am so so so exhausted #and i think this is for two reasons #1) switching from multiple coworkers at the daycare to just me at the daycare to just me nannying #it ramped up a lot of pressure caring for so many children almost entirely on my own in 2020/2021 #my boss barely did anything except cook meals. i was doing the hands on work and the teaching and the monitoring. #i really suffered without my coworkers to rely on #then going from that education/childcare environment to an in-home nannying position #where my relationship with the parents is much more personal.. ough. i had to mask so much more (mask in the autistic sense) and it was like #i was being watched 24/7. so that’s the first reason!! #the second reason is 2) if i were a mother my child would be about kindergarten age #like thinking about the experience i have with all these children.. if the years i spent caring for them were surmounted i’d have a #school aged child and would be so spent and that kid would go to kindergarten and i’d have a few hours to relax just a bit #does that make sense?? the childcare i’ve done can’t be compared to motherhood of course but the time i’ve spent with these kids #honing their skills. playing with them. changing diapers. crafting projects. scheduling. sending them to kindergarten….. it’s A Lot #for A Lot of kids #doesn’t it make logical sense i’d be so worn out doing all those things for this long?? #i spent more time with lots of these kids than their parents considering their bedtimes #like i had between eight and ten hour work days #idk the more i think about it the more it just seems natural i’d be burnt out !! #especially because they aren’t my children. i loved them all dearly as a childcare provider but don’t have the love a parent has #*can have (sorry). ​which can spur them to do just about anything for them. u know??? #idk !! i’m excited to get out of early childhood development and childcare but also sad because it’s the only thing i know how to do hdbdjdn #anyways.txt